What’s left to prove?

Only give me love when I’m giving it back
But you say you’ll never be my friend
Always on the train, never on the track
So I’m jumping before the crash
And I know you’re just trying to scare me
But you lost all of your effect
You can bark like a dog, baring your teeth
But I’m never going back again
No, I’m never going back again
Babe, it’s true
I’m in love with what we were
But not with you
What’s left to prove?
Tried so many damn times to cut you loose
Now I’m way too far away to be hurt by you
~ Donna Missal – Hurt By You

hair: Exile – Soleil @ Equal10
head: LeLUTKA Fleur Head 2.0
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) (1.2)
skin: [theSkinnery] Dalia (LeLutkaEVO) @ C88

[Heaux] Chilled Eyes
eyeshadow: IDTTY FACES – LELUTKA DIRTY BABE COLLECTION #3 @ Cosmopolitan
lipstick: IDTTY FACES – LELUTKA DIRTY BABE COLLECTION #8 @ Cosmopolitan

BUENO-Bella Necklace @ Kustom9
VOBE – Debbie Earrings

Trying Something

Every once in a while I like to tap into my dark side. In now way does this begin to compare to some of the incredibly talented bloggers we have on the AsteroidBox team, but I still wanted to try a dark shot…so I did. I don’t have any deep or meaningful things to say today. I just wanted to try something different. Hopefully, people will like it. *bites her black nails*

hair: Magika – Midnight
head: LeLUTKA Fleur Head 2.0
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) (1.2)
skin: DeeTaleZ *SKINS* for LELUTKA HEADS (EVO.) – Flora
tattoo: THIS IS WRONG Mind Flyer Shine+tattoo

makeup: THIS IS WRONG Creep makeup
eyes: [Heaux] Grave Eyes
ears: ^^Swallow^^ Persia Ears @ Kustom9

toksik – Devil’s Manner Horns
*PKC* Danni Collar @ Kinky
Mug – Killer Nurse – #2 Test Subject RARE
AsteroidBox. Layla Bikini @ Equal10
**UTOPIA@Design** – “PRIYA” @ Uber

pose: Bauhaus Movement – Fade to Black

background: The Asylum Backdrop – The Bearded Guy

Nothing new

Boy, boy, boys, boy

Stealin’ kisses from your misses
Does it make you freak out?
Got you fussing, got you worried
Scared to let your guard down

Boys, boys

Tell the neighbours I’m not sorry
If I’m breaking walls down
Building your girl’s second story
Ripping all your floors out

Saw your face, heard your name
Gotta get with you
Girls like girls like boys do
Nothing new
~ Hayley Kiyoko – Girls Like Girls

Precious is wearing:
hair: Foxy – Cupid.
head:  CATWA HEAD Catya
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody
skin: Deetalez Maya European tone with freckles

^^Swallow^^ Princess Ears
Kibitz – Corinne’s leashed collar
BUENO-Kitty Cat-Backpack

Blueberry – FLF – 1/17 – Knotted Top
Blueberry – Authentic – Ripped Jeans
Blueberry – Authentic – Sneakers

Sady is wearing: 
hair: DOUX – Carla hairstyle
head: GENUS Project – Genus Head – Classic Face W001 – Mocap
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody
skin:  [Glam Affair] Josie Applier [ Genus ] @ Access

Wednesday[+] ~ Idoru Eyelashes @ Kustom9
[Heaux] Dolly Eyes

#11 CHAIN – Hoop Earrings – Silver @ Epiphany
.::Nanika::. Leah Necklace
–SU!– Almond Nails
(Yummy) Bestie Ring Set
(Yummy) Spring Splendor Rings

AsteroidBox. Sienna Jacket @ Kustom9
VINYL – Biscuit Joggers @ Kustom9
[COMPLEX] RETRO LOW @ Kustom9

pose: – space cadet – deep @ flourish

scene:
.PALETO. Backdrop:. Duxbury Cute @ Equal10

[Rezz Room] Rottweiler Adult Animesh

:::ChicChica::: Bubble Tea @ Equal10

Junk Food – Hot Wings @ Epiphany
Junk Food – Noodles White @ Epiphany
Junk Food – Chopsticks @ Epiphany

