Let’s Go Crazy

Sometimes the world just doesn’t make sense. I think it’s pretty clear that I’m not the picture of perfect mental health. I’m not sure there even is such a thing to be honest. Hell, mental health has been called all sorts of names throughout history.  Even the names of disorders change….what once was called manic depressive is not called bi-polar. Why? Why did they change the name? Manic depressive was spot on. I think everyone and anyone can catch that disorder on the right day or wrong day as the case might very well be.
Seriously, think about it for a minute.  You are having a great day. You slept great, you woke up right before your alarm went off. The weather is your favorite kind of day. Everything is going well. Catching all the green lights in traffic. Errands go great, you even saved some money unexpectedly. You come home, dinner is great….you slip into your favorite PJs…you’re set. You’re happy as you can be….then it happens. You get a tragic phone call. Something awful has happened to someone you love and there’s absolutely nothing you can do about it. You’re alone with this awful news. That’s going to be a helluva a mood swing, don’t you think?  Say the reverse happens. Whole day has been shit. Slept like shit, overslept, bad hair day, pouring down rain, you get stuck in traffic…you get home, burn dinner…then unexpectedly your best friend calls. She’s coming over and she’s bringing pizza. Your whole day just got better in an instant. Mood swing. *shrugs* Must be bi-polar.
Ever just felt so damn lazy, you just didn’t even want to get out of bed? Ever just want to stay in bed all weekend, veg out with the remote and some junk food? Ever just do it, cuz you want to? Well, you must be depressed, you can’t even drag your ass out of bed. I’m in no way minimizing any diagnosis. I’m more than fully aware that there are varying degrees of each legitimate disorder. I’m not even suggesting to know what is and isn’t legitimate….I’m not a psych-anything….well, maybe psycho, but that’s about where my expertise ends. I’m sure not yelling at Matt Lauder about how mental health is a hoax, while clearly proving that it is very real.
I’m just saying, that the world doesn’t always make sense. So, if you’re a little crazy…so what? Be crazy. Be you. Love drama? Do it up. Hate drama? Stay away from it. Wanna dance? Crank up the music and dance. Who cares? We all have to get through this thing called life one way or another…so if you’re not crazy….why not? C’mon, let’s all go crazy.

Are we gonna let the elevator
Bring us down, oh, no let’s go
Let’s go crazy, let’s get nuts
Look for the purple banana
‘Til they put us in the truck, let’s go
All excited but we don’t know why
Maybe it’s ’cause we’re all gonna die
And when we do, what’s it all for
Better live now before the grim reaper
Come knocking on your door

hair: tram H0210 hair
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: LOTUS. Louise Skin Applier 04 (*new* @ SKIN FAIR)
tattoo: [ATI] Simon.(*new* @ Elite)
EF: Springleaf Earrings (*new* @ FaMESHed)
EF: Springleaf Necklace (*new* @ FaMESHed)
Narcisse– Nelly Lace up Dress (*new* @ Kinky)

pose: [ Focus Poses ] Naughty Chair 2
[Bad Unicorn] 02 Hype-Beast Backdrop

LOTUS. Louise Skin (*new* @ SKIN FAIR)
:::insanya::: JennaShorts – Solid (*new* @ Whore Couture)
pose by an lar


Crooked World

Crooked World
written by Sadystika Sabretooth

It’s a crooked world,
full of broken people,
plenty of hungry hyenas
on the prowl
just waiting
to snatch up the scraps.

They will use your broken pieces
to create something beautiful
and then sell it back to you.

The lies and all the poison…
polluting every cell,
every fiber,
and stitch of humanity….
until there’s nothing left.

The careless walk among us
dressed as saviors
offering shoulders
made of sponges,
soaking up every ounce
of emotional ammo
we shed in our tears.
They load their invisible guns
and declare their silent war.

With each shot,
they push us
further and further away until
we’re backed into corners.
The view from there is amazing,
because now we see the truth…
all of it…
even the parts you can’t see
the lies as they pour from your mouth
and now we laugh
with our friends
as we whisper behind your back.

