Don’t Leave

“There’s nothing wrong with a little space
But not right now, don’t leave
There’s nothing wrong with a little time, a little space
For the memories, for the good things
Turn around now, turn around
Don’t leave me now”
~ The Paper Kites – Don’t Keep Driving

lost in thought

wearing:
hair: #Foxy – Cuddle Hair (*new* @ Kustom9)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
eyes: –SU!- Astrid Eyes
body: –Belleza– Freya
skin: [theSkinnery] Emmy (*new* @ C88)

Rebel Gal – Cuddle Hoodie (*new* @ Kustom9)
[Cynful] A Girl’s Thing Jeggings Set (*new* @ FaMESHed)

pose was in a bench at Achill Island

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She Knew

She sneered as descended the stairs and saw him whispering into his phone. She knew he was whispering to his whore, scolding her for calling him when she knew damn well he was at home. She wanted to rip the phone from his hands and scream at both of them. The truth of the matter was, she didn’t care that he had found someone else to accept his pathetic three minutes of sweaty grunting. She was disgusted by his cowardice and her disrespect. She had done her homework and knew exactly who he was fucking. She knew that his whore was betraying her partner as well. She relished the idea that the one of them would deliver the karma due to both of them.
As he hung up the phone and turned to see her coming down the stairs, he stared at her like a deer in the headlights. She smiled knowingly at him and asked the question that she knew would make him squirm, “Who was on the phone, Darling?”

Scowl

wearing:
hair:  Sintiklia – Hair Gigi (*new* @ Collabor88)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skin: [theSkinnery] Paola

EF: Sequoia Necklace – Medium
[Aleutia] Naomi Set (*new* @ Equal10)
fri. – Cozy.Socks
REIGN.- FRINGED BOOTIES (*new* @ Collabor88)

pose: FOXCITY. Stairs (Standing) Bento Pose Set
in (Milk Motion) elegant penthouse

***If you are reading this on any site that suggests this post was originally published anywhere but SadyStyle by anyone other than Sadystika Sabretooth, you are reading a stolen post.

 

Find the light

This entire song has been one of those songs that I’ve related closely to from the very first time I heard it. There’s a weird sense of comfort in surrendering myself to the pain accompanied by lyrics. I didn’t list all of the lyrics, just the first punch. This is one of those songs that just…well…give it a listen sometime and if you really hate the melody, maybe just google the lyrics and read them over. *shrugs* Do what you want, I know I do. *forces a smile*
“Yesterday was the tornado warning, today is like the morning after
Your world is torn in half, you wake and let’s wait to start the morning process
Rebuilding and you’re still a work in progress
Today is a whole new chapter, it’s like an enormous ass
The thunderstorm has passed ya
Your weather didn’t poke his eyes out with the thorn bush that you
Used to smell the roses, stopped to inhale can’t even tell your nose is stuffed
So focused on the brightside, then you floor the gas pedal
And hit the corner fast, the more asserted
Never looking back, may hit the curb
But everyday is a new learning curve, as you, steer through life
Sometimes you might not wanna swerve
But you have to to avert a disaster, lucky, no permanent damage
Cause they hurt you so bad, it’s like they murdered your ass
And threw dirt on your casket, but you returned from the ashes
And that hurt that you have, you just converted to gasoline
And while you’re burning the past, standing at inferno and chant
I’m standing in the flames
It’s a beautiful kind of pain
Setting fire to yesterday
Find the light, find the light, find the light”

another day

wearing:
hair:  Lamb. Bliss (*new* @ C88)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skin: [theSkinnery] Paola

(Yummy) Auspicious Necklace (*new* @ Uber)
^^Swallow^^ Princess Bento Rings

Blueberry Aria – Button Up Top
Blueberry – Tinker Set – Long Legwarmers

crate Porch Rocker ~ Yellow (*new* @ The Liaison Collaborative)
crate Porch Rocker ~ Decor (*new* @ The Liaison Collaborative)
***pose used is in the chair***

I Don’t Exist

I know I said I’d try not to do the lyrics thing and I’ve done well not to, but I’m dealing with some stuff in the real world right now that I’m not sure I even want to write about or share with the general public…so, the lyrics will speak for me today.

Olivia O’Brien – I Don’t Exist

I’ve been doomed from the start
Everything around me falls apart
So quickly always end up with a broken heart
Even Tylenol can’t fix me
Unless it’s mixed with whiskey

I ain’t even sad, I’m just bored
Nothing can excite me anymore like you used to
Hollywood has lost all its allure
Used to be so pretty
Now it’s just a city

All of these people and all of their friends
Look so good together and I don’t fit in
‘Cause they’re picture perfect
And I’m on the end
Crop me out the photo so they can pretend
Like I don’t exist
Like I don’t exist
Don’t exist
Like I don’t exist (no)
Like I don’t exist
No

When I feel good it never lasts
That’s why you can find me living in a past if you need me
Everybody says this shit will pass
I say it won’t, they don’t believe me
Just tell me to deep breathe

