Posted in Avenge, Catwa, Death Row Designs, Events, Fashion, Kaithleen's, Maitreya, Mesh Body Addicts, Mesh Body Addicts Fair, Second Life, shopping

See the Reason

“See the mirror in your eyes
See the truth behind the lies
Your lies are haunting me
See the reason in your eyes
Giving answer to the why
Your eyes are haunting me”
~Armin van Buuren feat. Sharon den Adel – In and Out of Love

red hot

wearing:
hair: DOUX – Mya hairstyle
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
SU!– Xanthe Lip Gloss
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: DeeTaleZ *Appliers* CATWA Head “Myra”

[Avenge] Floreal sunglasses (*new* @ Dubai Event)
[Avenge] Sweet Flowers earrings (*new* @ Dubai Event)
[Avenge] Sweet Flowers necklace (*new* @ Dubai Event)
DRD – Gypsy Bangles
: CULT : His Princess Rings/Gold (*new* @ Kinky)
Ascendant – Wish Coffin Bento Nails 05 (*new* @ MBA)
Kaithleen’s Olga Lace Top (*new* for Go by FaMESHed)

pose: [La Baguette] Fiona poses (*new* @ Blush)

Posted in Catwa, Collabor88, Death Row Designs, Events, FaMESHed, Fashion, Lybra, Maitreya, Second Life, shopping

Sick Like Me

I posted a meme yesterday that read, “Do you ever have one of those days, where you just want to get drunk, go bat shit crazy and set the world on fire?” Well, yesterday was that day for me. I’m already bat shit crazy, but I drank an entire bottle of wine on an empty stomach. As I suffered through one of the longest and hardest anxiety attacks I’ve had in quite a while, I fantasized about setting the world on fire, stabbing a few people while I watched them bleed out slowly, finding the Louise to my inner Thelma and going out in a blaze of glory. Instead I fell asleep with a cigarette in my hand while watching women in prison make their life look a lot better than men’s prison.
This morning, I find myself blasting In This Moment and remembering why I love this band so much. Recognizing so much of myself in their lyrics. So, here it is…are you sick like me?

In This Moment – Sick Like Me

Is it sick of me
To need control of you?
Is it sick to make
You beg the way I do?
Is it sick of me
To want you crawling on your knees?
Is it sick to say
I want you biting down on me
Are you sick like me?
Am I beautiful
As I tear you to pieces?
Am I beautiful?
Even at my ugliest, you always say
I’m beautiful
As you tear me to pieces
You are beautiful
Even at your ugliest, I always say
You’re beautiful and sick like me
Is it sick of me
To feed the animal in you?
Is it sick to say
I tease the hunter like I do?
Is it sick of me
To watch the wicked way you thrill?
Is it sick to say
I live to break your will
Are you sick like me?
Am I beautiful
As I tear you to pieces?
Am I beautiful?
Even at my ugliest, you always say
I’m beautiful
As you tear me to pieces
You are beautiful
Even at your ugliest, I always say
You’re beautiful and sick like me
Am I beautiful
As I tear you to pieces?
I am beautiful
Even at my ugliest, you always say
I’m beautiful
As I tear you to pieces
Am I beautiful
Even at my ugliest, you always say
You’re beautiful
As I tear you to pieces?
You are beautiful
Even at you ugliest, I always say
You’re beautiful and sick like me

unfinished business

wearing:
hair: #Besom~Gypsy Love
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
ears: ^^Swallow^^ Shiny Ears
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: [theSkinnery] Katy (Catwa Applier) toffee (*new* @ C88)
brows: –SU!- Blair Eyebrows +CATWA APPLIER
(Yummy) Free Spirit Rings (*new* @ C88)

LYBRA . BRIT BLOUSE (*new* @ FaMESHed)
LYBRA . BRIT SKIRT (*new* @ FaMESHed)

pose: M-1 Kara Poses Blogger Pack
DRD – Suicide Booth

Posted in Death Row Designs, Events, Exploration, FaMESHed, Fashion, Maitreya, RAMA, Second Life, shoes, shopping, [BREATHE]