You’ve put on your little act
for so long
that even when it blows up
in your face
you’re so oblivious
you think you’re untouchable.

You’re not.

It’s a set up
we’re waiting
to watch you fall.

You will fall.
You thought we’d save you?
we’ll raise our glasses
as you stumble backwards
over the bodies in your wake
and finally fall into your own grave.

shaky ground
It’s getting harder to know if I’m sane
My issues are leaking outside of my veins
Somebody save me or end me, I haven’t yet made up my mind

hair: Magika – Good Vibes *NEW*
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: [theSkinnery]  Iris (Catwa Applier) toffee (*new* @ C88)
MINIMAL – Charmed Necklace (*new* @ FaMESHed)
_CandyDoll_ Mya Dress (*new* @ Whore Couture)
_CandyDoll_Ava Socks Black
{Livalle} Payne – Combat Boots (*new* @ FaMESHed)

pose: pose: GingerFish Poses – Bad at Love

[Bad Unicorn] Block Views Backdrop *NEW*

Still Learning

“I am still learning.” ~ Michelangelo

I borrowed this quote from a friend of mine’s profile. It is so profound in its simplicity and then when I realized who is credited for saying it, I was instantly humbled. When such a great artist can maintain his humility, I find it ironic when people boast of their greatness. I believe that if we ever stop learning, we stop living. I try to learn at least one new thing a day, even if its just some random useless piece of trivia. I want each day to present me with new information.

cherry tree

hair: .Olive. the Emma Hair (*new* @ Uber)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: violetta. -catwa skin applier -Milanna -#202 (*new* @ SkinFair)
tattoo: Happiness – Black Tattoo [CAROL G]  (*new* @ SkinFair)
_CandyDoll_ Alexa Dress -(*new* @ Whore Couture)
_CandyDoll_ Alexa Fishnet -(*new* @ Whore Couture)

pose: FOXCITY. Breezy Bento Pose Set (*new* @ ON9)
FOXCITY. Photo Booth – Cherry Blossom (*new* @ ON9)

wearing below:  .::Dead Dollz::. Gwen Lingerie Set – Pink
violetta. -catwa skin applier -Milanna -#202 (*new* @ SkinFair)
violetta. -catwa skin applier -Milanna -#202_001




There’s a poem by Maya Angelou, Caged Bird. Its one of those poems that sat on my chest like a 20lb cat. It weighed so heavily on my heart that is almost felt as though I were being crushed. I love the contrast of the free bird versus the caged bird. The free bird hasn’t the worries or restrictions of the caged bird. Yet, the caged bird chooses to sing anyway. The caged bird sings of hope, dreams, and fantasies. It is those songs that keeps the caged bird moving forward in its limited space. While the free bird might sing, I imagine the songs are hollow and not nearly as beautiful as the “fearful trill.”
Obviously the poem is not literally about birds. Its symbolism in its purest form really. Yet, it still makes me think. It takes my mind in so many directions. Not just the original meaning, but about each of us as individuals. How often do we cage ourselves? And for what reason? I spend more than 50% of my day in my bedroom, as my computer is in here, my smart tv, my bed…all my favorite comforts of home. Why? Though I sit in front of a window, there is nothing keeping me locked in here. So, why don’t I go outside more? Granted, I don’t like the people around here too much, but no one is forcing me to speak to anyone when I leave my house. I’ve even been to jail and I remember how badly I craved the fresh air, a natural breeze. How I longed to hear the rustling of leaves and the songs of birds….even the laughter of those little demon spawns people call children. *grins*
I’ve gotten too comfortable in my little cage of comforts. I’ve become complacent and in most 12 step programs there’s a common saying about complacency being a red light indicator. In other words, when we become too comfortable…too complacent in our lives, we are setting ourselves up for bad decision making and that’s never been more true in my life. I’ve made some very poor decisions in the last few months. Acting out (mostly in SL) in ways that I never have before and its time for me to stop. I’ve already reduced my blogging load by focusing more on fashion and less on home decor. Yet, I still find myself sitting at this desk focused far more on my blog than on my real life.
I am not a religious person by a long shot, but Easter is about Christ being reborn, right? Well, I think I’ll borrow a page from the Bible and use Easter as a form of rebirth of my own. I’m going to cut back a bit more on the blog and I’m going to be leaving my house for five days on Easter weekend. I’m going to see my darling Nikole. This will be the second time we’ve met in real life, but it’ll be my first time visiting her at her house. I’m super excited about the trip and I’m about to embrace some really positive changes in my life. I will no longer be caged by my own hands.


