Let’s Go Crazy

Sometimes the world just doesn’t make sense. I think it’s pretty clear that I’m not the picture of perfect mental health. I’m not sure there even is such a thing to be honest. Hell, mental health has been called all sorts of names throughout history.  Even the names of disorders change….what once was called manic depressive is not called bi-polar. Why? Why did they change the name? Manic depressive was spot on. I think everyone and anyone can catch that disorder on the right day or wrong day as the case might very well be.
Seriously, think about it for a minute.  You are having a great day. You slept great, you woke up right before your alarm went off. The weather is your favorite kind of day. Everything is going well. Catching all the green lights in traffic. Errands go great, you even saved some money unexpectedly. You come home, dinner is great….you slip into your favorite PJs…you’re set. You’re happy as you can be….then it happens. You get a tragic phone call. Something awful has happened to someone you love and there’s absolutely nothing you can do about it. You’re alone with this awful news. That’s going to be a helluva a mood swing, don’t you think?  Say the reverse happens. Whole day has been shit. Slept like shit, overslept, bad hair day, pouring down rain, you get stuck in traffic…you get home, burn dinner…then unexpectedly your best friend calls. She’s coming over and she’s bringing pizza. Your whole day just got better in an instant. Mood swing. *shrugs* Must be bi-polar.
Ever just felt so damn lazy, you just didn’t even want to get out of bed? Ever just want to stay in bed all weekend, veg out with the remote and some junk food? Ever just do it, cuz you want to? Well, you must be depressed, you can’t even drag your ass out of bed. I’m in no way minimizing any diagnosis. I’m more than fully aware that there are varying degrees of each legitimate disorder. I’m not even suggesting to know what is and isn’t legitimate….I’m not a psych-anything….well, maybe psycho, but that’s about where my expertise ends. I’m sure not yelling at Matt Lauder about how mental health is a hoax, while clearly proving that it is very real.
I’m just saying, that the world doesn’t always make sense. So, if you’re a little crazy…so what? Be crazy. Be you. Love drama? Do it up. Hate drama? Stay away from it. Wanna dance? Crank up the music and dance. Who cares? We all have to get through this thing called life one way or another…so if you’re not crazy….why not? C’mon, let’s all go crazy.

Are we gonna let the elevator
Bring us down, oh, no let’s go
Let’s go crazy, let’s get nuts
Look for the purple banana
‘Til they put us in the truck, let’s go
All excited but we don’t know why
Maybe it’s ’cause we’re all gonna die
And when we do, what’s it all for
Better live now before the grim reaper
Come knocking on your door

hair: tram H0210 hair
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: LOTUS. Louise Skin Applier 04 (*new* @ SKIN FAIR)
tattoo: [ATI] Simon.(*new* @ Elite)
EF: Springleaf Earrings (*new* @ FaMESHed)
EF: Springleaf Necklace (*new* @ FaMESHed)
Narcisse– Nelly Lace up Dress (*new* @ Kinky)

pose: [ Focus Poses ] Naughty Chair 2
[Bad Unicorn] 02 Hype-Beast Backdrop

LOTUS. Louise Skin (*new* @ SKIN FAIR)
:::insanya::: JennaShorts – Solid (*new* @ Whore Couture)
pose by an lar


I’ll Do What I Please

I say this all the time, “I do what I want.” To be fair, I usually do just that. I’m an only child and despite the abuse, I was pretty spoiled. Over the years, I have grown up, but because I never had children I didn’t mature the way most people my age have matured. So, to sum it up I’m a brat! I know, that’s coming as quite a shock to many of you. *laughs*

I’m having a pretty crappy day, so that’s all I got for now. I hope you all have a wonderful weekend and happy shopping♥

And I’ll do what I want
I’ll do what I please
I’ll do it again till I’ve got what I need

Cruel is wearing:
hair: Stealthic – Haunting
hairbase: Stealthic – Male Hairbase
head: CATWA HEAD Daniel
beard: Volkstone Toni Facial Hair
ears: .:E.A.Studio:. Box Ears Falling Star
body: [SIGNATURE] Geralt – Mesh Body  *NEW*
tattoo: [ATI] Nightmare…

Sady is wearing:
hair:  RAMA.SALON – Chloe Hair ‘EXCLUSIVE’ (*new* @ FaMESHed)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: [theSkinnery]  Saska (Catwa Applier) honey
EF: Springleaf Necklace (*new* @ FaMESHed)
**RE** Simina Bracelets (*new* @ FaMESHed)
toksik – Slumber Crop Top (*new* @ FaMESHed)
toksik – Slumber Shorts (*new* @ FaMESHed)

pose: KlubWerK.poses -i know you —
VIXX- Mesh backdrop – She


You’ll See Me Return

Sometimes when I get in the zone of taking photos like I did yesterday, I will turn on one of my youtube playlists and let the music guide me through my personal maze of creativity. This song has been a favorite of mine for so very long. With yesterday being Valentine’s day and finding out that my RL husband has a new girlfriend was uhm….how can I put this delicately? Yeah, there’s not a way, so I’ll just leave it here like a lead weight and you can imagine for yourself. So, while I didn’t link the entire song’s lyrics….yes, it is still mostly a music post.

