On the Wings of Paper Birds

As a form of self-defense, I’ve developed a rather painful habit. I have a tendency to date people that will rip my heart into pieces. I go into these relationships knowing almost exactly how its going to end. I know they are not healthy and I know its going to hurt in the end. Yet, here’s the thing. These relationships are safe. I realize that sounds strange, but there’s no risk involved. I know going in that its going to end and its going to hurt. However, knowing THAT allows me to be prepared. I even have a nice little post break up ritual. My own little grieving process, if you will.

The good guy finishes last, because he’s too risky. The good guy scares the shit out of me. I might actually begin to trust a good guy and that leaves me far too vulnerable. And THAT is a risk I’m not willing to take. Why? Because every single time I’ve let myself believe in something good it has gotten ripped out from under me. Now I know to let hope fly away on the wings of paper birds, because all it’s gonna take is one good rain to wash it all away.

painful habit
I believe, I believe in a line so thin
There’s a light, there’s a light and it pulls me in
Going down, going down ’til I chip my chin
Take my head in your hands, pop it with a pin

wearing:
hair:  [BAD HAIR DAY] – Lacuna (*new* @ Kinky)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
ears: ^^Swallow^^ Shiny Ears
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: Glam Affair –- MaryJane – Catwa Mesh Head Applier – Artic (*new* @ Kinky)
[Cubic Cherry] {After} gasmask
…:::Beautiful Dirty Rich:::… Reckless Collar
**RE** Exene Rings & Claws
_CandyDoll_ Corina Jumper
!Rebel Hope – Lydia Mesh Boots

pose: FOXCITY. Numb Bento Pose Set
FOXCITY. Weightless Booth (VIP Gift 02-18)

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Not a Gift

Every year at Christmas we are bombarded with ads for new cars. We see some weeping wife come out to a car with a giant bow on top. We might see a husband come outside all delighted to the same thing. Occasionally, its a teenager, but here’s the thing that kills me. These commercials rarely tell you the actual cost of the car, its all about the financing. Zero percent down, zero interest for this long, blah blah blah. I’m sorry to inform you, but if its not paid for then its not a gift. Its a loaner with a promise.
You see, many many years ago, I was in a relationship with a man that bought me the most beautiful living room suit for my birthday. I was over the moon. It was leopard print and had this gorgeous elephant coffee table. I went crazy decorating with all sorts of jungle themed touches. It was that same birthday that he took me to a party of some girl he worked with and we had a good time. A couple of weeks later I find out he’s been cheating on me with THAT girl. Needless to say that relationship came to an abrupt halt. A few weeks later, some men showed up with a moving truck to reclaim my living room suit, because it had been financed and wasn’t paid off! The one good thing I thought I had gotten from that relationship was being ripped out from under me and now I had no furniture at all. Why? Because I had given mine away when he surprised me with the new stuff.
So, dear car dealers, unless Mom, Dad, Wifey, Hubby, etc are coming in with the full cost of the car….that is NOT a gift!

a new car

wearing:
hair: pr!tty – Chae – :rigged: (*new* @ Gacha Gardens)
head: CATWA HEAD Uma
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: DeeTaleZ  “Merrylu” Mixedtype
tattoo: [White~Widow] Chocolat – Black
**RE** Raven Collar – Lock
{le fil casse} Sheena Top (*new* @ Uber)
=Zenith=Leather Belt Gloves
Astralia – Compatible mesh nails system
GingerFish -Nail Applier-Astralia-Bloody Kisses
Blueberry – Poppy Leggings
[Gos] Boutique – Monza Belted Boots (*new* @ FaMESHed)

pose: Foxcity Souffle Set

scene:
taikou / late night tunnel backdrop (lights on)
! [MiChIGaN’s ShAcK!] Hard Driven – Premium Edition

