Strange

“Hey, anyone can get love, anyone can get laid
You know you’re home when you find the ones who
Stay brave enough not to tame, they let you burst into flames
Stoke the coals and then watch you blow, yeah
They’re the ones make you trust in the universe
When you’re lost and you’re left and it’s getting worse
They’re the ones who you know will get you by
We are all strange
And it ain’t never, never, ever gonna change
We are all strange
And it ain’t never, ever, never gonna change”

noir

wearing:
hair:  ::C’est la vie !:: Kiki Hair   (*new* @ Salon 52)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skin: [Glam Affair] Dorothy Applier [ Catwa ] 001 ( 20 )

LYBRA . AMBER (*new* @ Uber)
UC_Pearl_wedding_heels (*new* @ FaMESHed)

pose by DelMay

 

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Just sit next to me

“Don’t say nothing
Just sit next to me
Don’t say nothing, shh
Just be, just be, just be”
~ Paloma Faith – Just Be

take time to relax

Sady is wearing:
hair: Lamb. Wildflower (*new* @ Uber)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: –Belleza– Freya
skin: [theSkinnery] Paola

Blueberry – Juju – Sweater
VINYL – Fallout Open Fly Jeans (*new* @ Uber)

pose: CORPUS – Pyaar (*new* @ TLC)

Cruel is wearing: Legal Insanity – Fitz jeans outfit

Setting Goals!

I had just been telling a friend of mine, “I’ve been tip toeing through broken glass for so goddamn long that I’ve forgotten what it feels like to wear my combat boots and fight back.” He shrugged it off like some crazy shit that only a high chick would say, but I think he just didn’t get it. Oddly enough, I was listening to Digital Daggers and one of my favorite songs of their started playing. While I’m not fond of the redundant name of the song, the lyrics connect to me in ways the author couldn’t have possibly imagined, and the melody is one of those hauntingly cool songs that only come along every so often. It all just got me thinking and looking back, which I do a lot.
I had gotten so tired of fighting that I just threw my hands up and surrendered. I tiptoed around certain friends, avoided some altogether…simply because I didn’t want to upset them and for whatever reason, my presence upsets them. There are people that hate me for reasons I have yet to understand and those people practically monitor my every move, another thing I have yet to understand. I didn’t have any fight in me. I was too emotionally tired to deal with SL drama, which is all it is…stuff that wouldn’t happen in RL, that’s for sure.
I genuinely stopped giving a fuck. Whatever happened…happened. While this attitude was rather liberating and freaking great at first, it got very dark rather quickly. I realized that I had not just lost the ability to give a fuck, but I had also lost hope. I was merely waiting to die. I was impossible to be around, my friends must have been watching from afar…some of them. I know they love me, but I’m sure they were like…nuh huh, she full on craycray, right now! They were right.
Due to so much time alone, I was able to take long horrid looks in the mirror, figuratively and literally. The emptiness in my eyes, no glow in my cheeks, even my lips seem pale. At least I have good make up, maybe I’ll start wearing some of it…not that anyone will see it, unless someone sends me a webcam..lol. I’ve got pink hair dye that I’ve been too chicken to apply..
It’s time to start living again and living for ME! As for all that broken glass? Hmm! Bitches better get out of my way, cuz Momma has a broom, Baby! My existence hurts your feelings? Block me and stop obsessing, stop pretending you like me, stop pretending to my friend…how about you find a new hobby or scape goat this year?
I’m putting my combat boots on, world. Ready or not, I’m not ready to just roll over and die like a little bitch. Enough is enough. I have a lot of changes to make, but there’s nothing like a new year to motivate me to make those changes. Am I making resolutions? No. I’m setting goals. *wink*

river song

wearing:
hair:  TRUTH VIP Joy
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skin: [theSkinnery] Paola

VINYL – Yuletide Crop
Dead Dollz – Mayerling Skirt (*new* @ UBER)

Challenge to Challenge

It’s that time of year again, when my demons come out the play and my brain just doesn’t want to focus all on its own. So, once again, rather than continue to slap lyrics and songs ALL the time…I am presenting my readers with a challenge. All five of you…lol. I have subscribers that look at the pictures, but I don’t think I have very many actual readers. You guys are my favorites and I can say that, cuz the others don’t read..lol. Ok, so…last year, I offered up a Dangerous Proposition and had a few people participate. I’m hoping that this year’s challenge will bring a few more responses. This year, the suggestions I’m looking for are a bit more specific, yet very random at the same time.
So, here goes…I’m looking to be challenged with two completely random things for me to compare or connect in some way. Some examples would be like…an apple and a wrench, a candle and a cellphone, a piece of cake and a paint brush. Sure, I could use these examples, but it would take the fun out of the challenge for me. This should be especially easy for Grace Sixpence, as last year she always gave me two random things to write about anyway. So, no, you can’t use the ones listed above. So, I challenge you to challenge me. If you’re a blogger that writes and would like to play along just add #challengetochallenge to your suggestion and I will send you two random items to write about, as well.

tetra

Sady is wearing:
hair: tram H1116 hair (*new* @ Uber)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skin: [theSkinnery] Paola

Kibitz – MSG necklaces [gold] amore
(Yummy) Curator Rings Set
TETRA – Sabina blouse
[Aleutia] Amelia Pants

not really a pose, candid ao shot

scene:
Onsu ~ “Maple” Skybox
Fancy Decor: Faline Candlestick
Loft & Aria – Roma Mirror
Dahlia – Loire – Flower Arangement – Dusty Rose – 19.

