Rx (Medicate)

Theory of a Deadman – Rx (Medicate)

Wake up to a cloudy day
Dark rolls in and it starts to rain
Staring out to the cage-like walls
Time goes by and the shadows crawl
Crushin’ candy crushin’ pills
Got no job, mom pays my bills
Textin’ ex’s get my fill
Sweatin’ bullets, Netflix-chills
World’s out there singin’ the blues
Twenty more dead on the evening news
Think to myself “really, what’s the use?”
I’m just like you, I was born to lose

Why oh why can’t you just fix me?
When all I want’s to feel numb
But the medication’s all gone
Why oh why does God hate me?
When all I want’s to get high
And forget this so-called life

I am so frickin’ bored
Nothin’ to do today
I guess I’ll sit around and medicate (medicate)
I am so frickin’ bored
Nothing to do today
I guess I’ll sit around and medicate (medicate)

Can’t wait to feel better than I ever will
Attack that shit like a kid on Benadryl
Chase it down with a hopeful smile
Hate myself, if I can go for miles
They say family’s all you need
Someone to trust can help you breathe
Inhale that drug, but you start to choke
You follow the outs of an inside joke

Why oh why can’t you just fix me?
When all I want’s to feel numb
But the medication’s all gone
Why oh why does God hate me?
Cause I’ve seen enough of it, heard enough of it, felt enough of it
Had enough of it!

I am so frickin’ bored
Nothing to do today
I guess I’ll sit around and medicate (medicate)
I am so frickin’ bored
Nothing to do today
I guess I’ll sit around and medicate

Medicate
Medicate
Medicate
Medicate

Superman is a hero
But only when his mind is clear though
He needs that fix like the rest of us
So he’s got no fear when he saves that bus
All the stars in the Hollywood Hills
Snapchat live while they pop them pills
All those flavors of the rainbow
Too bad that shit don’t work though

Your friends are high right now
Your parents are high right now
That hot chick’s high right now
That cop is high right now
The president’s high right now
Your priest is high right now
Everyone’s high as fuck right now
And no one’s ever coming down

I am so frickin’ bored
Nothing to do today
I guess I’ll sit around and medicate (medicate)
I am so frickin’ bored
Nothing to do today
I guess I’ll sit around and medicate

Medicate
Medicate
Medicate
Medicate

I medicate

Rx

wearing:
hair: =DeLa*= Mesh Hair “Khatia”
head: CATWA HEAD Lilly
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
NARCISSE– Noelle Romper (*new* @ TLC)
erratic / eva – knee socks plain

pose: Foxcity Cute But Psycho set

Scene:
DRD– My Miserable Holiday Set (*new* @ Tannenbaum)
–DRD – My Miserable Holiday – Carpet
–DRD – My Miserable Holiday – Chair
–DRD – My Miserable Holiday – Table
–DRD – My Miserable Holiday – Tree
–DRD – My Miserable Holiday – Wood Basket
–DRD – My Miserable Holiday – Wood Stove

DRD – AE – Post Apocalyptic Holiday – Tree
DRD – Forgotten Attic – Chair – Stripe

dust bunny & O.M.E.N . Puppy Basket Bed

[Commoner] Break-Up Survival Kit / Zanax RARE

[NikotiN] Dealer Kitchen – Tray Metal
[NikotiN] Dealer Kitchen – Consumer Kit
[NikotiN] Grinder

Kalopsia – Lace Curtains

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He Smiled

He was a loner. He kept to himself and lived a minimal life. His only relationship was with the old woman at the Quick Shop on the edge of town, where he bought beer and supplies. He didn’t really celebrate holidays, but every year that sweet old woman would give him a box lovingly wrapped with an ornament attached. Inside the box was always the same, a dozen pair of colorful socks. It was the one time a year he smiled.

thanks for the socks dad

wearing:
hair: Barber Shop / David
head: CATWA HEAD Daniel
body: [SIGNATURE] Gianni – Mesh Body
tattoo: Letis Tattoo :: Sapphire Wolf
[Deadwool] Broberry jeans
..::THOR::.. Beer Bottle (wear) II

pose: FOXCITY. Mens – Solitude Bento Pose Set

scene:
DRD– His Miserable Holiday Set (*new* @ TMD)
DRD – His Miserable Holiday – Armchair
DRD – His Miserable Holiday – Low Table
DRD – His Miserable Holiday – Sad Rug
DRD – His Miserable Holiday – TV Tray

