Skyscraper

“You can take everything I have
You can break everything I am
Like I’m made of glass
Like I’m made of paper
Go on and try to tear me down
I will be rising from the ground
Like a skyscraper, like a skyscraper”
~Kerli – Skyscraper

As humans, we take a lot of punches throughout our lives. Yet, with each passing day, we either grow stronger or weaker. Ultimately, the choice is ours. Mentally and emotionally, I’ve definitely grown stronger. My body? Eh, not so much. I should have taken better care of it when I was younger, but I was invincible and never imagined I’d live past 30. Here I am dealing with level 8 pain daily as the weather changes. Yet, the emotional and mental tolls have been far more difficult to face.
There have been times that I’ve felt as fragile as glass, as delicate as tissue paper, and I’ve been beaten down both literally and figuratively. But each and every time, so far, I’ve gotten up. I’ve gained strength from the pain. In fact, there are times that by keeping my pain to myself and not complaining about it, by not showing it to the world, that I can borrow from it….channel it into strength. I’ve siphoned power from the pain to keep going. Perhaps I’m a bit stubborn, too. I feel like if anyone is going to genuinely take credit for me falling apart, its going to be me. So, until I’m ready to curl up with the worms for eternity, I will continue to rise like a skyscraper.

***If you are reading this on any site that suggests this post was originally published anywhere but SadyStyle by anyone other than Sadystika Sabretooth, you are reading a stolen post.

Skyscraper

wearing:
hair:  Lamb. Dove (*new* @ Uber)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skin: [theSkinnery] Amber (*new* @ C88)

EF: Acanthus Headpiece (*new* @ X by FaMESHed)
EF: Acanthus Mask (*new* @ X by FaMESHed)
[The Forge] Xane Collar, Black (*new* @ X by FaMESHed)
Legal Insanity – Mistress dress (*new* @ X by FaMESHed)
_CandyDoll_ Claudia Boots (*new* @ C88)

pose: FOXCITY. Sass Bento Pose Set

Paparazzi – BACKDROP – Grime Block Balcony
BUENO-NightSpot Loft Building-Regular

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…just some words i wrote

He called in sick, when I needed him most
He only saw a piece of the aftermath
And he called in sick
What could I do?
He wasn’t to mine to be true.
Be mad? Nah.
Why?
Is that what you would do?

zk & noir kinky event

wearing:
hair:  Sintiklia – Hair Xia
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skin: [Glam Affair] Dee

:::NOIR::: Marie Bracelets (*new* @ Kinky)
Ascendant – Nude Bento Nails (*new* @ Kinky)
-:zk:- Tania Top (*new* @ Kinky)
-:zk:- Tania Shorts (*new* @ Kinky)

pose: FOXCITY. What Gives Bento Pose Set
Paparazzi – Pose Hallway – AMBER

Topless Tuesdays & Vanilla Bae

So, a lot of clubs in SL, especially adult ones, have Topless Tuesdays, but I’ve found no other club that makes it as fun as FMD. Naturally, you all know I hang out there quite a bit and that I’m a kinky bitch. Thus, it cannot surprise you that I look forward to Tuesdays. However, as I do have other responsibilities, it is sometimes difficult or just a pain in the arse to change tops every time I need to run elsewhere on a Tuesday. Lo and behold, I have found the most delicious solution. Thanks to Vanilla Bae, we now have a selection of interactive clothing that allows us to go from topless, back to modest with the click of a button. To make it even better, you can set it to private or public, or even assign users. How freaking cool is that? Its not just for tops either, this outfit I’m wearing will slide the panties over, too. Talk about convenience!!
So, if you’re a member at FMD, grab you some Vanilla Bae and c’mon over! If you’re not, I really think you should be. It’s an awesome club, plus I hang out there….duh, so you know its gotta be awesome! Oh and did I mention that Vanilla Bae is one of the sponsors at FMD? So, come to one of our parties on a Saturday night, make sure you dress in theme, you might just win!

topless tuesdays

wearing:
hair:  #Foxy – Sugar Hair
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
ears: ^^Swallow^^ Ears Silence BLACK
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: [theSkinnery] Katy
brows: –SU!- Blair Eyebrows +CATWA APPLIER

SU!– Piercing Set 05 Bridge
SU!– Bento Piercing Set 03 Nose Rings
CODE-5 Pamerale
(Yummy) Free Spirit Rings
SECRETS– Danita Nipple Chain
e.marie // Flask – Vodka

Tee*fy Eden Shrug – Black
* Vanilla Bae * Lauren Top & Panty (*new* @ equal10)

pose by Del May

Paparazzi – Slum Riverside – BACKDROP – green (*new* @ Limit8)

I Tried

When I tell someone that I don’t believe I have a true love or that you no longer have a heart to give, they immediately feel sorry for me. They want to save me and convince m that there is a true love out there for me somewhere.  Meanwhile, I have a man telling me that anyone would be a fool not to love me, but does he? How could he when he is with another? I have tried to believe that there is something special out there for me, but I’ve surrendered to my fate. I know now that my place is in the shadows. I know that my place is a secret hideaway, for it in the dark that the truth hides. Whatever there is about me that people find so lovable, there must be something equally wretched that sends them away. And that’s ok. I know now that I tried. That is not my life. Love has eluded me repeatedly and now? I’m done. I tried.

