Losing It

I remember the first time I saw my mom just lose it. She had spent hours making this cake from scratch, but it tilted so bad and kept sliding, no matter what she tried. Next thing I know she’s screaming and attacks the cakes with her claw like hands and cakes went everywhere. The next time I saw her lose it was when we had borrowed a VW Bug from a friend. It had a stick shift (look it up if you’re too young to know) and she hated them, the clutch would stick, too. It was the first time I heard the F word. *gasps* I think the first time I truly lost it was in high school. It was a really bad hair day and I broke my hair brush. Many times, I’ve felt like throwing all my papers in the air when writing…and once upon a time I did all my writing on paper. *giggles* Most days this is what my brain feels like…someone just threw my life in the air and I’m doing my best to grab it all and make some sense of it.

losing it
The writer stares with glassy eyes —
Defies the empty page,

wearing:
hair: RAMA.SALON – Sonya Hair (*new* @ Shiny Shabby)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: [theSkinnery]  Iris (Catwa Applier) toffee
Cae :: Zora :: Glasses (*new* @ The Clique)
::GB::Off Shoulder Cardigan (F)/ Gray
{le fil casse} Alysha Dress (*new* @ Uber)
_CD_ Deya Wedge (*new* @ N21)

JIAN Marble Fox (Static – Sleeping L)

pose: Bauhaus Movement

scene:
a lot of books from all over the grid
bookcase and fireplace – DRD – Shadow Box – Series 01 – FEB 2018 – LIGHT

 

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All I Ever Wanted Was Everything

Just this…

Bauhaus – All We Ever Wanted Was Everything

All we ever wanted was everything
All we ever got was cold
Get up, eat jelly, sandwich bars and barbed wire
And squash every week into a day
Oh oh oh oh
Oh oh oh oh
The sound of the drum is calling
The sound of the drum has called
Flash of youth shoot out of darkness
Factory town
Oh oh oh oh
Oh oh oh oh
Oh to be the cream
Oh to be the cream
Oh to be the cream

all I ever wanted

wearing:
hair: RAMA.SALON – Jacinda Hair (*new* @ Blush)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: [theSkinnery]  Iris (Catwa Applier) toffee
Narcisse– Pixie Cami & Ruffle Panties

pose: FOXCITY. What Gives Bento Pose Set  (*new* @ Blush)
FOXCITY. Photo Booth – Insatiable Pink (*new* @ Blush)

Cobblestone

Cobblestone

Once upon a time, all roads were rough
But the people that drove them grew up tough
Used to the bumps, the holes, and the bounce
They took their lumps, their woes by the ounce

That’s when good roads were cobblestone
The poor ones were rocks and dirt
Now we’re spoiled with pavement
But older wheels make our egos hurt

Once upon a time, you were lucky to have an outhouse
Today we’re all screaming if we even see a little mouse
Candles provided the only source of evening light
Now we bitch if the cable goes out at night

Now its a novelty to find cobblestone
We romanticize the days of yesteryear
Yet, we take for granted what we have now
We’re fucking lucky, let’s make that clear

Once upon a time, vows meant a life long commitment
And divorce? Well, that was an embarrassment
Now you can swipe left or swipe right
Hoping our profiles will get a bite

So, the next time you find yourself on cobblestone
Look in your heart to find some gratitude
Because the state of your life
Could very well rest upon your attitude
~written by Sadystika Sabretooth Ⓒ

cobblestone

wearing:
hair: RAMA.SALON – Kimmy Hair (*new* @ FaMESHed)
head: CATWA HEAD Uma
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: DeeTaleZ  “Merrylu” Mixedtype
Dahlia – Yuma – Necklace (*new* @ FaMESHed)
Bueno Cozy Sweater  (*new* @ FaMESHed)
erratic / eva – knee socks plain
{Livalle} Lydia – Mary Jane Creepers (*new* @ SaNaRae)

pose: Foxcity Show Off Set
Paparazzi – BACKDROP – Dead End Garage – jade

Power

“The most common way people give up their power is by thinking they don’t have any.” ~Alice Walker

Such a simple statement, yet filled to the brim with truth. We often refuse our own power whether surrender to others for emotional gratification or pointing fingers to place the blame for our predicaments. The truth is we have a hand in everything that happens to us. Perhaps not in the actual events, but certainly we are responsible for how we move forward. The victim of a crime is only a victim for as long as the crime is happening. Afterwards, there is a choice…survive or surrender. Use the power within ourselves to overcome what has happened or surrender to the fear, pain, and memories of it all. Power…really is a choice, isn’t it?

red means go

wearing:
hair:  :::Phoenix::: Evelyn Hair (*new* @ Hairology)
head: CATWA HEAD Tala
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
ChicModa // Halle // Bloggers (*new* @ 4Mesh)
Phedora ~ Alicia heels ~ group gift

pose: Foxcity Steamy Set
scene:
RAMA – #selfie_RAMA Studio Disks (*new* @ 6Republic)
Di’Cor Carson Leather Chair [Ivory]
Fancy Decor: Turvy Wine Glass

