Devil in Me

“I don’t wanna wake it up
I don’t wanna wake it up
I don’t wanna wake it up
The devil in me”
Halsey- Devil in Me

Have you ever met someone that just brings out the worst in you? They might not have done anything to you, but for some reason there’s just this instant dislike of them? It happens to me from time to time and I’m hoping I’m not the only one. Maybe I’m just the only one willing to admit it. Surely not. When I do meet people like that, I try to be polite and just keep my distance. So, its not really a problem.
Then there’s those people that just run around doing all kinds of dirt to other people. They haven’t done anything to me, that I know of, but I’m not trying to get close to people like that either, but then they go and do something really nasty to someone you love. *sighs* Its really hard to keep my mouth shut in situations like that. I know I should trust the person who has been offended to take care of themselves and most of the time I do. However, in case I never mentioned it before…I happen to be human and with that comes some faults. I know, I know, you thought I was perfect. *laughs* Let me tell you now…there are times when its all I can do to keep myself in check. I’m not talking about threatening someone online. I’m talking about just reading a bitch like a book. Front to back, side to side, up and down…and I’ve been told on a few occasions my words can cut deeper than any knife. Having lost more than one friend in the past to my apparently razor sharp words I really don’t wanna wake up the devil in me.

releasing the demon

wearing: 
hair
.Shi x Messiah : Hair / Unisex . Common 2
headCATWA HEAD Kathy
eyes: CATWA Mesh Eyes Pack w/:Conviction: Viscous Eyes [HUD]
eyeshadow-SU!– Somber Eyeshadow +CATWA APPLIER+
lipstick: -SU!- The Matte Lip Essentials //Catwa BENTO//
skin: Glam Affair – Molly – Catwa Mesh Head Applier – Artic (*new* @ Arcade)
bodyMaitreya Mesh Body – Lara
tattoo.::Nanika::. Gaia tattoo Black (*new* @ Tres Chic)
piercing.:E.A.Eclipse:.  Nerfertiti Piercing Mouth

Phedora ~ Edwin body harness (*new* @ Somber)
S&P Like A Prayer – clamps black
[CX] Piton Pumps – Black ( Maitreya )

pose by Del May

Get It

This is not a normal post for me, because I just keep hearing this one song whenever I look at these pictures…so today you get lyrics and the link to the song. Of course, I’ll provide the deets, but c’mon…I think the lyrics and the music say it far better than I can. I prefer not to create blog posts that auto play music, so its your choice to click the link and listen along as you read the words and look at the pics…or just skip to the deets…or just close the box, cuz ewwww sexy girl! YUCK….*eyes Corban &  giggles*

Tei Shi “Get It

Oh   Oh   Oh   Oh
Baby when you hold me
It’s a feeling I can only fight
And know I should (know I should)
And you know that you stole me
When you looked at me and told me
It was understood

And you know that you’ve won
And I know you’ll come
Come get it, get it, get it
Get it, get it, get it
Get it, get it, get it
Get it, get it, get it

Baby I know that you’ll come and get it
When you’re good and ready (good and ready)
I know that you’ll come and get it
When you find you’re good and ready

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Baby I can smell it all around you
Can’t you tell it lingers in the air?
And I know that you felt it
When the ice around me melted
Then you pulled my hair
(pulled my hair, pulled my hair)
And I knew it was love
I fit you like a glove

Come get it, get it, get it
Get it, get it, get it
Get it, get it, get it
Get it, get it, get it
Baby I know that you’ll come and get it
When you’re good and ready
Good and ready

I know that you’ll come and get it
When you find you’re good and ready
I know that you’ll come and get it
When you find you’re good and ready
I know, I know that you’ll come and get it
When you find you’re good and ready
I know, I know that you’ll come and get it
When you find you’re good and ready
I know that you’ll come and get it
When you find you’re good and ready
Good and ready
Good and ready