I tried
Sometimes I feel that I am what I deserve
A hundred crimes, no way to pay them off
So when quiet fills the night and you hurt
Know I am sorry for all that you lost

wearing:
hair: no.match_ ~ NO_WONDERLAND (*new* @ Enchantment)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
ears: ^^Swallow^^ Shiny Ears
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: [theSkinnery] Katy (Catwa Applier) toffee (*new* @ C88)
brows: –SU!- Blair Eyebrows +CATWA APPLIER

[Avenge] Universe necklace (long) (*new* @ TresChic)
[Avenge] Universe earring (*new @ TresChic)
ChicModa&e.marie // Knot Dress (*new* @ Whimsical)

pose by Del May
Paparazzi – Slum Riverside – BACKDROP – green (*new* @ Limit8)

Baggage

We all have some sort of emotional baggage. Some are lucky enough to travel light. Some of us have to rent out a storage room to keep up with everything that happens to us. The thing is we definitely need to put it somewhere, otherwise we’re dragging it all around with us all the time and it just weighs us down. We don’t need to carry it around displaying it with pride like, “Oh look at me, I was abused as a kid!” We must learn how to deal with it and once we do, we need to pack it neatly away so that when we revisit it, or these metaphorical boxes in our imaginary closets/storage rooms come crashing down, we can deal with it accordingly. Yes, occasionally it will happen that one or more of those boxes might fall open, but just like photographs in a shoe-box, we need to learn to sift through those memories and realize how far we’ve come. Then shove that crap right back in the box and possibly find a more secure place for it. Then lock it up and guard the key, only offering to open it up and share with people we’ve learned to trust. People we know won’t turn around and use the things they discover like weapons against us down the line.
Maybe I’m waxing too philosophical this morning. Maybe none of that made sense to anyone, but me. Then I again, my blog is my therapy…so what do you expect? *chuckles*

storage

wearing:
hair: Lamb. Luna (*new* @ FaMESHed)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: Glam Affair – Mindy

.::Dead Dollz::. Margot Romper (*new* @ FaMESHed)
Essenz – Detroit (*new* @ Uber)

pose: GingerFish Poses – Euphoria Set
Paparazzi – BACKDROP – Dead End Garage – jade

Santa’s Helper

What if with women’s rights, we fought for our right to be Santa, too? Naturally, we’d do it much sexier than an old fat man in a beard, but would we stumble along the streets on Christmas eve drunk and pissing in corners, because this is the end of the gig until next year? Nah, we’d make much more money as Santa hookers or strippers…helpers, if you will. *grins*
Regardless of who Santa may or may not be, sober or not, I know my ass will be eating well and sauced up right. Hope your holiday weekend is a happy one♥

drunk santa

wearing:
hair: MINA – Carmen (*new* @ Uber)
head: CATWA HEAD Lilly
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: DeeTaleZ  “Merrylu” Mixedtype
^^Swallow^^ Shiny Ears
**RE** Juliett Pasties Maitreya Red Common
::GB::Mini down jacket (Maitreya) Santa (*new* @ District20)
UC_Mimi_panties
UC_Mimi_boots

pose: Imitation. – Kendra v1 Set
Paparazzi – BACKDROP – Dead End Garage – jade (*new* @ Limit8)

Giving You Up

I’m actually not going to cop out with a song and lyrics, which is what I often feel like I’m doing. Although several people have told me that they don’t see it that way and I’m glad. Deep down, I just feel like I’m not being true to my blog when I simply link a song and share the lyrics. While this post is linked to Miley Cyrus’ Giving You Up, the video I’ve linked provides the lyrics. So, if you’re interested, they are there. Not every line fits how I’m feeling, but a good bit of it does.

I’m not going into great detail, but I don’t think its much of  a secret that I’m nursing a broken heart. I had 368 days of bliss with Josh and then it ended. Just like that. There was no fight. There was no real discussion, it was just a very sudden realization that this was the end. His RL had to come first and I want nothing more than for him to be happy there, especially knowing we never stood a chance of being together in RL. He gave me his avatars, so now I have malts (male alts, for those that aren’t familiar with the term) and eventually I’ll use them for photos. I have no intentions of being a man in SL. Though it might be interesting. *eyes Tracy & grins momentarily*

The truth of the matter is that we are trying to stay friends, but its very hard and what worked to help me heal the last time I had a heartache like this will not work this time. Too many bridges have been burned and too many paths have been blocked. It’s been so long since I’ve been completely on my own in SL that I almost feel lost. Fortunately, I do have a network of amazing friends that are more than willing to try and pull me from my funk. However, the wound is still very fresh and there are times, particularly when I’m alone that it hurts like the day it ended. While I have every intention of remaining his friend…I think that until I heal, I may have distance myself from him and that hurts all the more.

