OH that silly Y2K. For those of us that were adults for the rollover from 1999 to 2000, it was quite a mess. People honestly thought the world was going to end. I have to wonder did they have the same concerns as 999 rolled into 1000? or even 1899 to 1900? I seriously doubt it, then again…once upon a time people thought the world was flat. I remember thinking this was going to be the most epic NYE ever. We even arranged for some X, but we were one tab short and drew straws to see who was going to be the designated driver. Son of a bitch at my luck, because this was the one NYE that I was looking forward to the most. Afterall, Prince had gotten me all psyched up about ages ago. Wanna know what I was doing as the year, the decade, the century, the millennium rolled over? I was passed out asleep on a couch bored out of my damn skull while my friends were tripping balls outside. I want a do over!!

My Y2K

hair: .Olive. the Lizzie Hair  (*new* @ REWIND)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: Glam Affair –- MaryJane
* Cute Y2K Computer * Blue Mouthie (*new* @ REWIND)
[89Hz] – Jude Y2K Knit Gray (*new* @ REWIND)
ChicModa // Veronica (*new* @ Whimsical)

pose: FOXCITY. Formal VOL1 Bento Set


3 A.M.

It’s 3AM and I’m sitting in front of my computer taking pictures of an avatar in a virtual world. Thoughts racing through the matrix of my mind, as quickly as the light travels from my screen to my eyes. Ideas…memories…chores…emotions…zooming past me faster than I can type or even catch. When I do catch a thought long enough to look at it…there goes another one and over there is a squirrel…or wait, that just another blur of light.

just a girl
All I need is to be struck
By your electric love
Baby, you’re electric love
Electric love

hair:  [RA] Grace Hair (*new* @ ShinyShabby)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: Glam Affair –- MaryJane – Catwa Mesh Head Applier
^^Swallow^^ Cuff Bracelet
Narcisse– Caged Valentine Dress (*new* @ Fetish Fair)

pose: FOXCITY. Sass Bento Pose Set (*new* @ Limit8)
FOXCITY. Photo Booth – No Doubt (Limit8)


I’m just going leave some lyrics and links for this one. *smiles and wanders off down memory lane*

Taylor Swift – RED

Loving him is like driving a new Maserati down a dead-end street
Faster than the wind, passionate as sin ending so suddenly
Loving him is like trying to change your mind once you’re already flying through the free fall
Like the colors in autumn, so bright just before they lose it all
Losing him was blue like I’d never known
Missing him was dark grey all alone
Forgetting him was like trying to know somebody you never met
But loving him was red
Loving him was red
Touching him was like realizing all you ever wanted was right there in front of you
Memorizing him was as easy as knowing all the words to your old favorite song
Fighting with him was like trying to solve a crossword and realizing there’s no right answer
Regretting him was like wishing you never found out that love could be that strong
Losing him was blue like I’d never known
Missing him was dark gray all alone
Forgetting him was like trying to know somebody you never met
But loving him was red
Oh red
Burning red
Remembering him comes in flashbacks and echoes
Tell myself it’s time now, gotta let go
But moving on from him is impossible
When I still see it all in my head
Burning red
Burning it was red
Oh losing him was blue like I’d never known
Missing him was dark gray all alone
Forgetting him was like trying to know somebody you never met
‘Cause loving him was red
Yeah, yeah red
We’re burning red
And that’s why he’s spinning ’round in my head
Comes back to me, burning red
Yeah, yeah
His love was like driving a new Maserati down a dead-end street


hair:  #Foxy – Sugar Hair (*new* @ Hentai Fair)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: Glam Affair –- MaryJane
{le fil casse} Chanelle Teddy Bodysuit (*new* @ Blush)

pose: FOXCITY.  Bad Kitty VOL2 Bento Pose Set
FOXCITY. Photo Booth – XO (*new* @ ON9)



Love is such a complicated thing. Its never as easy as the movies, is it? Meet cute, can’t stop thinking about each other, then another conveniently timed accidental meeting, then proceed through a montage of dating scenes, obligatory sex scenes, a teensy hiccup to show how they handle a fight, and then happily ever after. *sighs* Sadly, reality isn’t quite that easy.

