Scared Sh*tless

I was talking to a friend of mine recently about life and some of my issues. It was during this conversation that I discovered that I am more than capable of loving someone, because I do. I love a lot of people very much…each in their own way. What I’ve been afraid of…what I seem incapable of…is BEING loved. I can accept that my friends love me, but I can’t imagine that I don’t get on their nerves regularly. I do try very hard to maintain a positive attitude, even when I really want to die more than anything, because I don’t want to bring anyone down. I try to enjoy where I am in the moment and not think too much about what I don’t have or do have that I don’t want, etc.
I have stepped off the curb and into the street. I am taking that giant leap into another relationship and I am scared shitless…no seriously, I’m constipated…*laughs*…TMI? C’mon, are you new here? (Tracy’s favorite thing to say to people about me.)

no more words

Kronic is wearing:
hair: Stealthic Hysteria
head: CATWA  Daniel
ear: ^^Swallow^^ Gauged Ear
body: Signature Gianni
skin by L’etre

tattoo:  .Identity. Body Shop – Dead Eyes
jeans:  Legal Insanity – Gary rolled jeans

Sady is wearing:
hair:  Stealthic – Fatal
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body

SEUL – Ari Off-set Jacket – Onyx
[Cynful] Riana’s Denim Skirt (*new* @ C88)

pose: <K&S> Opposition. Bento pose
FOXCITY. Photo Booth – 6 – Black Speechless

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Balancing Act

I am so honored to blog for so many amazing creators and events. I am blessed with several SL jobs that I absolutely love. I’m so blessed that I often forget my own limits and it completely destroys me to leave a designer or give up a job, but as time goes by I am forced to recognize that there needs to be a balance between work and fun. Though I really don’t think of my jobs or blogging as work, because I enjoy it all so much. I’ve finally gotten myself to a crossroads in my SL where I have to be true to myself and not settle for less than I want or deserve. That includes making time for myself in ways that does not revolve around other people. I don’t mean that in a nasty way either, but I’ve settled and pushed myself too far in the past. This almost always blows up in my face.
With that said, I’m approaching some changes and well, the older I get the less I like change. It just feels stressful, but I’ve got some big decisions to make and time is running out. Thank goodness I have an amazing support system in place for when I fall apart or quite possibly fall on my face, but life is a balancing act after all and right now, things are a bit off balance. Time to fix that.

balancing act

Kronic is wearing:
hair: Stealthic Hysteria
head: Catwa Daniel
ear: ^^Swallow^^ Gauged Ear
body: Signature Gianni
skin by L’etre
tattoo: [Isuka pimal] seven sins *rare*

etham – Julius Muscle Tank w/Hoodie
::GB:: Cotton pants
[Deadwool] Chase sneakers – white

Sady is wearing:
hair: MINA – Lianne (*new* @ Good Vibes Fair)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: Glam Affair – Lily – Catwa Mesh Head Applier – Jamaica (*new* @ Kustom9)
tattoo: **RE** Surya Tattoo – Common – Gold
.:E.A.Studio:. BOX Collar Oculus Cross

BUENO-ANA Top (*new* @ Kustom9)
{le fil casse} Regina Shorts (*new* @ FaMESHed)
[BREATHE]-Setsumi Heels (*new* @ FaMESHed)

pose: PURPLE POSES – COUPLE 468
anxiety %rule#1

Beggin For Thread

You all know me, I’m not even about to write about this…so here’s a song that is close to my heart. Kronic and I both agreed that this song fits…so, here ya go!

Banks – Begging For Thread

So I got edges that scratch
And sometimes I don’t got a filter
But I’m so tired of eating
All of my misspoken words
I know my disposition gets confusing
My disproportionate reactions fuse with my eager state
That’s why you wanna come out and play with me, yeah
Why?
Stooped down and out, you got me beggin’ for thread
To sew this hole up that you ripped in my head
Stupidly think you had it under control
Strapped down to something that you don’t understand
Don’t know what you were getting yourself into
You should have known, secretly I think you knew
I got some dirt on my shoes
My words can come out as a pistol
I’m no good at aiming
But I can aim it at you
I know my actions, they may get confusing
But my unstable ways is my solution
To even space
That’s why you wanna come out and play with me, yeah
Stooped down and out, you got me beggin’ for thread
To sew this hole up that you ripped in my head
Stupidly think you had it under control
Strapped down to something that you don’t understand
Don’t know what you were getting yourself into
You should have known, secretly I think you knew
(Secretly I think you knew)
Hold it out, whoa
Try to hide it out, but my tracks are better
Hold it out, whoa
Try to hide it out, but my tracks are better
Hold it out, whoa
Try to hide it out, but my tracks are better
Hold it out, whoa
Try to hide it out, but my tracks are better
Stooped down and out, you got me beggin’ for thread
To sew this hole up that you ripped in my head
Stupidly think you had it under control
Strapped down to something that you don’t understand
Don’t know what you were getting yourself into
You should have known, secretly I think you knew
(Secretly I think you knew)

