Devil in Me

“I don’t wanna wake it up
I don’t wanna wake it up
I don’t wanna wake it up
The devil in me”
Halsey- Devil in Me

Have you ever met someone that just brings out the worst in you? They might not have done anything to you, but for some reason there’s just this instant dislike of them? It happens to me from time to time and I’m hoping I’m not the only one. Maybe I’m just the only one willing to admit it. Surely not. When I do meet people like that, I try to be polite and just keep my distance. So, its not really a problem.
Then there’s those people that just run around doing all kinds of dirt to other people. They haven’t done anything to me, that I know of, but I’m not trying to get close to people like that either, but then they go and do something really nasty to someone you love. *sighs* Its really hard to keep my mouth shut in situations like that. I know I should trust the person who has been offended to take care of themselves and most of the time I do. However, in case I never mentioned it before…I happen to be human and with that comes some faults. I know, I know, you thought I was perfect. *laughs* Let me tell you now…there are times when its all I can do to keep myself in check. I’m not talking about threatening someone online. I’m talking about just reading a bitch like a book. Front to back, side to side, up and down…and I’ve been told on a few occasions my words can cut deeper than any knife. Having lost more than one friend in the past to my apparently razor sharp words I really don’t wanna wake up the devil in me.

releasing the demon

wearing: 
hair
.Shi x Messiah : Hair / Unisex . Common 2
headCATWA HEAD Kathy
eyes: CATWA Mesh Eyes Pack w/:Conviction: Viscous Eyes [HUD]
eyeshadow-SU!– Somber Eyeshadow +CATWA APPLIER+
lipstick: -SU!- The Matte Lip Essentials //Catwa BENTO//
skin: Glam Affair – Molly – Catwa Mesh Head Applier – Artic (*new* @ Arcade)
bodyMaitreya Mesh Body – Lara
tattoo.::Nanika::. Gaia tattoo Black (*new* @ Tres Chic)
piercing.:E.A.Eclipse:.  Nerfertiti Piercing Mouth

Phedora ~ Edwin body harness (*new* @ Somber)
S&P Like A Prayer – clamps black
[CX] Piton Pumps – Black ( Maitreya )

pose by Del May

End of the Day

You know how at the end of the day, we shed our clothes, we wash our faces, and brush our teeth? Some of us shower or bathe before bed, too? Then the minute we lay down the events of the day start swirling about in our heads. No, not you, Troy, I know you are one of the few that can just decide to go to sleep and be out like a light the minute your head hits the pillow. Just shut the hell up, not talking to you or any of the people like you! #hatechuall I’m talking to the people like me…the ones that don’t go straight to sleep. Those of you that actually have to wait for sleep to arrive. Mind you, I’m not really hating on those that have Troy’s ability to just sleep. I’m actually quite jealous. However, since I’ve never in my life known what that’s like so for me, its a waiting game. Don’t really want to talk so much about that right now though. *swats Troy* Stop distracting me, will ya?
Ok, so end of the day…you shed your clothes and dirt, right? Yeah, that’s where I was…and then you lay down…yeah…and the day comes back swirling around in your head…now where was I going with that? I think I was going to talk about how we should wash away all the negative thoughts about the day by focusing on the positive things that happened. By remembering how loved we are by those that we have no doubt love us. To remember the ones we love and to really focus on the best parts of the day. Yeah, that’s where I was going with that. I know a lot of people do meditations in the morning or read a positive quote for the day, to try and get the day started on a good note, but why not do the same at night to insure a restful more peaceful sleep. Its something I’ve been trying lately and it seems to be making a difference. So, for those of you like me that have trouble falling asleep at night…give it a try…it can’t hurt, right?

