Morning Meditation

Last year when I was going through a particularly rough time, my friend Charlotte gave me a non religious meditation book. Those are surprisingly hard to find in my area. Anyway, its one of my favorite ways to start the day. Reading the daily meditation with a cup of coffee and…*hangs her head*…a cigarette.

So, while I sit here at my desk with my coffee and cigarette, I thought I’d share this morning’s meditation with you.
“To have what we want is riches; but to be able to do without is power.” ~ George Macdonald
Well, George, I’d say you’re quite right there. I  mean it would suck if I couldn’t have a computer or afford internet. It would suck to lose Netflix. I’d be sad if I ran out of coffee (ok, I’d be downright mad) or cigarettes. However, there’s a certain power in knowing that I’ve been without all of those things and more in the past. I not only survived the lack of things, but I found other ways to entertain myself and enjoy life.  I have some rather fond memories of living in a homeless shelter, believe it or not. As there are no guarantees in this life, despite what marketing ads will tell you. The greatest power anyone can have is being able to find joy in the simplest of things. I’m just going to list a few examples of simplistic joys that I find in my daily life that are often taken for granted, but are truly to be cherished.
The way my dog greets me like a long lost soldier returned from way, even though I’ve only been gone 20 minutes. The way my cat mews and purrs at me on the rare occasion that he wants attention. The first bite of a meal I’ve cooked to perfection. The feel of freshly washed sheets on my skin right after a long hot bath. Led Zeppelin on the radio on a breezy summer afternoon. The smell of a bookstore. The joyous sound of children laughing and playing at the pool (even if I don’t like the lil bastards, I still love to hear the sounds of happiness.) The sound of the cicadas in the trees as the sun sets on a warm August evening. No, these are not my favorite things in life, but they are simple joys that make life worth living.

morning meditation

wearing:
hair: [KoKoLoReS] Hair – Bess (*new* @ Hairology)
head: CATWA HEAD Tala
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara

Astralia – Compatible mesh nails system  (Maitreya Stiletto base)
GingerFish -Nail Applier-Astralia-Bloody Kisses
Astralia – Kitty chain ring with HUD (*new* @ Blush)

BUENO-Olivia Top (*new* @ Kustom9)
BUENO-Cuff Jeans (*new* @ Kustom9)
_CandyDoll_ Saki Heels (*new* @ Uber)

pose by Le Poppycock

scene:
Pseudo– Inked Corner Scene
Apple Fall Cafe Chair
Apple Fall Clawfoot Height-Adjusting Table
Apple Fall Canvas Tote
Apple Fall Crumpled Newspaper
[ kunst ] – Ashtray v3 / Marble #4
SAYO – Trendy Tumblers – Rose Chrome – COMMON (*new* @ PocketGacha)

 

The Edge

Its a music blog. Why? Because the world makes me sad and the lyrics to this song have really been weighing heavy on my mind lately. So, I’ll provide you with the link and this time, just a few of the lyrics. You can look up the rest if you feel so inclined. I don’t have a whole lot to say, because well, I just don’t. Shocking, I know, but even I run out of things to say sometimes.

Aerosmith Livin On the Edge

“If chicken little tells you that the sky is fallin’
Even if it wasn’t would you still come crawlin’
Back again
I bet you would my friend
Again and again and again and again and again”

balance

wearing:
hair(r)M Hair, No.49’17
headCATWA HEAD Kathy
skin: DeeTaleZ *Appliers* CATWA Head “Face Miriam”
bodyMaitreya Mesh Body – Lara
Amala – The Daddy’s Necklace
Blueberry – Shyla – Knotted Top
Pretty Mess – Jersey Skirt (*new* @ Uber)
fri. – Edie Sandals (*new* @ Kustom9)

pose by Bauhaus Movement
location: Hazardous

Justify My Love

That’s right, I’m going with one of the sexiest songs of all time. Of course, I’m providing the lyrics and a YouTube link.

Madonna Justify My Love

I want to kiss you in Paris
I want to hold your hand in Rome
I want to run naked in a rainstorm
Make love in a train cross-country
You put this in me
So now what, so now what?

Wanting, needing, waiting
For you to justify my love (my love)
Hoping, praying
For you to justify my love

I want to know you
Not like that
I don’t want to be your mother
I don’t want to be your sister either
I just want to be your lover
I want to be your baby
Kiss me, that’s right, kiss me

Wanting, needing, waiting
For you to justify my love
Yearning, burning
For you to justify my love

What are you gonna do?
What are you gonna do?
Talk to me, tell me your dreams
Am I in them?
Tell me your fears
Are you scared?
Tell me your stories
I’m not afraid of who you are
We can fly

Poor is the man
Whose pleasures depend
On the permission of another
Love me, that’s right, love me
I want to be your baby

Wanting, needing, waiting
For you to justify my love
I’m open and ready
For you to justify my love
To justify my love
Wanting, to justify
Waiting, to justify my love
Praying, to justify
To justify my love
To justify my love
I’m open, to justify my love
My love

come to bed

wearing:
hair*ARGRACE* RUI
headCATWA HEAD Kathy
eyeshadow-SU!- Smokey Eyeshadow
lipstick::SG:: Gelly Lips for CATWA Heads ONLY!
skinGlam Affair – BETH – Catwa Mesh Head Applier – America (*new* @ Epiphany)
bodyMaitreya Mesh Body – Lara
tattoo.Identity. Body Shop – Reborn Stronger

-SU!- Bento Piercing Set 03 (*new* @ Somber)
UC_Rose (*new* @ FaMESHed)
Phedora ~Sincerity (*new* @ Kustom9)

pose by Foxcity
bed by Artisan Fantasy

Rescued

They say that dogs are a man’s best friend, and of course the term man is used quite loosely…as in mankind, humans. It was certainly true for her. No person could make her smile the way her sweet Puppers did. She could be completely herself. Her dog loved her at her worst and at her best. Whether sad or happy, Puppers loved her no matter what. There was no where else she felt so free than she did at home with her dog.

