The Hours Fade

“so the hours fade
something’s got to break
something’s got to change
so the hours fade
something’s got to break
something’s got to change”
The Kays Lavelle ~ The Hours

I haven’t been myself this week. As much as I try, I cannot shake this scrambled feeling. Its as if the reception in my brain is fuzzy. I’ve been emotional to say the least. Sometimes I’m slow to react to situations simply because I need time to process, but this week…I dunno, its like everything has been processing really slow. The ringing in my ears is louder than even and the pain that lives within my body has spiked. These things make it even harder for me to concentrate. Sometimes its all I can do to just sit still.
I’m sure the wonky weather in my area has played a major role in this, but something’s got to change…for I feel I’m going mad. This morning I didn’t even want to get out of bed, but as my coffee sat on my nightstand getting colder I forced myself to get up…come to the PC and write some of this down. I can’t even know if this will make sense to anyone else, but its where I’m at and I’ve found that more often than not…I’m not alone in my feelings. As the hours fade, I hope that this haze, too, will fade and I will get back to feeling more like myself.

scandalize top

wearing: 
hair
/Wasabi Pills/ Apple Mesh Hair
headCATWA HEAD Kathy
bodyMaitreya Mesh Body – Lara

EarthStones Butterfly Necklace & Earrings – Whisper
Scandalize. Juliet. (*new* @ N21)
Blueberry – DWL Classic

pose: FOXCITY. Bento Ground Sits VOL1
location: Hazardous

She Is Real

Today, I’m just sharing a poem I wrote about a little of a year ago. I hope you like it.

She Is Real

She steals my breath
Speeds my heart
Keeps me awake
Just by saying
Hello Baby

She pushes me harder
Lifts me up
Shoves me into life
Just by sharing
Her time

She blinds me
While helping me see
She weakens me
By giving me strength
She calms me
With a surge of life

She

She sends me

She sends me to a place so deep
Even she
Has no idea
Where it takes me

She moves me to the edge of my seat
Shielding me from ridiculous fears
By illuminating my bravery
With her courage
And her strength

She

She steals my words
While forcing my pen to paper
In her honor

She occupies my thoughts
She touches me
She touches my soul
She touches my heart

She

She is real

~Sady

making an entrance

wearing: 
hair
:  RAMA.SALON – Alexandra Hair (*new* @ FaMESHed)
headCATWA HEAD Kathy
skin: Glam Affair – Polly – Catwa Mesh Head Applier – Jamaica (*new* @ Arcade)
bodyMaitreya Mesh Body – Lara
Cae :: Madison :: Collection (necklace & earrings)
BUENO Clutch – Red
Scandalize. Mina (*new* @ FaMESHed)
#EMPIRE – Snapdragon (June Luxe Box)

pose by FOXCITY Formal VOL1 Bento Set
background: Pseudo– Black Lounge Scene

Most Girls

“You know some days you feel so good in your own skin
But it’s okay if you wanna change the body that you came in
‘Cause you look greatest when you feel like a damn queen
We’re all just playing a game in a way, trying to win at life”
Hailee Steinfeld – Most Girls

If you’re a girl, you’ve had to have heard it at least once in your life, “You’re not like most girls.” Of course, I’m not. We’re all different. There are some common factors though and I think that proves true in Second Life more than anywhere else, because in SL most girls want their avatar to be the epitome of beauty as they see it. Oh sure, there are lots of us looking around at other girls in SL thinking, “WTF?” Truth be told, they either love the way they look or they’re simply having fun with their avatar and probably change their avatars regularly. Even if we think an avatar is outdated with bling and/or flexi hair/clothes…a system body/head…perhaps those girls simply don’t like the look of mesh or maybe their computers can’t handle it. Its not for me to say and sure, I’m guilty of giggling with my friends about other avatars, but at the end of the day…who is to say they’re not giggling at us? I’m not trying to make anyone feel guilty for the giggles, so long as those giggles and remarks are kept among friends. I’m not even saying that I won’t do it anymore, because I know I will. What I am saying is that we all have something about our avatars that someone else doesn’t like, but so long as we’re happy with ourselves…our avatars…our representations in a virtual world…THAT is what matters the most, isn’t it? So, if you have a tall thin avatar that resembles an anorexic runway model in the real world, but you love it…good for you and don’t you let anyone change your mind about that. If you have the enormous boobs and butt with the itty bitty waist, but you love it…good. There’s enough body shaming in the real world. Don’t you dare let anyone tell you that your avatar isn’t right, if YOU love it. Now, if you don’t love it…might I suggest you peruse some blogs and create a look you will love? *grins* Oh, just go enjoy the song, do some shopping, and laugh…it is Friday after all…hell, have a drink or five. Live your life and stop worrying about what most girls and doing and be you. ♥

