I really have just about given up on the idea of romance. I mean, sex will be had, but its just sex. My sexual needs can be met with toys and tumblr, easily enough. Plus, this is SL, I’m sure if I really wanted a voice in my ear, that too, would be easy enough to find. Meh, I’m just over that. I want more. I deserve more. Will I get more? Not likely. One thing is for sure, though. I will not settle for less than I deserve…not again. I’ve done that repeatedly in the past and regretted it every single time. I have yet to look back on someone I turned away and wished I could have gone back to date them afterall. The funny thing is most of these men I’ve settled for? They’ve barely taken an interest in me as a person. They want an audience. They want arm candy. They want sex. I’m honestly starting to believe that it doesn’t matter what I’m actually about, but rather what I have to offer. I’ve watched my friends lose themselves completely to different partners over the years, while a few have stayed true to themselves….most have surrendered what they truly deserved and settled for…a pretty package, a name in their partner box, an avi to cuddle with, someone they can pretend to be in love with until they hurt so much from depriving themselves of their true needs, that they are broken down to pieces. Each time this happens, they grow more desperate not to let it happen again, but only settling for less and less. Less respect, less attention, less honesty, less of everything. I’m done. I’ve been single long enough now to realize I treat myself way better than any of the men that have been in my life romantically….EVER. Not sure what that says about me, to be honest, but I do know that I seem to be better off alone. Because in the end? I don’t think they really want to know ME at all.
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: [Glam Affair] Dee Applier [ Catwa ] 007 (*new* @ Au Lovely)