Breaking Free

I wrote the other day about wanting to do something different and well, here it is. *laughs* This me trying to think outside the box? I honestly have no idea what to say about this, except that I think sometimes when we feel caged, its our own fault. Sometimes we lose sight of what we want in the effort to please others. Sometimes we stifle our creativity by trying to control it. So, this is me breaking free in a way. I actually really like how this turned out, but its hard for me to explain the way it makes me feel. Words are hard sometimes, okay?

break free

wearing:
UC_Imortal_mask
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
LYBRA . LACY BLOGGERS (*new* @ Kinky)
LYBRA . WITCH GLOVES
LYBRA . XL STILETTO NAILS

pose by Bauhaus Movement
RAMA – #selfie_RAMA Neon Grid#2 (*new* @ 6 Republic)

Google & Me- #SecondLifeChallenge

Alright, Strawberry has another challenge for us and her’s the instructions:
Google your Second Life avatar name inside quotation marks and then answer the following questions.

  1. Google your Second Life name in “quotations” and share your results. About 7,440 results
  2. What are the first 5 links that come up? My flickr, my playlist on YouTube, my SL blog, my short story blog that I don’t use, and my Google+.
  3. Click on the “Images” tab and tell us where the first 5 images are from. All of them are on Flickr and from my blogs.
  4. Click on the “Videos” tab and share your results, if any. The first one is a video I was in for MadPea a while back, the rest are songs I liked or commented on.
  5. Click on the “News” tab and share your results, if any. The only result was do I mean Sadystik Sabretooth, which got no results. No news is good news, right?
  6. Did any of the results surprise you? I was surprised there were so many results. Apparently, I’ve been tagged in a lot blogs and stuff that I didn’t know about.
  7. Are you satisfied with your results or wish they were different in any way? I can’t say I’d want to see them differently or that I was dissatisfied. I never even thought to do this before, but it was fun and now I’m sort of obsessed with seeing what all these results are AND I’ve found myself creating a Pinterest account…what the hell is happening to me???

Envy

wearing:
hair: RAMA.SALON – Kendall Hair (*new* @ FaMESHed)
head: CATWA HEAD Tala
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
nose piercing: –SU!– Piercing Set 05 Bridge (Catwa Tala)
lip piercing: –SU!– Piercing Set 05 Snakebites (Catwa Tala)
[Cynful] Angelina’s Leather Set  (*new* @ C88)

pose by Foxcity
RAMA – #selfie_RAMA Neon Hangar (*new* @ 6 Republic)

Random Run

She was out for a run like any other day. She stopped at the corner market for her bottle of water and a rest when the adorable little puppy wandered up, tongue and tail wagging. She poured some of her water on the ground for the pup and he lapped up before passing out at her feet. He had no tags and he was too cute to leave abandoned in a parking lot. She sighed and rolled her eyes at herself, I don’t have time for a puppy. She carried the pup into the store and asked the clerk if she knew anything about it. The clerk mentioned that the pup had been hanging around for a few days but no one had claimed it or came looking for it. Sady sighed again, left her number with the clerk just in case anyone came looking for the sweet puppy and took it home.
That was six years ago, the Random and Sady have been inseparable ever since.

rest stop

wearing:
hair/Wasabi Pills/ Deanna (*new* @ FaMESHed)
headCATWA HEAD Kathy
skin: DeeTaleZ *Appliers* CATWA Head “Face Miriam”
bodyMaitreya Mesh Body – Lara
tattoo: [White~Widow] Coco – Black (*new* @ Uber)

[Z O O M] Jinks Glasses (*new* @ FaMESHed)
Scandalize. Annie TOP. Maitreya (*new* @ MBA Fair)
Scandalize. ANNIE Sweatshirt. Maitreya (*new* @ MBA Fair)
Scandalize. ANNIE Leggins. Maitreya (*new* @ MBA Fair)
REIGN.– JUNE SNEAKERS
JIAN Lively Labs :: Black Companion Pup
{Imeka} Cutie water bottle {5}

Scene:
7 – Ice Machine II PG (pose included, edited with AnyPose)
RAMA – #selfie_RAMA Sclater Street