“And I never meant to hurt you
I swear I didn’t mean
Those things I said
I never meant to do that to you
Next time I’ll keep my hands to myself instead
Oh, does she love you
What do you want to do?
Does she need you like I do?
Do you love her?
Is she good for you?
Does she hold you like I do?
Do you want me?
Should I leave?
I know you’re always telling me
That you love me
Just sometimes I wonder If I should believe
Oh, I love you God,
I love you
I’d kill a dragon for you
I’ll die”
~Sinead O’Connor Troy

GiaRewind Cosmetics
You should’ve left the light on

*LODE* Head Accessory – Juliet [iceberg]
hair: Stealthic – Passion (*new* @ C88)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: Glam Affair –- MaryJane – Catwa Mesh Head Applier
Bossie. Y2K eyeshadows  (*new* @ REWIND)
Bossie. Y2K lipsticks & gloss (*new* @ REWIND)
EF: Majesty Choker (*new* @ FaMESHed)
!Rebel Hope – Gia Mesh Dress (*new* @ FaMESHed)

pose is just from my AO


Lost in Memories

Sometimes I wake up and forget my world has changed. I forget that I sleep alone while he sleeps in the other room. I have to remind myself not to reach for him, that I curl up to pillows and blankets now. It’s been two years, but I still miss the struggle of not keeping him awake with my restless body. I no longer have to be quiet or careful when getting up in the middle of the night to pee. You’d think I’d be used to it by now, but no.
I drag my house out of bed and pull myself together. I find distractions to get me through another day. I really thought we were would last forever. I believed he was the one that would never leave. I have yet to let go of the hope that this is just a nightmare. That I’ll wake from this dream to find him next to me again. I don’t really want to let him go.
I try to find his faults. I recite all the things he does that annoy me and I know I will miss them when he’s gone. From time to time, I remind him that I love him…that I’m willing to fight. He reminds me that he has given up and my heart breaks a little more each time. Our vows meant everything to me and nothing to him. I’m left alone to get lost in memories.



hair: taketomi – Honami
head: CATWA HEAD Lilly
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: DeeTaleZ  “Merrylu” Mixedtype
EF: Papillon Necklace
BUENO-Jas Sweater Dress (*new* @ Uber)

pose: Foxcity Fixated Set
MINIMAL – Sevilla Backdrop //1// (*new* @ TMD)


I Do Not Understand…

So, I’m a profile perver, lots of us are…sometimes someone’s profile will even prompt me to speak to them. It could be something funny or inspiring. I love reading about how long a couple has been together or how close someone is to their friends. Sometimes, I find bits of conversations that are clearly a private joke, other times…private or not, it’s just plain funny. This tells me this person has a heart and a sense of humor. I love when they provide youtube links, because music can tell you a lot about someone. I love links to flickr and blogs. Personally, I love the funny profiles. Occasionally, I read opinions that are really quite interesting or that I might disagree with, but respect all the same. What I do not understand are the profiles filled with ignorance, hate, and self degradation.

A few examples:
1. About: “Go the fuck away.”  (Why even bother writing something? Leave it blank, I’ll go away anyway. RUDE!)
2. I’m honest which makes me come off as a bitch.  (Uhm, last I checked you could be an honest person without being rude and without advertising it. To be fair, if you have to advertise that you’re honest, I’m going to assume you’re not.)
3. If I IM you then be thankful, your avi is decent to look at (Yet, yours isn’t! Your profile is filled with nothing but sex groups, picks, and quotes. Gee, Mister, you sound kinda like a rapist. Was I asking for you to IM me by investing in my avatar?)
4. I’m here for my entertainment, not yours. It’s all about me. Single. (Gee, I wonder why you’re single…hmmm.)
5. Links to wishlists. (Does this really work? Do people just look at your profile and buy you things just because you asked? What are you offering in return?)
6. Long lists of likes and dislikes. (Seems to me, giving a list of dislikes is like giving away free ammo. And wouldn’t it be better for someone to get to know you, rather read a list of your likes and dislikes? Kinda reads like some sort of desperate ad on a dating app.)

I dunno, I just think its strange the way people advertise themselves. Although, I suppose some might think mine is strange, too. Mine reads like a resume and a set of love letters to my friends. *laughs* I suppose no one can really win, because if you’re too nice you sound fake. If you’re rude, you’re a bitch. If its blank, you’re an alt.


hair: tram G0511 hair
head: CATWA HEAD Lilly
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: DeeTaleZ  “Merrylu” Mixedtype
EF: Tidings Bento Rings
Scandalize. Britney (*new* @ N21)

pose: an lar [poses] The Alisha Series


Dear Santa

Dear Santa,

I’ve been a very good girl this year. I’ve conserved water by showering with others. By not wearing panties and bras, I used less water, electricity, and detergent doing laundry. I conserved electricity on cold nights by snuggling up close to someone. Our bodies kept each other warm instead of using the heat. As I am so very concerned about your health, I’ve not laid out any milk and cookies for you this year. Instead, I’ll be waiting in the red chair with something organic and naturally sweet just for you. I think you can probably guess what I want for Christmas this year. I’ll see YOU on Christmas Eve.

tenderly yours,

good girls

hair: Beusy: Vexing Hairstyle
head: CATWA HEAD Lilly
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: DeeTaleZ  “Merrylu” Mixedtype (*new* @ Uber)
EF: Tidings Bento Rings – LARA (*new* @ FaMESHed)
The Annex – Mrs Claus Gacha – Naughty – MAITREYA RARE BLACK (Dec Pocket Gacha)
N-core BIANCA (*new* @ Winter Trend)

pose: Foxcity Bad Kitty Vol2 Set
BUENO– Proper Chair-Red
{anc} ChainLamps”SODA”


Let It All Go

I don’t have the strength for words of my own.

