Devil in Me

“I don’t wanna wake it up
I don’t wanna wake it up
I don’t wanna wake it up
The devil in me”
Halsey- Devil in Me

Have you ever met someone that just brings out the worst in you? They might not have done anything to you, but for some reason there’s just this instant dislike of them? It happens to me from time to time and I’m hoping I’m not the only one. Maybe I’m just the only one willing to admit it. Surely not. When I do meet people like that, I try to be polite and just keep my distance. So, its not really a problem.
Then there’s those people that just run around doing all kinds of dirt to other people. They haven’t done anything to me, that I know of, but I’m not trying to get close to people like that either, but then they go and do something really nasty to someone you love. *sighs* Its really hard to keep my mouth shut in situations like that. I know I should trust the person who has been offended to take care of themselves and most of the time I do. However, in case I never mentioned it before…I happen to be human and with that comes some faults. I know, I know, you thought I was perfect. *laughs* Let me tell you now…there are times when its all I can do to keep myself in check. I’m not talking about threatening someone online. I’m talking about just reading a bitch like a book. Front to back, side to side, up and down…and I’ve been told on a few occasions my words can cut deeper than any knife. Having lost more than one friend in the past to my apparently razor sharp words I really don’t wanna wake up the devil in me.

releasing the demon

wearing: 
hair
.Shi x Messiah : Hair / Unisex . Common 2
headCATWA HEAD Kathy
eyes: CATWA Mesh Eyes Pack w/:Conviction: Viscous Eyes [HUD]
eyeshadow-SU!– Somber Eyeshadow +CATWA APPLIER+
lipstick: -SU!- The Matte Lip Essentials //Catwa BENTO//
skin: Glam Affair – Molly – Catwa Mesh Head Applier – Artic (*new* @ Arcade)
bodyMaitreya Mesh Body – Lara
tattoo.::Nanika::. Gaia tattoo Black (*new* @ Tres Chic)
piercing.:E.A.Eclipse:.  Nerfertiti Piercing Mouth

Phedora ~ Edwin body harness (*new* @ Somber)
S&P Like A Prayer – clamps black
[CX] Piton Pumps – Black ( Maitreya )

pose by Del May

To AraCakes with Love

I grew up listening to my mom telling stories about hanging out at the soda fountain at the pharmacy after school. The closest thing I had to that was my last two years of high school, we’d all park at Corner Grocery, which was really a Texaco station, get drunk and dance in the gravel parking lot. The owners were super cool and didn’t mind us being there as we bought drinks, snacks, cigarettes, and occasionally talked someone into buying us alcohol. Plus, the store isn’t likely to get robbed with a group of teens hanging out next to it. Those were good times, but I always wondered what it must have been like to sit on a stool at an actual soda fountain. God knows with the heat in my part of the world, I’d love to sit in a sweet shop with a good old fashioned milk shake right about now. We had a really cute little shop for a while called Just Desserts where you’d get a piece of cake the size of your head and pay about $6usd for it, but it was literally too rich for my blood. That’s the problem I find with most American desserts anyway, too sweet. I grew up on European desserts and as decadent as they looked, they were the perfect balance of flavors without being too sweet.
So, anyway, you might be wondering about the title and what that has to do with what I’ve written. Well, I’ll tell you, absolutely nothing. This post is just a little wink to Miss AraCakes, a wonderful and shy friend of mine that is the only one that gets away with calling me Cupcake. I know by writing that you’ll all try it now and I’m warning you, the nickname is reserved for Ara only, so when I ignore you…you’ll know why, cuz you fuckers ain’t gonna steal her special pet name for me! *sticks her tongue out*

SadyCakes

wearing:
hair
little bones. Estine (*new* @ C88)
headCATWA HEAD Kathy
bodyMaitreya Mesh Body – Lara
tattoo.:::G.ID:::. Charlotte Tattoo (*new* @ Vintage Fair)

Cae :: Sydney :: Necklace (*new* @ FaMESHed)
:::NOIR::: Infinite Bracelets (*new* @ FaMESHed)
**RE** Dark Queen Rings – Bento 2.0
Astralia – Compatible nails system (Maitreya Stiletto base)
GingerFish -Nail Applier-Astralia-Bloody Kisses
LYBRA . Natalia (*new* @ SouledOut)
[Gos] Boutique – Gigi Sandals (*new* @ FaMESHed)

pose by Del May Poses

scene:
RAMA – #selfie_RAMA Iron Wall
[Merak] – Milkshake Sign (*new* @ Vintage Fair)
[Merak] – Bakery Sign (*new* @ Vintage Fair)
[Merak] – Cupcake Sign (*new* @ Vintage Fair)
[Merak] – Cupcake Box (*new* @ Vintage Fair)
[Merak] – Milkshake Love (*new* @ Vintage Fair)
[Merak] – Retro Bakery Bar (*new* @ Vintage Fair)
[Merak] – Retro High Chair(green) (*new* @ Vintage Fair)

