Eavesdropping

“There’s nothing like eavesdropping to show you that the world outside your head is different from the world inside your head.” – Thornton Wilder

the weight of secrets
While listening at the door, she couldn’t believe what she heard!

wearing:
hair:  pr!tty – Mary  (*new* @ TCF)
head: CATWA HEAD Lilly
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
Scandalize. Akima (*new* @ Cosmopolitan)
erratic / eva – knee socks plain
[VALE KOER] GUMBALL BOOTS (*new* @ N21)

pose: Foxcity Steamy Set
[ isuka ] back alley blue backdrop

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Sleepless Nights

Like so many people, I suffer from far too many sleepless nights. I was talking to my lovely friend, Deva, one morning. That often seems to be the start of our conversations, “How are you?” “I’m tired af!” *laughs* Neither of us sleep well and our friend, Troy, on the other hand can simply close his damn eyes and decide to go to sleep. Its a good thing we love him so damn much or we’d truly hate him for that gift alone. Though, to be fair, Troy is so kind hearted, he would gladly share his ability to sleep with us both if he could. (Okay, that sounded wrong, but funny. So, I’m leaving it.) I sure wish he could bottle that ability and send me some. People wonder why I’m so crazy and all over the place with my creativity. I tell you now, its lack of sleep and a brain that goes ninety to nothing all the freaking time. So, whether its a lack of inspiration or too much, I’m going to blame it on my sleepless nights.

break time

wearing:
hair:  pr!tty – Girim – :Short: – [Bang A] (*new* @ TCF)
head: CATWA HEAD Tala
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
Scandalize. Stacy. (*new* @ Sad November)
Phedora ~ Claudia heels ~ 28 c (*new* @ REWIND)

pose: Foxcity Bad Kitty Set
[ isuka ] izakaya backdrop

Oh Deer

When I was putting this scene together, I couldn’t help but get lost as I was thrown down memory lane. Earlier this year, I lost my aunt. I shouldn’t say I lost her, because to be honest, I didn’t really like her. My mom lost her sister. My mom was and still is quite heartbroken. While I didn’t like my aunt very much, there were things I liked about her. I loved visiting her for a few days at a time, because she lived on a mountain in the hills of West Virginia. I know, I know, but seriously, its a beautiful state, especially in the fall when the leaves are so vibrant. I loved being so enveloped in mother nature. There were deer that would come into her yard every night as the sun was going down and you never knew when you’d see a bear lurking about looking for apples. My aunt was especially gullible and I even had her hunting ghost orbs in the Catholic cemetery at the bottom of the mountain once. *laughs* Her home was rustic and so far removed from modern society to include dial up internet as it was all she could get where she lived.
I didn’t agree with her views on life, religion, or politics. I didn’t think she was a very nice person, but there we managed to share some funny moments. Like the time we mouthed words to each other and made my mother think she was going deaf. She fought hard the last few years of her life and finally couldn’t fight anymore. I understood that and I admired her decision to tell her family she was done fighting. To say goodbye and let her go. I know that took a lot of courage for her, considering how close she was to her children and how much she loved her husband. I dedicate this post to her, even though she has never approved of me, my lifestyle, my beliefs, etc. *laughs*

oh deer

wearing:
hair:  [RA] Rachel Hair (*new* @ FaMESHed)
head: CATWA HEAD Tala
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
Scandalize. Megan (*new* @ Cosmopolitan)

pose: GingerFish Poses – Sour Times (*new* @ Darkness Monthly)

scene:
llorisen // simeon lodge (*new* @ FaMESHed)
Trompe Loeil – Keithia Bed Dark  (*new* @ FaMESHed)
+Half-Deer+ Favorite Sweater Clutter – ALL – Draped Over
DRD gg rug brown
*Shabby* Boho Vintage Chest
Scarlet Creative The Arcade Sep 15 – Greenwich Telephone
dust bunny . bunny alarm clock . brown
23- 8f8 – primavera in Toscana Wall Lamp
uK – Simply Said Karma RARE (*new* @ Gacha Gardens)
dust bunny . spotted begonia
BALACLAVA!! Books [horizontal A]
!! Follow US !! Safety dog with pants
Apt B // Hello Billy – Hatboxes
!gO! SteamTeddy +Mad+
[ zerkalo ] Hidden Gems – Dress Form
Kalopsia – Curtaina – Chevron Beige
[ zerkalo ] Pile of books 2
Fancy Decor: Hasting Bench (white) (*new* @ Uber)
Fancy Decor: Open Book (*new* @ Uber)
Fancy Decor: Rain Boots (*new* @ Uber)
Second Spaces – snow day books – messy stack
[ zerkalo ] Pile of books 3
[ zerkalo ] Pile of books 1
[Black Bantam] Puppies At Play (*new* @ Chapter Four)
DRD – Series 01 – Floor Lamp – Light2.
*MSS* Garden Party Hanging Wicker Ball Natural