[Since1975]-Skateboard

Diamonds

So, I have this funny habit of humming to myself when I’m focused. I’ve even done this while on voice with my sister, Sassy. The best part of doing this while on voice with her is that she immediately knows which tune I’m humming and before I know we’re singing the song together. It always makes me smile. The first time we did it was a song from Grease, but more often than not the song I hum is “Diamonds are a Girl’s Best Friend” and naturally when shooting this picture that was the song in my head.
So, my photo really doesn’t do this diamond lingerie justice. I did try to add some sparkle in the editing, but there’s a moving blink to the diamonds so they don’t blind you all at once. Its very realistic and beautiful inworld. So, please, if I’ve made you remotely interested, I urge you to try it on inworld to fully appreciate the work that was put into this.

hair: DOUX – Alana hairstyle @ Dubai
head: LeLUTKA Lake Head 1.2
eyes:  [Heaux] Piper Eyes @ Anthem
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) (1.2)
skin: [Glam Affair]  LIllian Skin [ Lelutka ] @ Uber

Apocalyptic – Awakening the eye black @ Belle
Cynful Diamond Earrings @ Kinky
Cynful Diamond Lingerie Set @ Kinky

pose: FOXCITY. Show Time Bento Pose Set

gone in an instant

I have found that whenever you look outside yourself for something or someone to make you happy, you are simply looking in the wrong place. Happiness definitely comes from within and you have to truly want it in order to achieve it. To truly want something, you have to be willing to work for it. Too many people with mental illnesses refuse to accept that and it breaks my heart. I’ve been there and I know its not an easy path. By no means am I cured. I still suffer from mental illness, but I am getting help and it is working. It works, because I’m following suggestions and taking advice that I don’t always like. I know its working, because I feel better more often than I don’t. I no longer sit and wallow in self pity or self loathing. I no longer envy what other people have, because I have beyond what I absolutely need in this life. I’m not looking at what I don’t have. Instead, I’m counting my blessings for everything I do have and I’m appreciating it all a bit more. I know it could all be gone in an instant. I don’t want to wait until its gone to enjoy it or appreciate the blessing bestowed upon me.

hair: DOUX – Carla hairstyle
head: LeLUTKA Lake Head 1.2
eyes:  [Heaux] Piper Eyes @ Anthem
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) (1.2)
skin: [Glam Affair]  LIllian Skin [ Lelutka ] @ Uber

lashes: MICHAN – Lilith Lashes Fatpack [Lel EVO] @ TLC
eyeshadow: IDTTY FACES – LELUTKA PLAY COOL COLLECTION #3 @ Cosmopolitan (closes July 12)
lipstick: IDTTY FACES – LELUTKA PLAY COOL COLLECTION #9  @ Cosmopolitan (closes July 12)

Rebel Gal – Charm Necklace
Blueberry – Authentic – Crop Top

pose: – space cadet  – pack 9 @ Harajuku (closes July 10)

That’s that.

I woke up this morning with a tremendous headache and it has been one helluva week. Today, I’m taking some much needed time for myself. I want to enjoy my newly landscaped sim. I want to dedicate some time to adding some finishing touches and decorating my house. I’m sure I’ll take a blog picture, but my blog is more for me than anyone else anyway…sorry, not sorry. I love that people read it and enjoy it…all five of you..lol, but at the end of the day, I have always blogged because its something I’ve wanted to do. However, there are days that I honestly don’t even want to bother with it. I guess that’s natural after four years of blogging almost daily.
In real life, I’m smoking a cigarette with my coffee, but I sure wish it was a blunt. This headache is not fun and while I know that looking at a screen is not conducive for a headache, neither is that bright ass sun blaring through my window. *hisses* Alas, this is going to be a good day. I’ve decided and that’s that.

hair: DOUX – Alaska hairstyle @ LeVeL
head: LeLUTKA Lake Head 1.2
eyes:  [Heaux] Piper Eyes @ Anthem
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) (1.2)
skin: [Glam Affair]  LIllian Skin [ Lelutka ] @ Uber

lashes: MICHAN – Lilith Lashes Fatpack [Lel EVO] @ TLC
eyeshadow: IDTTY FACES – LELUTKA HALF TIME COLLECTION # 5 @ ShinyShabby
lipstick: IDTTY FACES – LELUTKA HALF TIME COLLECTION #10 @ ShinyShabby
nails: -SU!- Almond Nails

Rebel Gal – Charm Necklace
(Yummy) Adel Ring Set
Blueberry – SL17B – Lace Trim Top
Blueberry – FLF – Valentines – Panties

pose: – space cadet – weed&coffee ladies
the pose comes with a blunt/joint & a cup, but I used my own mug which was a gift from my dear friend, Harlow Heslop
e.marie // True Love Mug – Cats

 

New Leaf

As I was taking this picture, the sun was rising over my shoulder. I couldn’t help but think how each new day is like a new leaf on the tree of life. How it is up to us as individuals to shape that leaf into something beautiful or to let it wither up to waste away.