We’ve all been there…a crush on the man that is dating someone you know. Perhaps you don’t know them very well, but she’s certainly nice enough and you’d never hurt her. So, you watch with longing for a while and eventually just let go. Hope is lost. Its not meant to be, she was there first and that’s that, isn’t it? Then some time passes and you find out he’s not with her anymore. You haven’t seen her in years. You don’t even know where she wound up. Oh goddamnit, he’s already dating someone else. *sighs* You don’t know her at all. Hmmm. Oh he’s not happy? That’s too bad. *hangs her head* You watch with a guilty belly hoping that this might be your chance….but your chance to what exactly? It’s been a crush all these years. What do you really know about him? What if he turns out to be a jerk. Is this one of those times the fantasy is better than the reality? Probably. *walks away*

do what's right
If I could force my heart, my ears, my mind
And eyes to get in line
Maybe I’ll find something real
Not a fantasy so divine
Let myself down each time
Let myself down each time

hair: DOUX – Shawnte (*new* @ Tres Chic)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
Dahlia – Jennifer – Sunglasses  (*new* @ REWIND)
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: Glam Affair –- MaryJane
AZOURY – Don Jewelry (*new* @ TLC)
(Yummy) Raining Diamonds (*new* @ C88)

pose: FOXCITY. Breather VOL2 Animated Pose Set (*new* @ Kustom9)


Ghost of Love

Marie Fisker – Ghost of Love

Ghost of love bound unto your name;
So it be running thru my veins;
Yesterday I fell out of grace,
I made you feel bad again,
I wanted all your reasons explained;
guess I wanted too much, guess I wanted too much.
Gonna stay humbled to this rock.
Silently when I know that I belong.
Tell me stay on the right track,
You know I have faith and beliefs
In my life and just.
I guess I wanted that much…

capture time

hair: Doe: Crinkle Fries (*new* @ REWIND)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: Glam Affair –- MaryJane
Blueberry – Foxy – Back Tied Dress (*new* @ C88)
Blueberry – Foxy Boots  (*new* @ REWIND)

pose: FOXCITY. Sass Bento Pose Set (*new* @ Limit8)
FOXCITY. Photo Booth – Blank Minds (*new* @ Kustom9)


Let You Down

Have you ever been in a situation that you’d give up just about anything to make it work out, but somethings just don’t work…no matter how much you want them to…and trying to force it to work just makes it worse? You feel like you’ve been screaming, but like the scream in your nightmares…it catches there on the edge of silence. You know you’re not invisible, but you’re definitely not heard. Your pain is ignored and trivialized to the point that you apologize for being so irrational. Its terribly unhealthy…you know you have to walk away. You know you’re going to look back and if there is any love in this world…they won’t be there watching you leave.

You crawl into a comfortable cloudy corny of yourself. Isolated and withdrawn, you don’t want to be alone, but you can’t stand the thought of being seen this way. There’s a really funny reflection in the bottle with this dim light. Tonight you hide, tonight you decide your fate, but tomorrow you’ll crawl back into the light and soldier on another day. Oh, but we don’t want to think about that…the cycle is maddening. What kinds of toys are we playing with in this madhouse? Why am I so different? This is all that’s left.

let you down3
All these voices in my head get loud
I wish that I could shut them out
I’m sorry that I let you down

hair:  +Spellbound+ x SIIX Pyramids (*new* @ Kustom9)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: Glam Affair –- MaryJane – Catwa Mesh Head Applier
_CandyDoll_ Layla Dress (*new* @ C88)
_CandyDoll_ Layla Boots (*new* @ C88)

pose: FOXCITY. Insomnia Bento Pose Set
PM & Vibes – Neon Studio Apartment
Fapple- BDSM Tool Box


Furry Knees

How differently would you behave if you knew your every single moved was being observed? I’m talking about every move…every breath…every sneeze…even your trips to the bathroom….your shower…your private time…when you sleep. I just finished watching The Circle with Tom Hanks and Emma Watson. The entire concept of privacy and social media is explored in a really interesting way. It got me thinking…about the smallest of things…like whether or not my feet look dry. Would I tell say that pants are overrated and keep them off as I move freely about my own home? Imagine absolutely no privacy ever. Not that someone IS always watching, but they could be and you’ve no way of knowing unless you’re interacting on social media. Just thinking about this made me push my hair behind my eyes and cross my bare legs under my desk.
Of course, the squirrels distracted me and I quickly forgot that I was acting as if…I think there’s probably a few things I’d do different, I’m sure, but I think we’d probably just get a lot more real with one another. No, I didn’t shave my legs today…yesterday either. I know! *giggles* Of course, I will now, cuz everyone is gonna ask and we all know that Tracy Redangel is the one with the furry knees.