end of the day

wearing:
.:E.A.Studio:. BOX Bashim Bracialets (*new* @ Tres Chic)
!APHORISM! Maya Tank & Panties
Phedora ~ Sugar Flip Flops (June Cutie Loot)

pose by BellePoses – Hello Sailor set (*new* @Vintage Fair)

scene:
18.erratic / lsm – clothing clutter – woman
DRD – Rustic Bathroom – Towel Rack
NOMAD // Improvised // Laundry Basket and Soap
DRD – Rustic Bathroom – Bathtub
+Half-Deer+ Spilled Liquid – Large Puddle – Water Set

If I Have an Angel

I was born on a Sunday morning. My devote Christian grandmother told my mom that it meant I would have extra angels looking over me. As I was not a particularly graceful child (or adult for that matter) my mother would often say, “Your angels are working overtime today!” As I got older and continued to be anything but graceful, my mother would beg my extra angels to look after me and to have mercy on her. *laughs* I see a lot of memes with angels facepalming that say something about how people’s angels must look watching over them. Every time I see one, I just chuckle. My grandmother passed away when I was eleven. My mother insisted that she joined the ranks of angels looking over me. What occurred in my life the following year was confirmation that there were no angels watching over me.
As I grew older, I would sometimes imagine that there were still a few angels lingering about and just maybe they were dosing out some karma on those that crossed me, but eventually I grew to believe that wasn’t true either. I know some people do believe in angels and I have to say I think its a beautiful sentiment, but for me…nah, I don’t believe in them anymore. However, the concept of angels has always been quite fascinating. I especially love the way they are represented on Supernatural. I realize not all of my readers have seen that show and some may have just started it, so I won’t go into any details and spoil it. The entire concept of God, angels, Lucifer, demons…all of it…ages old, but the way the stories are told on Supernatural almost makes me want to believe in them again. At least that story makes a bit more sense to me, but alas to believe their story means I must also believe in all the monster presented, as well.

angry angel

For now, I’ll just present you with this picture and the thought that if I have an angel watching over me, this is what I think my angel probably looks like…sometimes she is stunned and pointing her finger at me as if to say, “You did it AGAIN!” She would surely be angry and frustrated to say the very least.

lost angel close up

hairTableau Vivant \\ Editorial \ Southern wind – Blacks+Whites
headCATWA HEAD Kathy
skinGlam Affair – Molly – Catwa Mesh Head Applier – Artic (*new* @ Arcade)
eyesCATWA Mesh Eyes Pack
eye applier:Conviction: Viscous Eyes
tearsCURELESS [+] Dragon Tears (v.1)
ears: .:E.A.Studio:. Box Ears Icarus
eyebrowsWarPaint* Hepburn Brow [Catwa] (*new* @ Vintage Fair)
lipstick-SU!– The Matte Lip Essentials
bodyMaitreya Mesh Body – Lara
tattoo**RE** Surya Tattoo – Common – Silver
nails: Astralia – Compatible nails system (Maitreya Stiletto base)
nail polish: GingerFish-Nail Applier-Astralia- Fairy Glitter-S

.:E.A.Studio:. BOX Collar Oculus Cross
Astralia – Wisdom angel WINGS RARE
.LYBRA . GABRIELLA (*new* @ LIMIT8)
erratic / cerise – panties
#EMPIRE – Impatiens

pose by Del May

scene created in a black box using:
uk – Mystic Dew Drops & Mist Sets
E.V.E Dancing Poison Rain {Silver}

Bad Girl

Yeah, its a lyrics kinda post…make what you want of it. *smirks* I’ve been talking on some pretty deep subjects the last few days…so today…you get a song that gives you a peek into another side of me. *grins* Some of you might even already know this side of me. Somehow I doubt it will surprise anyone that doesn’t. So, enjoy and grab yourself some devious accessories…get out there and be BAD! <eg>

Bad Girl – Avril Lavigne (Suicide Squad) ft. Marilyn Manson

Just lay your head in daddy’s lap, you’re a bad girl

Bad girl (1-2-3-4)

Hey, hey
I’ll let you walk all over me, me
You know that I’m a little tease, tease
But I wanna play there please, please

You know you know you know I’m crazy
I just wanna be your baby
You can fuck me, you can play me
You can love and you can hate me

Miss me, miss me, now you wanna kiss me

[Chorus]
Choke me because I said so
Stroke me and feed my ego
I’ve been a bad girl, don’t you know?
(Don’t tell me what to do)
Come get it now or never
I’ll let you do whatever
I’ll be your bad girl, here we go
(1-2-3-4)

Miss me, miss me, now you wanna kiss me

(You’re a bad girl)

Baby,
You know I want a little taste, taste
So let me take you all the way, way
You know you’ll never be the same, same

(You fuckin’ bad girl!)