I’m a Mess

I’ve been told that I’m a bit of a downer lately and I know it’s true. I’ve also been told that I need to socialize more, but the downer thing is exactly why I can’t right now. I have to keep busy, keep moving forward until all of this real life crap is so far behind me that I can barely see it, much less cry over it. I’m sorry to to the friends that need me right now. I’m simply not strong enough for both of right now. You deserve better, but please know that I do love you all…I am just a mess right now. I’m doing my best to keep myself pulled together, but the minute I stop moving forward…the very moment I let my demons have so much as one second of time in my head. I’m doomed. So, am I withdrawing and isolating? Yes, a bit, but I am trying not to withdraw too much. I even reached out to a handful of friends to do some collaborations. So, you’ll be seeing those soon. ♥

Holiday Hardships

wearing:
hair:  #Foxy – Luxe Hair (*new* @ N21)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: –Belleza– Freya
skin: [theSkinnery] Paola

[Cynful] Chilli Jersey – Earrings
UC_Winter_cozy_sweater (*new* @ Uber)
[Gos] Hurley Ankle Boots (*new* @ Uber)

pose: FOXCITY. Sits VOL3 Bento Pose Set

scene:
KraftWork Hygge (*new* @ Uber)
-KraftWork Hygge Snowy Cabin
-KraftWorh Hygge Bed
-KraftWork Hygge Rug
-KraftWork Hygge Table Short
-KraftWork Hygge Wall Lamp Left
-KraftWork Hygge Wall Lamp Right

RO – Home for the Holidays – Alaska RARE

 

Find the light

This entire song has been one of those songs that I’ve related closely to from the very first time I heard it. There’s a weird sense of comfort in surrendering myself to the pain accompanied by lyrics. I didn’t list all of the lyrics, just the first punch. This is one of those songs that just…well…give it a listen sometime and if you really hate the melody, maybe just google the lyrics and read them over. *shrugs* Do what you want, I know I do. *forces a smile*
“Yesterday was the tornado warning, today is like the morning after
Your world is torn in half, you wake and let’s wait to start the morning process
Rebuilding and you’re still a work in progress
Today is a whole new chapter, it’s like an enormous ass
The thunderstorm has passed ya
Your weather didn’t poke his eyes out with the thorn bush that you
Used to smell the roses, stopped to inhale can’t even tell your nose is stuffed
So focused on the brightside, then you floor the gas pedal
And hit the corner fast, the more asserted
Never looking back, may hit the curb
But everyday is a new learning curve, as you, steer through life
Sometimes you might not wanna swerve
But you have to to avert a disaster, lucky, no permanent damage
Cause they hurt you so bad, it’s like they murdered your ass
And threw dirt on your casket, but you returned from the ashes
And that hurt that you have, you just converted to gasoline
And while you’re burning the past, standing at inferno and chant
I’m standing in the flames
It’s a beautiful kind of pain
Setting fire to yesterday
Find the light, find the light, find the light”

another day

wearing:
hair:  Lamb. Bliss (*new* @ C88)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skin: [theSkinnery] Paola

(Yummy) Auspicious Necklace (*new* @ Uber)
^^Swallow^^ Princess Bento Rings

Blueberry Aria – Button Up Top
Blueberry – Tinker Set – Long Legwarmers

crate Porch Rocker ~ Yellow (*new* @ The Liaison Collaborative)
crate Porch Rocker ~ Decor (*new* @ The Liaison Collaborative)
***pose used is in the chair***

Skyscraper

“You can take everything I have
You can break everything I am
Like I’m made of glass
Like I’m made of paper
Go on and try to tear me down
I will be rising from the ground
Like a skyscraper, like a skyscraper”
~Kerli – Skyscraper

As humans, we take a lot of punches throughout our lives. Yet, with each passing day, we either grow stronger or weaker. Ultimately, the choice is ours. Mentally and emotionally, I’ve definitely grown stronger. My body? Eh, not so much. I should have taken better care of it when I was younger, but I was invincible and never imagined I’d live past 30. Here I am dealing with level 8 pain daily as the weather changes. Yet, the emotional and mental tolls have been far more difficult to face.
There have been times that I’ve felt as fragile as glass, as delicate as tissue paper, and I’ve been beaten down both literally and figuratively. But each and every time, so far, I’ve gotten up. I’ve gained strength from the pain. In fact, there are times that by keeping my pain to myself and not complaining about it, by not showing it to the world, that I can borrow from it….channel it into strength. I’ve siphoned power from the pain to keep going. Perhaps I’m a bit stubborn, too. I feel like if anyone is going to genuinely take credit for me falling apart, its going to be me. So, until I’m ready to curl up with the worms for eternity, I will continue to rise like a skyscraper.

