Fading Away

Sometimes aging feels like I’m fading away into irrelevance. As sweet as some of these guys in their 20s seem to be in SL, I just cannot get over the vast age difference. I know it’s Second Life and we’re just avatars and age shouldn’t matter. Maybe it’s the age that I’m turning in October that has me out of sorts. All I know is that I find myself refusing to settle for less than I desire, which leaves me alone a great deal of the time. While, I never get bored, I do get lonely. There’s something weird that happens when you know beyond a shadow of a doubt that you’ve already lived over half of you life and the odds of ever falling in love again are slim to none. Time takes on a new meaning and rushes by in an instant, even when it feels like its sitting still and the entire words is frozen in place.

fading away

wearing:
hair:  .Olive. the Flower Hair (*new* @ Epiphany)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: DeeTaleZ *Appliers* CATWA Head “Myra” Eastern (*new*)
(Yummy) Curator Rings Set
_CandyDoll_ Deja Outfit (*new* @ C88)
pose: FOXCITY. Leaning (Stand) VOL2 Bento Pose Set
FOXCITY. Photo Booth – Dance Hall (Rez)
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White Noise

“People think depression is dark: it is
White noise covering the mental landscape”
― Richard L. Ratliff

white noise

Sady is wearing:
hair: .Olive. the Victoria v2 Hair (*new* @ REWIND)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: Glam Affair – Lily – Catwa Mesh Head Applier – Jamaica (*new* @ Kustom9)
tattoo: **RE** Surya Tattoo – Common – Gold
.:E.A.Studio:. BOX Collar Oculus Cross
Kibitz – Zaris bracelets – gold
(Yummy) Nightmare Ring Set
[Sexy Princess] White Diva

pose: an lar [poses] The Opaque Series
[ isuka ] destiny backdrop

Click of a Button

I always find it rather amusing when people in SL make fun of each other for being so different from their avatars in real life. I’m not talking about playing the opposite sex, children, furries/animals, or any of the fantasy based looks like vampires and lycans. Isn’t that the entire point of SL? To be whoever or whatever you want? I’m not thin or tan in RL, nor do I have dark hair. I can’t click a button and be across town in an instant. I can’t fly across town or around the stores. So, why does it matter what someone is outside of SL? I’m not saying we shouldn’t share our lives with one another, but to use someone’s RL like a weapon of destruction? Well, its just silly and mean.
One of the reasons I love Second Life is how I can do things here that I can no longer do in RL. I’m allergic to the sun, seriously. I burn every summer. I have to take a prescription of Vitamin D, because of it. I love being out in the sun, but it literally hurts me…my skin, my eyes. Dancing and stairs…they are murder on my knees. I still push myself to do both activities from time to time, but I pay hell for it. I can find plenty of drama in the real life. It’s all over television. Local to national politics offer more than anyone’s fair share. Hell, I’m an Atheist living in Alabama, all I have to do is talk to someone about religion.
That’s why I don’t understand why people feel the need to come to SL to hate, to be cruel and look for a fight. Surely anyone can find all of that and more in the real. Why not live and let live when we come here to the virtual? *shrugs* While the haters are over there trying to bully people around with the power weaponry of their keyboards, I’ll be lying on my virtual beach enjoying the virtual sun with the perfect body and the ability to change my hair color, skin color, eye color, etc., with the click of a button.

blistered in the sun

wearing:
hair: ..Olive. the Sami Hair
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: [theSkinnery] Katy (Catwa Applier) toffee
brows: –SU!- Blair Eyebrows +CATWA APPLIER
{le fil casse} Annika Play Set

pose: *hangs her head* I forgot, but probably Foxcity

A Little Bit of Booze

Not sure why, but this set from Bueno really made me think of this song. So, there you have it…a song to go with the photo, cuz I’m not in the mood to share what’s on my mind this morning. *raises her glass* Cheers!

HELLYEAH – Alcohaulin’ Ass

Come on, a little bit of sunshine
A little bit of booze
A little bit of me
And a little bit of you
A little bit country
A little bit of blues
A little slice of heaven
And a little piece of you, come on
Alcohaulin’ ass
Pour another drink in my glass
Alcohaulin’ ass
Alcohaulin’ ass
A little bit thirsty
A little bit used
A little bit of whiskey
And a little pinch to chew
A little bit tired
And a bad attitude
A little bit of drinkin’
And another piece of you
Alcohaulin’ ass
Pour another drink in my glass
Alcohaulin’ ass
Alcohaulin’
You drove me to it, so there was nothing I could do
You pushed me down, split me right in two
Now I found the long hard road carried the weight of you
Boy, oh, boy, God damn, there’s only one thing left to do
A little bit of alcohaulin’ ass
Pour another drink in my glass
Alcohaulin’ ass, there’s only one thing left to do
A little bit of alcohaulin’ ass
Pour another drink in my glass
Alcohaulin’ ass
Alcohaulin’ ass

don't bother

 

wearing:
hair: .Olive. the Emma Hair
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
ears: ^^Swallow^^ Shiny Ears
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: [theSkinnery] Katy (Catwa Applier) toffee (*new* @ C88)
brows: –SU!- Blair Eyebrows +CATWA APPLIER