Cherry Bomb

“Hello, dad. Hello, mom.
I’m your ch-ch-ch-cherry bomb!
Hello world! I’m your wild girl.
I’m your ch-ch-ch-cherry bomb!”
The Runaways – Cherry Bomb

I don’t have the mindset to write anything especially deep or meaningful for this post. Oh sure, I thought of analogies about how life’s not a bowl of cherries. Instead, I just have a bunch of random stuff floating about my head as I think about cherries like how I just love cherries. I love cherry designs, cherry lips, and cherry flavored candy. I chose the song Cherry Bomb to quote from for a few reasons. I used Cherry Bomb as a display name for about a year a while back and loved it. I also loved the move about the band. Doing a bit of a retro look with cherries everywhere, it just seemed the natural thing to do.
As I sit here thinking about cherries, I’m reminded of the cherry eating scene from the movie Witches of Eastwick and how they made that one lady throw up cherry pits during church. Don’t yell at me about spoilers, either, cuz if you haven’t seen that movie by now…well…just shame on you. *laughs*
The outfit is from Pretty Mess and can be obtained at the current round of Collabor88, the subtle tattoo and adorable hair are currently at Vintage Fair. I just love how many gorgeous vintage designs can be found all across the grid at the moment. If you love dressing up and playing with the styles of yesteryears, there’s no better time to shop than now.

cherry

hairno.match_ ~ NO_SECRET ~ (*new* @ Vintage Fair)
headCATWA HEAD Kathy
bodyMaitreya Mesh Body – Lara
tattoo:  Stardust – Victoria – Black & Red Tattoo (*new* @ Vintage Fair)

Pretty Mess – Donna (*new* @ Collabor88)
pose by Del May

Warning Signs

Some people should come with warning signs. I’ve often said that about myself. Much like the profiles that most of us fill out about our friends, what we do, our favorite stores, etc. I think sometimes we should dedicate one to a warning. For instance, mine might say something like….WARNING: Sometimes carelessly sarcastic. Maybe harmful to sensitive people. Does not flirt well. Chases squirrels and is often not paying attention. Uses offensive language. R, possible X Rated.  Or any other number of things that one might should know before approaching me. I suppose most of us try to do that in the About me portion of our profiles, but what if we let someone else write our warning signs? I imagine my closest friends would most certainly call me a cunt, which clearly would offend a lot of people, but it just cracks us up and we proudly claim the title.
I’m sitting here thinking about what I would write for others. I have one friend that is very sweet. He offers hugs and compliments to almost everyone, but this is often misunderstood and people either think he’s flirting or inviting their advances. For him, I’d probably say, “WARNING: friendly, sometimes flirty, but he’s harmless and taken. Please take his compliments as simple acts of kindness and nothing more.”
Another friend of mine often comes off like an air head, because the simplest of things can go right over her head. However, she’s quite intelligent, educated, and perceptive. For her, I’d probably write, “WARNING: Far more intelligent and educated than she lets on. Highly perceptive. Do not think you are fooling her. Be interesting or she will wander off, she might anyway. Her flickr may be Xrated, but she’s not your whore!”
Of course there some that should just read, “WARNING! Drama Queen, Keyboard Warrior, Negative Nancy, Be prepared to call Wambulance!”
I could do this all day…that’s just the two examples that were floating around in my head as I thought about warning labels. Hell, this could become a regular blog topic. *laughs* What would yours say? What do you think others would write for you?

warning signs

Just like my last post with Vintage Fair items, the link for the Fair beside the item will take you directly to that vendor.

hair[e] Donna (*new* @ Vintage Fair)
headCATWA HEAD Kathy
eyesCATWA Mesh Eyes Pack
bodyMaitreya Mesh Body – Lara
tattoo: –Endless Pain Tattoos- Suicide Girlv3 (*new* @ Vintage Fair)

[Cynful] Rendezvous Bracelet (*new* @ Collabor88)
[Cynful] Rendezvous Romper (*new* @ Collabor88)
:Z.S: Tay Heels (*new* @ Vintage Fair)

pose by Del May
backdrop: ::WetCat:: & .:LEMON:. “Alley” BackdropScene [POSES]
+Half-Deer+ Spilled Liquid – Small Puddle – Water Set
sign: 7 – Drugs Sold Sign

Boop this nose, Sassy!