To AraCakes with Love

I grew up listening to my mom telling stories about hanging out at the soda fountain at the pharmacy after school. The closest thing I had to that was my last two years of high school, we’d all park at Corner Grocery, which was really a Texaco station, get drunk and dance in the gravel parking lot. The owners were super cool and didn’t mind us being there as we bought drinks, snacks, cigarettes, and occasionally talked someone into buying us alcohol. Plus, the store isn’t likely to get robbed with a group of teens hanging out next to it. Those were good times, but I always wondered what it must have been like to sit on a stool at an actual soda fountain. God knows with the heat in my part of the world, I’d love to sit in a sweet shop with a good old fashioned milk shake right about now. We had a really cute little shop for a while called Just Desserts where you’d get a piece of cake the size of your head and pay about $6usd for it, but it was literally too rich for my blood. That’s the problem I find with most American desserts anyway, too sweet. I grew up on European desserts and as decadent as they looked, they were the perfect balance of flavors without being too sweet.
So, anyway, you might be wondering about the title and what that has to do with what I’ve written. Well, I’ll tell you, absolutely nothing. This post is just a little wink to Miss AraCakes, a wonderful and shy friend of mine that is the only one that gets away with calling me Cupcake. I know by writing that you’ll all try it now and I’m warning you, the nickname is reserved for Ara only, so when I ignore you…you’ll know why, cuz you fuckers ain’t gonna steal her special pet name for me! *sticks her tongue out*

SadyCakes

wearing:
hair
little bones. Estine (*new* @ C88)
headCATWA HEAD Kathy
bodyMaitreya Mesh Body – Lara
tattoo.:::G.ID:::. Charlotte Tattoo (*new* @ Vintage Fair)

Cae :: Sydney :: Necklace (*new* @ FaMESHed)
:::NOIR::: Infinite Bracelets (*new* @ FaMESHed)
**RE** Dark Queen Rings – Bento 2.0
Astralia – Compatible nails system (Maitreya Stiletto base)
GingerFish -Nail Applier-Astralia-Bloody Kisses
LYBRA . Natalia (*new* @ SouledOut)
[Gos] Boutique – Gigi Sandals (*new* @ FaMESHed)

pose by Del May Poses

scene:
RAMA – #selfie_RAMA Iron Wall
[Merak] – Milkshake Sign (*new* @ Vintage Fair)
[Merak] – Bakery Sign (*new* @ Vintage Fair)
[Merak] – Cupcake Sign (*new* @ Vintage Fair)
[Merak] – Cupcake Box (*new* @ Vintage Fair)
[Merak] – Milkshake Love (*new* @ Vintage Fair)
[Merak] – Retro Bakery Bar (*new* @ Vintage Fair)
[Merak] – Retro High Chair(green) (*new* @ Vintage Fair)

The 3F Rule

“I can swear, I can joke
I say what’s on my mind
If I drink, if I smoke
I keep up with the guys
And you see me holding up my middle finger to the world
Fuck your ribbons and your pearls
‘Cause I’m not just a pretty girl”
Maggie Lindemann – Pretty Girl

My mother was raised in a strict Christian home by a single mom that was too proud to accept charity of any kind, thus she worked three jobs to keep the bills paid. Yet, somehow never missed church or disciplining her daughters by reminding them to carry themselves a certain way. Afterall, what would people think? My father was raised in a very abusive home and was often hidden away from the public by his single mom. She would lock him in the basement on weekends so that she could pretend she only had two children, whose father had died during WWII. (Mind you he died in prison, not the war, but she conveniently left that part of the story out.) My father’s dad had left when he was only 3yrs old to pursue his drinking and drug addictions. Eventually my father joined the U.S. Army, where once again, life was all about appearances.
Needless to say, my parents expected me to behave a certain way. They taught me how to converse with adults politely, then disappear, as children were meant to be seen, not heard. My parents finally divorced when I was in high school and my mother was so beside herself with grief that she quit imposing so many rules on me. That was when I began to develop my own style and discover the person I wanted to be. I didn’t want to cater to society’s norms. I wanted to in the exit door and leave through the entrance. I wanted to wear short skirts over leggings with ripped tee shirts and wild hair.
For years, my mother tried to make me a princess. She wanted to decorate my room with ruffles and canopy beds. I wanted my mattress on the floor with tons of pillows. She quickly became very much like her own mother and repeatedly said to me, “What will people think?”
I didn’t care what people thought! If they didn’t know me, how could they have a proper impression of me? Based on my clothes? The color of my skin? The color of my hair? My eyes? Eventually I discovered the 3F rule and I’ve pretty much lived my life that way ever since.
The 3F rule is simple: If you are not Feeding me, Financing me, or Fucking me….you get no say in how I live my life and your opinion means nothing to me. I was never going to be what my mother wanted me to be, nor did I want to. Yes, she was feeding me and financing me at the time, but she still needed to let me be me…or there would be a fight. There were many of those over the years until she realized she was never going to win. I was not going to be this super feminine little princess that sat around waiting for some prince charming, because I learned early on…you can never truly know another person. The only person you can truly know is yourself and that’s the person you should be true to.

The 3F Rule

hair.:EMO-tions.. *PAOLA* (*new* @ Vintage Fair)
headCATWA HEAD Kathy
bodyMaitreya Mesh Body – Lara

.LYBRA . SADIE (*new* @ FaMESHed)

pose by GingerFish Poses
background: RAMA – #selfie_RAMA Circles Studio

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