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I swear I wasn’t trying to be lazy, but the lyrics said it all…this hair, short, sexy…this lingerie…*bites her lip*…yeah…you get it…*winks*

wearing:
hairenVOGUE HAIR – Jacquelyn
head: CATWA HEAD Catya
skin: [theSkinnery] Opal (Catwa Applier) honey
lipstick::SG:: Gelly Lips for CATWA Heads ONLY!
ears: .:E.A.Studio Ears Icarus (*new EXCLUSIVE* @ Tres Chic)
bodyMaitreya Mesh Body – Lara

**RE** Simone Heart Collar
+Spellbound+ Plain Gag (unrigged)
[CX] Bento Piercing Snakebites ( Catwa ) (*new* @ Seasons Story)

S&P diamonds pasties maitreya exp
.::Dead Dollz::. Paramour Lingerie Set(cupless bra & thong)(*new* @ The Liaison Collaborative)
socks: DeadDollz – Parisienne – Black (*new* @ Crossroads)

pose: {QP}  – Surrender (*new* @ Cosmopolitan)
NOMAD // TUFTED CHAIR W. BLANKET
MG – H&G – Silk Pool Curtains

Winter Magic

The winter solstice has always been special to me as a barren darkness that gives birth to a verdant future beyond imagination, a time of pain and withdrawal that produces something joyfully inconceivable, like a monarch butterfly masterfully extracting itself from the confines of its cocoon, bursting forth into unexpected glory. Gary Zukav

I’m not going to elaborate too much on the quote. I just think winter is one of the most magical times of year, particularly when it snows (not blizzards, although those are amazing). Since I was a little girl, I’ve marveled at how for a few months at any given time glittering ice can fall from the sky and paint everything in a soft pillowy glow of white powder. I’ve always had a personal kinship with winter, because its on the coldest nights that I’ve found myself outside in tears and that crisp cold air being the only thing that can clear my head. Perhaps I find some solace in connecting the outer cold with the frozen heart I so often claim. Maybe I just like how my lungs feel so alive as I inhale the frigid air. Whatever it is, I find an odd comfort in the cold. As I’ve gotten older, I’ve grown to resent it almost as much because of how it affects my body, but I will march right out into the cold dark night to clear my head. Hmmm, I suppose I’m literally going outside to chill out. *snickers*

 

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As always, there are some fantastic events going on with tons of great wintery themes. I’m sure there’s something magical waiting for you just around the corner. Happy shopping and Happy Holidays!♥

wearing:
**CC**– Ice Queen (*new* @ Winter Solstice)
hair: MINA & EF – Harmony (*new* @ FaMESHed)
^^Swallow^^ Ears Elf HD
.:E.A.Studio:.Box Piercing Bare Code
. a i s l i n g . NoseChains
Glam Affair – Charms! Silver (*new* @ FaMESHed)
!dM deviousMind “Duneyrr” WinterHorns (*new* @ We❤ RolePlay)
**RE** Zaria Bracelets
!gO! Frostina Dress  (*new* @ We❤ RolePlay)

props: S&P tree jewel silver and S&P tree jewel gold  (*new* @ Tannenbaum)
location: TaKe Heart

I’ve Lost My Mind

“One person’s craziness is another person’s reality.”
Tim Burton

It’s funny how one friend will justify, validate, and support whatever madness I manage to get myself caught up in. Yet, another will throw up their hands and walk away, completely done with my antics, and simply sick to death of my madness. I’m not talking about whether or not this is fair, not even about what I may or may not have endured with those same friends. I’m not even bothered by the difference, to be honest. We all have our thresholds for madness.
Most days I am blessed with enough friends to cover all of my crazy bases, but what do I do when you find myself alone? Completely alone with my own mad thoughts. Completely alone with my consequences…my guilt…my pain…my confusion…my insanity. Completely alone with the bitter, ugly truth that I’ve lost my mind.