BALACLAVA!! Austen Drawers (Coal)

..::THOR::.. Old Tank Lamp [T]
..::THOR::.. Wood Beer Box [T]
..::THOR::.. Empty Beer [T]
..::THOR::.. Dude Poster 1 [T]
..::THOR::.. Dude Poster 6 [T]
..::THOR::.. Dude Poster 4 [T]
..::THOR::.. Dude Poster 5 [T]

*[Black Bantam] My Old Doggy White

set up in Trompe Loeil – Shotgun Shack Toulouse

Just a Quote

“And when at last you find someone to whom you feel you can pour out your soul, you stop in shock at the words you utter— they are so rusty, so ugly, so meaningless and feeble from being kept in the small cramped dark inside you so long.”
― Sylvia PlathThe Unabridged Journals of Sylvia Plath

shadow box dec

DRD Shadow Box Dec
DRD – Shadow Box – Series 01 – DEC 2017 – LIGHT
DRD – Series 01 – Canopy Bed – Light
DRD – Series 01 – Chandelier – Light
DRD – Series 01 – Chest – Light
DRD – Series 01 – Drapes – Light
DRD – Series 01 – Side Table A – Light
DRD – Series 01 – Side Table B – Light
DRD – Series 01 – Wing Chair Amber – Light
DRD – Series 01 – Wing Chair Ecru – Light

MudHoney Larson Fireplace Set (*new* @ Tannenbaum)
MudHoney Larson Fireplace – White
MudHoney Larson Paper Stars – long
MudHoney Larson Wreath

Winter Dreams Globe – Happy Holidays – From O.M.E.N (Tannenbaum)
O.M.E.N – Christmas Morning – Reindeer Plushie – Plain (*new* @ Tannenbaum)

SAYO – Glitz Collection (*new* @ Tannenbaum)
SAYO – Glitz Collection – Leaf Candle
SAYO – Glitz Collection – Garden Roses
SAYO – Glitz Collection – Sparkling Star – Rose Gold

dust bunny . pilea peper plant
dust bunny . areca palm plant
dust bunny . pink medinilla plant
dust bunny . potted palm

Cant’ Even – Winterscape (Gold) (*new* @ Tannenbaum)
Can’t Even – Jolly AF (*new* @ Tannenbaum)

Dahlia – Seasonal Candy Set- Round Gumball Jar (*new* @ Tannenbaum)

PILOT – Hanging Planter [White]
PILOT – Book and Tablet Stack
PILOT – Package Wrap

JIAN Santa’s Samoyeds True Spirit of Christmas Tree **25PR** (Arcade)

10 Fancy Decor: Miles Rug (*new* @ Arcade)
Fancy Decor: Twig Tree (gold) (Tannenbaum)

R(S)W Fruit Bowl – Christmas Tree (Tannenbaum)

Culprit Mousie Balloon Music Box (*new* @ Tannenbaum)

floorplan. i love you canvas
floorplan. notebook clutter
floorplan. pile of books

scene created in Trompe Loeil – Dorina Cottage Blush

Dangerous Proposition

Alright, so its been happening to me a lot lately, that I’m hitting a wall when it comes to something to write about. I know, that may come as quite a shock to some of my friends as I’m usually quite chatty with them, but for some reasons I’ve really struggled with things to say lately. I’d hate to turn my blog into nothing but pictures and songs. However, at the rate I’m going these days I fear that may soon become the case. So, for those of you that actually read my blog, I am asking you to submit some questions or topics for me to write about. No matter how silly or insane, I will make it a point to write SOMETHING about whatever is suggested. So, toss me a comment below or on my Facebook page and I will give it my best shot! I fear this is a dangerous proposition, because some of you might give me something insane, but I’m going to do it…so there’s the challenge!

danger

wearing:
hair:  MINA – Angel (*new* @ Remnant)
hair base: MINA hairbase HUD – Angel tattoo – Catwa (*new* @ Remnant)
head: CATWA HEAD Tala
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
UC_b2uk_scarf (*new* @ TresChic)

pose: Foxcity Cute but Psycho Set (Includes knife)
DRD – Abandoned Truck – Shelter (*new* @ Remnant)

