You Can Never Hurt Me Again

This is a story that I have never told
I gotta get this off my chest to let it go
I need to take back the light inside you stole
You’re a criminal
And you steal like you’re a pro
All the pain and the truth
I wear like a battle wound
So ashamed, so confused
I was broken and bruised
Now I’m a warrior
Now I’ve got thicker skin
I’m a warrior
I’m stronger than I’ve ever been
And my armor, is made of steel, you can’t get in
I’m a warrior
And you can never hurt me again
Out of the ashes, I’m burning like a fire
You can save your apologies, you’re nothing but a liar
I’ve got shame, I’ve got scars
That I will never show
I’m a survivor
In more ways than you know
‘Cause all the pain and the truth
I wear like a battle wound
So ashamed, so confused
I’m not broken or bruised
‘Cause now I’m a warrior
Now I’ve got thicker skin
I’m a warrior
I’m stronger than I’ve ever been
And my armor, is made of steel, you can’t get in
I’m a warrior
And you can never hurt me
There’s a part of me I can’t get back
A little girl grew up too fast
All it took was once, I’ll never be the same
Now I’m taking back my life today
Nothing left that you can say
‘Cause you were never gonna take the blame anyway
Now I’m a warrior
I’ve got thicker skin
I’m a warrior
I’m stronger than I’ve ever been
And my armor, is made of steel, you can’t get in
I’m a warrior
And you can never hurt me again
No oh yeah yeah
You can never hurt me again

goldilox

wearing:
hair:  /Wasabi Pills/ Olivia Mesh Hair
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skin: [theSkinnery] Paola

Wicca’s Wardrobe – Aki Mask (*new* @ We<3RP)
.::Nanika::.Star Collar
Zaara : Raksha arm-chains
**RE** Zaria Bracelets
Zaara : Raksha thigh-chain
Legal Insanity – Alice sheer dress

pose by Del May Poses

E.V.E Chained Red Orchid {Gold}

***If you are reading this on any site that suggests this post was originally published anywhere but SadyStyle by anyone other than Sadystika Sabretooth, you are reading a stolen post.

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Christmas Cooties

I’m setting up this scene, when my mom happens by and looks over my shoulder, “That’s interesting. Those balls would make pretty ornaments.”

“They are ornaments, but I’m not ready to do Christmas themed pictures yet,” I mumble.

“Why is she wearing a mask?”

“She doesn’t want to catch Christmas Cooties!”

She rolls her eyes as she walks out of my room, “You need Jesus.”

Et tu, Mater?

Christmas Cooties

wearing:
hair:  DOUX – Air hairstyle
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skin: [theSkinnery] Paola

6. [CX] Necronomic Mother – Mask – Black
WeArH0uSE [tag earrings]
.random.Matter. – Kitten Collar – ‘Kitten’ – Silver
BUENO-Caro Sweater (*new* @ Collabor88)
[Aleutia] Ashlee Sweats
Eudora3D Belle Heels (*new* @ Enchantment)

pose: FOXCITY. Soulfood Bento Pose Set

scene:
VARONIS – Sector7 Background (*new* @ Access)
E.V.E Ivy M02 No Leaves {Mural-Select Pic}
Can’t Even – Vase Of Balls (Blackl/Silver) (*new* @ Tannenbaum)
DISORDERLY. / Gift of Light / Fancy / v6 (*new* @ Tannenbaum)
DISORDERLY. / Gift of Light / Fancy / v4 (*new* @ Tannenbaum)
[Fetch] Merry Ornaments – Lighted Ball RARE (*new* @ Tannenbaum)

 

***If you are reading this on any site that suggests this post was originally published anywhere but SadyStyle by anyone other than Sadystika Sabretooth, you are reading a stolen post.

