Well, here it is, officially Halloween. Now the jack o lanterns will begin to rot, but all the other decor can carry over into the rest of the year in one way or another. I mean, there’s plenty of reasons to use the dark macabre stuff…depending on what styles you like. I personally love mixing the unexpected with the “norm” to create something surprising. Like a romantic dinner for two in an overgrown abandoned building. *grins*
Gimme a hammer, screwdriver, and a hammer…and by god, I’ll try to fix stuff! I mean, with a hammer, if I can’t fix it, I can’t beat into oblivion. Then I’m justified in buying a whole new one….whatever it is. Although, I am very poor, so replacements could take quite some time. And hey, I’m gonna look trying to fix it, too. I mean, you have to dress for the part, right? Plumbers show their ass cracks for that very reason, I assume. So, here I am in my cute little tied off tee-shirt and cut off shorts…I’m ready to fix something!!!
foundation: hair: Exile – Jasmine head: LeLUTKA Avalon head skin: [Glam Affair] Cherry [Lelutka EvoX] @ UBER body: [LEGACY] Meshbody Perky body skin: VELOUR: The “Ipanema Body” for Legacy (Chantilly)
Oh no, I did it again I tell the world I’m fine, never near the edge And now I’m falling Too late to tell the truth Oh no, I did it again I heard them all too loud, voices in my head And now I’m lonely Someone to tell me thеy knew
foundation hair: DOUX – Sophie hairstyle @ Equal10 head: LeLUTKA Fleur 3.1 head skin: [Glam Affair] Enni Layer [Lelutka EvoX] body: [LEGACY] Meshbody Perky body skin: VELOUR: The “Ipanema Body” for Legacy (Sienna)
So, here I sit having decided that I’m going to start writing on my blog again and I’m already at a loss of what to talk about. It’s funny, cuz once you get me talking about just about anything, its difficult to shut me up. Some might even accuse me of dominating conversations. AS IF! *laughs* I’ve asked my readers in the past to ask me questions, but you all seem to not be too interested in asking me anything. Instead, you’d rather watch me flail around like a fish out of water. RUDE. Maybe I’ll have something to actually talk about by the time I do my next picture. Maybe.
foundation hair: DOUX – Sophie hairstyle @ Equal10 head: LeLUTKA Fleur 3.1 head skin: — PUMEC – MILKA FATPACK – LELU EVO – March X body: [LEGACY] Meshbody Perky body skin: VELOUR: The “Ipanema Body” for Legacy (Sienna)
fashion Cae :: Eternal :: Collar KIWY – Alma Bikini
I’m alone but I’m not lonely Comfortably indulging And tryna get to know me I’m just an outline of what I used to be Constantly evolving Steadily revolving I am confidently lost I don’t need you to find me You don’t define me I am confidently lost I don’t need you to find me ‘Cause I’m not hiding Anything Anything Made up of hope and meditation Love, imagination Water my creations Baby, it’s amazing All the days I’m facing Nothing seems to phase me
Today went really well I didn’t wake up in a panic spell It was fine, even though I fell Deeper and deeper in a manic hell Whoa, I’m living and I’m dreaming Trying to stay even, oh Whoa, I’m training for no reason Apologize, no feelings, oh No, I don’t need your help To make me sick, to make me ill I don’t need anybody else ‘Cause I can break my heart myself I don’t need your help Getting off of this carousel I don’t need anybody else ‘Cause I can break my heart myself
(Yummy) Layered Rose Necklace @ Kustom9 (Yummy) Plumage Ring Set @ C88 EQUAL – Rose Nails French @ Access MVT – Rich bitch wallet – Rose @ Equal10 purse: [DDL] Fearless @ Access Just BECAUSE Kyrene Dress – TSS May 8, 2021
I have been sick af the last couple of days. A lot of my symptoms could easily be stress related…like IBD & Fibromyalgia. Both have been flaring up, which in turns affects other issues, like back pain and headaches. However, I’ve spent a good amount of time in bed, mostly because I have no choice, and I’m trying very hard to reduce my stress. Honestly, I don’t feel that stressed. I know I have a lot on my plate, but I don’t feel stressed. I feel like I have things under control. So, I’m not sure what’s going on. Perhaps it’s something else entirely. Perhaps it’s some sense of impending doom lingering in the back of my mind somewhere, because I still struggle with the concept of being content, happy, and actually loving myself. Thanks to not having insurance and living in the great U.S. of A…I’m just going to need to suffer through whatever it is. In the meantime, I’ll be doing my best to carry on.