hair: :::Phoenix::: Brittany Hair (*new* @ Mainstore)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: Glam Affair – Karina – Catwa Mesh Head Applier – Asia (*new* @ Kustom9)
Kibitz – Duh necklace – silver (*new* @ REWIND)
Scandalize.Ashley-TOP. (*new* @ Cosmopolitan)
Scandalize.Ashley-SKIRT. (*new* @ Cosmopolitan)
Scandalize. Ashley.Heels.  (*new* @ Cosmopolitan)

pose: FOXCITY. Sass Bento Pose Set (*new* @ Limit8)
FOXCITY. Lipstick Lounge – Azure (*new* @ Hidden TCF)


Black Widow

“Love me ‘till you’re dead, you will not forget
You’ll still love me, dead or alive”
~InThis Moment – Black Widow

So, I just woke up after a real strange night and as I sometimes do, I shared the photo with a few friends and asked for suggestions on what to write. Well, Grace said, “You look like some sort of cyber black widow.” Well, that took me straight to one of my favorite bands. So, I’ve paired the photo with some In This Moment and I’ll leave you with that.

I’ll wake and bake for the next post. *grins* That should prove interesting, right?

Yes, the dangerous black widow is to be approached with caution, as the black widow’s bite can cause death
The black widow is easily recognized by her coal black body and red hourglass marking
She encases her victims with silk, and then kills with poison from her fangs


hair: Doe: Crinkle Fries (*new* @ REWIND)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: Glam Affair – Karina – Catwa Mesh Head Applier – Asia (*new* @ Kustom9)
eyeshadow: Veechi – Moon Shadow (*new* @ REWIND)
lipstick: Wednesday[+] ~ Juliet Lip INK-(*new* @ REWIND)
UC_Agony_vest (*new* @ TLC)
//Naberius// The Manticore Nipple Piercings (Black) Maitreya
[CX] Sentinel Tentacles (*new* @ REWIND)
Vinyl – Kito True-Booty Shorts Pak Black

pose: FOXCITY. Me Time Bento Pose Set

FOXCITY. Photo Booth – Linear (Limited) (*new* @ Limit8)
uK – Vintage Truck Bar Red



Therapy Session

So, I don’t write about everything I’m going through, but I do write about a fair bit. Some things are too personal…yes, even I have boundaries. *laughs* I draw my inspiration for words, photos, layouts….from a variety of places. Often it is just a violent mixture of the madness swirling about in my mind, but when my fingers meet the keys and I’m staring at this blank page…somehow I usually find a way to let something out. You see, blogging isn’t a JOB for me. Its a way of life. I’m honored that you’re interested enough to read any of it ever, but I really don’t write for YOU….I write for ME….and I am very well known for having full on arguments out loud with myself.
If all of my sponsors pulled away from me and I was suddenly dismissed from all of my blog manager jobs….none of that would stop me. Actually, my photos would probably take a seriously artistic turn around the corner. I was recently told that I need to be more professional in Second Life. Fuck that. I’m not here to be fake. This is the one place I can be completely free to be me….on every level. I don’t care for your judgement.  I was told not to be friends with my bloggers. I’ve been told I’m too mean. I’m too picky. I’m too soft. I’m too nice. I try too hard. I don’t try hard enough. Here’s the thing though…I’m not here to please anyone but me. Call it selfish, fuck you….what are YOU here for? You here to help humanity? No, you’re not. You might do some good while you’re here, but lets face it…we all found our way to broken toys and those of us that actually live here? We know.
So, if you don’t like me, that’s ok…I don’t always like me either. You think I got issues? No, Baby, I got motherfucking subscriptions and my father owns the publication. *gasps* Yeah, I said it….this is MY therapy session and if you don’t like it….uhm….part of me wants to apologize, but how can I be sorry for being me. I got enough people that love me to know, I’m not that bad…but hey, s’ok…I don’t gotta make you happy. That’s your job, isn’t it? I’ll be over here taking care of mine…maybe our worlds will collide…maybe they’ll mingle and make music. For now, this is the end of this therapy session.

rain brings truth
I mean, I think sometimes people they confuse what I’m doing
I write about life, I write about things that I’m actually dealing with
Something that I’m actually experiencing, this is real for me
Like this is something that personally helps me as well

hair: pr!tty – Bellena (*new* @ Enchantment)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: Glam Affair –- MaryJane – Catwa Mesh Head Applier
[Z O O M] Clymena Glasses (*new* @ FaMESHed)
(Yummy) Bohemia Ring Set
[Cynful] Lioness 2in1 Top (*new* @ FaMESHed)
Legal Insanity  – Myra flared black pants

pose: FOXCITY. Breather VOL2 Animated Pose Set (*new* @ Kustom9)



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