Santa’s Helper

What if with women’s rights, we fought for our right to be Santa, too? Naturally, we’d do it much sexier than an old fat man in a beard, but would we stumble along the streets on Christmas eve drunk and pissing in corners, because this is the end of the gig until next year? Nah, we’d make much more money as Santa hookers or strippers…helpers, if you will. *grins*
Regardless of who Santa may or may not be, sober or not, I know my ass will be eating well and sauced up right. Hope your holiday weekend is a happy one♥

drunk santa

wearing:
hair: MINA – Carmen (*new* @ Uber)
head: CATWA HEAD Lilly
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: DeeTaleZ  “Merrylu” Mixedtype
^^Swallow^^ Shiny Ears
**RE** Juliett Pasties Maitreya Red Common
::GB::Mini down jacket (Maitreya) Santa (*new* @ District20)
UC_Mimi_panties
UC_Mimi_boots

pose: Imitation. – Kendra v1 Set
Paparazzi – BACKDROP – Dead End Garage – jade (*new* @ Limit8)

Learn To Let Go

Kesha – Learn To Let Go

Been a prisoner of the past
Had a bitterness when I looked back
Was telling everyone it’s not that bad
‘Til all my shit hit the fan
I know I’m always like
Telling everybody, “You don’t gotta be a victim
Life ain’t always fair, but hell is living in resentment
Choose redemption, your happy ending’s up to you”
I think it’s time to practice what I preach
Exorcise the demons inside me
Whoa, gotta learn to let it go
The past can’t haunt me if I don’t let it
Live and learn and never forget it
Whoa, gotta learn to let it go
Had a boogeyman under my bed
Putting crazy thoughts inside my head
Always whispering, “It’s all your fault”
He was telling me, “No, you’re not that strong”
I know I’m always like
Telling everybody, “You don’t gotta be a victim
Life ain’t always fair, but hell is living in resentment
Choose redemption, your happy ending’s up to you”
So I think it’s time to practice what I preach
Exorcise the demons inside me
Whoa, gotta learn to let it go
The past can’t haunt me if I don’t let it
Live and learn and never forget it
Whoa, gotta learn to let it go
Hey-eh-eh-eh, yeah
Hey-eh-eh-eh, yeah
Learn to let go, learn to let go
Hey-eh-eh-eh, yeah
Hey-eh-eh-eh, yeah
Learn to let go, learn to let go
I’m done reliving my bad decisions
I see now maybe there’s a reason
Why, I, I, I, I, I, I been through hell and back
Yeah, honestly, it’s what made me who I am
Holding on to wasted time
Gotta learn to let go in life
So I think it’s time to practice what I preach
Exorcise the demons inside me
Whoa, gotta learn to let it go
The past can’t haunt me if I don’t let it
Live and learn and never forget it
Whoa, gotta learn to let it go
Hey-eh-eh-eh, yeah
Hey-eh-eh-eh, yeah
Learn to let go, learn to let go
Hey-eh-eh-eh, yeah
Hey-eh-eh-eh, yeah
Learn to let go, learn to let go

moods of the moon

wearing:
hair: #Foxy – Morgana Hair
head: CATWA HEAD Lilly
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
[MANDALA]MILKY WAY CHOKER/polly white
LYBRA . XL STILETTO NAILS
**RE** Luxy Rings
Scandalize. Milena.  (*new* @ WinterTrend)
N-core BIANCA (*new* @ WinterTrend)
JIAN Santa’s Samoyeds 1. Adult Companion RARE (*new*@ Arcade)

pose: Foxcity Sweet Tooth set

scene:
FOXCITY. KPOP STAR – RARE1 – White Wolf
E.V.E {Chained to You} LOVE Ice & Light [RARE]

Heart of Glass

Tiger Lion – Heart Of Glass (cold cover)

Once I had a love and it was a gas
Soon turned out had a heart of glass
Seemed like the real thing, only to find
Mucho mistrust, love’s gone behind
Once I had a love and it was divine
Soon found out I was losing my mind
It seemed like the real thing but I was so blind
Mucho mistrust, love’s gone behind
In between
What I find is pleasing and I’m feeling fine
Love is so confusing there’s no peace of mind
If I fear I’m losing you it’s just no good
You teasing like you do
Once I had a love and it was a gas
Soon turned out had a heart of glass
Seemed like the real thing, only to find
Mucho mistrust, love’s gone behind
Lost inside
Adorable illusion and I cannot hide
I’m the one you’re using, please don’t push me aside
We coulda made it cruising, yeah
Yeah, riding high on love’s true bluish light
In between
What I find is pleasing and I’m feeling fine
Love is so confusing there’s no peace of mind
If I fear I’m losing you it’s just no good
You teasing like you do