She had always laughed at the cliche’ that people would say after adopting a rescue dog, but it was true. She might have rescued a dog from the shelter, but in the end…Puppers rescued her from loneliness, from dark thoughts, from sorrow, from her inner demons…from herself.

Bubbles for Bubbles

wearing:
hair
#Foxy – Rival Hair (*new* @ Kustom9)
headCATWA HEAD Kathy
CATWA Catya BubbleGum
bodyMaitreya Mesh Body – Lara

[Cynful] Chilli Jersey
[Cynful] Journey Pants (*new* @ C88)
REIGN.- JUNE SNEAKERS
JIAN Pupper Parlor 6. Black Bow Companion (*new* @ Epiphany)

pose by Del May
scene: DRD Gardenhouse

Not THAT Song

“Not THAT song!” she ripped the headphones from her head. It had been such a good day until that song kicked on…this is what she gets for putting her library on random play while she got dressed. That song would always rip at her heart. That song would always bring tears to her eyes. That song would always make her remember…remember a day she wanted to forget.

music feels

wearing:
hair
:  Tableau Vivant \\ Summer Hairplay – Sundowner
headCATWA HEAD Kathy
bodyMaitreya Mesh Body – Lara

SU!– Medusa Piercing Silver (Catwa Kathy) L
SU!– Dolphin Bites Piercing Silver (Catwa Kathy)
.:E.A.Studio:.BOX Night Party Nails Art Set
L&B Swear Charm Bracelet – Zodiac Birthstone (*new* @ ULTRA)
BUENO-Headphones (*new* @ Kustom9)

Pretty Mess – Misa Harness BLACK (*new* @ Epiphany)
Pretty Mess – Misa Shrug BLACK (*new* @ Epiphany)
Pretty Mess – Misa Top BLACK (*new* @ Epiphany)

pose by Foxcity
Kalopsia – Neon – Feelings

Wheels

She had been skating since she was in the first grade. She could skate before she even learned how to ride a bike. There was something so free about having wheels under her feet, almost as if she could fly. When she skated she felt free. As a kid she would lose herself in the music skating in circles at the skating rink, but as she got older she found the most joy in skating along in abandoned warehouses and parking garages, provided they had a smooth surface and if they didn’t well, she made a game of jumping cracks and rocks. Sure, she got some bruises and scratches from failed attempts, but that was all part of the fun. She had tried the inline skates, but they just didn’t feel right and she preferred the classic skates and always would.

practice

wearing:
hair
: MINA – Tina (*new* @ Kustom9)
headCATWA HEAD Kathy
bodyMaitreya Mesh Body – Lara
tattoo: .Identity. Body Shop – Rise Strong

Scandalize. Zenda top (*new* @ Tres Chic)
Scandalize. Zenda shorts (*new* @ Tres Chic)
fri. – Footless Socks
N-core SKATES

GingerFish Poses – Rollin (*new* @ eBento)
[Bad Unicorn] ‘B1’ Backdrop

Wicked Dreams

So, I’ve been in bed sick with a stomach bug for the last couple of days. I tried sitting at my computer, but it just made me nauseous. The bed won out, I could lay there and binge on Netflix while I drifted in and out of some of the craziest dreams I’ve ever had. I can’t dream of normal things. No, I had to dream about mutant bugs and spiders…then mutant puppies and kittens…swarms of all invading my house. That’s just the two that stood out. It seems like a week since I sat down at my computer, although its not been a full 24hrs since I tried. I wrote about living off the grid and I feel like I’ve been out of this world thanks to some medication I took for my stomach that knocked me out.
I dreamed about Second Life mixed up with Real Life. I dreamed about my responsibilities here and I even tried to talk to a few people on FB messenger. God only knows what they must of thought of my nonsense talk and typos. I’m quite tired of my bed and the fog is starting to lift, I think. I don’t get put down by stomach bugs too often, so I’m hoping it won’t happen again for a very long time…in the meantime, I’ll surrender to sleep when it comes and brace myself for more wicked dreams.

scandalize kinky

wearing: 
hair
: #Foxy – Grind Hair
headCATWA HEAD Kathy
bodyMaitreya Mesh Body – Lara
tattoo-7P-Paradise Tattoo
Cynful Chilli Jersey – Earrings
Pseudo– Weeknd Hoodie Gray (*new* @ Kustom9)
Scandalize. SexyDreams. [top, panties, & socks] (*new* @ Kinky)

pose by Del May
background: BUENO-WhiteHall (*new* @ Kustom9)