outside:
JIAN Fallow Deer Buck & Doe (*new* @ FaMESHed)
LB_Conifer.v2{Seasons}

Join Me

So for a whole week, Josh and I broke up. His RL was getting in our way, but somehow we could not stay away from each other. So, we’re officially back together with some new boundaries in place and I’m pretty sure we both cried last night as I proposed this time, by simply saying, “Come home, please. I need you.” With that said, our first official picture back together…lol…sorta…me asking him to join me in bed as we tucked in for the night. ♥

join me

wearing:
hair: Stealthic – Sensual
head: CATWA HEAD Tala
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
-SU!- Piercing Set 04 (*new* @ Chapter Four)
-Narcisse- Edith Pearl Choker & Bracelets
-Narcisse- Anais Chemise (*new* @ TLC)

pose from . Infiniti . – Sweet – 8 Pose Pack

scene:
shadow of a man provided by Josh♥
Stockholm&Lima:Traveler’s Reprieve Bed (*new* @ FaMESHed)
Stockholm&Lima:Traveler’s Reprieve Table (*new* @ FaMESHed)

Chillaxin

So, the RL is home all week. No, he’s not sick. He’s a gamer and he took the week off for some Destiny game and just in time for that he got the new PS4 Pro! The man is locked in his room yelling and cursing…all week. Me? Oh I’m chillaxin, cuz I don’t have to cook regular meals. The man is living off gamer foods and loving it. Its like a week long SuperBowl at my house. Hot wings, pigs in a blanket, pizza rolls, pizza, sandwiches…and yes, I do make him sandwiches…damn good ones, too!
Irma has made her way up to North Alabama. Of course, its not a hurricane anymore, but we’re getting sooo much rain that my patio is a little lake. Taking the dog out is fun…NOT! So, I’m going to be doing a blogothon week so prepare youself for lots of pictures and songs…hahaha. Alright, so that’s what’s going on with me this week. I’m burning sage and sending lots of love & healing light to all of those affected by Hurrican Irma, because last night I saw that 3.6 Floridians are without power. I went through a week of no power back in 2011 and that it and of itself is hard, not to mention all the damage done by Mother Nature.

lean back

wearing:
hair:  /Wasabi Pills/ Sage Mesh Hair – Style 2  (*new* @ Chapter Four)
head: CATWA HEAD Tala
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
{le fil casse} Lysette Romper (*new* @ FaMESHed)

pose: FOXCITY. Stairs (Sitting) Bento Pose Set
FOXCITY. Photo Booth – A Fool’s Paradise

What Dreams May Come

Saturday night to the shock of many of my friends, I went to see the movie IT! Before we go further, let me explain in the quickest way possible. I hate clowns and its not just some phobia that I don’t understand. I was attacked by a man in a clown suit, oddly enough, 27yrs ago this month. It was right before my 21st birthday and no, I had not seen the movie. I didn’t think of the math until I came home from the movies Saturday night and realized, “OMG! How weird is that? The whole 27yr thing!” I had seen the 1st one on VHS in 1997 after the attack at the insistence of my so called friends. There were tons of drugs involved and I don’t remember anything about it. Anyway, so you can imagine why I hate clowns.
So, yeah, saw the movie and it was quite frightening, which says a lot because I can’t remember the last time a horror movie actually scared me. I was quite shaken afterwards and really thought, “That was a mistake!” I had nightmares all night Saturday night, waking myself up by screaming, “NO! NO! NOOOO!” at least four times. The last one I remember, I woke myself up screaming, “STOP IT! JUST STOP IT!” I woke up feeling exhausted and shaken to the core. I haven’t had that many clown dreams in one night for many many years. As the day progressed, I realized that none of my nightmares had been about my attack. Instead, all the nightmares were about Pennywise and by the time I got to that fifth one, he had become more of an annoyance than an actual monster. Now, I can honestly say that I’m glad I saw it and I feel like I have possibly beaten my severe fear of clowns. I doubt I’ll ever like them, but they certainly won’t be dictating my life anymore.
I realize the title and picture don’t quite go with the theme of the movie IT, but its really about more than that. Its about dreams in general and how they truly can reveal so much about our lives. I also feel like I’ve emerged from a very dark place with my history of coulrophobia. I’m certainly looking forward to brighter things AND dreams ahead.

what dreams may come

wearing:
hair:  pr!tty – Marianna – :rigged: :Long: (*new* @ Chapter Four)
head: CATWA HEAD Tala
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
*LODE* Head Accessory – Gladiolus Wreath [black] (*new* @ Chapter Four)
The Annex – Yasmina Gown – Black (*new* @ We ❤ Role-Play)
The Annex – Yasmina Panties – Black (*new* @ We ❤ Role-Play)

Pose: FOXCITY. GSits Vol1

scene:
{anc} ripple. oil .for light space
Ariskea[Blush] Magnolia Leaf
[DDD] Twinkling Ivy – Patch
{anc} NO LIMITS // flock of flying doves.
uK – Victorian Dreamscape Miss Moon Gold
uK – Victorian Dreamscape Cloudsies Gold

ShadowBoxer

It’s a music post. Link and lyrics provided, as usual. This is just how I’m feeling at the moment and one of my favorite songs & singers of all time.