beggin for thread

Sady is wearing:
hair: :::Phoenix::: Sunny Hair (*new* @ Go by FaMESHed)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: Glam Affair – Lily – Catwa Mesh Head Applier – Jamaica (*new* @ Kustom9)
tattoo: IDTTY Body Shop – Feline Gaze (*new* @ ULTRA)
LYBRA . SUNDAY *(*new* MarketPlace Release)

Kronic is wearing:
hair: Stealthic Hysteria
head: Catwa Daniel
ear: ^^Swallow^^ Gauged Ear
body: Signature Gianni
skin by L’etre
tattoo: [Isuka pimal] seven sins *rare*

::GB:: Cat’s tail whip
Legal Insanity – Gary rolled jeans

pose: The Owl. I need only you (*new* @ ULTRA)
MINIMAL – The Vault -full- (*new* @ Kustom9)

Selfish Love

Once again, I’m going to let the music speak for me, because as many ideas that I have for what to write…well…*grins*…I’m not telling you. Thanks again to my dear friend, Aaron for modeling with me. ❤

Jessie Ware – Selfish Love

Baby let’s be honest about this
There’s only room for one in your heart
So tell me darlin’, why are we like this?
I must admit that I kind of like it

Oh, you’re acting sweet
I know what that means
All these games we play
Always end the same

Selfish love, why do I do these things?
I break you down, just to get my way
Selfish love, darlin’ you do it too
You tell me lies and I bend the truth
And I, I know
That I can’t get enough
Selfish love

Baby now it feels like we’re dancing
Dodging bullets, now ain’t that romantic?
Take what I want, but you want me to take it
I only give love when I want to make it

Oh, you’re acting sweet
I know what that means
All these games we play
Always end the same

Selfish love, why do I do these things?
I break you down, just to get my way
Selfish love, darlin’ you do it too
You tell me lies and I bend the truth
And I, I know
That I can’t get enough
Selfish love
Selfish love
Selfish love

Oh, you’re acting sweet
And I know what that means
Selfish love
Oh, you’re acting sweet
And I know what means

Selfish love

choke me

Aaron is wearing:
Hair: Stealthic – Haunting
Head: CATWA HEAD Daniel
Ears: Stretched ears-Omimi- [MANDALA]
Body: [Signature] Gianni Body – Body

[Deadwool] Broberry jeans
GizzA – Sports Shoes

Sady is wearing:
hair: MINA – Yelena (*new* @ C88)
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: [theSkinnery] Katy (Catwa Applier) toffee (*new* @ C88)
brows: –SU!- Blair Eyebrows +CATWA APPLIER
S&P lingerie Elle (*new* Bound Box May)
Mosquito’s Way – Rohnda boots  (*new* Bound Box May)

pose: PURPLE POSES – Couple 784 (*new* @ C88)
posters: Quasi – Downtown Gacha 20 (*new* @ 6Republic)

Taste Like Candy

I struggled with what to write for this photo until I resorted to music, because I just can’t write erotica. Maybe I could, but I’m not comfortable doing that for my blog, sooo….yeah, here’s a song. *giggles & blushes* Oh, and a special thank you to my dear friend, Aaron, for letting me boss him around…erhm, I mean, for posing for me, yeah, that’s it. *grins* So, while I’m showing off the first of at least four post showcasing items in the Bound Box…enjoy the music.

