To AraCakes with Love

I grew up listening to my mom telling stories about hanging out at the soda fountain at the pharmacy after school. The closest thing I had to that was my last two years of high school, we’d all park at Corner Grocery, which was really a Texaco station, get drunk and dance in the gravel parking lot. The owners were super cool and didn’t mind us being there as we bought drinks, snacks, cigarettes, and occasionally talked someone into buying us alcohol. Plus, the store isn’t likely to get robbed with a group of teens hanging out next to it. Those were good times, but I always wondered what it must have been like to sit on a stool at an actual soda fountain. God knows with the heat in my part of the world, I’d love to sit in a sweet shop with a good old fashioned milk shake right about now. We had a really cute little shop for a while called Just Desserts where you’d get a piece of cake the size of your head and pay about $6usd for it, but it was literally too rich for my blood. That’s the problem I find with most American desserts anyway, too sweet. I grew up on European desserts and as decadent as they looked, they were the perfect balance of flavors without being too sweet.
So, anyway, you might be wondering about the title and what that has to do with what I’ve written. Well, I’ll tell you, absolutely nothing. This post is just a little wink to Miss AraCakes, a wonderful and shy friend of mine that is the only one that gets away with calling me Cupcake. I know by writing that you’ll all try it now and I’m warning you, the nickname is reserved for Ara only, so when I ignore you…you’ll know why, cuz you fuckers ain’t gonna steal her special pet name for me! *sticks her tongue out*

SadyCakes

wearing:
hair
little bones. Estine (*new* @ C88)
headCATWA HEAD Kathy
bodyMaitreya Mesh Body – Lara
tattoo.:::G.ID:::. Charlotte Tattoo (*new* @ Vintage Fair)

Cae :: Sydney :: Necklace (*new* @ FaMESHed)
:::NOIR::: Infinite Bracelets (*new* @ FaMESHed)
**RE** Dark Queen Rings – Bento 2.0
Astralia – Compatible nails system (Maitreya Stiletto base)
GingerFish -Nail Applier-Astralia-Bloody Kisses
LYBRA . Natalia (*new* @ SouledOut)
[Gos] Boutique – Gigi Sandals (*new* @ FaMESHed)

pose by Del May Poses

scene:
RAMA – #selfie_RAMA Iron Wall
[Merak] – Milkshake Sign (*new* @ Vintage Fair)
[Merak] – Bakery Sign (*new* @ Vintage Fair)
[Merak] – Cupcake Sign (*new* @ Vintage Fair)
[Merak] – Cupcake Box (*new* @ Vintage Fair)
[Merak] – Milkshake Love (*new* @ Vintage Fair)
[Merak] – Retro Bakery Bar (*new* @ Vintage Fair)
[Merak] – Retro High Chair(green) (*new* @ Vintage Fair)

These Chains

“Even in these chains, you can’t stop me.
Even in these chains, you can’t stop me!”
In This Moment Big Bad Wolf

The song I quoted above is one of my all time favorite songs and the moment I heard it I recognized the struggle with myself in the lyrics. I often find myself wrapped in the chains of circumstances. Too many times those chains of my own. The fight that goes on in my head with myself is a constant one. Perhaps the voice inside me that belittles me at every turn, the one that abuses me mentally and emotionally, the one that urges me towards death and poor choices…perhaps that’s the part of me that was trained to believe I was nothing but entertainment by my father. Perhaps not. Its quite possible that we all have an inner voice that criticizes our every move. That voice of doubt…of worthlessness…our own worst critic….maybe we all have that voice.
I can’t know how loud other people’s ugly little voices yell or scream, but I know that mine can be deafening. However, I can yell back at them just as loud…at times. The last year and a half have lent so much strength to that hateful voice that I’ve had to lean on friends and medications to keep my head afloat. I teetered on a very fine line between life and death, but now? Now, I am fighting back. I’m standing up and I’m breaking those chains, because I will not be my worst enemy anymore. To that awful voice inside my head, I scream, “Even in these chains, you can’t stop me!”

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hairTableau Vivant \\ Summer Hairplay – Coromuel (*new* @ Arcade)
headCATWA HEAD Kathy
bodyMaitreya Mesh Body – Lara

[CX] Qilin Horns (Silver)
**RE** Cora Arms Harness 1.2
E.V.E Shroud of Chains {Black} Cape
Phedora Belladona ~ Amoret addon Maitreya nyx (*new* @ Arcade)
Phedora Belladona ~ Amoret Maitreya nyx (*new* @ Arcade)
{Luxuria} Baby Girl Stockings (FLF 6/9/17)
Phedora Belladona ~ Edith platforms Maitreya Nyx (*new* @ Arcade)

background made using a spiked box from The Weekend Ruiner
and uK – Mystic Dew Drops Ani Silver

pose created with AnyPose

Holiday Weekend!