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The truth is, that most of the time, I try to distract myself. I try not to think about it so much. However, there are some things I simply cannot escape. There are ghosts and guilt that haunt me always. The ‘what ifs’ and the ‘if onlies’….these are my demons and they are with me at every turn. These are the demons that torment me and abuse me, day in and day out. Reminding me that I don’t deserve a better life. I look at my empty hands and I know that they are full of karma.
Then suuddenly and surprisingly, something shiny will catch my eye. It could be simply a creative idea or a physical (or even virtual) object. Occasionally, its even another human being reaching out to me unexpectedly. The lights come on and that dark corner that I’ve been huddled in, seems like nothing more than a good place to put a houseplant or maybe the dog’s bed…or maybe that new table I got the other day. It’s a good place to leave those dark thoughts. As I embrace the light and head off on another adventure. Sounds simple enough, but just sometimes that shiny object, idea, person…it leads me to more trouble and fuels my demons.
I’m quite sure I lost my mind around age eleven. I thought I found it a few times over the years, but the damn thing keeps getting away from me. I’m sure there’s some healthy logic in it somewhere, so if you see it…maybe you can catch the slippery sucker and return it to me. In the meantime, I’m going to look for it at some shopping events, because I’m pretty sure the last time I saw it…I was shopping! ❤

 

hair: MINA – Sylvia (*new* @The  Gacha Garden)
CATWA HEAD Dyana
Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
S&P bracelets Jolie
Prodigy Ink–7P-Paradise Tattoo
Elegance Boutique -Tunic & Harness  “Zara” (*new* @ Mesh Body Addicts)
N-core CHANTEL (*new* @ Mesh Body Addicts)

background: RAMA – #selfie_RAMA Wood Zone (*new* @The  Gacha Garden)
pose by Glamrus

 

Watching You Watch Her

She shows up to the club an hour before her shift. She does three shots at the bar with the regulars before she heads to the dressing room where she’ll smoke a blunt with the girls. They chat about which regulars are in the club. They bitch about the guys at the back of the room that never tip. She slips out of her jeans and into her first costume of the night and takes another shot from the flask she keeps in her bag. She takes a quick glance in the mirror at the details of her make-up, her body, her costume…yet never looks herself in the eye. She fills her lungs with the smoke filled air, rolls her shoulders, and steps out the door to work the room until its her turn to go on stage.
She hands the DJ her music and listens for her queue,  Music to Watch Boys To by Lana Del Rey
She takes the stage and loses herself in the lights and music.
She’s watching you watch her.

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About the stuff….oh my god! I’m so over the damn moon about this stuff. Industry7 and unKindness have done it AGAIN! They have delivered the most amazing sets for Epiphany this round and I swear every item in each gacha is a MUST have. Its all so amazing, I really don’t know how they decided what which items would be RARES.
Don’t even get me started on this round of ROMP! Just gather all your lindens and say farewell to them now, because there is so much happening out there right now there’s no way you can’t go broke. I have…twice….LOL. So, one more picture showing more stuff and then the details. I’m off to do more shopping and at this rate, I might actually need to take up dancing to support my shopping habits!
watching you watch her

wearing:
Moon. Hair. // Tangerine
CATWA HEAD Dyana
eyeshadow & lipstick by Madrid Solo
-SU!- Elyse Facial Piercings /INK
Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
S&P diamonds pasties
S&P Ryan black (*new* @ ROMP)
#EMPIRE – Forsythia leg straps
S&P Ryan legstraps – GIFT (*new* @ ROMP)

scene:
industy7 items (*new* @ The Epiphany)
_i7_urban studio_back alley set RARE
_i7_urban studio_junk&can prop
_i7_urban studio_trashcan prop
_i7_urban studio_cockstar prop red
_i7_urban studio_cockstar prop teal
_i7_urban studio_muthafucka neon
unKindness items (*new* @ The Epiphany)
uK – Row House Red (build on the left)
uK – Public Housing Off-Sim RARE (bigass building in the background)

pose by Del May