Doja Cat – Candy

I can name a couple ways, baby, this shit might go
You just might forget that this was what you’re gettin’ high for
And it might do the things to him, I mean the guy who
He’s the one who’s sweet enough, who’ll shoot to make that high note

And it’s such a typical thing, runnin’ over a million, oh
Runnin’ through a difficult place, you don’t need no blood on your hands, no

She’s just like candy, she’s so sweet
But you know that it ain’t real cherry, know that it ain’t real cherry
She’s just like candy, she’s so sweet
But you know that it ain’t real, know that it ain’t real
She’s just like candy, she’s so sweet
But you know that it ain’t real cherry, know that it ain’t real cherry
She’s just like candy, she’s so sweet
But you know that it ain’t real, know that it ain’t real

I can be your sugar when you’re fiendin’ for that sweet spot
Put me in your mouth, baby, and eat it ’till your teeth rot
I can be your cherry, apple, pecan, or your key lime
Baby I got everything and so much more than she’s got

And it’s such a typical thing, runnin’ over a million, oh
Runnin’ through a difficult place, you don’t need no blood on your hands, no

She’s just like candy, she’s so sweet
But you know that it ain’t real cherry, know that it ain’t real cherry
She’s just like candy, she’s so sweet
But you know that it ain’t real, know that it ain’t real
She’s just like candy, she’s so sweet
But you know that it ain’t real cherry, know that it ain’t real cherry
She’s just like candy, she’s so sweet
But you know that it ain’t real, know that it ain’t real

Sugar coated, lies unfolded, you still lick the wrapper
It’s addictive, you know this, but you still lick the wrapper
Sugar coated, lies unfolded, you still lick the wrapper
It’s addictive, you know this, but you still lick the wrapper

She’s just like candy, she’s so sweet
But you know that it ain’t real cherry, know that it ain’t real cherry
She’s just like candy, she’s so sweet
But you know that it ain’t real, know that it ain’t real
She’s just like candy, she’s so sweet
But you know that it ain’t real cherry, know that it ain’t real cherry
She’s just like candy, she’s so sweet
But you know that it ain’t real, know that it ain’t real

take me

Aaron is wearing:
Hair: Stealthic – Haunting
Head: CATWA HEAD Daniel
Ears: Stretched ears-Omimi- [MANDALA]
Body: [Signature] Gianni Body – Body

Sady is wearing:
hair: RAMA.SALON – Maria Hair (*new* @ C88)
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: [theSkinnery] Katy (Catwa Applier) toffee (*new* @ C88)
brows: –SU!- Blair Eyebrows +CATWA APPLIER
Wicca’s Wardrobe – Joy (*new* Bound Box May)

pose: PURPLE POSES – Couple 778

We Can Be Friends

I hear it all the time, “Men and women can’t truly be friends.” I know better. Okay, perhaps it’s true that one or both of them think about or have thought about sleeping with the other. Hell, maybe they even did once or twice, but if a friendship is what developed between them and there’s no real romantic connection, there’s absolutely no reason they can’t be friends. Unless one of you is a stalker or a rapist, of course. I have plenty of guy friends in SL, most of whom I have NOT slept with and never will. There’s never been an issue with sexual tension or anything of the sort. So, don’t let anyone tell you that you can’t be just friends with the opposite sex or whatever your sexual preference might be. It’s simply a matter of establishing boundaries and mutual respect.

AyRon &amp; Sady

Aaron is wearing:
Hair: Stealthic – Haunting
Head: CATWA HEAD Daniel
Ears: Stretched ears-Omimi- [MANDALA]
Body: [Signature] Gianni Body – Body
::GB::Stadium jacket
::GB:: Jacket in tank
::GB::Body bag
::GB::Stadium Pants

Sady is wearing:
hair: :::Phoenix::: Roxie Hair (*new* @ Black Fair)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
ears: ^^Swallow^^ Darkness Ears
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: Glam Affair – Mindy – Catwa Mesh Head Applier – Jamaica
(Yummy) Layered Chain Choker – Gold
(Yummy) Leave A Mark Set (*new* @ C88)
TETRA – Kimmy off-shoulder sweatshirt (*new* @ C88)
ChicModa / Varsity Sweats (*new* @ Cosmopolitan)

pose: FOXCITY. Besties (*new* @ (*new* @ Pose Fair)
MI Ground One Background Blue

 

 

Heavenly

We all knew it would happen. Break ups are like hangovers. We swear we’re never going to do it again, because the pain is just too much. Then someone walks into you life and out of no where everything changes in an instant. So, here we are….me, back in a man’s arms. Not just for a photo, but because its my favorite place to be right now. It feels good to smile so much again.