Giving You Up

wearing:
hair: Tableau Vivant \\ Veronika hair (*new* @ Uber)
head: CATWA HEAD Lilly
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: DeeTaleZ  “Merrylu” Mixedtype (*new* @ Uber)
Izzie’s – CATWA Tears Applier and CATWA TEARS
BUENO-Half Hoodie -NoFksGvn (*new* @ Kustom9)
LYBRA . PJ (*new* @ TLC)

pose: Foxcity Surface set

Background is a combination of:
[ isuka ] back alley blue backdrop (using the rooftop)
Paparazzi BACKDROP – The Room With A View (edited to use just the skyline)

Naughty Girl

I tried to avoid this topic, because Kess Crystal is a cunt! *laughs* When I wrote the blog, “Dangerous Proposition,” I knew that I was taking a big risk by promising to make a post about every topic or question posted on the blog, FB, or sent to me inworld. My darling, bestie Kess went dark and dirty on me. *shakes her head & laughs* Soooo, Kess said, “I would like you to talk about the 3 worst things you have done on Tequila!” I could write a post for each of them if I were to give a lot of details, but I’m not going to do that. I’m going to keep it short-ish.

  1. I was 19 and drank an entire bottle of tequila at a bonfire. I was there with a date, but it was a massive party and I left with some friends to go to another party. At the 2nd party, I apparently had a very long conversation with a tree. We finally make it back to the bonfire party. Everyone has left except my date and some of his friends. I was so drunk I couldn’t walk. I should probably mention that he had gotten a brand new car earlier that day. Yeah, I made a huge mess of his brand new car….inside and out. *hangs her head*
  2. Last year I was drinking tequila on skype with Kess and I’m pretty sure this is why she asked this damn question. I had turned on my camera to show HER my new black bra, but as I did her RL walked by…so he got a great shot of my tits in my new black bra. I’ve been told I was showing other people my bra later that night. I do not remember doing that.
  3. The last time I drank tequila, I was on skype with a handful of people. At one point I got very sick. I didn’t want them to hear me throwing up, but I didn’t have time to mute. I threw my cordless headset in the sink and in between hurling I would yell, “I’m ok!” and “I’m soo sorry.”

So, there ya have it. Tequila makes Sady a very naughty girl. Of course, I can get plenty naughty without alcohol, too. *winks at Josh*

playtime

Josh is wearing:
hair: Barber Shop / David
head: CATWA HEAD Daniel
body: [SIGNATURE] Gianni – Mesh Body
::GB:: Black three-pieces / Stripe Vr.02
::GB::Bai color WT / Black

Josh sitting in Dutchie maledom chair 2.0

Sady is wearing:
hair:  MINA – Eden (*new* @ Kinky)
head: CATWA HEAD Lilly
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: DeeTaleZ *Appliers* CATWA Head “Merrylu” Nordic (*new* @ Uber)
tattoo: Oz Design : MoonWolf Tattoo
UC_I_dare_outfit (*new* @ Kinky)
Phedora ~Elvin the unicorn (*new* @ Kinky)

*~M`n B~* Handcuffs
[Fetch] Spanking Paddle – Cunt

Sady’s pose: Foxcity Balance Set

scene:
Paparazzi BACKDROP – The Room With A View (with raindrops)
Quasi – Playtime – Neon Sign (Red)
Quasi – Kink Toy Shelf
Qausi – Pleasure Box
David Heather-Kneel Table/Wood2
Plethora – Kink Tray (For Her)

PMS & Fluffy Ducks

Alright, so my best friend, Grace Sixpence, suggested a rather odd topic in response to my “Dangerous Proposition” post.  She requested “fluffy ducks and period pains, all in the one post please!” Then she laughed, because not only does she know I’ll do it, but she knows its going to be weird. It actually made me wonder about ducks and their periods. You see, a friend of mine offered up a very enlightening video a couple of years ago that taught me things about ducks that I’m not sure I ever wanted to know. However, here I am in the know….let me share the video with you: True Facts About The Duck
Go on, have a watch, then come back and we’ll discuss PMS & Fluffy Ducks.

Now, assuming you’ve watched the video, you know now all about the corkscrew “parts” and Grace brought up period pains. I cannot help but wonder if these fluffy little ducks have PMS or cramping. If they do, can you just imagine that pain spiraling along your insides like some sort of demonic roller-coaster? I know that when I’m cramping, if a so called fluffy duck were to cross my path, I’d probably ring its neck as I don’t particularly care for ducks to begin with.

There you have it, you’ve been educated and scarred for life. You can thank Grace for that. *nods & giggles*

PMS and fluffy ducks

wearing:
hair:  [RA] Sam Hair – (*new* @ FaMESHed)
head: CATWA HEAD Tala
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
[Cynful] Fuzzy Cardigan (*new* @ FaMESHed)
LYBRA . Farrah (*new* @ Uber)

pose: Foxcity Bad Kitty Vol 2 Set
Paparazzi – BACKDROP – Apartment Fire Escape – purple+pink

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