hair: #12 {Limerence} Sammy hair-Blonds (*new* @ Imaginarium)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: [theSkinnery]  Iris (Catwa Applier) toffee (*new* @ C88)
tattoo: [ATI] Mai.. (*new* @ TWE12VE)
LYBRA  . SADYSTIKA (*new* @ Whore Couture)
_CandyDoll_ Gina Heels (*new* @ FaMESHed)

pose:  FOXCITY. Wild & Free Bento Pose Set

FOXCITY. K-POP Star 2 – Ringa Linga (Rez) (3) RARE (*new* @ Arcade)
Fapple– The little slave bed
Fapple– BDSM Tool Box


Squeal Worthy

I don’t think guys do this, but I can’t be sure. I am pretty sure they wouldn’t admit it. However, almost all girls I’ve ever known has done this. Oh, I’m sorry, what is THIS? Well, its all about that message we received or perceived. However, I have been known to throw myself across a bed and flail my legs about as I squeal over whatever fortune has befallen me. Whether I was squealing about having completed my final exams with flying colors or the guy I’ve liked forever is finally looking my way. Oh it could be as simple a new pair of boots that I’ve wanted for a very long time and I don’t want to take them off. I just want to swoon over them for a while.
Either way, I’ve had a few rather rough days lately, nothing I really want to talk about. However, I’m hoping we all get some squeal worthy moments as we approach the weekend. I think we all deserve it, don’t you?

the message

hair:  [RA] Mikaela Hair  (*new* @ FaMESHed)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
SU!– Nude Lip Gloss Collection
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: [theSkinnery]  Saska (Catwa Applier) honey
::SG:: Sophia stileto BENTO MESH NAILS (*new* @ SKIN FAIR)
[Cynful] Micaela Dress (*new* @ FaMESHed)
_CandyDoll_ Mya Boots – (*new* @ Whore Couture)

pose: FOXCITY. Hella Cute Bento Pose Set (head position edited w/AnyPose)

BUENO -Minimal Living Gacha (*new* @ Arcade)
-BUENO- Minimal Living Apts Spring- RARE
-BUENO-Dreaming Bed- RARE
-BUENO-Journals Clutter-Pinky
-BUENO-Simple Chair-Floral
-BUENO-Happy Hour Neon -Pink
-BUENO-Cactus- White (comes soft linked to BUENO-Lamp-Pink)
-BUENO-Type Pad-Pink
-BUENO-Wall Organizer – Pink
-BUENO-Pencil Holder- Pink (comes soft linked to BUENO-Empty Cup-Dreams)
-BUENO-Bunny Speaker-Pink
-BUENO-Simple Chair-Marble

BUENO– Foxy Pal Sir Fox RARE (*new* @ Arcade)
BUENO- Foxy Pal Ballerina RARE (*new* @ Arcade)

[Bad Unicorn] Not So Welcome Mat (12 Texture Options)
[Bad Unicorn] ‘Pizza or Boobs?’ Heart Pizza

dust bunny . spotted begonia
:CP: Herman Planter White


Hey There, Wanna Talk About Skin Fair?

So, I’m blogging for the Skin Fair put on by Pale Girl Productions. I have to admit, I’m a bit nervous, because as a rule I’ve not really blogged skins before. I will list the skin that I’m wearing, but aside from that….its not something I’ve really done. PGP specifically asked that we blog the skins a certain way and this, too, is something I don’t usually do. So this is my first attempt. I will say this, it doesn’t seem to matter which body or head you have, even if you’re still fully system (please update yourself!), there’s something for everyone at the Skin Fair….cosmetics, eyelashes, eyes, skins, shapes, heads, and even tattoos!

