I’ve never understood why someone’s past matters to someone that wasn’t even part of it. If you didn’t kill someone or molest a child or torture animals, I just don’t think it should matter. Who cares how many people someone dated or fucked or almost married? Why should any of that matter to someone that’s not been part of your life until now? I’ve heard so many people, especially men, just lose their shit over the amount of lovers someone’s had in their past. What I don’t understand is why? A woman can push a baby from her vagina and still remain tight. So, there’s no stretching of the vagina that comes from having multiple dicks up in it. We bathe. We move forward. We hopefully recover from trauma, both mental and physical. So, why is it some ridiculous bother? I don’t care how many lovers someone I’m with has had in the past. I prefer the “don’t ask” rule, but if you do ask, be prepared for the worst answer you can imagine. If you’re not prepared for that, then don’t ask. No one in the past matters. If they did, they wouldn’t be in the past.
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In November of last year, Atelier Burgundy & Pitaya teamed up to create a bookstore gacha for Anthem. Fortunately for me, there was a fatpack option. Without any hesitation or even too close of a look, I snatched it up and sat on it for months. I knew a time would come that I would finally create a used bookstore. Well, here comes Anthem with a boho themed round for April and lucky little me, had access to Bueno’s set, as well as THOR’s. Now, get this…InsurreKtion recently invited me to join their blogging team as a VIP and there it was, sitting so pretty in Blogotex! A boho deco set!!! I knew this was it! I quickly rezzed all the things….the bookstore fatpack and all three of my boho sets. But wait, there’s more magic…Mikel Monk, the creator behind the Bueno brand, had named his couch, Kerouac!! Now, I realize there are tons of readers out there that have their own connection to Jack Kerouac, but for a while in college, I was absolutely obsessed. I even had a cat named, Jack Kerouac! I mean, clearly this was a sign, right?
I did my best to list everything in the credits, but as you can see from the photo, I used a ton of items to create my used bookstore. I was picturing one of those really cozy used book stores, that brings in a few treats first thing in the morning with a couple of canisters of coffee, but once those things are gone, that’s it for the day. They sell a variety of collectibles, new and used books, and encourage their customers to hang out.
I typed book and books into my inventory search and just started rezzing out everything. I didn’t bother trying to list every single collection, stack, and row of books, because that would have taken me all day. Let’s face it, I’d rather be reading! I did grab the names of some things, but if you really want to know a specific item in the photo, just let me know. I don’t think I’ll be tearing down this scene anytime soon. ☺
I never miss a beat I’m lightning on my feet And that’s what they don’t see, mm, mm That’s what they don’t see, mm, mm I’m dancing on my own (Dancing on my own) I make the moves up as I go (Moves up as I go) And that’s what they don’t know, mm, mm That’s what they don’t know, mm, mm But I keep cruising Can’t stop, won’t stop grooving It’s like I got this music in my mind Saying it’s gonna be alright’ Cause the players gonna play, play, play, play, play And the haters gonna hate, hate, hate, hate, hate Baby, I’m just gonna shake, shake, shake, shake, shake I shake it off, I shake it off (Whoo-hoo-hoo)
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‘Cause I’m so, so done Guardin’ my tongue, holdin’ me back I’m livin’ the way that I want ‘Cause I’m so, so done Fighting myself, goin’ through Hell I’m livin’ the way that I want I’m livin’ the way that I want I’m livin’ the way that I want I’m livin’ the way that I want I’m livin’ the way that I want
I lost control over all my energy Done so much damage to my heart I’ve given in, I’ve changed my identity I didn’t mean to go so far, umm-mm
Oh my God (God) I wish (Wish) I could be (Be) better than this My God, wish (Wish) I could be (Oh-oh) ~ Alicia Keys – So Done
Don’t speak, no, don’t try
It’s been a secret for the longest time
Don’t run (oh), no, don’t hide
Been running from it for the longest time
So many mornings, I woke up confused
In my dreams, I do anything I want to you
My emotions are naked, they’re taking me out of my mind
Right now, I’m shameless
Screamin’ my lungs out for ya
Not afraid to face it
I need you more than I want to
Need you more than I want to
Show me you’re shameless
Write it on my neck, why don’t ya?
And I won’t erase it
I need you more than I want to
I need you more than I want to
This is my thought process brought to life…okay, pixels! GAW! Ok, so sometimes I take a picture with nothing in mind to write about and lately….as I’m sure you know…I’ve been struggling with topics to write about, because my life is uneventful, okay? So, I rack my brain sometimes trying to think of something to say. When I was looking for poses to take this picture and saw this one, I giggled. I thought, that’s me when I’ve got writer’s block! So, there you have it…its short and sweet…but here’s my dramatic take on my own writer’s block hell. *grins*
I love my cat. I really do, but I’m starting to understand why people prefer dogs. I woke up this morning to a paw to the jaw. Yep, that’s right, he walked on my face. My reaction was a slinging arm which resulted in a cat flung across the bed, followed by a soft murr. This was not a wounded cat sound. Trust me, I’ve heard plenty of those noises. Step on a cat’s tail just once and you’ll never forget it. No, just three little gentle murrs. I couldn’t go back to sleep at this point. I had to get up and find out if he was okay. I’m not a monster, ya know? He’s fine. Once he saw that I was awake, his attitude suddenly changed. I swear that he looked at me and in his little meow language said, “Oh, you’re up! Feed me?”
Needless to say, I fed the little bastard and now he’s lying comfortably on his perch, licking himself. I’m pretty sure he’s quite proud of himself this morning. *looks out the window* FFS, the sun isn’t even up yet. I suspect there’s a nap in my future.
I have a tendency run a complete marathon of possibilities in my head with just about everything. It doesn’t matter if its something I’m excited about or something that scares me. So, if I meet a guy and everything is falling into place, I’m quick to think of all the ways this could work out in good ways, all while waiting for the penny to drop. I make myself absolutely crazy doing this. As I continue my therapy and learning to be mindful, I have been trying really hard not to do this. As it often leads to very hurt feelings for which I have no one to blame but myself. Listen, I’m trying, okay?
So, recently I met someone that has already made some serious improvements to my life. I ran the marathon, of course, and I got excited. Alas, real life has gotten in the way of my virtual dreams and the penny has officially dropped. HOWEVER, I’m super pleased with myself this go round, because I did not fall apart or feel that sense of devastation when the penny dropped. I just accepted the situation for what it is and have decided to just make the most of it. This person offered me some tools that work with my therapy tools and I’m hopeful about my own personal plan for a change. So, I’ve grabbed that silver lining by the tail and I am holding on for dear life. I don’t know how much time I have left on this planet, but I’ll be damned if I’m going to just give up. I’ve survived far too much to let life hold me down now.
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I could hardly do a post about moving and not get the Jefferson’s theme song stuck in my head. I don’t have a whole lot to say about moving except that I’m glad I don’t have to do it anymore. I imagine I’ll spend the rest of my life in this condo. It’s paid for…in full. I remember moving quite a bit as a kid and all through my 20s and my favorite part of moving was unpacking in the new place. That’s the one thing I’ll miss about moving, but otherwise, I’m glad to have a place that is genuinely my home and know that I don’t have to pack up and leave again.