BIRDY + RHODES – Let It All Go

I’ve been sleepless at night
‘Cause I don’t know how I feel
I’ve been waiting on you
Just to say something real
There’s a light on the road
And I think you know
Morning is coming
And I have to go
I don’t know why, I don’t know why
We need to break so hard
I don’t know why we break so hard
But if we’re strong enough
To let it in, in, in
We strong enough
To let it go, oho, oho
Let it all go, let it all go
Let it all out now
If I look back to the start now
I know, I see everything true
There’s still a fire in me heart, my darling
But I’m not burning for you
We started it wrong
And I think you know
We waited too long
Now I have to go
I don’t know why, I don’t know why
We need to break so hard
I don’t know why we break so hard
But if we’re strong enough
To let it in, in, in
We strong enough
To let it go, oho, oho
Let it all go, let it all go
Let it all out now
Let it all go, let it all go
Let it all out now
Who says, who says?
Who says, who says?
Who says truth is beauty after all?
And who says love should break us when we fall?
But if we’re strong enough
To let it in, in, in
We strong enough
To let it go, oho, oho
Let it all go, let it all go
Let it all out now
Let it all go, let it all go
Let it all out now
We’re strong enough
To let it go, oho, oho

Blue isn't sad

hair:  :::Phoenix::: Joanna Hair (*new* @ FaMESHed)
head: CATWA HEAD Lilly
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
^^Swallow^^ Shiny Ears
**RE** Insieme Bracelet – Female (*new* @ FaMESHed)
EF: Tidings Bento Rings  (*new* @ FaMESHed)
.::Dead Dollz::. Harper Jacket (*new* @ Tannenbaum)
JIAN Portable Purritos 4. Grey (*new* @ Arcade)

pose created with AnyPose
.gypsy heart. – Festive Backdrops – Wooden Trees  (*new* @ Tannenbaum)


Tis the Season

Tis the season for all things Christmas, regardless of your religious beliefs or lack thereof. We are being bombarded with Christmas decor. However, now that Halloween and Thanksgiving have passed, I’m ready for it. I don’t really celebrate it in RL, but I do so love decorating and being festive in SL and there’s no better time than now to grab all the Christmas goodies. Tannenbaum is official open and there’s an abundance of gorgeous items for your home, your yard, and your lovely little mesh bodies. Here’s a sample and be sure to keep watching as there will be lots more posts filled with Tannenbaum goodies coming your way. ♥

in the spirit

hair:  TRUTH Farryn (*new* @ Uber)
head: CATWA HEAD Tala
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
Astralia – Waiting for Holidays Headpiece (*new* @ Tannenbaum)
EF: Communique Necklace
**RE** Luxy Rings Set
LYBRA . HAZEL (*new* @ Sad November)
[Gos] Boutique – Bianca Pumps (*new* @ Uber)

pose: Foxcity Wild & Free Set

.gypsy heart. – Festive Backdrops – Ornaments (*new* @ Tannenbaum)
Botanical – Douglas Fir Christmas Tree for Tannenbaum
{Imeka} Kawaii Christmas Ornaments- 3 (*new* @ Tannenbaum)
{Imeka} Kawaii Christmas Ornaments- 7 (*new* @ Tannenbaum)
[Black Bantam] Puppies Under The Tree Gacha Set (*new* @ Tannenbaum)


Inventories Are Like Kitchens

I’ve spent an entire day sorting through my inventory. I look at it and feel as though I’ve barely made a dent. I’m quite blessed to have so much and I am grateful, believe me. Yet, I’m quite furious with myself for allowing it to become such a dreadful mess in the first place. To make matters worse, as I drop folders into sub folders, I know that those sub folder are in desperate need of sorting themselves. Worst of all? Even if I did not shopping or take on anything new until I completely sorted this inventory (never going to happen)…it’s only going to start AGAIN with the next event! It’s worse than a family kitchen…the work will never be done!

Now what

hair:  pr!tty – Evanore (Gift @ Coven)
head: CATWA HEAD Tala
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
EF: Sumatra Necklace (*new* @ FaMESHed)
[Cynful] Terrica’s Crop Top (*new* @ FaMESHed)
Addams // Dolores Short w/Belt
_CandyDoll_ Alaria Boots (*new* @ Uber)

pose: Foxcity Lounge Set
MINIMAL – VIBE Backdrop *5* -Summer- (Epiphany)




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