most girls

wearing:
hair
TRUTH / Rumor
headCATWA HEAD Kathy
bodyMaitreya Mesh Body – Lara
tattoo: .::Nanika::. Alexandra tattoo Black Maitreya
skirt{le fil casse} Lilith Skirt (*new* @ Somber)

pose by Foxcity (Cutiepie set)
BUENO-Onyx Hall (*new* @ Kustom9)

Summer Breeze

“Summer breeze, makes me feel fine, blowing through the jasmine in my mind”
~Summer Breeze – Seals & Croft

This is one of those songs that takes me back to childhood summers in Alabama. As a child I didn’t notice the heat so much, I just knew its warm and the sun is shining, and that meant I could go outside to play. I loved playing outside as a kid. Its not something I see many kids doing where I live unless they’re at the pool. In some ways its kinda sad to see the kids of today more glued to little blue screens than focused on playing tag or hide-n-seek, but I would imagine some of the mothers rest a little easier knowing exactly where their children are, rather than worrying about them getting snatched up or climbing and falling off a scaffold that the workers left behind while working on their apartment building.  *laughs* Yeah, I might have climbed a four story scaffold as a kid, luckily none of us fell, but if our mothers had know what we were doing. *giggles*
From time to time I do see boys outside tossing around a football and because there’s a park next to my neighborhood I can hear the cheers and whistles of soccer (football is you live outside the U.S.) games on occasion. Perhaps its because of where I live that I don’t see a lot of children outside playing, but when I think back to my childhood I’m ever so grateful to have memories of chasing lightening bugs as the sun began to set, because lets face it…we all knew that when those street lights came on, it was time to get our little butts in the house.

I don’t spend nearly as much time outside these days as I did as a child, but again, I’m grateful for the memories of my own. My childhood wasn’t all great, but I truly have some amazing memories worth a visit from time to time and there’s nothing like a summer breeze stirring up the jasmines in my garden to take me back. I hope that summer treats you all well and that you can revisit some of your own beautiful memories. ♥

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wearing:
hair: Tableau Vivant \\ Summer Hairplay – Alize – Pack 3 RARE (*new* @ Arcade)
head: CATWA HEAD Kathy
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
tattoo: RedFish – Precious Tattoo (*new* @ Kinky)
makeup (brows/lipstick): A R T E – 40’s MakeUp Pack [Catwa, bento] (*new* @ Vintage Fair)
nail polish on maitreya nailsHello Dave – Nail Appliers – Baroque Pinup 1 (*new* @ Vintage Fair)

MINIMAL – Chiara Glasses -Silver-(*new* @ FaMESHed)
!Rebel Hope – Jasmina Mesh Bikini (*new* @ FaMESHed)

pose: FOXCITY. Formal VOL1-7 (Slim gown)

location: aloha beach

A Day at the Beach

Around this time last year, I was fortunate enough to meet some long time Second Life friends in the real world. It was an amazing weekend and over far too quickly and if I remember correctly, I think I even stayed a day longer than I originally planned. Mind you, Nikole kept my ass stoned from the time I got there until I left. Along with partaking in some pretty fine ass weed, Blondie’s RL took us all to a Japanese Steak house for dinner, where not only did Nik eat my yumyum (a really delicious sauce), but we found our official drink for the weekend. It was called A Day at the Beach and looks very much like the sky behind me. We had a grand weekend with that drink, by the pool…oh the stories and jokes…and the sunburn!
I’m so glad I can enjoy all the beaches and pools in SL without having to worry about getting a sunburn. Even with especially high SPF sunscreen, my RL self will still burn if I’m in the sun for more than an hour.

