I’m so, so done

‘Cause I’m so, so done
Guardin’ my tongue, holdin’ me back
I’m livin’ the way that I want
‘Cause I’m so, so done
Fighting myself, goin’ through Hell
I’m livin’ the way that I want
I’m livin’ the way that I want
I’m livin’ the way that I want
I’m livin’ the way that I want
I’m livin’ the way that I want

I lost control over all my energy
Done so much damage to my heart
I’ve given in, I’ve changed my identity
I didn’t mean to go so far, umm-mm

Oh my God (God)
I wish (Wish) I could be (Be) better than this
My God, wish (Wish) I could be (Oh-oh)
~ Alicia Keys – So Done

hair: [monso] Lena2 Hair @ Kustom9
head: LeLUTKA Fleur Head 2.0
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) (1.2)
skin: [theSkinnery] Dalia (LeLutkaEVO) @ C88

TRIGGERED – Chimera Glasses @ Unik
earrings: MG – Kaleidoscope – #18
CHAIN – Tina Necklace Set @ Anthem
AvaWay KITTEN_Bracelet
–Burrow Custom To-Go Cup
RE Festive Rings Set

-[ vagrant ]- Kaylee Set @ Kustom9
-[ vagrant ]- Kaylee Wristband R
-[ vagrant ]- Kaylee Top
-[ vagrant ]- Kaylee Shorts
[ VERSOV ] COPOV_GROUP GIFT Ankle Monitor
[Enchante’] – Jenny Sneakers

[Rezz Room] Dachshund Adult Animesh @ Equal10

pose: DM – Stairway
backdrop: Los Vecinos – Dharma – The Bearded Guy

scene extras:
Hangry – Croissant Ice Cream – Peach {rez} @ Kustom9

(Luc.) Ethel the Babushka Figurine @ Kustom9

Apple Fall Ceramic Milk Jar @ FaMESHed
Apple Fall Olive Jar – Olive Glaze @ FaMESHed

dust bunny . paradise plants . monstera tree @ FaMESHed
dust bunny . paradise plants . fan palm @ FaMESHed
dust bunny . paradise plants . pineapple plant @ FaMESHed

Haunting Me

I was as pure as a river
But now I think I’m possessed
You put a fever inside me
And I’ve been cold since you left
I’ve got a boyfriend now and he’s made of gold
And you’ve got your own mistakes in a bed at home
I’m hoping you could save me now but you break and fold
You’ve got a fire inside but your heart’s so cold

‘Cause I’ve done some things that I can’t speak
And I’ve tried to wash you away but you just won’t leave
So won’t you take a breath and dive in deep
‘Cause I came here so you’d come for me

I’m begging you to keep on haunting
I’m begging you to keep on haunting me
I’m begging you to keep on haunting
I know you’re gonna keep on haunting me

We walk as tall as the skyline
And we have roots like the trees
But then your eyes start to wander
‘Cause they weren’t looking at me
You weren’t looking for me
~ Halsey – Haunting

Sady is wearing:
hair: Tableau Vivant // Natasha @ Uber
head: LeLUTKA Nova Head 1.0
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skin: [theSkinnery] Ginny (LeLutka&Bom) @ Uber

TONE 2 – HD Sparkly Glossy Lips for HD LELU-EVOL
Cynful Upper Class Dress @ Collabor88

pose by Del May

leave into madness

find the only sign that you’re numb
lingering on your lips
hide in knowing tides undone
breathe i’m surrounded by your touch, blushed from salted tips
shrouding all i know, paths already found too soon
sigh the lowly miles become, withering your forfeit
fighting knowing one by one
leave into madness
above, hushed in our eclipse
how then would you know – i’m already drowning too?
ah, i’m fading wanting silence, torn
in your shallows i’ll swim
howling the only light on my shore
to align
oh to help me find
oh to align
oh to broken roots
hope that we return soon
leave me fighting shrouded lungs
drifting on from the moor
oh will i lie to soothe my tongue
oh believe my eyes
yearn for it all
leave you to find
all in time
calling your wind to tide
await you in the night
ah, i’m fading wanting silence, torn
in your shallows i’ll swim
howling the only light on my shore
to align
oh to help me find
oh to align
oh to broken roots
hope that we return soon
oh believe my eyes yearn for it all
only where my spirit grows
oh believe my eyes yearn for it all
learn to be whole
will we ever learn
ah, i’m fading wanting silence, torn
in your shallows i’ll swim
howling the only light on my shore
to align
oh to help me find
oh to align
oh to broken roots
hope that we return soon
oh believe my eyes yearn for it all
leave you to find
all in time
~ Vraell – Grain

wearing:
hair: [monso] My Hair – Julia @ Kustom9
head: LeLUTKA Nova Head 1.0
ears:  [CX] Withered Bezerker Ears
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skin: [theSkinnery] Ginny (LeLutka&Bom) @ Uber

Miu  – Rose top @ FaMESHed
RKKN. Paige Jeans StoneBlue @ Epiphany

pose by Del May

You’re welcome!