hair: DOUX – Chi hairstyle head: LeLUTKA Avalon Head 3.0 body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) Perky Edition (1.4) skin: [Glam Affair] Mia Skin [Lelutka EvoX] @ C88
NaaNaa’s Sama Necklace @ FaMESHed e.marie // Erika Bracelet (Yummy) Plumage Ring Set @ C88 LOTUS. Chrome Nails 01 @ Access Seniha. Kim Top @ FaMESHed Seniha. Kim Joggers @ FaMESHed
‘Cause I’m my own soulmate (Yeah, yeah) I know how to love me (Love me) I know that I’m always gonna hold me down Yeah, I’m my own soulmate (Yeah, yeah) No, I’m never lonely (Lonely) I know I’m a queen but I don’t need no crown Look up in the mirror like damn she the one One, one, one, one, one, one (The one) Like damn she the one One, one, one (The one) That bitch in the mirror like yeah, I’m in love Love, love, love, love, love, love (In love) Like yeah, I’m in love Love, love, love (In love) Look up in the mirror like damn she the one And she never tell me to exercise We always get extra fries And you know the sex is fire And I gotta testify I get flowers every Sunday I’mma marry me one day True love ain’t something you can buy yourself True love finally happens when you by yourself So if you by yourself, then go and buy yourself Another round from the bottle on the higher shelf
**special thanks to my wifey, Ghoulie Waffles, for introducing me to this song**
Writing when I’m content or happy has always been a struggle for me. I used to write poetry daily. It’s as if the concept of being content or happy is so foreign to me that I can’t properly describe it. I think that’s a common thread amongst artists. The songs that move us the most are the sad songs. The art that moves us the most, tend to be that that makes us uncomfortable or stirs a strong emotion from within. What is stronger than pain? So, here I am trying to find the words to express that I’m in a pretty good place at the moment. Perhaps the biggest part of that is my perception, but whatever it is…I don’t want to only write about the bad times and bad feels anymore. The world doesn’t need more pain or misery, we all need to know there is goodness out there and how to achieve it, even if our dreams never came true.
NaaNaa’s Sama Necklace @ FaMESHed (Yummy) Plumage Ring Set @ C88 LOTUS. Wings Nails 11 (Legacy) RARE @ Equal10 Tentacio Funny life Planning life pink Tentacio Funny life Mom call me BUENO-Geena Tops @ C88
Friends come and go, friends come and go Go like the seasons I never know, I never know what to believe in And it’s getting old, it’s getting old But no hard feelings ‘Cause friends come and go, friends come and go without a reason And I, I’ve been in L.A. for way too long Can’t get this air inside my lungs It feels like I’m suffocatin’ from all the lack of the realness here Is there anybody real out here? Got my middle, middle up while I’m singing Fuck fake friends, we don’t need ’em Only thing they’re good for is leaving Fuck fake friends, we don’t need ’em I’ve had it up to the ceiling Fuck fake friends, we don’t need ’em Only thing they’re good for is leaving And I ain’t got the time, money on my mind (yeah) I’ll say it to your face, fuck fake friends
hair: DOUX – Lia hairstyle @ TresChic head: LeLUTKA Avalon Head 3.0 eyes: A R T E – Sweet Brown Eyes @ TLC body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) Perky Edition (1.4) skin: [Glam Affair] Rika Skin [Lelutka EvoX] eyebrows: Glam Affair – Vip HD BROWS – Lelutka @ TLC Glam Affair – EVOX Smoky Makeup 01 B for FLF April 16, 2021
[ rD ] – Hydra Set @ TLC (choker & earrings) ^^Swallow^^ Earrings H01/E01 for lel Evo X Ears @ Kustom9 (Yummy) Spring Butterfly Ring Collection @ C88 Cynful Savi Leather Top + Savi Leather Shorts @ Equal10 [BREATHE]-Konoka Heels @ Epiphany