Options

One of the greatest gifts we have is the power of choice. If you ever saw the movie, Dangerous Minds, you probably remember the classroom scene where that topic was discussed. You may not have a choice about the gun pointed at your head, but you can choose how you react/respond. So, when adversity comes your way, you have a choice on how to proceed. There are always options. They might not be options we like. They might not be options you like, but there are always options.
The thing is, when you make you’re forced to make tough decisions where none of the choices are exactly ideal, particularly if you reach out to friends for advice on said options. I think in cases like that, its best to sort it out on your own. Not everything you do requires a second opinion, especially when your dilemma involves doing things that feel right to you, but most certainly will not be understood by others. Occasionally, you just have to do what’s right for you, despite what others may think. So, whatever your quandary may be, think carefully on the outcome of your options before seeking the opinions of others.

options

wearing:
hair: RAMA.SALON – Diana Hair (*new* @ Blush)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: Glam Affair – Mindy

neve top – surge (*new* @ FaMESHed)
neve short – sass (*new* @ FaMESHed)
[BREATHE]-Setsu Heels (April PocketGacha)

pose in DRD – Boho Backyard – Athena Couch
location: Rustic Retreat

Posted in CandyDoll, Catwa, Death Row Designs, Events, Fashion, Home Decor, Jian, N21, RAMA, Second Life, shoes, shopping, Uber SL

Losing It

I remember the first time I saw my mom just lose it. She had spent hours making this cake from scratch, but it tilted so bad and kept sliding, no matter what she tried. Next thing I know she’s screaming and attacks the cakes with her claw like hands and cakes went everywhere. The next time I saw her lose it was when we had borrowed a VW Bug from a friend. It had a stick shift (look it up if you’re too young to know) and she hated them, the clutch would stick, too. It was the first time I heard the F word. *gasps* I think the first time I truly lost it was in high school. It was a really bad hair day and I broke my hair brush. Many times, I’ve felt like throwing all my papers in the air when writing…and once upon a time I did all my writing on paper. *giggles* Most days this is what my brain feels like…someone just threw my life in the air and I’m doing my best to grab it all and make some sense of it.

losing it
The writer stares with glassy eyes —
Defies the empty page,

wearing:
hair: RAMA.SALON – Sonya Hair (*new* @ Shiny Shabby)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: [theSkinnery]  Iris (Catwa Applier) toffee
Cae :: Zora :: Glasses (*new* @ The Clique)
::GB::Off Shoulder Cardigan (F)/ Gray
{le fil casse} Alysha Dress (*new* @ Uber)
_CD_ Deya Wedge (*new* @ N21)

JIAN Marble Fox (Static – Sleeping L)

pose: Bauhaus Movement

scene:
a lot of books from all over the grid
bookcase and fireplace – DRD – Shadow Box – Series 01 – FEB 2018 – LIGHT

 

Posted in Bueno, Catwa, Death Row Designs, E.A.Studio, Events, FaMESHed, Fashion, Foxcity, Home Decor, Second Life, shoes, shopping, Uber SL

Hell to Pay

So, when you have gorgeous friends and you’re a blogger, you tend to want to  show them off. For this post, my friend, Dusty was kind enough to sit pensively on this loveseat while I talked his ear off and shot pictures.  He’s quite the photographer himself, so click his name and check him out. Wishing you all a great weekend. ♥

Bartholomew The Silent Comedy

Oh my god please help me knee deep in the river trying to get clean
He says wash your hands get out the stains
But you best believe boy there’s hell to pay yeah you best believe boy there’s hell to pay
Come on

Oh my God please help me waist deep in the river can you hear my plea
He says son you come like a begger in the streets
You might make it boy but by the skin of your teeth
You might make it boy but by the skin of your teeth, sayin’

I rambled with the worst of them
Fell in love with a harlequin
Saw the darkest hearts of men
And I saw myself staring back again and I saw myself staring back again

Oh my God please help me neck deep in the river screaming for relief!
He says it’s mine to give but it’s yours to choose
You gonna sink or swim you gonna learn the truth no matter what you do your gonna learn the truth saying

Ate the bread that once was stones
Fell from a cliff never broke a bone
Bowed down to get the kings overthrown
Now I’m all alone and the fires grows and I’m all alone and the fires grows

Swing sweet charity take what’s left of me
A new beginning or is this the end
Swing sweet Seraphim take me back again or watch me make the messes of men

Best You Believe
But you best believe, boy, there’s hell to pay.