LYBRA . LINDA FATPACK (May FaMESHed Go)
[BREATHE]-Midori Heels (May Pocket Gacha)

pose: FOXCITY. Bento Sits VOL2 Pose Set

scene:
BUENO– Not Love Set -Fatpack (*new* @ ROMP)
~BUENO-Alcohol Later Neon-Red
~BUENO-Not Love Seat-Blood
~BUENO-Hecha a Mano Table-Car
crate Studio Stool Red
Ariskea[Cocoli] Banana Plant

 

Still Learning

“I am still learning.” ~ Michelangelo

I borrowed this quote from a friend of mine’s profile. It is so profound in its simplicity and then when I realized who is credited for saying it, I was instantly humbled. When such a great artist can maintain his humility, I find it ironic when people boast of their greatness. I believe that if we ever stop learning, we stop living. I try to learn at least one new thing a day, even if its just some random useless piece of trivia. I want each day to present me with new information.

cherry tree

wearing:
hair: .Olive. the Emma Hair (*new* @ Uber)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: violetta. -catwa skin applier -Milanna -#202 (*new* @ SkinFair)
tattoo: Happiness – Black Tattoo [CAROL G]  (*new* @ SkinFair)
_CandyDoll_ Alexa Dress -(*new* @ Whore Couture)
_CandyDoll_ Alexa Fishnet -(*new* @ Whore Couture)

pose: FOXCITY. Breezy Bento Pose Set (*new* @ ON9)
FOXCITY. Photo Booth – Cherry Blossom (*new* @ ON9)

wearing below:  .::Dead Dollz::. Gwen Lingerie Set – Pink
violetta. -catwa skin applier -Milanna -#202 (*new* @ SkinFair)
violetta. -catwa skin applier -Milanna -#202_001

 

Y2K

OH that silly Y2K. For those of us that were adults for the rollover from 1999 to 2000, it was quite a mess. People honestly thought the world was going to end. I have to wonder did they have the same concerns as 999 rolled into 1000? or even 1899 to 1900? I seriously doubt it, then again…once upon a time people thought the world was flat. I remember thinking this was going to be the most epic NYE ever. We even arranged for some X, but we were one tab short and drew straws to see who was going to be the designated driver. Son of a bitch at my luck, because this was the one NYE that I was looking forward to the most. Afterall, Prince had gotten me all psyched up about ages ago. Wanna know what I was doing as the year, the decade, the century, the millennium rolled over? I was passed out asleep on a couch bored out of my damn skull while my friends were tripping balls outside. I want a do over!!

My Y2K

wearing:
hair: .Olive. the Lizzie Hair  (*new* @ REWIND)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: Glam Affair –- MaryJane
* Cute Y2K Computer * Blue Mouthie (*new* @ REWIND)
[89Hz] – Jude Y2K Knit Gray (*new* @ REWIND)
ChicModa // Veronica (*new* @ Whimsical)

pose: FOXCITY. Formal VOL1 Bento Set

Deva’s Question

I have to admit I was a bit nervous when I did the post, “Dangerous Proposition.” For one thing, I wasn’t sure if anyone would even read the post, much less comment with a suggestion. While there hasn’t been a great deal of responses, I did get enough to keep me writing a bit longer. Today, I’m going to attempt to answer Deva Westland. She said, “You know… one thing I would ask you, blog wise… is kind of that “What would you say to your younger self” thing. I know you gave excellent advice to new bloggers the other month, but is there anything you have learned about yourself, or SL/ your SL through blogging which has been interesting?”
Leave it to Deva to ask me such a loaded question. The problem with talking to myself in the past is that the younger me wouldn’t listen. She never did. I still don’t. I try to, I promise I do, but I’m a student of Hard Knocks. The most valuable lessons in my life have been learned the hardest way possible. I’ve learned a lot more about photography and a good bit about promoting my blog. I’ve learned to become a blog manager and that I actually love being a blog manager as if not more than blogging itself. I just love seeing how creative people can be and I’m blown away by some of the talent. It really does show when a blogger loves what they do vs a blogger that clearly does blogging for free stuff and attention. That’s about as clear of an answer as I can give, Devalicious. I’m not sure if I did your question justice, but I tried. ♥