Time

“Pleasure and action make the hours seem short.” ~William Shakespeare

I found this quote and recognized immediately the adage of time flying when you’re having fun. Yet, its not always when we’re having fun, is it? A work day never goes by as quickly as a busy one. Of course, those are the days we feel like we never got enough done, either. Time is a funny thing, isn’t it? When you’re a little kid you’re always waiting for something and it’s never here soon enough. Commercials are too long, movies aren’t long enough. Work days are too long, we don’t sleep long enough. One minute you’re 25, ten feet tall and bullet proof, the next minute…well, you’re approaching 50 and nothing turned out like you thought it would. Time…use it wisely, my friends, one never knows when that life long clock is going to stop.

cat's corner

*AF* Conquistador Screen
LISP – Mulberry Vintage Jewel Rug – Beige (FLF Nov 10)
Fancy Decor: Lyre Chair (cream) (*new* @ FaMESHed)
floorplan. typewriter gacha / white
dust bunny . spotted begonia
(fd) Cat – 08 Stretching
Fancy Decor: Grandfather Clock (*new* @ FaMESHed)
(fd) Cat – 03 Sitting Lazy
DRD – Series 01 – Clock Shelf – Light
Fancy Decor: Birch Candles
(fd) Cat – 02 Sleeping Curled
(fd) Cat – 11 Sitting
dust bunny . secretary desk . clutter
dust bunny . secretary chair
(fd) Cat – 05 Curled On Back
[ zerkalo ] Huge pile of books RARE
Fancy Decor: Neptune Engraving (ca. 1587) (*new* @ FaMESHed)
Fancy Decor: Thetis Engraving (ca. 1587) (*new* @ FaMESHed)

DollHouse

While putting this scene together, there was a song going through my head and every time I look at this picture I still hear it. So, here ya go, I’m sharing my ear worm with you all. I’ll even give you the lyrics! *giggles & sings*

Melanie Martinez – Dollhouse

Hey girl, open the walls, play with your dolls
We’ll be a perfect family
When you walk away, it’s when we really play
You don’t hear me when I say,
Mom, please wake up
Dad’s with a slut, and your son is smoking cannabis
No one never listens, this wallpaper glistens
Don’t let them see what goes down in the kitchen
Places, places, get in your places
Throw on your dress and put on your doll faces
Everyone thinks that we’re perfect
Please don’t let them look through the curtains
Picture, picture, smile for the picture
Pose with your brother, won’t you be a good sister?
Everyone thinks that we’re perfect
Please don’t let them look through the curtains
D-O-L-L-H-O-U-S-E
I see things that nobody else sees
(D-O-L-L-H-O-U-S-E
I see things that nobody else sees)
Hey girl, look at my mom, she’s got it going on
Ha, you’re blinded by her jewelry
When you turn your back she pulls out a flask
And forgets his infidelity
Uh-oh, she’s coming to the attic, plastic
Go back to being plastic
No one never listens, this wallpaper glistens
One day they’ll see what goes down in the kitchen
Places, places, get in your places
Throw on your dress and put on your doll faces
Everyone thinks that we’re perfect
Please don’t let them look through the curtains
Picture, picture, smile for the picture
Pose with your brother, won’t you be a good sister?
Everyone thinks that we’re perfect
Please don’t let them look through the curtains
D-O-L-L-H-O-U-S-E
I see things that nobody else sees
(D-O-L-L-H-O-U-S-E
I see things that nobody else sees)
Hey girl (hey girl, hey girl, hey girl, hey girl)
Hey girl, open your walls, play with your dolls
We’ll be a perfect family
Places, places, get in your places
Throw on your dress and put on your doll faces
Everyone thinks that we’re perfect
Please don’t let them look through the curtains
Picture, picture, smile for the picture
Pose with your brother, won’t you be a good sister?
Everyone thinks that we’re perfect
Please don’t let them look through the curtains
D-O-L-L-H-O-U-S-E
I see things that nobody else sees
(D-O-L-L-H-O-U-S-E
I see things that nobody else sees)

dollhouse

wearing:
hair: .Entwined. Amena – Naturals RARE
head: CATWA HEAD Tala
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
Avada~ Broken Doll Tattoo
Sweet Thing. Clockwork Doll Wind-Up Key
{le fil casse} Mayumi Dress  (*new* @ FaMESHed)
REIGN.- DAISI PLATS- BLACK

