Like a Knife in Her Chest

She has to excuse herself to the restroom to keep it together. She’d never let him know how she truly felt. It was futile. They would never be more than friends. She had accepted her fate years ago, but tonight as he shared photos of himself with other women…it gutted her. She knew she was better off, but she couldn’t help that each photo felt like a knife in her chest. She could feel the tears flowing down her cheeks as she slid down the wall. She chastised herself, “Get it together. This is not about you!”

Remembering Her Place

 

wearing:
hair:  Magika – Love
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skin: [theSkinnery] Paola

.:villena:. – Rose Bud Fur Jacket
ChicModa // Rudy Dress & Harness (*new* @ Tannenbaum)

pose:  Foxcity Leaning (Stand) VOL2 Bento Pose Set
KraftWork Wick’s Bathroom

***If you are reading this on any site that suggests this post was originally published anywhere but SadyStyle by anyone other than Sadystika Sabretooth, you are reading a stolen post.

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Giving Thanks

Once upon a time, many years ago, I used to keep a gratitude journal. It was simple, really. Every morning, I would wake up and right down something I was grateful for and it started my day on a positive note. Every night before bed, I would write something else that I was grateful for and this made for sweeter sleep (if I actually got some).  Once a year we all give more thought to gratitude, as it is Thanksgiving in the United States.

My dear friend, Ruby, made a beautiful gratitude schpeal on Facebook this morning that brought me to tears. One of the first things she said was, “I’m thankful that I, unlike so many, have the luxury of sitting down at a computer, posting a status update on the internet, with a place to live, food to eat, and clean water to drink.” This is something I actually think about a great deal. There have been enough times in my life that I didn’t have those simple things that I genuinely appreciate them daily.

I think the simplest of things are often the things we take for granted the most. So, if not everyday, at least today, be grateful that you have so many simple luxuries in life, because let’s face it…as much as we all depend on it? The internet is a luxury and its one you and I both have, otherwise you wouldn’t be able to read the words I’ve written. So, thank YOU for reading and supporting my creative endeavors. May your holiday season, be filled with love and laughter. ♥

showgirl

wearing:
hair:  Magika – November
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skin: [theSkinnery] Paola

LUXE. Bailey Necklace Onyx (*new* @ Kustom9)
*T.Whore* – Sexy Fur Stole Black MESH
Wicca’s Wardrobe – Serena Body (ROMP until Nov 24)

Foxcity Show Time Bento Pose Set
Foxcity Photo Booth – Show Time Limited

***If you are reading this on any site that suggests this post was originally published anywhere but SadyStyle by anyone other than Sadystika Sabretooth, you are reading a stolen post.

In My Head

So, if you relate the first bit of lyrics below, click the link and you can sing along, read along, or just listen to the rest of the song. I’m not much in the mood to talk about my feelings at the moment, but the song is a clue for those that care. I don’t really expect anyone to…so its another post with lyrics. It’s 4am and this is where I am in my head.

“I know it’s not the same
But I feel it any way
Tell me if that’s okay
No, I’ll be on my way
Should’ve known, now I feel insane
Am I insane?
I’ve waited way too long
Yeah, I know you’ve changed
You have a different face to me
I guess that I was wrong
I’m the one to blame
And that’s a shame, you see
Uhh-uh-uh, you’re in my head
And I keep on forgettin’
Uhh-uh-uh, you’re here instead
And it seems never ending
Uhh-uh-uh-uhh, I know, I know you’ve changed
You don’t feel the same
Uhh-uh-uh, you’re in my head…”
~Peter Manos – In My Head

thinking it over

wearing:
hair:  Magika  – Chapters
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skin: [theSkinnery] Paola

[  kunst  ] – Old Cigarette Holder (left)
[Aleutia] Denali Top (*new* @ The Liaison Collaborative)
[Aleutia] Denali Pants (*new* @ The Liaison Collaborative)

pose: GingerFish Poses – Moth set
***modified using AnyPose

scene:
Loft & Aria – Ashcroft Bed
Loft & Aria – Ashcroft Side Table
Loft & Aria – Ashcroft Table Lamp