A Life On Display

These days, its really easy to compare our lives to the lives of others, especially when so many people are constantly making their private lives public. With all these social media friends posting the best bits of their lives, its really easy to slip into a  state of depression. What’s important to remember is that we’re only seeing the highlight reel of those lives. We’re not being shown the 99% of life that isn’t beautiful and wonderful. Often times, what we’re being shown isn’t even real. Those happy family photos? Behind the scenes the kids hate their parents or the happy couple fights. Perhaps one of them is even cheating.
I remember several years ago catching up with a girl from high school on my RL Facebook. Her life looked so amazing. Her photos and descriptions on Facebook made her family look amazing. Two great kids and an adoring husband. The more we hung out the more truths that came out. She was a closet alcoholic having an affair with her ex-boyfriend online at night after her husband and children went to bed. One of her kids was special needs and really difficult to deal with. Her house was a complete mess. To be honest, her whole life was a mess. This was not at all what she portrayed with the photos and stories she presented on social media.
It turned out that she was nothing like the person she had presented herself to be and I couldn’t be around her, knowing that she was lying to the whole world. Honestly, it was the alcoholism and cheating on her husband that I couldn’t condone. I quickly distanced myself from her and started taking a closer look at what people presented on social media. What I learned from all of this is that we simply cannot compare our actual lives with the highlight reels of people we hardly know. It’s dangerous to our psyches and its not realistic.
With our lives on display, we all have a responsibility to be more honest with one another. With that I wish you all much love & laughter. ♥

on display

wearing:
hair:  MINA – Kim (*new* @ X by FaMESHed)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skin: [theSkinnery] Amber (*new* @ C88)
Wicca’s Wardrobe – Kaenis Lingerie (*new* @ RLD)

scene:
Dahlia – Solitary Confinement Cloche – Gold (*new* @ X by FaMESHed)
***pose used is in the Cloche

E.V.E Dystopia Flowers-Eye Ghost
E.V.E Dystopia Flowers-Eye
E.V.E KOI (MOD) Square Confetti Ring

Finally!

Finally, someone developed a hairstyle to conceal my horns! *giggles* These cubes from E.V.E remind me of one of those word search things I see on Facebook all the time. “Oh the first three words are what you can expect next year!” Well, the last one of those I did said love, marriage, and health. I laughed so hard.  Yes, I know love will always be part of my life, because I have a heart with which I love very deeply, too deeply. Marriage? NO, let’s pray a divorce is on the horizon though. Since the bastard left me essentially penniless to run off with a 20yr old skank. Yes, she is a skank, remind me to tell that story someday. It’s a doozy! And finally, the prediction was health? I’m going to assume they meant poor health, considering that at best there are treatments for my fybromyalgia and PKD, however, there are no known cures.
Let’s not ruin all the fun, let’s take a look at the cube. First word I see is battlefield and I’ll agree to that. I like violent films and shows, plus I play Guild Wars 2 with one of my best friends. So, yes, a battlefield is very likely. Next word…hate. Ohh, that’s a strong word. I don’t really have the energy to fuel hate. I’m more of a person that turns completely ambivalent. I just won’t acknowledge someone’s existence or care that they exist. In Second Life, its even better, because I can mute and derender people. That’s nice. Alright, third word I notice is Heaven. Well, I’m an atheist so I can only imagine that means, I’m going to be proven wrong and all of you do gooders are in for a big surprise when you show up OR (and this is more likely) someone is going to make me feel soo good that it will feel heavenly. These cubes are a group gift, so if you like them, you can grab a set for yourself, absolutely free.

sady devil
“So what would an angel say
The devil wants to know”
~ Fiona Apple – Criminal

wearing:
hair:  #Foxy – Fallen Hair (*new* @ Salem)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skin: [theSkinnery] Amber (*new* @ C88)

Dead Dollz – Morrigan Set 2.0 (*new* @ FaMESHed)
_CandyDoll_ Demona Boots

pose: FOXCITY. Cozy Bento Pose Set (*new* @ Uber)

[Dollmart]Empress Chair
E.V.E {Team} Love is a Battlefield Cubes GROUP GIFT

I Call It Magic

“Call it magic, call it true
I call it magic when I’m with you
And I just got broken, broken into two
Still I call it magic, when I’m next to you”
~ Coldplay – Magic 