One night
You won’t forget the rest of your life
So come on over to the wild side
Buckle up and, baby, hold on tight

Miss me, miss me, now you wanna kiss me
We both know that you love me ’cause I’m so bad!

[Chorus]
Choke me because I said so
Stroke me and feed my ego
I’ve been a bad girl, don’t you know?
(Don’t tell me what to do)
Come get it now or never
I’ll let you do whatever
I’ll be your bad girl, here we go
(1-2-3-4)

I’ve been a bad girl [7x]
I’ve got your bad girl

[Chorus]
Choke me because I said so
Stroke me and feed my ego
I’ve been a bad girl, don’t you know?
(Don’t tell me what to do)
Come get it now or never
I’ll let you do whatever
I’ll be your bad girl, here we go
(1-2-3-4)

Bad bad bad girl
(lyrics grabbed from AZLYRICS)

noangel

wearing:
hairMagika – A Perfect Mess (w/ headband)
head: CATWA HEAD Kathy
bodyMaitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skinGlam Affair – Polly – Catwa Mesh Head Applier – Jamaica (*new* @ Kustom9)
piercing: .:E.A.Studio:. Piercing Armor Rokaba Nose Woman
necklace: Pretty Mess – Knotted Choker SILVER (*new* @ N21)

Smoke Break

We all know smoking is bad for you and there’s not a smoker on the planet that hasn’t had some goofball walk up to them while smoking and say, “Those things will kill you.” I don’t know if they think they’re being funny, helpful, or if they genuinely lack the brain power to come up with something more original and less insulting. I can’t imagine anyone has ever been mid cigarette, heard those words and been like, “Oh shit, let me put this out and stop then!” Well, I mean, did they actually do it and mean it? *laughs* Cuz I have done that to a few people just to see the look on their faces, but I never stopped smoking because someone said that to me.
In fact, it has been smoke breaks that got me closer to people. At my last job, there were people I never saw except when smoking. It was a form of networking and I loved it. You see, it just didn’t matter what job you had, how high up or menial your job…you had to go outside to smoke and there were designated areas. Even at home, I’m more apt to speak to one of my neighbors if we are both outside smoking.
If it wasn’t such a wretched habit, I’d recommend that everyone do it for those very reasons. Alas, I continue to struggle with my nicotine addiction. For me, there’s just nothing quite like holding a cigarette between my fingers, taking a long hit, and exhaling those tendrils of smoke. Sometimes, I do get so disgusted with the negative aspects of smoking that I go back to vaping and maybe one day I will successfully quit, but for now…*takes a long draw off a cigarette and blows the smoke at her screen*…I’m a smoker.

smoke break

Josh is wearing:
Modulus – Pavel Hair – Browns
[i.mesh] – Hairbase#1 BROWN (hud) – CATWA applier
CATWA HEAD Daniel
.:E.A.Studio:. Box Ears Falling Star
VYC – Neat Scruff Beard HD *GIFT*
Slink Physique Male Mesh Body
DAPPA – Pharaoh Tattoo.
**RE** ReVoX Aros Couple Bracelet – Male
[sYs] NISSA tank (Male body mesh) – black (*new* @MOM)
Costarlos skinny jean black
= REBELLION = “KNOX” BOOTS

his pose: !bang – homme 006M

Sady is wearing:
hairMINA – Suzi (*new* @ FaMESHed)
head: CATWA HEAD Kathy
bodyMaitreya Mesh Body – Lara
tattoo: RedFish – Own Beauty tattoo (*new* @ Kinky)
*PROMAGIC* Sanskriti – Black Armlets
**RE** ReVoX Aros Couple Bracelet – Female
ChicModa / Hazel
{le fil casse} Sienna Skirt (*new* @ N21)
Phedora ~  Ancora Sandals (*new* @ Uber)

pose: FOXCITY. Night Owl-1m cigarette included

SAYO – Biscayne Backdrops – Miami Lights (*new* @ Epiphany)