[Commoner] Break-Up Survival Kit / Zanax RARE

[ kunst ] – Ashtray v3 / Marble #2

.peaches. Bae’s Journal – Lover

[Bad Unicorn x Birch] Mary Janes ‘Noel’s Cookies’

04 CODEX_DELUXE TOY 4

Ariskea [Ophelia] Big Plant

 

***If you are reading this on any site that suggests this post was originally published anywhere but SadyStyle by anyone other than Sadystika Sabretooth, you are reading a stolen post.

Zoiks!

So, my regular readers know that I love recreating fairy tale characters with my own little Sady twist, but apparently I am no where near alone on this. In fact, there are hundreds of people that do this in real life, not just here in Second Life. I recently found out that there is practically an entire world of cartoon fetishes out there. Perhaps I’m not labeling that correctly and that’s okay. I’m not trying to be all properly informative today. I did, however, come across an entire Reddit page of sexy Velmas. Now, far be it for me to judge, cuz hey…seems harmless enough. Needless to say, I saw a challenge to be had and it was readily accepted. Just so happens, I recently was hired as the manager of Aleutia and they have this adorable skirt with a windy option…and not so long ago, Jian delivered ‘dorable Danes via gacha. How could I NOT create my own version of Velma and Scooby???

Velma fetish

wearing:
hair:  Magika [01] Things
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skin: [theSkinnery] Amber

BONDI . The Artist Sunglasses (*new* @ Vanity Event)
Vinyl – Scars Turtleneck/Bra
[Aleutia] Keiko Skirt
Eudora3D Jane Pumps & Socks (*new* @ FaMESHed)

JIAN ‘dorable Danes 2. Adult Companion RARE

pose: FOXCITY. Late Night Bento Pose Set
Exposeur – Sewer

***If you are reading this on any site that suggests this post was originally published anywhere but SadyStyle by anyone other than Sadystika Sabretooth, you are reading a stolen post.

Heavenly

We all knew it would happen. Break ups are like hangovers. We swear we’re never going to do it again, because the pain is just too much. Then someone walks into you life and out of no where everything changes in an instant. So, here we are….me, back in a man’s arms. Not just for a photo, but because its my favorite place to be right now. It feels good to smile so much again.

Forbidden
We can dance forever and pretend
I wanna, I wanna stay ’til the end

Gotz is wearing:
hair: Unorthodox Manny Hair
head: CATWA HEAD Daniel
Stretched ears-Omimi- [MANDALA]
body: [Signature] Gianni – Body
[VALE KOER] LEATHER BIKER JACKET
[VALE KOER] TECHWEAR PANTS

wearing:
hair: Magika – Good Vibes
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: [theSkinnery]  Iris (Catwa Applier) toffee
Kaithleen’s Corky Dress (*new* @ Tres Chic)

pose: [ATI] Adore 2 (*new* @ Suicide Dollz)
[Bad Unicorn] Block Views Backdrop

Crooked World

Crooked World
written by Sadystika Sabretooth

It’s a crooked world,
full of broken people,
plenty of hungry hyenas
on the prowl
just waiting
to snatch up the scraps.

They will use your broken pieces
to create something beautiful
and then sell it back to you.

The lies and all the poison…
polluting every cell,
every fiber,
and stitch of humanity….
until there’s nothing left.

The careless walk among us
dressed as saviors
offering shoulders
made of sponges,
soaking up every ounce
of emotional ammo
we shed in our tears.
They load their invisible guns
and declare their silent war.

With each shot,
they push us
further and further away until
we’re backed into corners.
The view from there is amazing,
because now we see the truth…
all of it…
even the parts you can’t see
the lies as they pour from your mouth
and now we laugh
with our friends
as we whisper behind your back.

You’ve put on your little act
for so long
that even when it blows up
in your face
you’re so oblivious
you think you’re untouchable.

You’re not.

It’s a set up
we’re waiting
to watch you fall.

