even if our dreams never came true

Writing when I’m content or happy has always been a struggle for me. I used to write poetry daily. It’s as if the concept of being content or happy is so foreign to me that I can’t properly describe it. I think that’s a common thread amongst artists. The songs that move us the most are the sad songs. The art that moves us the most, tend to be that that makes us uncomfortable or stirs a strong emotion from within. What is stronger than pain? So, here I am trying to find the words to express that I’m in a pretty good place at the moment. Perhaps the biggest part of that is my perception, but whatever it is…I don’t want to only write about the bad times and bad feels anymore. The world doesn’t need more pain or misery, we all need to know there is goodness out there and how to achieve it, even if our dreams never came true.

hair: tram K0425 hair @ C88
head: LeLUTKA Avalon Head 3.0
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) Perky Edition (1.4)
skin: [Glam Affair] Mia Skin [Lelutka EvoX] @ C88
tattoo: Ladybird. // Tavi @ Equal10

NaaNaa’s Sama Necklace @ FaMESHed
(Yummy) Plumage Ring Set @ C88
LOTUS. Wings Nails 11 (Legacy) RARE @ Equal10
Tentacio Funny life Planning life pink
Tentacio Funny life Mom call me
BUENO-Geena Tops @ C88

Decor: KraftWork + Pitaya .Blume. Gacha @ Epiphany

Memories fade

“There’s only need
I love your need
So much I’m losing me
I cannot see the reason for the Pain
With hungry joy
I’ll be your toy
Just hoping you will play
Without the hope my body starts to fail

Memories fade but the scars still linger
Goodbye my friend
Will I ever love again
Memories fade but the scars still linger

I cannot grow
I cannot move
I cannot feel my age
The vice like grip of tension holds me fast
Engulfed by you
What can I do
When history’s my cage
Look forward to a future in the past

Memories fade but the scars still linger
Goodbye my friend
Will I ever love again

Memories fade but the scars still linger
Goodbye my friend
Will I ever love again

The more I talk
The more I say
The less you seem to hear
I’m speechless in a most peculiar way
Your mind is weak
Your need is great
And nothing is too dear
For you to use to take the pain away
Memories fade
No don’t pretend you can justify the end
Memories fade but the scars still linger”

~ Tears for Fears – Memories Fade

wearing:
hair:  (NO) Pom Beanie Style (*new* @ Uber)
head: CATWA HEAD Denice
–SU!– Astrid Eyes
–SU!– Piercing Set 07 Septum & Nose Studs
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skin: #20 [PUMEC] – MIA – JUNE (*new* @ Epiphany)

Ascendant – Call me Boss Nails (*new* @ A+Event)
:::ChicChica::: Frappuccino

!APHORISM! Karen Winter Body Warmer (*new* @ FaMESHed)
*Just BECAUSE* Celine Slacks (*new* @ Uber)

pose: GingerFish Poses – Chill

Smoke

Another topic from my Challenge to Challenge post. This one came from Rina Edenflower: a Christmas ornament and a shovel. I immediately thought of how much I hate Christmas this year. I’ve done my best to keep in the spirit for those around me, but with these two items I couldn’t help but imagining digging a giant hole, then dumping the tree and all the ornaments into a big hole. Then lighting the whole thing on fire and watching it burn until there’s nothing left but smoke. Of course, I would never do that, but it sure amuses me to think about it.

wearing:
hair: Tableau Vivant \\ Laura hair
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skin: [theSkinnery] Paola
LYBRA . OLIVIA (@ FaMESHed until Dec 27th)

pose by BauHaus Movement

[BH9] – The Venue (*new* @ Equal10)

 

Tiffany’s Challenge

Alright, so the other day, I challenged my readers to challenge me in a post so adequately titled: Challenge to Challenge. The first to offer up a challenge was my ever so sweet girl, Tiffany Parkin. She wants me to compare a sextant and a football. Well, I had to look up sextant, because I had no clue what it was. I must admit, I was quite disappointed to find out that it actually has nothing at all to do with sex. *sighs* That Tiffany is such a tease!
So, to start off, these two things have one thing in common right off the bat. I know nothing about either one. I now know that one is used for celestial navigation or something like that…the other, well, is the ball with which American football is played and looks nothing like a ball in my opinion. I guess the next thing they have in common is stars. Although one deals with the stars in the sky, the other often produces the celebrity type.  Pretty sure you could bore me to death talking about either one of them, as well. So, there you have it….I did my best. *shakes her head and mutters about Tiffany being a sadist*

wearing:
hair:  Clawtooth: Merry and Bright (*new* @ Tannenbaum)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: –Belleza– Freya
skin: [theSkinnery] Paola