This photo is really special to me, because it brings some of my favorite people together in a way that only happens in SL The poses were made just for the dress and this dress is magnificent. It may not move like flexi did back in the day, but I promise you will want to spin on the stars when you put it on. Go to Salem before the end of the month. There’s genuinely something for everyone unless you’re a miserable….erhm…I mean…yeah, go shopping…more importantly? Live.

magical

wearing:
hair:   Tableau Vivant // Rosemary hair (*new* @ Salem)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skin: [theSkinnery] Amber (*new* @ C88)
ChicModa // Gwen gown (*new* @ Salem)
[BREATHE]-Natsuna Heels

pose: GingerFish Poses – Nightbird set (*new* @ Salem)

E.V.E {M/C} Tornado Orion Nebula Slim [Day]
E.V.E {M/C} Tornado Orion Nebula Slim [Night]

 

Do You Believe In Magic?

When I was in the 4th or 5th grade, around 8 or 9 yrs old, I had a huge crush on Shawn Cassidy. For one thing, he was one of The Hardy Boys. If you don’t know who that is, I want you to go to google right this minute and educate yourself, because they were all the rage, along with Nancy Drew and the Bobbsey Twins. Why am I bringing this up? Well, around that same time, Shawn Cassidy had taken on a music career. Naturally, I had to have that album. One of his most popular songs was his rendition of “Do You Believe in Magice” originally by The Lovin’ Spoonful. When I was creating this photo, that song kept going through my mind and I was reminded of this baby blue silver jacket I had with Shawn’s face on the back. His face plastered all over my walls. I adored him. Finally, I can answer the question…NO, I do not believe in magic. *laughs*

do you believe in magic

wearing:
hair:   #9 {Limerence} Sandy hair with hat-B&W (*new* @ Imaginarium)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
eyes: LOTUS. Balance Eyes 02 (Catwa) (*new* @ Vanity Event)
eyeliner/tattoo: YKON – 3 Satanic Girl (*new* @ Vanity Event)
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skin: [Glam Affair] Loly

.Inkhole. Vani Necklace Set ( Black Metal ) (*new* @ Vanity Event)
Mowie. – “Harlow” Clutch (*new* @ Vanity Event)
ChicModa // Summer Dress (*new* @ TLC)
Narcisse– Sassy Strappy Heels (*new* @ TLC)

pose: SEmotion Female Bento Modeling poses Set 33  (*new* @ Vanity Event)

E.V.E Cyber Flowers CLOUD & MURAL (*new* @ TLC)

 

Quiet Lies

I’m letting the music speak for me….

Matthew Mayfield ~ Quiet Lies

You somehow see inside me
When I lay down
You steal my dreams easily
When you’re around
Quiet lies
Whisper whispered all the time
No more silent treatment
I am screaming in your ear
I’m starving stop at nothing
Til I am inside you for good
For good
Lights blurred with time
And that gray became a light
You see nothing clearly
So head strong deny the feeling
Quiet lies
Whisper whisper all the time
No more silent treatment
I am screaming in your ear
I’m starving stop at nothing
Til I am inside you for good
Ooh for good ooh for good
No more silent treatment
I am inside i am inside
No more silent treatment
I am screaming in your ear
No no no
Starving I’ll stop at nothing
Til I am inside you for good
No no no no
No more silent treatment
I am screaming in your ear
No no no
Starving I’ll stop at nothing
Til I am inside you for good
For good

Quiet Lies

wearing:
hair:   [RA] Sabrina Hair
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: Glam Affair – Willow – Jamaica ( Uber)

**CC** – Heavenly Ranger Halo (*new* @ Crystal Heart)
**CC** – Heavenly Ranger Aura (*new* @ Crystal Heart)
Nov-Jahseh Necklace (*new* @ Vanity Event)
(Yummy) Curator Rings Set (N21)

Narcisse– Sally Mini Ruffle Dress (*new* @ TLC)
[BREATHE]-Mireya Heels (*new* @ Blush)

pose by Foxcity – Me Time Set

scene:
uK – Victorian Dreamscape Cloudsies Blue
E.V.E Waving Bioluminescent Fungus W&G Cloud