Forbidden
We can dance forever and pretend
I wanna, I wanna stay ’til the end

Gotz is wearing:
hair: Unorthodox Manny Hair
head: CATWA HEAD Daniel
Stretched ears-Omimi- [MANDALA]
body: [Signature] Gianni – Body
[VALE KOER] LEATHER BIKER JACKET
[VALE KOER] TECHWEAR PANTS

wearing:
hair: Magika – Good Vibes
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: [theSkinnery]  Iris (Catwa Applier) toffee
Kaithleen’s Corky Dress (*new* @ Tres Chic)

pose: [ATI] Adore 2 (*new* @ Suicide Dollz)
[Bad Unicorn] Block Views Backdrop

Take Your Time

Why is everyone in such a hurry these days? I’m referring to SL relationships. We’ve all seen the people that jump in and out of relationships. Partnered to someone new every other week or month, then complain about why their relationships didn’t work. Seems like an awful lot of unnecessary drama and hurt feelings to me. I used to think I had a four month expiration date, because my average SL relationship was only lasting four months, but I didn’t rush into any of them. The last one I had, we dated quietly for months before telling anyone, much less becoming official. Now, I’ve been single for over 3 months and I simply can’t imagine rushing into anything with any of the men I’ve met. It can take weeks for me to even figure out whether or not I want to have sex with someone. Granted there are those that you know immediately that sex is definitely on the table, but in those instances I’m not expecting it to be anything but casual. I’m not an idiot. Sex does not equal love or even slove as my friend, Poppy, puts it. (I tend to agree with her on that.) I dunno, I guess we all have our pace. It just seems to me if you take your time and really get to know someone first, you might save yourself some heartache. Then again, what do I know….368 day of what I thought was magic turned out to be really disposable and I was easily replaced in no time at all. *shrugs* So, I have no idea who the hell I think I am giving relationship advice, but that’s what’s on my mind today. So, that’s what you get.

the wolf

Sady is wearing:
hair: #1 {Limerence} Nikol hair(Common1)-B&W
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: [theSkinnery]  Iris (Catwa Applier) toffee (*new* @ C88)
11. :BAMSE: Personal Choker – Bitch
SPIRIT – Peepa sweatshirt (*new* @ C88)
ChicModa // Piper skirt (*new* @ Cosmopolitan)
.Shi : Caleb Boots . Black / Bento (*new* @ TMD)

Gotz is wearing:
hair: Unorthodox Manny Hair
head: CATWA HEAD Daniel
Stretched ears-Omimi- [MANDALA]
body: [Signature] Gianni – Body
Howl – CHEN bombers jacket
[VALE KOER] TECHWEAR PANTS
[Deadwool] Chase sneakers

pose: [ATI] Adore (*new* @ Suicide Dollz)

FOXCITY. K-POP Star 2 – As If (Rez) (1) RARE (*new* @ Arcade)

I’ll Do What I Please

I say this all the time, “I do what I want.” To be fair, I usually do just that. I’m an only child and despite the abuse, I was pretty spoiled. Over the years, I have grown up, but because I never had children I didn’t mature the way most people my age have matured. So, to sum it up I’m a brat! I know, that’s coming as quite a shock to many of you. *laughs*

I’m having a pretty crappy day, so that’s all I got for now. I hope you all have a wonderful weekend and happy shopping♥

Bread
And I’ll do what I want
I’ll do what I please
I’ll do it again till I’ve got what I need

Cruel is wearing:
hair: Stealthic – Haunting
hairbase: Stealthic – Male Hairbase
head: CATWA HEAD Daniel
beard: Volkstone Toni Facial Hair
ears: .:E.A.Studio:. Box Ears Falling Star
body: [SIGNATURE] Geralt – Mesh Body  *NEW*
skin: STRAY DOG – SHANE – CATWA
tattoo: [ATI] Nightmare…

Sady is wearing:
hair:  RAMA.SALON – Chloe Hair ‘EXCLUSIVE’ (*new* @ FaMESHed)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: [theSkinnery]  Saska (Catwa Applier) honey
EF: Springleaf Necklace (*new* @ FaMESHed)
**RE** Simina Bracelets (*new* @ FaMESHed)
toksik – Slumber Crop Top (*new* @ FaMESHed)
toksik – Slumber Shorts (*new* @ FaMESHed)

pose: KlubWerK.poses -i know you —
VIXX- Mesh backdrop – She

 

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