Ðυѕтч MF’и Wαѕρ is wearing:
hair: VoltHair. Bruno Hair
hair: CATWA HEAD Daniel
body: [Signature] Gianni – Body
.:E.A.Studio:. Ears Dragon Knight
[ kunst ] – Stern necklace
Legal Insanity  – Owen skinny jeans (*new* @ FaMESHed)
*X*plosion Smasher Boots

pose: Foxcity. Mens – Solitude Pack

scene:
BUENO-Mulder Loft Building-Regular (*new* @ Uber)
BUENO-LoveHateLove Seat-Red Velvet (*new* @ ROMP)
DRD – Series 01 – Fireplace – Light (Feb Shadow Box)
DRD – Series 01 – Smoking Table – Light (Feb Shadow Box)

Posted in Apple Fall, Bueno, Death Row Designs, Events, Fancy Decor, Home Decor, Jian, Kustom9, Second Life, Shiny Shabby, shopping, Uber SL, unKindness

City Lights

Sometimes a song just embodies a feeling, but combine it with just one picture and both come together to create something amazing. That’s really what I hoped to do here.

Palastic – City Lights

City lights, the urban landscape,
Stands before our eyes.
City lights, our lives are caught up,
In these neon lights

Oh, so very frightened the park will seem.
Yet, we do our best to cherish one another,
City lights, although I love you,
Sometimes hate with doubt.

Oh, so very frightened to be alone,
Yet we do our best to keep a civil distance
City lights, although I love you,
Sometimes hate with doubt.

I cannot solve the mystery
Of what is fake and what is real,
I cannot solve the mystery,
Of who we are and who we’ll be!

City lights, the urban landscape,

Stands before our eyes.
City lights, our lives are caught up,
In these neon lights

Oh, so very frightened the park will seem.
Yet, we do our best to cherish one another,
City lights, I’ll always hate you,
‘Till the end of time.

I’m pretending to,
Be surprised at you lying.
You pretend not to,
See the passion inside.

We are trying to,
Understand everything.
You’ve decided to,
Let the light of me in.

We are trying to,
Understand everything.
You’ve decided to,
Let the light of me in.

Hustle

Outside:
BUENO-Mulder Loft Building-Gray (*new* @ Uber)
DRD – Spiritualists Shoppe – Storefront

scene designed in: BUENO-Mulder Loft Building-Regular (*new* @ Uber)
BUENO-Deco Bag

Fancy Decor: Fulton Collection (*new* @ Uber)
-Fancy Decor: Capsule Book Stack
-Fancy Decor: Fulton Chandelier
-Fancy Decor: Merlot Wine Glass
-Fancy Decor: Buble Lamp (solid)
-Fancy Decor: Clipped Art
-Fancy Decor: Fulton Armchair
-Fancy Decor: Fulton Coffee Table
-Fancy Decor: Fulton Rug
-Fancy Decor: Fulton Side Table
-Fancy Decor: Fulton Sofa (white cotton)
-Fancy Decor: Merlot Wine Glass