frozen heart

wearing:
hair:  MINA – Alexa  (*new* @ FaMESHed)
crown: The Annex  – Moon Child Crown (*new* @ Tannenbaum)
head: CATWA HEAD Lilly
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: DeeTaleZ *Appliers* CATWA Head “Merrylu” Nordic (*new* @ Uber)
tattoo: [White~Widow] Caravage – White
Amala – The Kylie Choker – Thick
CURELESS [+] The Twelfth Night / Alpine Fur / PURE
LYBRA . Ara Babyblue  (*new* @ FaMESHed)
**RE** Luxy Rings Set
LYBRA . XL STILETTO NAILS
glass heart custom made

pose: GingerFish Poses – Yuletide (*new* @ Darkness Monthly)

scene created with:
Enchanted Woods V2 from Studio Skye
T-Spot Winter Tree w/ Lights – White
JIAN :: Arctic Fox Collection
Botanical – Complete Decorative Light Set
{anc} cracked glass (cloud)

Tis the Season

Tis the season for all things Christmas, regardless of your religious beliefs or lack thereof. We are being bombarded with Christmas decor. However, now that Halloween and Thanksgiving have passed, I’m ready for it. I don’t really celebrate it in RL, but I do so love decorating and being festive in SL and there’s no better time than now to grab all the Christmas goodies. Tannenbaum is official open and there’s an abundance of gorgeous items for your home, your yard, and your lovely little mesh bodies. Here’s a sample and be sure to keep watching as there will be lots more posts filled with Tannenbaum goodies coming your way. ♥

in the spirit

wearing:
hair:  TRUTH Farryn (*new* @ Uber)
head: CATWA HEAD Tala
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
Astralia – Waiting for Holidays Headpiece (*new* @ Tannenbaum)
EF: Communique Necklace
**RE** Luxy Rings Set
LYBRA . HAZEL (*new* @ Sad November)
[Gos] Boutique – Bianca Pumps (*new* @ Uber)

pose: Foxcity Wild & Free Set

scene:
.gypsy heart. – Festive Backdrops – Ornaments (*new* @ Tannenbaum)
Botanical – Douglas Fir Christmas Tree for Tannenbaum
{Imeka} Kawaii Christmas Ornaments- 3 (*new* @ Tannenbaum)
{Imeka} Kawaii Christmas Ornaments- 7 (*new* @ Tannenbaum)
[Black Bantam] Puppies Under The Tree Gacha Set (*new* @ Tannenbaum)

Between the Lines

When doing this picture, I had this song in my head the whole time, so here we go again…I give you a link to the video and the lyrics are below. I hope you enjoy it. ♥

Stone Temple Pilots – Between the Lines

Lovely disguise, read between the lines
You rock the magic plane with no abbreviation
Three, four you sell what you bought
And there ain’t no magic pen to get back what you lost

I like it when we talk about love

I like it when we talk about love
You always were my favorite drug
Even when we used to take drugs

Even when we used to take
Even when we used to take
Even when we used to take
Even when we used to take

Penguins don’t fly
Crocodile Sunday smile
Really like to fish but don’t like superficial people
Shoe store heard it all before
From pearly whites to pearly gates
What do we have to argue ’bout

I like it when we talk about love
I like it when we talk about love
You always were my favorite drug
Even when we used to take drugs

Even when we used to take
Even when we used to take
Even when we used to take
Even when we used to take

Leave me all alone before
(Get out the way)
Never did what she was told
(Get out the way)
Seems to play at time of war
(Get out the way)
Less is big and listens more?