I Need Noise

So, if there’s one thing I hate in life…its a fucking liar. I understand that we all tell white lies…”You look great!”…”No, those pants don’t make your ass look huge.”…”Sure, I’d love to help you clean the house.” I’m not talking about that little shit. I’m talking about the big shit. Naturally, I’ve talked about how if someone lies about the little stuff, they’re bound to lie about the big stuff. The real rub is when you find out the truth. If you’re going to tell a big ass lie…then lie til you die, muthafucka! Cuz I’ve had enough lies to last me a fucking lifetime and I don’t need anymore. So, if you’re one of those perpetual liars that doesn’t “mean” to lie or things tend to “just happen” to you frequently….then not only are you lying to those around you…you’re lying to yourself. So, take your lies and shove them up your ass….oh and do it way the fuck over there, cuz I’m not having it. Trust issues? Nah, I don’t have trust issues. I’ve just finally figured out that trust is as big a lie as love.
When I realize that I’ve been lied to by someone I thought I could trust? Wow, yeah, I need noise, because if I crawl too deep into my head with the ammunition, my demons are going to have a field day. Don’t worry, I won’t believe anything anyone tells me for a long while to come….so once I get through this shit, I won’t worry about being lied to, cuz I’ve finally seen the light.

bitch in chains
I don’t have an agenda
All I do is pretend to be ok so my friends
Can’t see my heart in the blender
Lately, I’ve been killing all my time
Reading through your messages my favorite way to die
Take my head and kick it in
Break some bread for all my sins
Say a word, do it soon
It’s too quiet in this room
I need noise
I need the buzz of a sub
Need the crack of a whip
Need some blood in the cut
I need noise
I need the buzz of a sub
Need the crack of a whip
Need some blood in the cut
I need blood in the cut
I need blood in the cut

wearing:
hair:  DOUX – Kimiko (*new* @ Tres Chic)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: [theSkinnery] Saska (Catwa Applier) honey (*new* @ REWIND)
lipstick: –SU!– Jezebel Lip Gloss
tattoo: [ATI] Helen…
11. :BAMSE: Personal Choker – Bitch (*new* @ Whimsical)
_CandyDoll_ Nina Top (*new* Mainstore)
_CandyDoll_ Nina Pants (*new* Mainstore)

pose: FOXCITY. Lolita Bento Pose Set

scene:
uK – With These Chains Photobox
E.V.E {Chained to You} Chains Silver (T)

This Is NOT a Golden Shower

Sometimes I get on these creative highs and I just can’t stop. I might take six pictures in a day, spend the next day editing…then I’ve got photos and rarely have anything in mind to write. So, I’ll reach out to random friends and ask their opinions or sometimes even a topic. This morning was no different. I’m staring at the photo. I like it. I’m rather proud of it. I had some artistic vision and I managed to see it through. I kinda know what it makes me feel, but I don’t want to talk about that just yet. Its too raw.
Oh look, my dear friend Dusty Wasp is online. I’ll ask him. Afterall, he’s given me songs for photos before and they always worked out great. So, I pass him the photo and ask for help. And this asshole (yeah, I said it) says to me, “given the suggestive setting and the golden hues…” and this is where he stops to chuckle…”yeah, I’ll just leave it at that.”
DUSTY MF’N WASP! THIS IS NOT A GOLDEN SHOWER!!

God, I love my friends!♥

acid rain wash my heart
Fuck you, Dusty!

wearing:
hair: :::Phoenix::: Brittany Hair (*new* @ Mainstore)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: Glam Affair –- MaryJane – Catwa Mesh Head Applier – Jamaica
(Yummy) Bohemia Ring Set
Phedora / Soley set / 28 C v2 (*new* @ FrouFrou)

pose: GingerFish Poses – Bad at Love (*new* @ eBENTO)

scene:
E.V.E Dancing Poison Rain {Silver}
E.V.E {Poison Rain} Synapses Fishes [M02-W]
E.V.E {Poison Rain} Synapses Fishes [M02-R]
E.V.E {Poison Rain} Synapses Fishes [M02-B]

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