Fancy Decor: Dover Collection
-01 Fancy Decor: Designer Computer RARE
-02 Fancy Decor: Dover Desk Chair RARE
-03 Fancy Decor: Dover Desk
-05 Fancy Decor: Dover Shelf
-14 Fancy Decor: Books and Trinkets

uK – Chic Wall Clock (Metal)
uK- Canvas Hope Footstool
Ariskea & Unkindness [Solace] Candle 4
Ariskea & Unkindness [Solace] Romarin Plant
Ariskea[Hustler] Babybreath Pot
Ariskea[Hustler] Gold Flower
Ariskea[Hustler] Hustle Word

tres blah– Eclectic Collection – Cat Face Pillow
-tres blah- Eclectic Collection – Hot Lips Phone (Pink)
-tres blah- Jolie – Golden Hand
-tres blah- Workspace – Tablet
-tres blah- Golden Cage – Coffee Run
-tres blah- Golden Cage – Tablet
-tres blah- Hodgepodge – Agenda RARE
-tres blah- Hodgepodge – Paper Pile
-tres blah- Pampered – Bouquet
-tres blah- Pampered – Treat Yourself
-tb- Bon Voyage – Vintage Camera
-tb- Bon Voyage – Books

dust bunny . areca palm plant
dust bunny . fiddle leaf tree
dust bunny . pilea peper plant
dust bunny . pink medinilla plant
dust bunny . potted bromeliad
dust bunny . potted cheese plant
dust bunny . potted palm
dust bunny . potted rubber tree
dust bunny . spotted begonia
dust bunny . sunday newspaper

JIAN ‘dorable Danes 3. Adult Wanderer RARE

[Black Bantam] Busy Westie On Fours Rez (*new* @ Kustom9)

(fd) Cat – 02 Sleeping Curled
(fd) Cat – 03 Sitting Lazy
(fd) Cat – 11 Sitting

Peaches ‘N Cream – ‘Emotional Baggage’ Handbag Clutter (*new* @ Epiphany)

!gO! Be mine – Liv & Lou RARE (*new* @ Shiny Shabby)

NOMAD // Sepia Peonies 01
NOMAD // Hookah // Fuschia

{Petite Maison} Work Pretty Royal Pencils: Turquoise

:HAIKEI: End of the day Gahca {3}

Sway’s Piggy Bank [Oink] white – C

=Zenith=Little Groot touch/dance only ( REZ)

The Loft – Lotus Holder
The Loft – Yoga Tray

DYNASTY – Antique Abacus – Dark
RARE. DYNASTY – Calligraphy Corner – Backdrop

{-MK-} My bottle_Close cat(wear/2Li)

*HEXtraordinary* Flying Monkey Incense Burner – Silver

Second Spaces – Cluttered House – charging station

[Bad Unicorn x Birch] Mary Janes ‘Ashtray’
[Bad Unicorn x Birch] Mary Janes ‘Noel’s Cookies’

.10 [ kunst ] – Magazines

Granola. Waverly’s Incense.

Apt B // Raw Materials Gacha – Plate Sculpture

tarte. flask (mustache) RARE

Pewpew! Balloon Hotdog – Black (Decor) (*new* @ Uber)

Apple Fall Plan Chest

Posted in Death Row Designs, Home Decor, Second Life, shopping

Shadow Box – Kitchen

Any of my regular readers and friends know how much I love Death Row Designs and with all the subscription boxes out there, they decided to do one of their own. The biggest difference is that all the items are made by DRD. That’s one sure fire way to know you are going to get some quality items. Not only that, but each box is a room. This month, its a kitchen. Oh, did I forget to mention that there’s a dark version and a light version each month, too? I’m showing you the light version here along with some other goodies I’ve gathered from DRD along the way. For more accurate information, please visit their website: Shadow Box | Death Row Designs

shadow box kitchen

DRD – Shadow Box – Series 01 – JAN 2018 – LIGHT
-DRD – Series 01 – Kitchen Tea Shelf – Light
-DRD – Series 01 – Kitchen Table – Light
-DRD – Series 01 – Kitchen Stove – Light
-DRD – Series 01 – Kitchen Sink – Light
-DRD – Series 01 – Kitchen Pantry – Light
-DRD – Series 01 – Kitchen Cupboard – Light
-DRD – Series 01 – Kitchen Counter – Light

DRD – Spiritualists Shoppe – Square Carpet
DRD – Spiritualists Shoppe – Coveting Keys and Locks