blue xmas

wearing:
hair:  .Olive. the Merry Hair (*new* @ Tannenbaum)
head: CATWA HEAD Lilly
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
LYBRA . Soft Coat Blue  (*new* @ Tannenbaum)
Blueberry – Cake Leggings
N-core ABBY (*new* @ District 20)
JIAN Portable Purritos 4. Grey (*new* @ Arcade)

pose: Foxcity Me Time Set

scene:
.gypsy heart. Festive Backdrops – Snowy Cliff (*new* @ Tannenbaum)
:CP: Vetur Twinkling Stars (*new* @ Uber)
Trompe Loeil – Hammered Silver Sleigh (*new* @ FaMESHed)
Fancy Decor: Wire Tree (silver)  (*new* @ Tannenbaum)
Fancy Decor: Tree Decorations 2 (*new* @ Tannenbaum)

Why Do I Blog?

So, I did a blog post called “Dangerous Proposition” where I asked my readers to give me topics to write about, because my creative well seems to be running dry these days. The first response I got was from my friend, Troy Nelson. He gave me four topics to start off with and this was the first one. As promised, I’m going to answer the question.
I started blogging for the therapeutic value. It was a creative outlet for both my photography and my passion for writing. Not to mention, I’m rather proud of some of the outfits I put together, so there was certainly some fun in it, too.
Now that I’ve been blogging consistently for over 18 months, I’ll compare it to heroin. This is something I’ve said many times. I blog now, because I’m addicted to it. If a single day goes by that I’m not taking a picture for a blog or at the very minimum working on a scene for a picture…well, let’s just say I’m not so fun to be around. So, there’s the answer to your first question, Troy. I’ll approach your other questions separately, each will be its own blog post.
I’d like to take a minute to thank Troy and Grace for submitting topics so far. I can honestly say, I’m already enjoying the challenge. Keep em coming!!!

dark end

wearing:
hair:  .Olive. the Alvie Hair  (*new* @ Uber)
head: CATWA HEAD Tala
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
eyeshadow: Veechi – Romy Shadow (*new* @ Uber)
tattoo: .Identity. Body Shop – Dark End (*new* @ Chapter 4)
_CandyDoll_ Zaida Jumper (November FaMESHed)
_CandyDoll_ Zaida Heels (November FaMESHed)

pose by oOo Studio
MINIMAL – Model Backdrop (*new* @ Uber)

Freeze Frame

It’s 1am and I’m awake doing a blog post. I hope you don’t expect too much from me at this hour. However, I will give you this…
Before there was Vogue by Madonna, there was Freeze Frame by J. Geils Band and we “struck a pose” and “freezed framed” to this song quite a bit. Mind you, I was a kid when this song came out, but it was definitely a catchy tune. Enjoy♥

J. Geils Band – Freeze Frame

Freeze-frame

I could see it was a rough-cut Tuesday
Slow-motion weekdays stare me down
Her lipstick reflex got me wound
There were no defects to be found
Snapshot image froze without a sound

Thursday mornin’ was a hot flash-factor
Her face still focused in my mind
Test-strip proof-sheet love is hard to find
Friday night, we’ll dance the spotlight grind
Stop-time heart for me if she’s not mine

Freeze-frame! (Freeze-frame!) [x3]
Freeze-frame! Now Freeze!

Now I’m lookin’ at a flashback Sunday
Zoom lens feelings just won’t disappear
Close-up darkroom sweet-talk in my ear
Her hot-spot love for me is strong
This freeze-frame moment can’t be wrong

Freeze-frame! (Freeze-frame!) [x3]
Freeze-frame! Now Freeze!

Freeze-frame! (Freeze-frame!) [x3]
Freeze-frame! Now Freeze!

Freeze-frame, freeze-frame, freeze-frame
Freeze-frame, start to freeze, freeze, freeze

Start to freeze, freeze
Freeze-frame, freeze-frame, freeze-frame

the public eye

wearing:
hair:  .Olive. the Lorelai Hair (*new* @ REWIND)
head: CATWA HEAD Tala
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
[Z O O M] Eilla Glasses
//Naberius// The Manticore Collar
..S9..: Ribbed Fur – Printed
UC_Blenda_dress (*new* @ District 20)

pose by Foxcity
Astralia – Paparazzi (corner)

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