I wore my own shape, as I’m very particular about my shape and rarely ever buy them. My current shape was a compilation of ideas between my friend Sora and I. I’ve told her she should make shapes, but I’m not sure she really has the time. So, scroll on down and have a looksie at all the goodies I have to show you.♥

Hi There, Wanna Talk About the Skin Fair

wearing above:
hair:  Magika – Marble Machine
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: Aurealis. Deidra skin (*new* @ SKIN FAIR)
::SG:: Sophia stileto BENTO MESH NAILS (*new* @ SKIN FAIR)
[POUT!] Pretty Lashes – CATWA applier (*new* @ SKIN FAIR)
UC_April_Harness_and_vest (*new* @ Whore Couture)

all poses by Foxcity (none were edited, I just forgot which ones I used, sorry)

wearing below:
hair in face pics: .Entwined. Kira
hair in body pics: tram H0219 hair  (*new* @ Uber)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: Aurealis. Deidra skin (*new* @ SKIN FAIR)
Aurealis Catwa
Aurealis Body


Watching Me

There’s something about knowing you’re being watched, but they don’t know you know. Perhaps it’s just me, I mean, I know can’t be the only that feels that way or the song below wouldn’t have become so damn popular. Once upon I couldn’t stand the idea of anyone watching me…..and to be perfectly honest, I’m still not a fan of that in RL. However, believe it or not, I used to get embarrassed in SL.
Then along came a very handsome and interesting neighbor. I discovered his crosshairs on me and realized I didn’t have the privacy set on my land. Instead of setting it, I gave him a show. *laughs* Funny thing is, we’ve been close friends ever since, but we’ve yet to mess around. I say, yet, cuz stranger things have happened.

for you
So much left unspoken
Between the two of us
It’s so much more exciting
To look when you can touch
You could say I am different
And maybe I’m a freak
But I know how to twist ya
To bring you to your knees

Cruel is wearing:
body: [SIGNATURE] Geralt – Mesh Body  *NEW*
tattoo: [ATI] Nightmare…
5.::GB:: Color denib pants / Black

Sady is wearing:
hair:  [RA] Katia Hair (*new* @ WhoreCouture)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: [theSkinnery]  Saska (Catwa Applier) honey
LYBRA . MISA  (*new* @ FaMESHed)
{Nena} Pantyhose v1

pose created with AnyPose
FOXCITY. K-POP Star 2. (2) So Crazy (Common) (*new* @ Arcade)


Life is Messy Enough

Life is Messy Enough

Our real lives offer enough challenges. The fact that we can escape some of those challenges for even a few minutes or hours in SL, gives us an advantage that a lot of people don’t get to experience.  In Second Life, we can escape our health problems and physical limitations. We can avoid household chores and even people. So, why do so many come into SL and create a mess in a virtual world? Why do so many come here to sling mud, spread rumors, and toss about deep seeded judgmental rhetoric? Its simply pathetic.
I can only imagine that these people are so miserable in their real lives that they’ve somehow become convinced that by creating havoc here, somehow makes their real lives seem better. That somehow the fact that they’ve created such a mess in a virtual world that they somehow have developed power. Just theories, honestly, I cannot know. What I do know is that if you don’t want unnecessary drama and general messes in you SL, you definitely have power there. Cut out the toxic people, the toxic thoughts, and above all, keep your nose out of other people’s business. If they are not hurting YOU, then why do you care so much what your ex boyfriend, ex girlfriend or ex bestie is doing now? It seems to me, you need to work on healing and letting go, rather than deflecting and holding onto resentments that do more harm to your spirit than anyone else’s.