pose by Black Cat

scene:
*Drot* Old Attic_Skybox
DRD – Series 01 – Baby Crib – Dark (DRD Shadow Box Series 01 – Nov 2017)
RO – The Doll Maker – Debbie Downer Doll
RO – The Doll Maker – Makers Crook RARE
DRD – Series 01 – Baby Carriage – Dark (DRD Shadow Box Series 01 – Nov 2017)
DRD – Series 01 – Baby Ottoman – Dark (DRD Shadow Box Series 01 – Nov 2017)
DRD MM radio
DRD – Spiritualists Shoppe – Hanging Cages
DRD – Series 01 – Giant Attic Pile – Dark (DRD Shadow Box Series 01 – Nov 2017)
RO – The Doll Maker – Evil Lynn Doll
DRD – Series 01 – Attic Rugs – Dark (DRD Shadow Box Series 01 – Nov 2017)
DRD – Spiritualists Shoppe – Trapped Spirit Frame – Two
DRD – Series 01 – Childs Bench – Dark (DRD Shadow Box Series 01 – Nov 2017)
RO – The Doll Maker – Iva Plague Doll
RO – The Doll Maker – Misty Marsh Doll

Oh Deer

When I was putting this scene together, I couldn’t help but get lost as I was thrown down memory lane. Earlier this year, I lost my aunt. I shouldn’t say I lost her, because to be honest, I didn’t really like her. My mom lost her sister. My mom was and still is quite heartbroken. While I didn’t like my aunt very much, there were things I liked about her. I loved visiting her for a few days at a time, because she lived on a mountain in the hills of West Virginia. I know, I know, but seriously, its a beautiful state, especially in the fall when the leaves are so vibrant. I loved being so enveloped in mother nature. There were deer that would come into her yard every night as the sun was going down and you never knew when you’d see a bear lurking about looking for apples. My aunt was especially gullible and I even had her hunting ghost orbs in the Catholic cemetery at the bottom of the mountain once. *laughs* Her home was rustic and so far removed from modern society to include dial up internet as it was all she could get where she lived.
I didn’t agree with her views on life, religion, or politics. I didn’t think she was a very nice person, but there we managed to share some funny moments. Like the time we mouthed words to each other and made my mother think she was going deaf. She fought hard the last few years of her life and finally couldn’t fight anymore. I understood that and I admired her decision to tell her family she was done fighting. To say goodbye and let her go. I know that took a lot of courage for her, considering how close she was to her children and how much she loved her husband. I dedicate this post to her, even though she has never approved of me, my lifestyle, my beliefs, etc. *laughs*

oh deer

wearing:
hair:  [RA] Rachel Hair (*new* @ FaMESHed)
head: CATWA HEAD Tala
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
Scandalize. Megan (*new* @ Cosmopolitan)

pose: GingerFish Poses – Sour Times (*new* @ Darkness Monthly)

scene:
llorisen // simeon lodge (*new* @ FaMESHed)
Trompe Loeil – Keithia Bed Dark  (*new* @ FaMESHed)
+Half-Deer+ Favorite Sweater Clutter – ALL – Draped Over
DRD gg rug brown
*Shabby* Boho Vintage Chest
Scarlet Creative The Arcade Sep 15 – Greenwich Telephone
dust bunny . bunny alarm clock . brown
23- 8f8 – primavera in Toscana Wall Lamp
uK – Simply Said Karma RARE (*new* @ Gacha Gardens)
dust bunny . spotted begonia
BALACLAVA!! Books [horizontal A]
!! Follow US !! Safety dog with pants
Apt B // Hello Billy – Hatboxes
!gO! SteamTeddy +Mad+
[ zerkalo ] Hidden Gems – Dress Form
Kalopsia – Curtaina – Chevron Beige
[ zerkalo ] Pile of books 2
Fancy Decor: Hasting Bench (white) (*new* @ Uber)
Fancy Decor: Open Book (*new* @ Uber)
Fancy Decor: Rain Boots (*new* @ Uber)
Second Spaces – snow day books – messy stack
[ zerkalo ] Pile of books 3
[ zerkalo ] Pile of books 1
[Black Bantam] Puppies At Play (*new* @ Chapter Four)
DRD – Series 01 – Floor Lamp – Light2.
*MSS* Garden Party Hanging Wicker Ball Natural

outside:
JIAN Fallow Deer Buck & Doe (*new* @ FaMESHed)
LB_Conifer.v2{Seasons}

Being Grateful

“Gratitude unlocks the fullness of life. It turns what we have into enough, and more. It turns denial into acceptance, chaos to order, confusion to clarity. It can turn a meal into a feast, a house into a home, a stranger into a friend.” ~ Melody Beattie

