Justify My Love

That’s right, I’m going with one of the sexiest songs of all time. Of course, I’m providing the lyrics and a YouTube link.

Madonna Justify My Love

I want to kiss you in Paris
I want to hold your hand in Rome
I want to run naked in a rainstorm
Make love in a train cross-country
You put this in me
So now what, so now what?

Wanting, needing, waiting
For you to justify my love (my love)
Hoping, praying
For you to justify my love

I want to know you
Not like that
I don’t want to be your mother
I don’t want to be your sister either
I just want to be your lover
I want to be your baby
Kiss me, that’s right, kiss me

Wanting, needing, waiting
For you to justify my love
Yearning, burning
For you to justify my love

What are you gonna do?
What are you gonna do?
Talk to me, tell me your dreams
Am I in them?
Tell me your fears
Are you scared?
Tell me your stories
I’m not afraid of who you are
We can fly

Poor is the man
Whose pleasures depend
On the permission of another
Love me, that’s right, love me
I want to be your baby

Wanting, needing, waiting
For you to justify my love
I’m open and ready
For you to justify my love
To justify my love
Wanting, to justify
Waiting, to justify my love
Praying, to justify
To justify my love
To justify my love
I’m open, to justify my love
My love

come to bed

wearing:
hair*ARGRACE* RUI
headCATWA HEAD Kathy
eyeshadow-SU!- Smokey Eyeshadow
lipstick::SG:: Gelly Lips for CATWA Heads ONLY!
skinGlam Affair – BETH – Catwa Mesh Head Applier – America (*new* @ Epiphany)
bodyMaitreya Mesh Body – Lara
tattoo.Identity. Body Shop – Reborn Stronger

-SU!- Bento Piercing Set 03 (*new* @ Somber)
UC_Rose (*new* @ FaMESHed)
Phedora ~Sincerity (*new* @ Kustom9)

pose by Foxcity
bed by Artisan Fantasy

Oopsie!

She had drank almost the entire bottle of wine, the last of the bottle had spilled on the floor when she went to set the bottle down and it fell over. Nervously, she stared at the puddle as she held onto her last glass. She was going to be in trouble for sure this time. Too tipsy to clean it up, she just stared at it as her mind wandered about what he would do when he got home and found her tipsy on wine again. Would he simply make her clean it up and take advantage of her tipsy state to play? Or would she end up in the corner AGAIN? She was hoping that the version of her new United Colors outfit would sway him to focus more on her and less on the wine. Afterall, what man could resist boobs, right?

Oops!

wearing:
hair
:  .Entwined. Emilia (*new* Bound Box July)
headCATWA HEAD Kathy
lipstickitGirls – MISTRESS Lips for Catwa heads (*new* Bound Box July)
bodyMaitreya Mesh Body – Lara
outfit: UC_Tribal_bodysuit_ (*new* @ Mesh Body Addicts)
shoes: Essenz – Memphis (*new* Bound Box July)

pose: oOo Buzz Pose Stand (*new* Bound Box July)

scene:
Quasi – Risque Couch (*new* @ Project Se7en)
Quasi – Risque Screen (*new* @ Project Se7en)

I am Fragile

Its another “lyrics say it better than me” post. I suppose some might call it lazy, but music lovers will surely appreciate that sometimes a song written by someone else can often speak from your own heart. Well, its that kind of day for me.

Fragile by Kerli

You think you know me
And everything that you consider me
You think you know my name
You think you know me
And everything you get a chance to see
You think you know my face
You think you know my face

You think you see me
And everything that you consider me
You think I’m more than you
You think you see me
You like the way I’m strong and stand by you
But I am fragile too
I am fragile too

Yeah I will be fine
As the time goes by
It may hurt at nights
But I will be fine
Yeah I will be fine

They think they know me
And everything that they consider me
They think I never cry
They are thinking
While they’re making up their twisted lies
She won’t mind, she’s nice
She is cold as ice

You think you see me
and everything that you consider me
You think I’m more than you
You think you see me
You like the way I’m strong and stand by you
But I am fragile too
I am fragile too

I am fragile too
I am fragile too
Just like you

the bridge

wearing:
hair
pr!tty – Vicious Love (*new* @ Crystal Heart)
headCATWA HEAD Kathy
skin: Glam Affair – Kibi – Catwa Mesh Head Applier – America (*new* @ Crystal Heart)
bodyMaitreya Mesh Body – Lara
Pretty Mess – Veronica (*new* @ Uber)
UC_Cargo_shorts (*new* @ Uber)
Phedora ~ Olwen sneakers (*new* @ Uber)