Last September, I did a droog look that I absolutely loved in an ironic post called, World Peace. So clearly, this is not the first time I’ve done a post that refers to one of my favorite movies, Clockwork Orange, but sometimes things just fall together in such a way that I cannot resist. This picture is one of those things. First ChicModa releases a retexture of the Kat dress that was originally released in the April BishBox with a boop graphics. I knew I had to blog it, because Sassy Nitely is the queen of booping. Then my dear friend, Kess Crystal, gave me an extra hair that she nabbed from a lock&tuft gacha and passed it to me saying, “cos nothing says Sady more than Clockwork Orange hat hair!” I love that she remembered how much I love that movie. Naturally, between the hair and the dress…and now, of course, the movie…I couldn’t help but think of the masks they wore in one particularly uncomfortable scene of the movie. I, also, couldn’t help but think of my friend, Rom, because he has such a mask. So, off to marketplace I went, because if I’m going to blog a boop dress with droog hair, I need the ultimate dick nose mask, Boop this nose, Sassy! *laughs* She’s going to kill me!
Alright, so once again, you’ve had a peek into my twisted little head and how things often unfold. *giggles* You all know by now that I’ve got a good heart, but a very mischievous side, as well. So, surely this is not surprise to any of you…not really.

boop

wearing:
hair:  lock&tuft – droog – variety UNCOMMON (*new* @ SaNaRae)
head: CATWA HEAD Kathy
mask: Lewd :  Alex Maskie
bodyMaitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skinGlam Affair – Polly – Catwa Mesh Head Applier – Jamaica (*new* @ Kustom9)

ChicModa // Kat T-Shirt Dress
=Zenith=Cosy long Gloves
*MUKA* Garter Socks
[VALE KOER] TACTICAL FLIP BOOTS

pose by Del May
MINIMAL – Underground Background -2- (*new* @ Uber)

 

A Broken Phone Booth

“Am I alive or thoughts that drift away?
Does summer come for everyone?
Can humans do as prophets say?
And if I die before I learn to speak
Can money pay for all the days I lived awake
But half asleep?”
Primitive Radio Gods – Standing Outside A Broken Phone Booth With Money In My Hand

This is one of those songs that I’ve probably heard at least 100 times. I liked it a lot. The chorus is quite catchy with the lyrics like:
“I’ve been downhearted baby,
I’ve been downhearted baby,
Ever since the day we met”

and the “Do do do do do do”

However, it wasn’t until I looked up the actual lyrics that I was truly moved by the poetry of it. The melody is certainly hypnotic, but now I think its going to be one of my favorite songs all because I took the time to really read the lyrics in a stand alone manner, like poetry. Which, of course, is something I can truly appreciate as I used to write quite a bit of poetry and on occasion, I still do. I even have another blog for my poetry, that I’ve sadly neglected for a very long time.
I was talking to Josh about writing last night and of course, he’s very supportive and encouraging, but I simply don’t have the drive I once did for such things. My own poetic words have abandoned me, but alas I’m still full of cra…erhm…I mean plenty of random musings like this one.

telephone_005

Anyway, I’d like to wrap up this post with a moment of silence as I send positive thoughts, love & healing light to all of those in Manchester…what happened last night was an immense tragedy and while it breaks my heart that this has happened at all. The way the English people came together to assist one another somehow manages to restore just a little of my faith in humanity and the strength of communities.

wearing:
hairTRUTH Scout
head: CATWA HEAD Kathy
bodyMaitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skinGlam Affair – Polly – Catwa Mesh Head Applier – Jamaica (*new* @ Kustom9)

Pretty Mess – Active Top RED (*new* @ N21)
Pretty Mess – Active Bottoms RED Daddys (*new* @ N21)
{Luxuria} Fall/Winter 16 Thigh High Socks
#EMPIRE – Ixora (*new* @ N21)

pose by Del May

scene:
RAMA – #selfie_RAMA Steel Plate
.UNTITLED. (grounded) mohksy uk phone booth
[ keke ] hogweed shimmer mini
[ keke ] hogweed shimmer maxi

Unlike Any Other

I was thinking about the mushy post I wrote the other day and how I said his love is unlike any I’ve ever known. I got to thinking about how often people say that about current relationships. I thought about how overused the phrase is and quite honestly, I got annoyed with myself for using the phrase so much, as well. Then I started thinking about it, really thinking about it. Each love is and should be like any other, shouldn’t it?
Think about it, every relationship you’ve been in had to be wonderful at some point and had to have seemed unlike any other…at least for a while, right? I mean why be with someone if it doesn’t feel wonderful, right? Even the relationships that are over and ended badly, before the end…before everything went to shit, something was good. That relationship was special. I suppose this is how things become cliche’ in the first place…they ring true and are applicable repeatedly.
Well, it was just something I was thinking about a lot lately. As I am crazy about Josh and he truly is like anyone I’ve ever known before, but then again so are all my exes. *laughs* Thank goodness for that! How daft would it be if they were all the same, afterall!?!? Yeah, ok, there’s a picture and pretty stuff…shutting up now. *wanders off to chase squirrels*

Unlike Any Other_002

wearing:
hairTRUTH Taja
head: CATWA HEAD Kathy
bodyMaitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skinGlam Affair – Polly – Catwa Mesh Head Applier – Jamaica (*new* @ Kustom9)
tattooRedFish  – Pholy Tattoo (*new* @ Lost & Found)

**RE** Bad Kitty Collar 1.1
ChicModa // Carol Top (*new* @ Cosmopolitan)
SPIRIT – Mil pants
fri. – Koko Wraps (*new* @ N21)

pose by Del May

scene:
uK – DJ Dead Chair Grey
RAMA – #selfie_RAMA YES YOU