You will fall.
You thought we’d save you?
No
we’ll raise our glasses
as you stumble backwards
over the bodies in your wake
and finally fall into your own grave.

shaky ground
It’s getting harder to know if I’m sane
My issues are leaking outside of my veins
Somebody save me or end me, I haven’t yet made up my mind

wearing:
hair: Magika – Good Vibes *NEW*
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: [theSkinnery]  Iris (Catwa Applier) toffee (*new* @ C88)
MINIMAL – Charmed Necklace (*new* @ FaMESHed)
_CandyDoll_ Mya Dress (*new* @ Whore Couture)
_CandyDoll_Ava Socks Black
{Livalle} Payne – Combat Boots (*new* @ FaMESHed)

pose: pose: GingerFish Poses – Bad at Love

[Bad Unicorn] Block Views Backdrop *NEW*

It Really Ain’t Magic

Actually dating in sl, is like playing tag in six random playgrounds all connected by one tunnel. Its just a clusterfuck of madness, selfishness, and stupidity. Oh I’m sure there are a few good ones in there somewhere, but unless you in the mood to dig through a haystack looking for a gold needle…well, good fucking luck.
Ooooh, Mr Privacy…..You put all your business out there on Facebook and then you seem surprised when you get called on your shit. You tell one girl she can’t take pictures of you, because it will cause drama. Meanwhile, you’re on Facebook with a girl in your lap one day (not the one you told not to take pictures) and you’ve got another girl taking pictures of you a week later…all the while still telling the ONE girl she can’t take pictures of you. Now, I’m not sure what you’re trying to hide and I don’t care, but seriously….if you’re trying to run around and be some mega player on the down low, you might wanna lose your Facebook account OR I dunno, be aware of who can see what…oh but wait, do you know everyone’s friends? Not at the rate you’re going!
Oh, and you? You don’t want a relationship, but you want demands on a girl’s time. She didn’t answer you fast enough? She didn’t beg and plead for your attention? She actually does something in sl, beside standing around a club 24/7? Get over yourself. This girl has a life and its full of friends and hobbies. Ya know what? You’re right! I don’t have time for you and your needy ass!
*laughs* And you, you crawl out of the woodwork with your sweet words once every other week and think its getting somewhere? No. When you spoke to me several times a week, yeah, it felt like we might be headed somewhere. The only place we’re heading with all your little disappearing acts is….wait, who am I talking about? Oh yeah, that’s right, I forgot about you cuz you dipped out for two weeks without so much as a word.
*rolls her eyes & chuckles* Ooooh, my poor sweet, booty call….you were fun for a while, but when I asked for an actual conversation you suddenly turn mute. Guess your momma parked you in front of porn as a kid and those are the only words you learned. *yawns* Well, hell, they still say em in porn, what do I need you for?
And then there’s this wittle guy, who thinks that cuz we hung out one time, that I owe him an explanation for ANYTHING I do. ROFL. Honey, you just need to go crawl back between your momma’s legs, cuz you ain’t done yet.
Ooooh lookit, its the big bad wolf! You seem to think that coming to a me about a guy I know, who happened to ask someone about you is the least dramatic way to do things? Uhm, no. How about you go directly to the man himself and ask him why he was asking your “EX” questions on my behalf, since you’re so sure it was indeed on my behalf. And ffs, I would hope you’d do the same for your female friends….but wait, do you have any that you haven’t tried to fuck already? Cuz the only one I know sure seems set on getting rid of you. I know I’m done. So, take your little happy feet on down the road.

These are just a sample of the types of guys I’ve been dealing with since my break up 3 months ago. While he has already moved on to someone else. So much for that break up excuse he handed me. *rolls her eyes* I’m so done with these assholes in SL. Yeah, I’m gonna get lonely, its true. But ya know what? I’ll take my own company over their’s any day. I actually enjoy my own company. I make myself laugh all the time and well, I’ve even argued out loud with myself. So, clearly there’s more than enough madness going on in this lil head of mine that I don’t need anymore, right?