Once upon a time I kept a gratitude journal to remind myself of things I had to be grateful for every single day. It’s funny how something so simple can change your perspective on everything. At first, I would do this every morning, to ensure a good attitude for the day. After a while, I notice that by the end of the day, I still had complaints. I had physical pain and I do every single day. Something might go wrong, a bad day at work…a bad hair day…cat got sick…fought with my mom, etc. Eventually, I decided it was better for me to write in my gratitude journal at the end of the day, because it made the bad things not so bad. So, that bad day at work? I was grateful to have a job. That bad hair day? Thank goodness it was long enough to pull up. My cat threw up? Well, at least it was nothing serious. I love my cat. Fought with my mom? I’m so glad to still have her in my life. There will always be things to bring us down, but we will also have things to be grateful for, too. If you are reading this, it means you have internet and that’s a luxury, believe it or not. Lots of people don’t even have a home, much less the internet. So, let’s all find some gratitude in our lives and change our perspective on the bad things in our lives. ♥

industrial loft

 

scene:
:HAIKEI: Old industrial skybox
Con.&floorplan. lazy chairs
Con.&floorplan. lazy sofa / black A
:CP: East Side Mono Rug
BALACLAVA!! Chevron Screens
dust bunny . potted rubber tree
dust bunny . fiddle leaf tree
DRD – GG – Disgruntled Cat Perch (October Group Gift)
JIAN Halloween ’17 Group Gift :: Disgruntled Lounging Cat (October Group Gift)
Fancy Decor: Chain Lamp
=EliBaily= Ivy
uK – Industrial Frames
Fancy Decor: Leather Pillow
Fancy Decor: Burlap Pillow
12 Fancy Decor: Tray Table
13 Fancy Decor: Lathed Candles
The Loft – Lotus Holder
NOMAD // Industrial Coffee Table // .07
15.erratic / lsm – magazine & news
Fancy Decor: Lock Box
The Loft – Yoga Tray
JIAN Feline Frights 11. Black Wanderer (*new* @ Epiphany)
Fancy Decor: Industrial Cabinet
Fancy Decor: Raven Canister
Fancy Decor: Books & Bookends (black)
Fancy Decor: Chain Candles
Fancy Decor: Belt Shelf
Fancy Decor: Potted Aloe
Fancy Decor: Leaning Frames
Fancy Decor: Edison Lamp
:CP: Modern Industrial Planter
:CP: Industrial Repurposed Explore
:CP: Industrial Repurposed Journey

Bookworm

I love books. Not just reading them, but holding them and owning them. I love the smell of a used bookstore, a library, and a new bookstore. Each one has a distinct odor of its own. I have shelves and shelves of books I have yet to read, because…well, I’m on the computer most of the time and I simply hate reading books on a screen. I’ve tried to read on tablets and I did okay with the Kindle for a while, but eventually I just really missed holding the book, using a bookmark, and having strangers ask me about the book I’m reading. No one asks you what you’re reading when you’re staring at a tablet. So, I refuse to buy eBooks anymore. I need to feel the paper between my fingertips. I need to hear the rustling of the pages as I turn them anxiously trying to finish the sentence/paragraph/chapter. There are always going to be books in my bathroom, on my nightstand, and on various shelves throughout my house. Some I’ve read and decided they’re simply too good to part with, while others sit for ages on the shelf waiting for me to finally embrace the story within.

bookworm

wearing:
hair: /Wasabi Pills/ Opal Mesh Hair
head: CATWA HEAD Tala
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
EarthStones Eyeglasses – The Countess
PM – 7. Maesi Blue&Black Top (*new* @ Epiphany)
PM – 8. Maesi Blue&Black Shorts (*new* @ Epiphany)

pose: Le Poppycock *Book Lovers* A (comes w/book & cat)

scene:
20 – DRD – Bloodcroft Castle – Secret Bookcase
uK – Victorian Book Stand Brown Booth RARE
uK – Victorian Book Stand Her Studies RARE
uK – Victorian Book Stand Quill and Ink
uK – Victorian Book Stand Scholar Study
uK – Victorian Book Stand Book Pile
uK – Victorian Book Stand Loose Bits
uK – Victorian Book Stand Her Note
uK – Victorian Book Stand Scholar Stack
39 – DRD – Bloodcroft Castle – Carpet – Two

 

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