day at the beach

wearing:
hair:  tram G0511 hair (*new* @ Uber)
head: CATWA HEAD Kathy
bodyMaitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skinGlam Affair – Polly – Catwa Mesh Head Applier – Jamaica (*new* @ Kustom9)

L&B Swear Lilly Wrap Top (*new* @ Uber)
!Rebel Hope – Mesh Sarong

pose by Foxcity

location: Banana Bay

XOXO

As I sit here this beautiful Saturday morning, smoking my cigarette and drinking my coffee, I can’t help but think about how blessed I am. I had a fantastic conversation with a new friend about the power of choosing to be positive. We talked about how there’s far too much hate and how there can never be too much love. So, in keeping with that I’m going to keep this short and wish you all an absolutely beautiful, positive, love filled weekend. XOXO

XOXO

wearing:
hair:  [monso] My Hair – Twobi (*new* @ Kustom9)
head: CATWA HEAD Kathy
bodyMaitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skinGlam Affair – Polly – Catwa Mesh Head Applier – Jamaica (*new* @ Kustom9)

Vinyl – Scars Turtleneck/Bra Pak (FLF May 27, 2017)
Vinyl – Florence Skirt
Phedora ~ Danielle Strappy heels (*new* @ Uber)

pose by Foxcity (includes cigarette)
MINIMAL – Underground Background -4- (*new* @ Uber)

A Series of Scenes

When I look back on various memories from my 10+yrs in Second Life, I so often see it like a scene from a movie….much like watching a screen, but in a dream. I can’t know if that made any sense, but I’m trying to explain the connection between the human and the avatar, the real world and the virtual…and how truly woven they are. How we take photographs and those memories are earmarked in our personal book of time. In a world filled with ever changing images, I think photographs should mean something. Make sure to earmark the best of times, and even the raw emotion behind the worst.

smell the roses2

I find myself doubly blessed by the fabric of my two worlds crossing, in even the remotest way. I want to remember this day. I won’t go into all the reasons why, but I will tell you that I had such a pleasant time putting this scene together. I had someone with me, to keep me company and to help keep me focused. We had wonderful conversations and I managed to get my picture. I knew exactly what I wanted, because the minute I saw the offerings of Fancy Decor and unKindness at the 5th Anniversary of FaMESHed, I knew I was about to create the perfect addition to my home. While I actually built the scene elsewhere, I know this is coming home with me. Adding little additions that I’ve collected along the way. Yes, I think this will be a day to remember.

smell the roses

I had to be dressed in red, because my heart was simply too full to wear any other color. You have to admit I’m glowing just a bit…only thing missing is the horns…*laughs*

Another great thing about this photo is that I get to show off just a sampling of what FaMESHed has to offer on their 5th Anniversary which I’ve had the distinct honor to be part of as one of the new liaisons.  I have a whole new respect for all event organizers and their teams. And now, having the inside track…I can tell you that something HUGE is coming…oh, I can’t tell you what it is…*laughs*…you’ll just have to wait and see.♥

wearing:
hair.Entwined. Ruby + (*new* @ FaMESHed)
head: CATWA HEAD Kathy
bodyMaitreya Mesh Body – Lara
tattooRedFish – Bablito Tattoo (*new* @ Suicide DollZ)

FOXCITY. Flowers-1 Prop Bouquet (*new* @ ON9)
~~~~comes with the pose mentioned below♦
Astralia – Lunar ascendant Rings (*new* @ FaMESHed)

{le fil casse} Eileen Dress Maitreya Black Lace (*new* @ FaMESHed)
Phedora ~ Vivian Platforms ~ Maitreya (*new* @ FaMESHed)

pose: FOXCITY. Flowers-1 (*new* @ ON9)♦

scene:
Fancy Decor: Davis Fence Kit (*new* @ FaMESHed)
~~~this includes: corner post, mid post, end post, plain post, sconce, concrete block, thin block, planter, fence window, long panel, short panel, and the bench
uK – Spring Lights Pergola (*new* @ FaMESHed)
Thistle Book Stack with Photos – 2017 FaMESHed Gift (cm)
Trompe Loeil – Caparra Wall Ivy
Kalopsia – Lily’s Hanging flowers
22769 – Banana Tree – COMMON
SAYO – Peplum Pillow Lounger  (*new* @ FaMESHed)
MudHoney Azalea Plant 1
MudHoney Azalea Plant 2