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This is Real

Here’s a snippet of one of the best songs ever, performed by some of the greatest rock musicians of my time. It’s amazing talent like this that for a few minutes, even on the worst day, can make me glad to be alive. I love to listen to this on full volume and sing as loud as I want and dare anyone to try and stop me. If you’re not familiar, then check it out, the youtube link is below….this is real fucking music!!!

“Under the water,
It’s cold and it’s grey.
My torrid autumn,
Another season decays.
Open up the Hollow,
And my walls come down.
I tell you it’s a problem,
Just when no one’s around.
But then,

I know what’s wrong,
God, you complicated everything.
I know you’re gone, gone, gone,
This is where I will draw a line.

I will draw my line.

Burning my cathedrals’,
Cause I don’t pray anymore.
Look at all of these people, Tragic little people,
They smile and then they don’t know what for.
But then,

I know what’s wrong,
God, you complicated everything.
I know you’re gone, gone, gone,
This is where I will blur my line.”
~ From Can To Can’t
(Corey Taylor with Dave Grohl, Rick Nielsen, Scott Reeder)
(from “Sound City” soundtrack)


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head: CATWA HEAD Denice
Schadenfreude Tear Dermal Piercing
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skin: #PUMEC – Sophia

BONDI . The Rockstar Headphones . @ FaMESHed
Swan Nara Choker – gold – heart – black ribbon @ Belle
**RE** Quinn Rings Set
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amias – KAMALA top @ Belle
[HU] Cassy Dungarees @ Belle

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I Remember

I remember standing barefoot in a field of soft autumn grass. I remember thinking it shouldn’t be so soft, but the thing wasn’t as dry as it looked. The grass was more bleached than dry. This strange place near the ocean, she longed to be there again. A cool indecisive breeze whisking about, creating a melody with the grass and the sea. She smiled as she sat in that hospital chair, staring out the window. I remember.

field of dreams

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head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skin: [theSkinnery] Paola
Dead Dollz – Willa Dress (*new* @ FaMESHed)

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The World Is Mine

The words “The world is mine” are written on my arm as part of the tattoo. So, between that and the look of the photo, I couldn’t help but share the song this makes me think of and naturally, I’ll give you the lyrics, too. *smiles*

David Guetta – The World is Mine

I believe in the wonder,
I believe this new life took in,
Like a God that I’m under,
There’s drugs running through my veins,
I believe in the wonder,
I believe I can touch the flame,
There’s a spell that I’m under,
Got to fly, I don’t feel no shame,
The world is mine,
The world is mine,
The world is mine,
The world is mine,
Take a look what you’ve started,
In the world flashing from your eyes,
And you know that you’ve got it,
From the thunder you feel inside,
I believe in a feeling,
Of the pain that you left to die,
I believe in the livin’
In life that you give to try,
The world is mine,
The world is mine,
The world is mine,
The world is mine,
The world is mine,
I’ve lost my fear to what appears,
I do my best,
The world is mine,
You take the price and realize,
That’s in your eyes,
The world is mine,
I’ve lost my fear to what appears,
I do my best,
The world is mine,
You take the price and realize,
That’s in your eyes,
The world is mine,
The world is mine,
The world is mine

the world is mine

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head: CATWA HEAD Tala
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
eye shadow: –SU!- Laney Eyeshadow
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Razor /// Surgical Nurse Mask
The Annex – Aeon Dress – Green (*new* @ We ❤ Role-Play)

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The 3F Rule

“I can swear, I can joke
I say what’s on my mind
If I drink, if I smoke
I keep up with the guys
And you see me holding up my middle finger to the world
Fuck your ribbons and your pearls
‘Cause I’m not just a pretty girl”
Maggie Lindemann – Pretty Girl

My mother was raised in a strict Christian home by a single mom that was too proud to accept charity of any kind, thus she worked three jobs to keep the bills paid. Yet, somehow never missed church or disciplining her daughters by reminding them to carry themselves a certain way. Afterall, what would people think? My father was raised in a very abusive home and was often hidden away from the public by his single mom. She would lock him in the basement on weekends so that she could pretend she only had two children, whose father had died during WWII. (Mind you he died in prison, not the war, but she conveniently left that part of the story out.) My father’s dad had left when he was only 3yrs old to pursue his drinking and drug addictions. Eventually my father joined the U.S. Army, where once again, life was all about appearances.
Needless to say, my parents expected me to behave a certain way. They taught me how to converse with adults politely, then disappear, as children were meant to be seen, not heard. My parents finally divorced when I was in high school and my mother was so beside herself with grief that she quit imposing so many rules on me. That was when I began to develop my own style and discover the person I wanted to be. I didn’t want to cater to society’s norms. I wanted to in the exit door and leave through the entrance. I wanted to wear short skirts over leggings with ripped tee shirts and wild hair.
For years, my mother tried to make me a princess. She wanted to decorate my room with ruffles and canopy beds. I wanted my mattress on the floor with tons of pillows. She quickly became very much like her own mother and repeatedly said to me, “What will people think?”
I didn’t care what people thought! If they didn’t know me, how could they have a proper impression of me? Based on my clothes? The color of my skin? The color of my hair? My eyes? Eventually I discovered the 3F rule and I’ve pretty much lived my life that way ever since.
The 3F rule is simple: If you are not Feeding me, Financing me, or Fucking me….you get no say in how I live my life and your opinion means nothing to me. I was never going to be what my mother wanted me to be, nor did I want to. Yes, she was feeding me and financing me at the time, but she still needed to let me be me…or there would be a fight. There were many of those over the years until she realized she was never going to win. I was not going to be this super feminine little princess that sat around waiting for some prince charming, because I learned early on…you can never truly know another person. The only person you can truly know is yourself and that’s the person you should be true to.

The 3F Rule

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Mad World

“All around me are familiar faces
Worn out places, worn out faces
Bright and early for their daily races
Going nowhere, going nowhere
Their tears are filling up their glasses
No expression, no expression”
Tears For Fears Mad World (Jasmine Thompson cover)

The world is full of crazy, mean people. Second Life is not different. There are so many people in both worlds that get their kicks by bringing misery into others’ lives. If you and I are not those kinds of people the best thing we can do to combat that sort of madness is to be kind to one another. I was exploring Winter Moon when I came upon this sign and it really hit home. I tease my friend Troy about being too nice sometimes, thus he gets a lot of girls hitting on him…although he is admittedly clueless about it at times. However, the reason his kindness is often mistaken as an open invitation is rather sad if you think about it. He’s simply being nice. He offers hugs and kind words to almost every person he meets. How thoroughly sad is it that kindness is so misunderstood? But ya know what? He is even able to thwart the unwanted advances in a nice way. I don’t think I’ve ever seen him be outright rude to anyone.
Perhaps if we all treated each other as kindly as Troy treats everyone he meets…just maybe we can live in a more loving place. I, for one, have decided to start being nicer. *nods* Oh stop laughing! I can be nice! I CAN!!! So can you, lets give a try shall we?

Be Kind

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head: CATWA HEAD Kathy
eyes: CATWA Mesh Eyes w/-SU!– [CATWA & OMEGA HUD] Xenira Eyes ALL COLORS
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.:EMO-tions:. * ANDY * necklace (*new* @ ON9)
[The Forge] Gypsy Bangles

[Cynful] Bloom Blouse (*new* @ C88)
[Cynful] Bloom Skirt (*new* @ C88)
Garbaggio // Charlotte Sandals (*new* @ ON9)

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