Whether you live in the U.S. and observe Memorial Day (not really a celebratory event) or in the UK where they have a bank holiday (that no one seems to know the reason for) or maybe you live somewhere else with a holiday today….for most people its been a three day weekend. In the US, regardless of the reason, a three day weekend usually means a cookout! It means a day outside, unless you live where I do at the moment….and here it simply means rain. Fortunately for me, I discovered (thanks to Facebook) a very cool new-ish weather app called WTForecast! This makes me laugh to no end and I’m sure my FB friends are quite tired of seeing me share my weather posts, but they are FUNNY! Okay, clearly I’m off track…*takes a minute to read back*….oh yeah, I was going to write about the different holidays. Nothing to really say about the bank holiday, cuz the only thing I can find about it is some jibberish about bank holidays in general, not an actual reason for this one in particular. Memorial Day, however, really should be considered a more somber occasion as its a day to recognize those that died while serving their country. But in the U.S. we are soooo commercialized its usually more like a day for sales and cookouts! Its a patriotic holiday at best, so I’ve donned some red, white, and blue….because like most Americans *hangs her head* I wasn’t thinking about what the holiday actually is, just that it was a three day weekend and what usually happens on three day weekends.
On that note, I am grateful for all the people that have served my country and my heart goes out to all the families of those lost to battles on our behalf. It is because of them that selfish little people like myself can forget the true nature of the day and enjoy the freedoms that their service affords me. Thank you.

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wearing:
hairTRUTH / Imani (*new* @ Uber)
head: CATWA HEAD Kathy
bodyMaitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skinGlam Affair – Polly – Catwa Mesh Head Applier – Jamaica (*new* @ Kustom9)
tattoo: .Identity. Body Shop – Appliers HUD [Tender Garden]

**RE** Simone Heart Collar
!Rebel Hope – Brinkly Mesh Bikini Top
L&B Swear Dita Denim Shorts (*new* @ Uber)

pose by Bauhaus Movement

location: Luane’s Romantic Sim (beach side)

Unlike Any Other

I was thinking about the mushy post I wrote the other day and how I said his love is unlike any I’ve ever known. I got to thinking about how often people say that about current relationships. I thought about how overused the phrase is and quite honestly, I got annoyed with myself for using the phrase so much, as well. Then I started thinking about it, really thinking about it. Each love is and should be like any other, shouldn’t it?
Think about it, every relationship you’ve been in had to be wonderful at some point and had to have seemed unlike any other…at least for a while, right? I mean why be with someone if it doesn’t feel wonderful, right? Even the relationships that are over and ended badly, before the end…before everything went to shit, something was good. That relationship was special. I suppose this is how things become cliche’ in the first place…they ring true and are applicable repeatedly.
Well, it was just something I was thinking about a lot lately. As I am crazy about Josh and he truly is like anyone I’ve ever known before, but then again so are all my exes. *laughs* Thank goodness for that! How daft would it be if they were all the same, afterall!?!? Yeah, ok, there’s a picture and pretty stuff…shutting up now. *wanders off to chase squirrels*

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wearing:
hairTRUTH Taja
head: CATWA HEAD Kathy
bodyMaitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skinGlam Affair – Polly – Catwa Mesh Head Applier – Jamaica (*new* @ Kustom9)
tattooRedFish  – Pholy Tattoo (*new* @ Lost & Found)

**RE** Bad Kitty Collar 1.1
ChicModa // Carol Top (*new* @ Cosmopolitan)
SPIRIT – Mil pants
fri. – Koko Wraps (*new* @ N21)

pose by Del May

scene:
uK – DJ Dead Chair Grey
RAMA – #selfie_RAMA YES YOU

When Did It Happen?

Record stores, newspapers, phone booths…they all seem rather obsolete these days. Technology has hurled us so far beyond these things, that all three are in the palm of hands.
Yes, from time to time you’ll stumble across a used record store and the random DJ that actually spins vinyl, or even the purest that insists nothing will ever sound better. However, on average most of us are listening to MP3s. I don’t even own a CD player anymore with the exception of the one in my eleven year old car that I still love as much as the day I got it. However, my RL husband (eventually ex) got a new car last year and it came with a USB port for MPs rather than a CD player. Seems CD players are becoming antiquated, too.
My father started a hobby magazine for radio control airplanes in the 80s. It did quite well, I was even fortunate enough to be assistant editor on a few issues. However, as the internet grew, his magazine suffered. Bloggers and websites quickly replaced subscriptions to his hobby magazine. Eventually, he sold his magazine to someone much younger that took it straight to the internet. That was the end of his magazine. Similarly, our local newspaper was forced to close their doors and re-route the issues through another city’s newspaper office. We only get two issues on the local stands now….Wednesday and Sunday. Bigger publications may still be in circulation, but even they have learned to incorporate the internet and offer a new type of subscription service there. Even books have moved to devices, they save us space and such, right? I tried those electronic readers, but I can’t do it. I need to feel of the paper in my hands, the smell of the ink as I crack it open to read another chapter.
Phones…whoa…land lines and phone booths are fading just as fast. I can’t remember the last time I saw a working phone booth. We let go of our land line years ago. Why pay for another phone line when each person in the house has their own personal cell phone?
I could go on and on about this subject as I’m sure anyone over 40 can. I’m just going to offer you a link to a song that really sums it up far better than I ever could. He’s an artist I was introduced to a little over a year ago and I quickly became a huge fan. His name is Watsky and the song is Tiny Glowing Screens Part 1. I encourage you to check him out for more than just this song while I try to wrap my head around it all.