location: Hazardous

Family Ties

“The bond that links your true family is not one of blood, but of respect and joy in each other’s life.” ~Richard Bach
I haven’t started a blog with a quote that wasn’t a song lyric in a while, but this topic has been on my mind for some time now. Father’s Day occurred only two days ago and as I scrolled through Facebook I saw message after message about people’s fathers. Some were well wishes, some shared memories of fathers past, and then there were people like me that avoided the subject altogether. I can’t know why others avoided the subject, but I know why I did. I even had to tell Skype (yes, outloud) to stfu. Skype had a message that said, “Fathers are people, too!” My response was, “Not all of them! Some of them are monsters!” I don’t think its a secret that I’m another girl on the grid with daddy issues. Given how common abusive fathers seem to be, we’re merely statistics.
However, I’m not going to waste this post or your time bitching about my father. Instead, I want to embrace the blessing of family bonding with people I’ve never even met face to face. Like many other people in Second Life, I am part of a family. I don’t always feel like part of the family, as most of them really don’t talk to me much and to be fair, its not like I go out of my way to hunt them down and pursue conversations either. Yet, I do feel like a few of them would truly be there if I needed them.
I think the truest “family” I have on the grid would probably be the cunts. Now, hold on, don’t get your britches twisted, we call ourselves the Cunt Cult and we’re a group of besties. At the core there’s four of us, there’s a fifth one, but she’s off living the real life. (She fell in love! SQUEEEE!) Kess, Tracy, Grace, and I have built a bond unlike that I’ve ever known before. We’re not a clique. We don’t go around doing the whole mean girls thing, dressing alike, following a leader. Although, if we did, Kess would be it…she’s bossy like that. *laughs* My point is…while some of us don’t have traditional families in real life or even partake in family groups on the grid, we have each other. We have that bond between friends that is as strong, if not stronger, than any family ties I’ve ever known. For that, I am grateful.
I have so many circles of wonderful friends inworld that I am so grateful for and I love them each dearly. Though we may not speak every day and some not even every week, we are there for one another when it counts. I’m also grateful for my fur babies in real life, because they are just as much a part of my family as my mother or my husband. Even though they can’t make me coffee in the morning.
So, whatever kind of family ties you have, hold them close, hold them dear to you heart, and don’t wait for some “holiday” to celebrate them. Tell them today that you love them, because none of us are guaranteed a tomorrow.

family

wearing: 
hair
:  Lamb. Home (June Luxe Box)
headCATWA HEAD Kathy
skin: Glam Affair – Polly – Catwa Mesh Head Applier – Jamaica (*new* @ Arcade)
bodyMaitreya Mesh Body – Lara
UC_Jane_Fringe_mini_dress_slate (*new* @ Kustom9)
#EMPIRE – Wandflower (June VIP Group Gift)

pose by Double Take
location: The Mill 

The Ugliest Thing I Could Find

So, the tie dye pattern on this Migle dress from United Colors reminded me of one of my favorite shirts when I was about 18. There’s actually a funny story about that shirt. My parents got divorced when I was 15, for the first year my mom cried almost every night. After that she went a little wild. She was going on trips quite regularly, but being the awesome mom that she was, she would always bring me a present. Being the mom with awful taste meant I wasn’t going to like it if it was clothing. Then lo and behold she returned from a trip with the most awesome looking black and white tie dyed shirt I had ever seen. It wasn’t even a tee shirt, it was like a wicked blouse! I was so shocked and happy. As I’m standing there hugging the shirt, then holding it up, then ripping off my current shirt to try it on, my mom is standing there laughing so hard she has tears running down her face. Naturally, I had to know what was so damn funny, right?
She wiped the tears from her face and asked if I really liked the shirt. I nodded profusely, “Yes! I love it, Momma! Thank you. I can’t believe you picked this out, though.”
She laughed again for a minute then said, “Well, you never like anything I pick out, so I just looked around the shop for the ugliest thing I could find. You’re welcome.”
Damn woman. We still have opposing taste in most things, but she’s gotten a lot better at picking out gifts over the years. *laughs* Even if she thinks they’re ugly.

shade

 

wearing: 
hair
Tableau Vivant \\ Caprice hair (*new* @ SL14)
headCATWA HEAD Kathy
bodyMaitreya Mesh Body – Lara
tattoo: .::Nanika::. Scarlet tattoo Black

UC_Migle_dress (*new* @ SouledOut)
fri. – Dora Sandals (*new* @ Uber)

pose by an lar [poses] The Betty Series (*new* @ Vintage Fair)

location…well, I can’t tell you that, it was at a friend’s beach…sorry, not sorry

When Did It Happen?