Sometimes I feel so pulled in various directions that I don’t know if I’m coming or going. I don’t know if I’m being yanked away or anchored down. Of course, I mean those things figuratively, but it was fun to make it more literal in the photo. And would you look at that? I still found a way to show my tits! HA! You’re welcome, unless you’re a gay man…in which case…uhm…anyone can totally wear this hair! It’s unrigged AND resizable. You can wear the collar, too…and those ARE the two main items I’m showing off here…sooo, you’re welcome, too! HA!

hair: Tableau Vivant // Handrew hair @ Uber
head: Genus Head – Baby Face
[Heaux] Starlit Eyes @ N21
skin: L’Etre – Lana Skin @ TresChic
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara V4.1

[CX] Vice Crew / Nose Bandage – Black @ Epiphany
[CX] Heavy Duty Collar – Rusty Filth
[CX] Immoral Support

pose by Del May

VARONIS – Sombre Skybox @ Kustom9

Sometimes, they win

“Monsters are real, and ghosts are real too. They live inside us, and sometimes, they win.” — Stephen King

hair: MINA – Caty @ FaMESHed
head: [ContraptioN] The Faceless Mask *???* F @ Salem
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) (1.1)

VINYL – Sammy Occult Dress @ FaMESHed

pose by DelMay
ax: FLECHA Rune Axe fullperm

Enchanted Woods by Studio Skye

I have risen!

With my new leash on life, I feel like I have risen from the dead. Now, for me to find some happy joyful brains to feed upon. *laughs* Oh there’s just so much goodness going on in my life right now. I just got new shoes in the mail and they are a PERFECT fit. That’s always so scary. Oh yeah, new shoes!! *does a little dance* Oh right, I’ve risen from the dead…just call me SadyChrist Superstar!! *giggles* Don’t tell my therapist! I made a joke about having a God complex when I played the Sims and she started scribbling like crazy…pardon the pun. *sighs*

Baiastice_Primavera Headpiece
DOUX– Andrea hairstyle
CATWA HEAD Catya v3.2
[Glam Affair] Maria Applier
[LEGACY] Meshbody
–SU!– Lilith Eye Makeup -Catwa @ Salem
:Conviction : Viscous Eyes
VINYL  – Wicked Wraps Top @ Salem
VINYL – Wicked Wraps Panties @ Salem
VINYL – Wicked Wraps Skirt @ Salem

pose by Del May
K&S – // the lost cemetery @ Salem

Shall I set her free?

Well, my favorite month of the year is right around the corner and I am super stoked.  As I’m sure some have noticed, I’ve been tapping into my dark side a lot more lately and I’m loving the results. As October sneaks up on us  like a ghost in the night, I’m so excited to have even more reasons to tap into that darkness within me. It’s funny, I feel more alive when I tap into that darkness. It’s almost as if trying to tap into that sunshine feeling that so many of my photos have done….makes me more depressed. Perhaps I’m just denying the real me by trying to be sunshine and lollipops. My name is Sadystika, afterall….there’s clearly a very dark, ominous side to me. Shall I set her free?

.Shi Hair : Medusozoa
CATWA HEAD Catya v3.2
[Glam Affair] Maria Applier
Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
Wicca’s Originals – Eagleden Arms @ Engine Room
2. [CX] + .TeaBunny. NGW – Lynx – Metal/M
[CX] Disciplinarian – White Leather @ Engine Room

pose by DelMay
location: Elysion

Dancing with Fish

I’ve been wanting to do a picture like this for quite sometime…a dancer in the woods with fishes. A bit surreal, but as I’ve said before…surrealism is probably my favorite art genre. Luckily for me, Foxwood released these fantastic ghost fish at Collabor88. Then as if reading my mind, Dead Dollz released the Harajuku Set. As soon as I saw the set from Dead Dollz, I knew what I was going to do. I only hope that everyone appreciates it as much as I loved doing it. ♥

DOUX – Summer Day Hairstyle [RARE]
CATWA HEAD Catya v3.2
Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
Dead Dollz – Harajuku Set
=Zenith=Belt leg warmer (10 Colors) -Maitreya – RARE

Foxwood – Ghost fish – Companion pack @ Collabor88

pose by DelMay

Guaranteed Laugh

If you want a guaranteed laugh, find a group of the most random people you know and get them all on a call on discord. Just let the madness ensue. You’ll hear random shit like, “I’m gonna need gogurt for this!” It has nothing to do with anything that’s being said, but someone is bound to say something insane. The hardest part about this hilarity is gathering said randos on the call and keeping them there. However, if you get enough, they can come and go as they please…AND you can always add more! *grins* This is how I spent my Saturday night and I had the absolute best time.

DOUX – Selena hairstyle
CATWA HEAD Catya v3.2
[Glam Affair] Alexa Applier [ Catwa ] @ UBER
^^Swallow^^ Princess Ears
Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara V4.1
(AMD) Creature Armbands – Silver Paws
#17 Sintiklia – Sweet berry – Choker white
amias – EVY gloves C2 white @ ShinyShabby
Miu – Halle bodysuits @ Uber
Miu – Halle belt @ Uber

pose by DelMay
FOXCITY. Photo Booth – Lost City

Undertow

“Two times in
I’ve been struck dumb by a voice that
Speaks, from deep beneath peerless water that’s
Twice as clear as heaven
Twice as loud as reason
Deep and rich like silt on a riverbed
Just as never-ending
Current’s mouth below me
Opens up around me
Suggests and beckons all while swallowing
Surrounds and drowns, and wipes me away
But I’m so comfortable
So comfortable”
~ Tool – Undertow

Basics:
head: CATWA HEAD Catya
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skin: [Glam Affair] Carla @ Collabor88
tattoo: DAPPA – Devour Tattoo.

:moon amore: Liquid Soul/ Brave Waves Hairstyle  @ The Epiphany
6. Dead Dollz – My Boho Summer – Bikini Bra -White @ The Epiphany
12. Dead Dollz – My Boho Summer – Bikini Thong -White @ The Epiphany
18. Dead Dollz – My Boho Summer – Sandals – White @ The Epiphany
:moon amore: Liquid Soul/ Fluids Halo -Water @ The Epiphany

pose by Del May