Lovely disguise, read between the lines
You rock the magic plane with no abbreviation
Three, four you sell what you bought
And there ain’t no magic pen to get back what you lost

I like it when we talk about love

I like it when we talk about love
You always were my favorite drug
Even when we used to take drugs

Even when we used to take
Even when we used to take
Even when we used to take
Even when we used to take

between the lines

wearing:
hair:  Beusy: Tauri Hair / Becrux Gacha (November PocketGacha)
head: CATWA HEAD Tala
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
**RE** Deah Gloves
_CandyDoll_ Rania Pants (*new* @ C88)

pose: Foxcity Made Up Set
BUENO-Night Life-Beams Neutral

Bad Habits

“The only proper way to eliminate bad habits is to replace them with good ones.”
~Jerome Hines

You ever notice how bad habits go together like peanut butter and jelly? Think about a bar, before all the no smoking policies kicked in across the globe. Bars were always smokey, because anyone that smokes tends to smoke even more when drinking. How about when we snack while watching TV? I never snack when I’m reading a book, but the notorious boob tube makes me want to munch every time. These days just about any idle time puts a smart phone in our hands, our eyes glued to the screen. Sadly, that has led too many people to think that texting while driving was a good idea. Let’s not do that, okay?
That’s why I’ve recently started assigning one day a week to no electronic devices…okay, its more like no computer, because I’m not quite ready to give up TV and messaging with Josh. *grins* I never said I was perfect. I’ve put a book in my bathroom and I’m trying to leave my phone on my desk. As the cool weather sets in, I’m trying to smoke my cigarettes outside, taking the dog with me. I’m doing my best to replace bad habits with good ones, but its definitely baby steps. I’d love to hear from my readers about your bad habits and ways you’ve gone about breaking them. ♥

smoke & joke

hair: .Shi Hair : Tucked  (*new* @ Uber)
head: CATWA HEAD Tala
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: #PUMEC – XENA – Dead March – CATWA SKIN App.
nose piercing: –SU!– Piercing Set 05 Bridge (Catwa Tala)
lip piercing: –SU!– Piercing Set 05 Snakebites (Catwa Tala)
BUENO-Phone- Girl Gangsta (*new* @ Kustom9)
**RE** Luxy Rings Set
LYBRA . XL STILETTO NAILS
PM – JADE (*new* @ Uber)

pose & cigarette from Foxcity
Paparazzi – BACKDROP – The Brownstone Hotel Stoop

Be True to You

“You got to be true
True to yourself
Or you’ll be a fool
To somebody else”
-Yelawolf – “True to Yourself” ft. Bones Owens

I’m just quoting the song today. I’m not going to feed you all the lyrics, because this is not really a song post. Though I do love the newest from Yelawolf, I want to talk about being true to yourself. No matter how old you are, its important to be true to yourself and who you are…who you want to be…what you want from your life. It might be too late for some things, but its never too late for everything. The younger you are the fewer excuses you should have…look at people that move to another country with hardly any money to their names and make something of themselves without help from the government. If they can do, so can you! Seriously, no matter what your passion is, never stop. If you love to paint, then paint. If you can’t afford classes, its okay, paint anyway. Paint because you love it, not because you’re a professional. If you love to sing, but no one wants to hear you sing? That’s ok, sing in your car, your shower, sing your heart out. No one can stop you from that. If you can improve upon your passion, then do it. Be the best at whatever you love as you can. I urge those in their 20s to please listen and don’t let you life get away from you. You think there’s plenty of time, but I promise you that time will escape you and before you know it, you’ll be 40 and wondering what happened to your dreams. Be your own best friend and push yourself forward. Be true to you!

Be You

hair: Nutmeg & Entwined. Cameron (*new* @ Shiny Shabby)
head: CATWA HEAD Tala
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: #PUMEC – XENA – Dead March – CATWA SKIN App.
nose piercing: –SU!– Piercing Set 05 Bridge (Catwa Tala)
lip piercing: –SU!– Piercing Set 05 Snakebites (Catwa Tala)
BUENO-Phone-Sugar Love Potion (*new* @ Kustom9)
**RE** Luxy Rings Set
LYBRA . XL STILETTO NAILS
Scandalize. Alura. SWEATSHIRT. Maitreya (*new* @ Cosmopolitan)
Scandalize. Alura. PANT. Maitreya (*new* @ Cosmopolitan)
E-Clipse Hype Boots Black

pose by Bauhaus Movement
*PROMAGIC* Vivo BAckgrounds-5
*katat0nik* (green) Spray Paint Set – Street Artist
*katat0nik* (purple) Spray Paint Set – Street Artist

 

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