Dahlia – Orion – Sunglasses (*new* @ FaMESHed)
–SU!– Piercing Set 07
(Yummy) Ouija Ring Set
Ascendant – Million Bento Nails (*new* @ Vanity)

[Cynful] Snuggle Cardigan (*new* @ FaMESHed)
VINYL – Trapt Neon / Leather Dress (*new* @ LeveL)
[Gos] Frenchie Knit Boots (*new* @ Arcade)

pose: FOXCITY. The Journey Bento Set

scene:
.:Joplino:. Backdrop Comfy Place

JIAN Kringle’s Kittens *EPP* Gift Box Kitten (*new* @ Epiphany)

JIAN Poinsettia Garland Collection (*new* @ FaMESHed)
-JIAN Poinsettia Garland :: Wreathe
-JIAN Poinsettia Garland :: Basket

Lift Me Up

This post goes out to my closest friends…my truest friends. I won’t list them by name, because they know who they are  and I’m pretty sure they know how much they mean to me. I can’t imagine where I’d be without them. To be honest, there have been a few times that if not for them…I’m not sure I’d be here. So, this song is for you all and know that I love you so freaking much, whether you’re an asshole or a cunt…you all mean the absolute world to me. ♥
For my readers, I urge you to tell your friends today how much you love them, because you never know how much that little gesture will make. ♥

“I’m trying but I keep falling down
I cry out but nothing comes now
I’m giving my all and I know peace will come
I never wanted to need someone

Yeah, I wanted to play tough, thought I could do all this on my own
But even Superwoman sometimes needed Superman’s soul

Help me out of this hell
Your love lifts me up like helium
Your love lifts me up when I’m down, down, down, when I’ve hit the ground
You’re all I need

And if you let go, I’ll float towards the sun
I’m stronger ’cause you fill me up
But when the fear comes and I drift towards the ground
I am lucky that you’re around”

~ Sia – Helium

wearing:
hair:  MINA – Alison – MINA VIP Halloween excl. group gift
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skin: [theSkinnery] Paola

(Yummy) Free Spirit Rings

e.marie  // Unicorn Confetti Set (nails)

ChicModa // Mia Knot Top (*new* @ FaMESHed)

pose: GingerFish Pose – Give Good Face set (*new* @ eBENTO)

***If you are reading this on any site that suggests this post was originally published anywhere but SadyStyle by anyone other than Sadystika Sabretooth, you are reading a stolen post.

Gratitude

When I wake up in the morning, I like to express my gratitude for being on the planet. That gratefulness makes me very present.
Trudie Styler

scene created in Myrrine Greenhouse white

Dahlia – Loire GACHA (*new* @ 6Republic)
-Dahlia – Loire – Vintage Wash Basin – .01 RARE
-Dahlia – Loire – Cotton Jars – Silver – .03
-Dahlia – Loire – Towels – Mint – .07
-Dahlia – Loire – Savon – Oatmeal – 10.
-Dahlia – Loire – Linen Water – Old – 14.
-Dahlia – Loire – Linen Water – New – 15.
-Dahlia – Loire – Flower Arangement – Coral – 18.
-Dahlia – Loire – Zinc Pitcher – Coral – 23.

Dahlia – Plymouth Collection (*new* @ FaMESHed)
-Dahlia – Plymouth – Thankful Shadow Box – Silver
-Dahlia – Plymouth – Stackable Boxes – Silver
-Dahlia – Plymouth – Shelf – White
-Dahlia – Plymouth – Pumpkin – Tan
-Dahlia – Plymouth – Pumpkin – Pale Green
-Dahlia – Plymouth – Love Birds – Silver

Apple Fall Yorkshire Bench
Apple Fall Pug Ceramic Decor
Apple Fall Grass Pot
Apple Fall Silver Antiqued Rabbit
Apple Fall Banana Tree