Fiona Apple Shadowboxer

Once my lover, now my friend
What a cruel thing to pretend
What a cunning way to condescend
Once my lover, and now my friend

Oh, you creep up like the clouds
And you set my soul at ease
Then you let your love abound
And you bring me to my knees

Oh, it’s evil babe
The way you let your grace enrapture me
When well you know I’d be insane
To ever let that dirty game recapture me

You made me a shadow boxer, baby
I wanna be ready for what you do
I’ve been swinging around me
Cause I don’t know when you’re gonna make your move

Oh, your gaze is dangerous
And you fill your space so sweet
If I let you get too close
You’ll set your spell on me

So darlin’ I just wanna say
Just in case I don’t come through
I was onto every play
I just wanted you

Oh it’s so evil, my love
The way you’ve no reverence to my concern
So I’ll be sure to stay wary of you, love
To save the pain of once my flame and twice my burn….

So I’m a shadowboxer, baby
I wanna be ready for what you do
And I’ve been swinging around at nothing
I don’t know when you’re gonna make your move
Yeah I’m a shadowboxer, baby
I wanna be ready for what you do
And I been swinging around me
Cause I don’t know when you’ll make your move

in the shadows

wearing:
hair:  pr!tty – Marianna  (*new* @ Chapter Four)
head: CATWA HEAD Tala
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
[Cynful] Andressa Choker (*new* @C88)
[Cynful] Andressa (*new* @C88)

pose: FOXCITY. Show Off set
anxiety %local v1

Reimagined

Its another song post, but I’m hoping you’ll kinda feel the connection between the picture and the music. I’m a little obsessed with this band at the moment and if you’re not familiar with them…well, check them out. So, as always I’m providing a YouTube link and the lyrics. You also have the option of scrolling on down to the credits, because hands down this dress is a must have and believe me, you really want to fork out the extra lindens for the fatpack on this one, cuz the Cynful team has gone above and beyond with this Subdub Dress!

The Contortionist Reimagined

When I found the point of life
It came creeping towards me
In the shape of eyes

It was all this reimagined
It was a different kind of speak
It was repitition
It was what you want it to be

When I saw the shape of sound
Everything came spiralling

It was all this reimagined
It was a different kind of speak
It was repitition
It was what you want it to be

Breathe
Breathe in
Once you found the breath you lost you’ll breathe again

Breathe
Breathe in
Once you found the breath you lost you’ll breathe again

It was all this reimagined
It was a different kind of speak
It was repitition

And I am exactly what you imagine me to be

tunnel vision

wearing:
hair: pr!tty – Rebecca (*new* @ Chapter Four)
headCATWA HEAD Kathy
skin: Glam Affair – Maya – Catwa Mesh Head Applier – Polar (*new* @ Gacha Garden)
bodyMaitreya Mesh Body – Lara

-SU!- Bento Piercing Set 03
EF: Adoration Choker  (*new* @ FaMESHed)
Astralia – Skeleton Hand + Add-on  (*new* @ FaMESHed)
Astralia – Compatible nails system (Maitreya Stiletto base)
GingerFish -Nail Applier-Astralia-Bloody Kisses
[Cynful] Subdub Dress (*new* @ C88)

pose by Kirin
MINIMAL – Illusion III – *4*

I Can’t Sleep

“I can’t sleep, I hope I stay awake
Cause I’ve been running, running, running all day
Long nights, no peace, I feel like everybody’s eyes on me
I can’t sleep”
K.Flay – Can’t Sleep

Normally this is the story of my life, but I recently went to see the doctor. A new one for me and I love him. However, he’s got me on all these new meds and I’m sooo sleepy all the time. I’m not used to sleeping this much. I don’t have time for this kinda sleep! Turns out I have a deficiency of Vitamins B12 & D, too. Fun times, I have to go in everyday for a week for an injection of B12. I’m not surprised by the Vitamin D. Let’s see, in the real world I go outside and see the sun? I hiss. Literally. I do enjoy sunshine on rare occasions, but mostly I prefer dark rooms and dark nights.

play time

wearing:
[monso] My Hair – Saeko (*new* @ FaMESHed)
CATWA HEAD Kathy
MaitreyaMesh Body – Lara V4.1
tattoo: RedFish – Madame (*new* @ Old Fair)
Pretty Mess – Baby Crop BLACK HURT MERT (*new* @ Memento Mori)
Pretty Mess – Ruched Panties BLACK (*new* @ Memento.Mori)
#EMPIRE – Penstemon – Maitreya (*new* @ Chapter Four)

pose with props: ::WetCat:: “Cyber-Link” WebCam Prop (Naughty)

Stockholm-Bed by Bazar

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