***If you are reading this on any site that suggests this post was originally published anywhere but SadyStyle by anyone other than Sadystika Sabretooth, you are reading a stolen post.

Skyscraper

wearing:
hair:  Lamb. Dove (*new* @ Uber)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skin: [theSkinnery] Amber (*new* @ C88)

EF: Acanthus Headpiece (*new* @ X by FaMESHed)
EF: Acanthus Mask (*new* @ X by FaMESHed)
[The Forge] Xane Collar, Black (*new* @ X by FaMESHed)
Legal Insanity – Mistress dress (*new* @ X by FaMESHed)
_CandyDoll_ Claudia Boots (*new* @ C88)

pose: FOXCITY. Sass Bento Pose Set

Paparazzi – BACKDROP – Grime Block Balcony
BUENO-NightSpot Loft Building-Regular

RATS!

Some days I think I’d be better off hanging out with rats than most of the men I meet. I realize I’m no spring chicken in her 20s or even 30s, but the caliber of male personalities in Second Life is severely lacking. It’s no damn wonder women have thrown in the good girl towel and started going for what they need, rather than what they want. Men have been doing it for centuries, but let a woman go seek some self-gratification with a stranger and she gets herself a reputation. To hell with that, these days even the one night stand is likely to disappoint.
I’d love to see some of the men in SL put a bit more effort into courting a woman. Then again, why should they? If they wait long enough, they’ll be surrounded by thirsty sluts, hungry whores, and desperate housewives begging for it. See? I just did it myself, labeled batches of women with bad names. To hell with that! I say if you’re thirsty, get you a drink! If you’re hungry, grab a meal! If you’re desperate…uhm, yeah, maybe see a therapist? I don’t think that’s a healthy attitude to have when making decisions about sex. In the meantime, learn to take care of your own needs. We all know how. We’ve all done it and there’s certainly no harm in that…unless you nasty. So, don’t be nasty.
Yes, I am rambling, just letting my mind go where it wants. I have been up all night and I’ve thought about what to write and this is where I landed. There’s some super cute stuff out there, right now….so go shopping! I’m wishing you all a day filled with love & laughter. ♥

Rats!
When I used to go out I’d know everyone I saw
Now I go out alone if I go out at all

wearing:
hair:  Wasabi // Grier Mesh Hair (GO by FaMESHed)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skin: [theSkinnery] Amber (*new* @ C88)

Dahlia – Virgin Mary Necklace (*new* @ Uber)
Dahlia – Haze – Earrings (*new* @ Uber)

Legal Insanity – Zara top (*new* @ Dubai)
Blueberry – Frank Jeans – Full Length
[ae] Straight Jacket Shoes

JIAN Rascal Rats 1. Shoulder Companion (*new* @ Epiphany)
JIAN Rascal Rats 4. White Companion (*new* @ Epiphany)

pose: SSP – Corner Time (*new* @ Pose Fair)

Finally!

Finally, someone developed a hairstyle to conceal my horns! *giggles* These cubes from E.V.E remind me of one of those word search things I see on Facebook all the time. “Oh the first three words are what you can expect next year!” Well, the last one of those I did said love, marriage, and health. I laughed so hard.  Yes, I know love will always be part of my life, because I have a heart with which I love very deeply, too deeply. Marriage? NO, let’s pray a divorce is on the horizon though. Since the bastard left me essentially penniless to run off with a 20yr old skank. Yes, she is a skank, remind me to tell that story someday. It’s a doozy! And finally, the prediction was health? I’m going to assume they meant poor health, considering that at best there are treatments for my fybromyalgia and PKD, however, there are no known cures.
Let’s not ruin all the fun, let’s take a look at the cube. First word I see is battlefield and I’ll agree to that. I like violent films and shows, plus I play Guild Wars 2 with one of my best friends. So, yes, a battlefield is very likely. Next word…hate. Ohh, that’s a strong word. I don’t really have the energy to fuel hate. I’m more of a person that turns completely ambivalent. I just won’t acknowledge someone’s existence or care that they exist. In Second Life, its even better, because I can mute and derender people. That’s nice. Alright, third word I notice is Heaven. Well, I’m an atheist so I can only imagine that means, I’m going to be proven wrong and all of you do gooders are in for a big surprise when you show up OR (and this is more likely) someone is going to make me feel soo good that it will feel heavenly. These cubes are a group gift, so if you like them, you can grab a set for yourself, absolutely free.

sady devil
“So what would an angel say
The devil wants to know”
~ Fiona Apple – Criminal

wearing:
hair:  #Foxy – Fallen Hair (*new* @ Salem)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skin: [theSkinnery] Amber (*new* @ C88)

Dead Dollz – Morrigan Set 2.0 (*new* @ FaMESHed)
_CandyDoll_ Demona Boots

pose: FOXCITY. Cozy Bento Pose Set (*new* @ Uber)

[Dollmart]Empress Chair
E.V.E {Team} Love is a Battlefield Cubes GROUP GIFT

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