{anc} Looking-glass. {oval mirror} amber

ChicModa Decor // Accent Pillow // Hello Gorgeous (Peach)

Silence. – Live, Laugh, Love (pillow)

NOMAD // Improvised // Laundry Basket and Soap
.:Bee designs:.Blooming Console Table
!! Follow US !! Vintage beauty bucket COPY version
cat: I haven’t gone to the bathroom  (by May’s Soul)
15.erratic / coc – dragonfly jar
–tb– Bon Voyage – Clock Radio (Yellow)
-tres blah- Jolie – Chic Perfume
-tres blah- Jolie – Lotions
-tb- Vanity – Toiletries
+Half-Deer+ Cutie Clutter – Hair Accessories (Pastel)
+Half-Deer+ Spilled Liquid – Small Puddle – Water Set

OUTSIDE:
Serenity Style-Deer Family (*new* @ TLC)
-Serenity Style- Young Deer
-Serenity Style- Young Deer2
-Serenity Style-Baby Fawn

 

***If you are reading this on any site that suggests this post was originally published anywhere but SadyStyle by anyone other than Sadystika Sabretooth, you are reading a stolen post.

My Sabrina

For those of you that know the song, I hope you heard “My Sabrina” to the tune of “My Sharona” cuz that’s totally how I heard it in my head as I wrote it. *giggles* Once again, this post will only mean something to those that have at least heard of the Netflix show, The Chilling Adventures of Sabrina. Essentially, its a modern, more graphic, more dramatic version of Sabrina the Teenage Witch. Or is it? What I found out is that what most of think is the original Sabrina from television is NOT the original at all. In fact, the original Sabrina stems from an Archie comic book released in October 1962. This eventually led to her having her own comic series, Sabrina the Teenage Witch. And THAT was the inspiration for the first television show that was on ABC & WB. However, as Archie and the gang were brought forward through the comic book series, so was Sabrina. As the stories took a turn and started being published under Archie Horror (another branch of the brand, I guess)…the comics went darker and were called The Chilling Adventures of Sabrina. These newer, darker stories were the inspiration for Netflix’s new show. It makes perfect sense if you know about Riverdale which is about Archie and the gang already.
All of this brings us to the here and now. I was just making fun of the fact that our newest Sabrina looks exactly as she did on Mad Men. When I found the makings of this entire outfit at the latest round of FaMESHed. So, I present to you Sabrina the full grown witch that is still wearing that short hair and headband, but shorter skirts and bigger tits. You’re welcome. *giggles*

wearing:
hair:  Wasabi // Brina Mesh Hair (*new* @ FaMESHed)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skin: [theSkinnery] Amber

[Cynful] Turtleneck Dress (*new* @ FaMESHed)
Eudora3D Jane Pumps & Socks (*new* @ FaMESHed)

pose: GingerFish Pose  – Nightbird
location: Arranmore

 

***If you are reading this on any site that suggests this post was originally published anywhere but SadyStyle by anyone other than Sadystika Sabretooth, you are reading a stolen post.

Your strength is in your weakness

Every so often I fall back on the lyrics of a song, because so often they reflect what I’m feeling. Also, because sometimes what I’m feeling is just too painful and deeply personal to write about or I’m simply not ready.

“It finds you in a cold room
A silhouette against the wall
Lit up by the white moon
We’ll outrun the awaking dawn

You can see the faces
But you don’t know their thoughts
You can feel the traces
From the chalk lines on my heart

There’s something in the shadows
Cuts you like an arrow
Shifting through the dark
Your strength is in your weakness
There’s fire in your blood
Hanging from that hope
But everybody knows
There’s something in the shadows”
~ Amy Stroup -In The Shadows

wearing:
hair:  Lamb. Stellar  (*new* @ FaMESHed)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skin: [theSkinnery] Paola

.miss chelsea. Niki Headphones Silver
-:zk:- Joy (*new* @ Kinky)

pose: FOXCITY. Soulfood Bento Pose Set

***If you are reading this on any site that suggests this post was originally published anywhere but SadyStyle by anyone other than Sadystika Sabretooth, you are reading a stolen post.

Finally!