DRD – Boho Backyard – Wine Rack

DRD – RK – Free Bonus – Cracker and Cheese Board
DRD – RK – Free Bonus – Bag of Groceries
DRD – RK – Counter Clutter – One
DRD – RK – Counter Clutter – Three

Posted in Animals, Death Row Designs, Fashion, Home Decor, Narcisse, Prism Events, Second Life, shopping, Tannenbaum, The Liaison Collaborative

Rx (Medicate)

Theory of a Deadman – Rx (Medicate)

Wake up to a cloudy day
Dark rolls in and it starts to rain
Staring out to the cage-like walls
Time goes by and the shadows crawl
Crushin’ candy crushin’ pills
Got no job, mom pays my bills
Textin’ ex’s get my fill
Sweatin’ bullets, Netflix-chills
World’s out there singin’ the blues
Twenty more dead on the evening news
Think to myself “really, what’s the use?”
I’m just like you, I was born to lose

Why oh why can’t you just fix me?
When all I want’s to feel numb
But the medication’s all gone
Why oh why does God hate me?
When all I want’s to get high
And forget this so-called life

I am so frickin’ bored
Nothin’ to do today
I guess I’ll sit around and medicate (medicate)
I am so frickin’ bored
Nothing to do today
I guess I’ll sit around and medicate (medicate)

Can’t wait to feel better than I ever will
Attack that shit like a kid on Benadryl
Chase it down with a hopeful smile
Hate myself, if I can go for miles
They say family’s all you need
Someone to trust can help you breathe
Inhale that drug, but you start to choke
You follow the outs of an inside joke

Why oh why can’t you just fix me?
When all I want’s to feel numb
But the medication’s all gone
Why oh why does God hate me?
Cause I’ve seen enough of it, heard enough of it, felt enough of it
Had enough of it!

I am so frickin’ bored
Nothing to do today
I guess I’ll sit around and medicate (medicate)
I am so frickin’ bored
Nothing to do today
I guess I’ll sit around and medicate

Medicate
Medicate
Medicate
Medicate

Superman is a hero
But only when his mind is clear though
He needs that fix like the rest of us
So he’s got no fear when he saves that bus
All the stars in the Hollywood Hills
Snapchat live while they pop them pills
All those flavors of the rainbow
Too bad that shit don’t work though

Your friends are high right now
Your parents are high right now
That hot chick’s high right now
That cop is high right now
The president’s high right now
Your priest is high right now
Everyone’s high as fuck right now
And no one’s ever coming down

I am so frickin’ bored
Nothing to do today
I guess I’ll sit around and medicate (medicate)
I am so frickin’ bored
Nothing to do today
I guess I’ll sit around and medicate

Medicate
Medicate
Medicate
Medicate

I medicate

Rx

wearing:
hair: =DeLa*= Mesh Hair “Khatia”
head: CATWA HEAD Lilly
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
NARCISSE– Noelle Romper (*new* @ TLC)
erratic / eva – knee socks plain

pose: Foxcity Cute But Psycho set

Scene:
DRD– My Miserable Holiday Set (*new* @ Tannenbaum)
–DRD – My Miserable Holiday – Carpet
–DRD – My Miserable Holiday – Chair
–DRD – My Miserable Holiday – Table
–DRD – My Miserable Holiday – Tree
–DRD – My Miserable Holiday – Wood Basket
–DRD – My Miserable Holiday – Wood Stove

DRD – AE – Post Apocalyptic Holiday – Tree
DRD – Forgotten Attic – Chair – Stripe

dust bunny & O.M.E.N . Puppy Basket Bed

[Commoner] Break-Up Survival Kit / Zanax RARE

[NikotiN] Dealer Kitchen – Tray Metal
[NikotiN] Dealer Kitchen – Consumer Kit
[NikotiN] Grinder

Kalopsia – Lace Curtains

Posted in Death Row Designs, Events, Home Decor, Second Life, shopping, TMD

He Smiled

He was a loner. He kept to himself and lived a minimal life. His only relationship was with the old woman at the Quick Shop on the edge of town, where he bought beer and supplies. He didn’t really celebrate holidays, but every year that sweet old woman would give him a box lovingly wrapped with an ornament attached. Inside the box was always the same, a dozen pair of colorful socks. It was the one time a year he smiled.