See, Tracy?

Once upon a time, my friend Tracy came to my house in Second Life. We sat on the couch and were playing with the poses (PG poses, you pervs!) and one of them made it look like I was petting her knee. Thus began a long standing joke about Tracy and her hairy knees. So, when I was looking for a pose to show off these gorgeous new wedges from Bueno, I ran across this one from Klubwerk. The first thought in my head was, “See, Tracy? This is what smooth legs look and feel like…is nice, yeah?” For some reason this was also said in a strange foreign accent like the one used for Brüno in that crazy movie.
So there you have it, a little peak into the bizarre mind of me! You also see what Tracy puts up with as my friend. Lucky for me, she’s a good sport and takes it all in stride…even if she has hairy knees.

bueno eastudio

wearing:
hair:  [^.^Ayashi^.^] Sakura hair (*new* @ Bloom)
head: CATWA HEAD Kathy
bodyMaitreya Mesh Body – Lara

.:E.A.Studio:.BOX Thetra Nails & Ring Set (*new* @ Tres Chic)
KITJA x :PARKER: – Tasha Top (*new* @ Kustom9)
KITJA x :PARKER: – Tasha Shorts (*new* @ Kustom9)
BUENO– Wedges (*new* @ Kustom9)

pose by KlubWerK.poses

scene set up in 22769 – Patio – RARE (*new* @ Bloom)
22769 – Patio Chair Sunset – COMMON (*new* @ Bloom)
22769 – Sheer Boho Drape – COMMON (*new* @ Bloom)

She’s Crazy

Josh and I had a lot of fun working on this picture. *grins* We were going to write this post together, but decided that this song says it all and more. So enjoy the lyrics and the song…it’s even more sensual than the picture.

“Let me tell you story
About a little girl I know
When she walks into a room
You know she steals the show
She’s crazy
And it’s more than I can stand

I’m just crazy about that woman
And she’s just crazy ’bout this man

She wakes me every morning
With that tender lovin’ touch
Some fools don’t get enough
But she just loves me too much
She’s crazy
And it’s more than I can stand
I’m just crazy about that woman
And she’s just crazy ’bout this man

She always wants me around
But I just ain’t got no time
But you know she got these little ways
To make me change my mind
She’s crazy
And it’s more than I can stand

I’m just crazy about that woman
And she’s just crazy ’bout this man”
JT Coldfire – She’s Crazy

She's Crazy

Sady is wearing Phedora ~  Jackie heels (*new* @ FaMESHed)

Josh is wearing:
Modulus – Pavel Hair – Browns
[i.mesh] – Hairbase#1 BROWN (hud) – CATWA applier
CATWA HEAD Daniel
IKON Triumph Eyes – Storm
.:E.A.Studio:. Box Ears Falling Star
VYC – Neat Scruff Beard HD *GIFT*
Slink Physique Male Mesh Body
= REBELLION = “TERMINUS” TATTOO
L&B Swear Blazer (*new* @ TMD)
L&B Swear Salvage Moto Jeans
::GB::ZIP Wing tip / Black

scene:
*AF* Capturado Scrollwork
Dutchie maledom wall rings shiny
*AF* Utility Tray v1
Dutchie maledom chair 2.0
Dutchie mesh leather poof chocolat
Paris – Wine set by Bazar
Paris – Wine bottle spilled by Bazar
*AF* Capturado Cross Blk 1