Why bother wasting precious energy on hate? No one is forcing you to be in SL, no one is forcing any of us to be here. No one is forcing romantic relationships or uncomfortable lifestyles on anyone. With options like block, mute, teleport, and signing out, there’s simply no excuse to come to SL and be miserable. I guess I’m a little tired of hearing everyone gripe about drama and politics and what they hate about SL. I’m more interested in the things I love, the things that I enjoy, the amazing friends I’ve made from every corner of the globe. Yes, I suppose I’m bitching a little bit about the miserable people, but I’ve brought my piece of mind to my blog and no one is being forced to read it. Hell, at least one person I know only looks at the picture, clicks like and moves on. I’m not sure he’s ever read a blog post in his life. *winks at Kess, cuz she knows him even better than I*


So, now that I’ve shared a piece of my mind (no, I really can’t afford it, give it back), let me share with you some really nice goodies that are being delivered across the grid by some of SL’s top creators and designers. Have a look at the details below for the whats and wheres. I’m off to go do more things I love and I hope you will do the same. Afterall, shopping is one of my favorite SL hobbies…totally a hobby, right?

hair: Lamb. Easy Easy (*new* @ Arcade)
head: CATWA HEAD Catya
eyes: CATWA Mesh Eyes w/-SU!– [CATWA & OMEGA HUD] Xenira Eyes ALL COLORS
eyeshadowIzzie’s – Catwa – Applier Dark Metallic Eyeshadow Hud
lipstick: ::SG:: Gelly Lips for CATWA Heads ONLY!
bodyMaitreya Mesh Body – Lara

Astralia – Galaxy! (Nails) #1 RARE (*new* @ Arcade)
Phedora ~ Eva Bodysuit pack (*new* @ Whore Couture)

poses: KlubWerk Poses
BUENO-Quiet Skybox- RARE (*new* @ Arcade)
BUENO-Industry Bed- RARE (*new* @ Arcade)
BUENO-Big Sur Chair (*new* @ Arcade)
BUENO- Headphones Pop Deco (*new* @ Arcade)
BUENO-Skull Pop Deco (*new* @ Arcade)
BUENO-Photo Printer-Pop (*new* @ Arcade)
BUENO-Steel Stool Pop 1 (*new* @ Arcade)
BUENO- Laptop Blessed (*new* @ Arcade)
uK – Steampunk Vase V1 Dark (*new* @ We<3 Role-Play)


Bad Moon Rising

“I see a bad moon a-rising
I see trouble on the way
I see earthquakes and lightnin’
I see bad times today”
Creedence Clearwater Revival Bad Moon Rising


Its no secret that I’m from the South and down here we’ve got a lot of superstitions. I’m not a superstitious person, but when you wake up from a nightmare about dead cats, big snakes, and really bad coffee…well, that first cup of coffee better be a good one. When its not…lets just say I’m hearing the whisperings of my  long dead grandmother in my ear as I try to salvage this coffee. Give the song a listen…let’s just say I’m a bit leery about this day already.
What I’m not leery about is the abundance of amazing items being created across the grid. If you can’t find something to wear, you aren’t looking hard enough, and let’s be honest, in SL? Yeah, you can walk around showing off your pretty lingerie like a Victoria Secrets model at promotional party. So, get your shop on…I, for one, will be putting on my fierce facade as I prepare for this ominous day!

head: CATWA HEAD Catya
eyes: CATWA Mesh Eyes w/-SU!– [CATWA & OMEGA HUD] Xenira Eyes ALL COLORS
lipstick: -SU!- The Matte Lip Poison //Catwa BENTO//
bodyMaitreya Mesh Body – Lara
tattoo.::Nanika::. Spring is coming Black

*COCO*_WrapChoker(2)_Maitreya (*new* @ Uber)
**RE** Dark Queen Bracelets

[Cynful] Coax Lingerie (*new & exclusive* @ Whore Couture)
Phedora ~ Coax boots  (*new* @ Whore Couture)

poses: Bauhaus Movement
MINIMAL – Illusion Background *1* (*new* @ Uber)
BUENO Suitcase Loveseat – Moonrise (*new* @ Arcade)



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