Finally, someone developed a hairstyle to conceal my horns! *giggles* These cubes from E.V.E remind me of one of those word search things I see on Facebook all the time. “Oh the first three words are what you can expect next year!” Well, the last one of those I did said love, marriage, and health. I laughed so hard.  Yes, I know love will always be part of my life, because I have a heart with which I love very deeply, too deeply. Marriage? NO, let’s pray a divorce is on the horizon though. Since the bastard left me essentially penniless to run off with a 20yr old skank. Yes, she is a skank, remind me to tell that story someday. It’s a doozy! And finally, the prediction was health? I’m going to assume they meant poor health, considering that at best there are treatments for my fybromyalgia and PKD, however, there are no known cures.
Let’s not ruin all the fun, let’s take a look at the cube. First word I see is battlefield and I’ll agree to that. I like violent films and shows, plus I play Guild Wars 2 with one of my best friends. So, yes, a battlefield is very likely. Next word…hate. Ohh, that’s a strong word. I don’t really have the energy to fuel hate. I’m more of a person that turns completely ambivalent. I just won’t acknowledge someone’s existence or care that they exist. In Second Life, its even better, because I can mute and derender people. That’s nice. Alright, third word I notice is Heaven. Well, I’m an atheist so I can only imagine that means, I’m going to be proven wrong and all of you do gooders are in for a big surprise when you show up OR (and this is more likely) someone is going to make me feel soo good that it will feel heavenly. These cubes are a group gift, so if you like them, you can grab a set for yourself, absolutely free.

“So what would an angel say
The devil wants to know”
~ Fiona Apple – Criminal

wearing:
hair:  #Foxy – Fallen Hair (*new* @ Salem)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skin: [theSkinnery] Amber (*new* @ C88)

Dead Dollz – Morrigan Set 2.0 (*new* @ FaMESHed)
_CandyDoll_ Demona Boots

pose: FOXCITY. Cozy Bento Pose Set (*new* @ Uber)

[Dollmart]Empress Chair
E.V.E {Team} Love is a Battlefield Cubes GROUP GIFT

Hidden Treasure

Have you ever played one of those hidden clue games? There’s several on Facebook, plenty of apps for phones, etc. You find the hidden objects and progress through the story. The picture with the hidden objects usually reflect that particular part of the story. Well, when I initially started setting up this scene….I ended up chasing squirrels all over the internet. What started out as a squirrel’s Halloween party quickly turned into a hidden object picture. Except, you don’t have to find them, they are all listed below with slurls so that you can go grab your own fun Halloween and Autumn decor! Happy shopping!♥

wearing:
hair:  #Besom~Pesha
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skin: [Glam Affair] Alice Applier

!APHORISM! Ariana Hoody (*new* @ FaMESHed)
Addams // Millie Wool Socks // N*30

FOXCITY. Legs for Days Bento Pose Set

scene: 
*alirium* DwarfForest [OldGold]
*alirium* DwarfForest [Ember]

[ keke ] tree with mattress . all seasons (*new* @ FaMESHed)
[ keke ] willow leaves for ground – maxi

NOMAD // Scattered Leaves

Apple Fall Pinecones & Hazelnuts

JIAN Red Squirrel Collection (*new* @ FaMESHed)
-JIAN Red Squirrel Feeder Tree
-JIAN Red Squirrel (Wanderer)

[Bad Unicorn] ‘Cute Meets Evil Set’ (*new* @ Arcade)
-[Bad Unicorn] Ghost Stand ‘Cute Meets Evil Set’
-[Bad Unicorn] Game Over Backpack ‘Cute Meets Evil Set’
-[Bad Unicorn] Tricked Treats Pumpkin (Arcade Exclusive)
-[Bad Unicorn] Dinosaur Mask ‘Cute Meets Evil Set’ RARE
-[Bad Unicorn] GRRReen Hands

crate Jack O’Lantern Decor ~ Ironwood Hills Gift
crate Nightshade Cloak Rack

.BIRCH Pentagram Torches (*new* @ TLC)

{what next} Fall Harvest Wheelbarrow
{what next} Autumn Bicycle Decor

Dahlia – Newport – Distressed Trinket Box  (*new* @ FaMESHed)
Dahlia – Baby Robert – Antique Lamp – Copper ~ Ironwood Hills Gift

floorplan. vintage crate

hive // extra crates [dark]

SAYO – Vizcaya Garden Party Set – Candles & Leaves