Ink
Cause It really ain’t sad
It really ain’t tragic
It really ain’t inspiring
It really ain’t magic
There really ain’t a lot left for me to say
Filling in the blank slates like we’re born this way

wearing:
hair:  Magika – Marble Machine
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
tatooo: WR – Call Of The Wild Tattoo (*new* @ Skin Fair)

pose: FOXCITY. Bento Ground Sits VOL1
NOMAD // Skull Daybed

Hey There, Wanna Talk About Skin Fair?

So, I’m blogging for the Skin Fair put on by Pale Girl Productions. I have to admit, I’m a bit nervous, because as a rule I’ve not really blogged skins before. I will list the skin that I’m wearing, but aside from that….its not something I’ve really done. PGP specifically asked that we blog the skins a certain way and this, too, is something I don’t usually do. So this is my first attempt. I will say this, it doesn’t seem to matter which body or head you have, even if you’re still fully system (please update yourself!), there’s something for everyone at the Skin Fair….cosmetics, eyelashes, eyes, skins, shapes, heads, and even tattoos!

I wore my own shape, as I’m very particular about my shape and rarely ever buy them. My current shape was a compilation of ideas between my friend Sora and I. I’ve told her she should make shapes, but I’m not sure she really has the time. So, scroll on down and have a looksie at all the goodies I have to show you.♥

Hi There, Wanna Talk About the Skin Fair

wearing above:
hair:  Magika – Marble Machine
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: Aurealis. Deidra skin (*new* @ SKIN FAIR)
::SG:: Sophia stileto BENTO MESH NAILS (*new* @ SKIN FAIR)
[POUT!] Pretty Lashes – CATWA applier (*new* @ SKIN FAIR)
UC_April_Harness_and_vest (*new* @ Whore Couture)

all poses by Foxcity (none were edited, I just forgot which ones I used, sorry)

wearing below:
hair in face pics: .Entwined. Kira
hair in body pics: tram H0219 hair  (*new* @ Uber)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: Aurealis. Deidra skin (*new* @ SKIN FAIR)
[VALE KOER] WAIST PANTIES
Aurealis Catwa
Aurealis Body

Sometimes…

Now, I don’t want to lose you,
but I don’t want to use you just to have somebody by my side.
And I don’t want to hate you,
I don’t want to take you, but I don’t want to be the one to cry.
And I don’t really matter to anyone anymore.
But like a fool I keep losing my place and
I keep seeing you walk through that door.
But there’s a danger in loving somebody to much,
and it’s bad when you know it’s your heart you can’t trust.
There’s a reason why people don’t stay where they are.
Baby, sometimes love just ain’t enough.
Now, I could never change you,
I don’t want to blame you.
Baby, you don’t have to take the fall.
Yes, I may have hurt you, but I did not desert you.
Maybe I just want to have it all.
It makes a sound like thunder, it makes me feel like rain.
And like a fool who will never see the truth,
I keep thinking something’s gonna change.
But there’s a danger in loving somebody to much,
and it’s bad when you know it’s your heart they can’t trust.
There’s a reason why people don’t stay who they are.
Baby, sometimes love just ain’t enough.
And there’s no way home when it’s late at night and you’re all alone.
Are there things that you wanted to say?
And do you feel me beside you in your bed,
there beside you where I used to be?
But there’s a danger in loving somebody to much,
and it’s bad when you know it’s your heart you can’t trust.
There’s a reason why people don’t stay where they are.
Baby, sometimes love just ain’t enough.

sometimes

wearing:
hair: Magika  – 01 – Disarray
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: Glam Affair – Imani Applier ( Catwa ) America
tattoo: .Identity. Body Shop – Rise Again
^^Swallow^^ Shiny Bento Rings
LYBRA . SERINA (*new* @ Seasons Story)
#EMPIRE  – Ageratum

pose: Foxcity Indulge Bento Pose Set (*new* @ ON9)
Foxcity. Photo Booth – Sometimes (*new* @ ON9)

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