thanks for the socks dad

wearing:
hair: Barber Shop / David
head: CATWA HEAD Daniel
body: [SIGNATURE] Gianni – Mesh Body
tattoo: Letis Tattoo :: Sapphire Wolf
[Deadwool] Broberry jeans
..::THOR::.. Beer Bottle (wear) II

pose: FOXCITY. Mens – Solitude Bento Pose Set

scene:
DRD– His Miserable Holiday Set (*new* @ TMD)
DRD – His Miserable Holiday – Armchair
DRD – His Miserable Holiday – Low Table
DRD – His Miserable Holiday – Sad Rug
DRD – His Miserable Holiday – TV Tray

BALACLAVA!! Austen Drawers (Coal)

..::THOR::.. Old Tank Lamp [T]
..::THOR::.. Wood Beer Box [T]
..::THOR::.. Empty Beer [T]
..::THOR::.. Dude Poster 1 [T]
..::THOR::.. Dude Poster 6 [T]
..::THOR::.. Dude Poster 4 [T]
..::THOR::.. Dude Poster 5 [T]

*[Black Bantam] My Old Doggy White

set up in Trompe Loeil – Shotgun Shack Toulouse

Posted in Death Row Designs, Events, Fancy Decor, Jian, Prism Events, Second Life, shopping, Tannenbaum

Just a Quote

“And when at last you find someone to whom you feel you can pour out your soul, you stop in shock at the words you utter— they are so rusty, so ugly, so meaningless and feeble from being kept in the small cramped dark inside you so long.”
― Sylvia PlathThe Unabridged Journals of Sylvia Plath

shadow box dec

DRD Shadow Box Dec
DRD – Shadow Box – Series 01 – DEC 2017 – LIGHT
DRD – Series 01 – Canopy Bed – Light
DRD – Series 01 – Chandelier – Light
DRD – Series 01 – Chest – Light
DRD – Series 01 – Drapes – Light
DRD – Series 01 – Side Table A – Light
DRD – Series 01 – Side Table B – Light
DRD – Series 01 – Wing Chair Amber – Light
DRD – Series 01 – Wing Chair Ecru – Light

MudHoney Larson Fireplace Set (*new* @ Tannenbaum)
MudHoney Larson Fireplace – White
MudHoney Larson Paper Stars – long
MudHoney Larson Wreath

Winter Dreams Globe – Happy Holidays – From O.M.E.N (Tannenbaum)
O.M.E.N – Christmas Morning – Reindeer Plushie – Plain (*new* @ Tannenbaum)

SAYO – Glitz Collection (*new* @ Tannenbaum)
SAYO – Glitz Collection – Leaf Candle
SAYO – Glitz Collection – Garden Roses
SAYO – Glitz Collection – Sparkling Star – Rose Gold

dust bunny . pilea peper plant
dust bunny . areca palm plant
dust bunny . pink medinilla plant
dust bunny . potted palm

Cant’ Even – Winterscape (Gold) (*new* @ Tannenbaum)
Can’t Even – Jolly AF (*new* @ Tannenbaum)

Dahlia – Seasonal Candy Set- Round Gumball Jar (*new* @ Tannenbaum)

PILOT – Hanging Planter [White]
PILOT – Book and Tablet Stack
PILOT – Package Wrap

JIAN Santa’s Samoyeds True Spirit of Christmas Tree **25PR** (Arcade)

10 Fancy Decor: Miles Rug (*new* @ Arcade)
Fancy Decor: Twig Tree (gold) (Tannenbaum)

R(S)W Fruit Bowl – Christmas Tree (Tannenbaum)

Culprit Mousie Balloon Music Box (*new* @ Tannenbaum)

floorplan. i love you canvas
floorplan. notebook clutter
floorplan. pile of books

scene created in Trompe Loeil – Dorina Cottage Blush