hair:  Tableau Vivant  \\ Fruit of the Bloom [flowers] Rare
head: LeLUTKA Lake Head 1.2
eyes: [Heaux] Love Eyes
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) (1.2)
skin: [Glam Affair]  LIllian Skin [ Lelutka ] @ Uber

eyeshadow: IDTTY FACES – LELUTKA WILD ROSE COLLECTION #2
lipstick: IDTTY FACES – LELUTKA WILD ROSE COLLECTION #7

Something’s Gotta Happen

For our only hope is falling in love
With who we are
And what we wanna do
Is it gonna be you,
Is it gonna be me
Well something’s gotta happen
Or we’ll be on our knees
On our knees
For our only hope is falling in love
With who we are
And what we wanna do
Is it gonna be you,
Is it gonna be me
Well something’s gotta happen
Or we’ll be on our knees
On our knees

Feel it in your bones
The need for something more
The more and more you wait
It’s burning you
Feel it in your bones
The need for something more
~ Konoba – On Our Knees

hair: tram J0513b hair @ Uber
head: LeLUTKA Erin Head
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) (1.2)
skin: [theSkinnery] Maya (LeLutkaEVO) @ Uber

eyes: [Heaux] Poppy Eyes @ N21

eyeshadow: IDTTY FACES – LELUTKA STUPID LOVE COLLECTION #3 @ Cosmopolitan
lipstick: IDTTY FACES – LELUTKA STUPID LOVE COLLECTION #7 @ Cosmopolitan

VINYL – Bones Hoodie @ Kinky

 

Butterfly

When you love someone so deeply
They become your life
It’s easy to succumb to overwhelming fears inside
Blindly I imagined I could
Keep you under glass
Now I understand to hold you
I must open up my hands
And watch you rise

Spread your wings and prepare to fly
For you have become a butterfly, oh
Fly abandonedly into the sun
If you should return to me
We truly were meant to be
So spread your wings and fly
Butterfly

~ Mariah Carey – Butterfly

hair: TRUTH Delicate
head: LeLUTKA Lake Head 1.2
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) (1.2)
skin: [theSkinnery] Maya (LeLutkaEVO) @ Uber

[Heaux] Kitten Eyes @ SaNaRae
eyeshadow: IDTTY FACES – LELUTKA  LOVE SPELL COLLECTION #2 (Happy Weekend May 29-31)
lipstick: IDTTY FACES – LELUTKA LOVE SPELL COLLECTION #10 (Happy Weekend May 29-31)

*LODE* Head Accessory – Hellebore Crown [white]
(Yummy) Chained Ring Set @ Uber

.miss chelsea. Ryan Top @ Uber
SPIRIT – Osoka shorts @ Uber
REIGN.- FLUFFEH FLIP FLOPS

[Rezz Room] Shiba Inu Puppy Animesh @ Uber

.peaches. Beachin’ Bag Clutter – Dotted for FLF May 29, 2020

pose: :LW Bento Poses – Miracles (comes with butterfly)

location: Burrow Coffee & Whiskey Co

Better Late Than Never

Every year there’s a Second Life challenge to do a yearbook photo and I’ve never participated. High school was not the best of times for me. I could have a do over, I know I would’ve done things very differently. I suppose that’s true for most of us. Anyway, whenever people do the yearbook photo challenge I can’t help but giggle, because I hated our senior yearbook photos. The first ice school I went to, gave an option to do the standard senior photo with the velvet crap draped off shoulder for girls/tuxedo for boys OR you could pay for the deluxe package to have outdoor shots that reflected your personal style. However, life happened and we moved. So, the high school I ended up graduating from didn’t offer that. They only did the standard velvet crap. That pretty much summed up my high school years. Today when I shot this picture, I giggled at how long it took me to finally take the kind of picture I always wanted for my real life senior yearbook photo. Better late than never, I suppose…even if its virtual.

hair: Stealthic – Chiffon
head: LeLUTKA Erin Head 1.2
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) (1.2)
skin: [theSkinnery] Maya (LeLutkaEVO) @ Uber

[Heaux] Kitten Eyes @ SaNaRae
eyeshadow: IDTTY FACES – LELUTKA FRENCH KISS #2 @ Kinky 
lipstick: IDTTY FACES – LELUTKA FRENCH KISS #6 @ Kinky

[ rD ] – Madurai Set @ Belle
***earrings & necklace***
VINYL – Salt Cami @ Uber
VINYL – Chica Denim Skirt @ Uber

pose: – space cadet – furutsu