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wearing:
hair[monso] My Hair – Twobi (*new* @ Kustom9)
head: CATWA HEAD Kathy
bodyMaitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skinGlam Affair – Polly – Catwa Mesh Head Applier – Jamaica (*new* @ Kustom9)
lipstick: ::SG:: GellyLips Catwa and Classi SL Heads
tattooISUKA Sombra (ULTRA Anniversary gift)

[ kunst ] – Vintage Cigarette Holder
**RE** Dark Queen Bracelets
**RE** Dark Queen Rings – Bento 2.0
Kibitz — Bonnie Collar — Black (*new* @ Kustom9)
UC_Sisi_short_dress_red_Maitreya_Slink_Belleza (*new* @ Kustom9)

pose by Bauhaus Movement
location: Whole Wheat

Damn, you look good!

So, my desk is in my bedroom…I love my bedroom. I spend most of my time in here. The other day I was just feeling so tired and I looked over my shoulder, thinking I heard a noise and my bed just looked so comfortable that I spoke to it. What did I say? Well, you’d have thought I was talking to a lover or something, because I just sighed and said, “Damn, you look good! I want to be in you so bad right now!” *bursts into giggles* I realize how dirty that sounds, but honestly…my bed is super comfy and I really wanted to crawl in and never come out.
I did eventually crawl into bed and pass out, but it was much later in the night. So, what does that have to do with this picture? Well, I kinda sleep like that…oh I don’t look quite so sexy, my tongue isn’t licking my top lip, its usually just sticking out between my lips like a dog, except that dogs look cute when they do it. *laughs* So, when I took this picture I got amused and well, if you’re a regular reader or you know me…well…yeah, you know that mind works in very bizarre ways and you’ve just jumped right down the rabbit hole with me.

phedora annex

wearing:
hairICONIC:MORGANA (*new* @ ON9)
head: CATWA HEAD Kathy
bodyMaitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skin: Glam Affair – Felicity – Catwa Mesh Head Applier – Jamaica (*new* @ C88)
tattoo: .Identity. Body Shop – Rise Strong (MBA)

**RE** Simone Heart Collar
**RE** ReVoX Aros Couple Bracelet – Female
Schadenfreude Raven Wee Beastie Ring 1 (worn as a bracelet)
The Annex – Lauren Dress – Decay – MAITREYA (*new* @ The Liaison Collabortive)
Phedora ~ Kylie heels (*new* @ ROMP)

pose: . Infiniti . – Heels 1M (ROMP)

Stormy Weather

Gosh, there’s been such a wicked storm brewing over my house all weekend long. It just worked out that I took this picture as it began to thunder. Despite the storm in real life, its been a whirlwind of a time for me in Second Life. I was recently brought in as a Liaison for FaMESHed. What that means for me is that I get to work along side some of the most amazing designers in Second Life and help them keep up with the deadlines involved with getting such an incredible event up and running. It has been the most amazing journey and to think I really only took blogging seriously again a little over a year ago. Now I’m working with FaMESHed, blogging for some of the most incredible stores…not to mention becoming a blog manager for some amazing designers, as well. I am truly blessed and this is one whirlwind of a storm, I hope never ends!

stormy weather

In the meantime, there are events going on all over the grid and while FaMESHed is celebrating their five year anniversary today (opens at noon slt), there are some other events open and opening as I write. So, I encourage you to get out there and see what you might find to put together the perfect look for you. Afterall, even during a storm, we need to look fierce, right? *nods* Right!

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wearing:
hair:  *~*Damselfly*~*Elizabella (*new* @ FaMESHed)
head: CATWA HEAD Kathy
bodyMaitreya Mesh Body – Lara
**RE** Simone Heart Collar
The Annex – Friday Dress (*new* @ The Coven)
[BREATHE]-Chika Heels (*new* @ FaMESHed)

poses by bounce

location: Arranmore