Record stores, newspapers, phone booths…they all seem rather obsolete these days. Technology has hurled us so far beyond these things, that all three are in the palm of hands.
Yes, from time to time you’ll stumble across a used record store and the random DJ that actually spins vinyl, or even the purest that insists nothing will ever sound better. However, on average most of us are listening to MP3s. I don’t even own a CD player anymore with the exception of the one in my eleven year old car that I still love as much as the day I got it. However, my RL husband (eventually ex) got a new car last year and it came with a USB port for MPs rather than a CD player. Seems CD players are becoming antiquated, too.
My father started a hobby magazine for radio control airplanes in the 80s. It did quite well, I was even fortunate enough to be assistant editor on a few issues. However, as the internet grew, his magazine suffered. Bloggers and websites quickly replaced subscriptions to his hobby magazine. Eventually, he sold his magazine to someone much younger that took it straight to the internet. That was the end of his magazine. Similarly, our local newspaper was forced to close their doors and re-route the issues through another city’s newspaper office. We only get two issues on the local stands now….Wednesday and Sunday. Bigger publications may still be in circulation, but even they have learned to incorporate the internet and offer a new type of subscription service there. Even books have moved to devices, they save us space and such, right? I tried those electronic readers, but I can’t do it. I need to feel of the paper in my hands, the smell of the ink as I crack it open to read another chapter.
Phones…whoa…land lines and phone booths are fading just as fast. I can’t remember the last time I saw a working phone booth. We let go of our land line years ago. Why pay for another phone line when each person in the house has their own personal cell phone?
I could go on and on about this subject as I’m sure anyone over 40 can. I’m just going to offer you a link to a song that really sums it up far better than I ever could. He’s an artist I was introduced to a little over a year ago and I quickly became a huge fan. His name is Watsky and the song is Tiny Glowing Screens Part 1. I encourage you to check him out for more than just this song while I try to wrap my head around it all.

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wearing:
hair[monso] My Hair – Twobi (*new* @ Kustom9)
head: CATWA HEAD Kathy
bodyMaitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skinGlam Affair – Polly – Catwa Mesh Head Applier – Jamaica (*new* @ Kustom9)
lipstick: ::SG:: GellyLips Catwa and Classi SL Heads
tattooISUKA Sombra (ULTRA Anniversary gift)

[ kunst ] – Vintage Cigarette Holder
**RE** Dark Queen Bracelets
**RE** Dark Queen Rings – Bento 2.0
Kibitz — Bonnie Collar — Black (*new* @ Kustom9)
UC_Sisi_short_dress_red_Maitreya_Slink_Belleza (*new* @ Kustom9)

pose by Bauhaus Movement
location: Whole Wheat

Toxic

As I live my life, I’ve encountered a lot of toxic people, some are more so than others. Every once in a while, I come across one that is so toxic they become a cancer. It is then that I must listen to my gut and my closest friends…to go under the figurative knife and cut out that cancer. Removing it completely from my life, regardless of how much it hurts at the moment or how hard the process may be, it is most definitely necessary.

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Much like cancer, sometimes those toxic people come back, and I have to fight those demons…work that process…borrow strength from friends and fight with all I have to stay strong. I cannot let myself be sucked back into that manipulative toxic environment. To lose myself into some bottomless pit of darkness, because if I do not cut those poisonous people from my life as quickly as possible…I risk everything. This is something I have to do again and again. Its not something I enjoy. It makes me feel horrible, because my heart goes out to the person behind the toxicity and deep down I don’t want to let go. I don’t want to believe that I have to cut them out of my life to stay healthy. Sadly, I have to face that truth. I have to break promises and THAT tears at my soul.

toxic

Thank Godde (play on words, some of you will catch that, some of you won’t) for retail therapy! I managed to shimmy my way into ULTRA during early access, grabbed up some amazing goodies and off I went to get my pictures. There are always a lot of incredible events going on, but ULTRA is a really, really good one. Not too big, not too small, but always on point with quality designers.
Check out these Icarus ears from E.A. Studio. How freaking cool are they? And the HUD? You can change the colors of the feathers, the metals, and there are options for the gauged part as well…you’ll have to go to Tres Chic for these, cuz they’re an exclusive!
And Cosmopolitan…you gotta be quick, but Codex is on the scene with the Betlam Necklace and it is gorgeous.
There’s nothing like some good old fashioned retail therapy to make me feel whole again. So, happy shopping to all of you and don’t you let those toxic people hold you back!♥

wearing:
hair: no.match_ ~ NO_OTHER  (*new* @ ULTRA)
head: CATWA HEAD Catya
skin: [theSkinnery] Opal (Catwa Applier) honey
eyeshadow: Veechi – Luster Glam Shadow [Catwa]
lipstickPink Acid For Catwa Overly Transparent Gloss Pepper
ears: .:E.A.Studio Ears Icarus (*new EXCLUSIVE* @ Tres Chic)
bodyMaitreya Mesh Body – Lara

.:E.A.Studio:.Box Piercing Bare Code
[CX] Bento Piercing Labret Ring ( Catwa ) (*new* @ Seasons Story)
[CX] Bento Piercing Snakebites ( Catwa ) (*new* @ Seasons Story)
CODEX_NECKLACE BETLAM BLACK (*new* @ Cosmopolitan)
.aisling. Eunice – Bracelets Black 1

UC_Christine_dress_black_Maitreya_Slink_Belleza (*new* @ ULTRA)
REIGN.– Scillia Heels

an lar [poses] The Alisha Series (*new* @ ULTRA)
photos taken at Whole Wheat