Falling apart
Don’t know what to do, what to do
Looking for someone to save me, I don’t know who
I don’t know who

All of these people and all of their friends
Look so good together and I don’t fit in
‘Cause they’re picture perfect
And I’m on the end
Crop me out the photo so they can pretend
Like I don’t exist
Like I don’t exist
Don’t exist
Like I don’t exist (no)
Like I don’t exist
No

Am I even real?
Am I even real?
Am I even real?
Am I even real?
Am I even real?
Am I even real?
It’s hard to tell when I can’t feel a fucking thing

All of these people and all of their friends
Look so good together and I don’t fit in
‘Cause they’re picture perfect
And I’m on the end
Crop me out the photo so they can pretend
Like I don’t exist (no)
Like I don’t exist
Don’t exist
Like I don’t exist (no)
Like I don’t exist
No

Am I even real?

I don't exist

wearing:
hair: Stealthic – Ivy (*new* @ Kustom9)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skin: [theSkinnery] Amber

^^Swallow^^ Princess Ears
^^Swallow^^ Princess Bento Rings
SU!– Basic Scarf
!APHORISM! Thyme Winter Sweater (*new* @ FaMESHed)
[Cynful] Groovy Tweed Pants (*new* @ C88)

pose: FOXCITY. Power Bento Pose Set
[Bad Unicorn] Budget Bachelor Backdrop – The Arcade Gacha Prize

 

***If you are reading this on any site that suggests this post was originally published anywhere but SadyStyle by anyone other than Sadystika Sabretooth, you are reading a stolen post.

RATS!

Some days I think I’d be better off hanging out with rats than most of the men I meet. I realize I’m no spring chicken in her 20s or even 30s, but the caliber of male personalities in Second Life is severely lacking. It’s no damn wonder women have thrown in the good girl towel and started going for what they need, rather than what they want. Men have been doing it for centuries, but let a woman go seek some self-gratification with a stranger and she gets herself a reputation. To hell with that, these days even the one night stand is likely to disappoint.
I’d love to see some of the men in SL put a bit more effort into courting a woman. Then again, why should they? If they wait long enough, they’ll be surrounded by thirsty sluts, hungry whores, and desperate housewives begging for it. See? I just did it myself, labeled batches of women with bad names. To hell with that! I say if you’re thirsty, get you a drink! If you’re hungry, grab a meal! If you’re desperate…uhm, yeah, maybe see a therapist? I don’t think that’s a healthy attitude to have when making decisions about sex. In the meantime, learn to take care of your own needs. We all know how. We’ve all done it and there’s certainly no harm in that…unless you nasty. So, don’t be nasty.
Yes, I am rambling, just letting my mind go where it wants. I have been up all night and I’ve thought about what to write and this is where I landed. There’s some super cute stuff out there, right now….so go shopping! I’m wishing you all a day filled with love & laughter. ♥

Rats!
When I used to go out I’d know everyone I saw
Now I go out alone if I go out at all

wearing:
hair:  Wasabi // Grier Mesh Hair (GO by FaMESHed)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skin: [theSkinnery] Amber (*new* @ C88)

Dahlia – Virgin Mary Necklace (*new* @ Uber)
Dahlia – Haze – Earrings (*new* @ Uber)

Legal Insanity – Zara top (*new* @ Dubai)
Blueberry – Frank Jeans – Full Length
[ae] Straight Jacket Shoes

JIAN Rascal Rats 1. Shoulder Companion (*new* @ Epiphany)
JIAN Rascal Rats 4. White Companion (*new* @ Epiphany)

pose: SSP – Corner Time (*new* @ Pose Fair)

A Life On Display

These days, its really easy to compare our lives to the lives of others, especially when so many people are constantly making their private lives public. With all these social media friends posting the best bits of their lives, its really easy to slip into a  state of depression. What’s important to remember is that we’re only seeing the highlight reel of those lives. We’re not being shown the 99% of life that isn’t beautiful and wonderful. Often times, what we’re being shown isn’t even real. Those happy family photos? Behind the scenes the kids hate their parents or the happy couple fights. Perhaps one of them is even cheating.
I remember several years ago catching up with a girl from high school on my RL Facebook. Her life looked so amazing. Her photos and descriptions on Facebook made her family look amazing. Two great kids and an adoring husband. The more we hung out the more truths that came out. She was a closet alcoholic having an affair with her ex-boyfriend online at night after her husband and children went to bed. One of her kids was special needs and really difficult to deal with. Her house was a complete mess. To be honest, her whole life was a mess. This was not at all what she portrayed with the photos and stories she presented on social media.
It turned out that she was nothing like the person she had presented herself to be and I couldn’t be around her, knowing that she was lying to the whole world. Honestly, it was the alcoholism and cheating on her husband that I couldn’t condone. I quickly distanced myself from her and started taking a closer look at what people presented on social media. What I learned from all of this is that we simply cannot compare our actual lives with the highlight reels of people we hardly know. It’s dangerous to our psyches and its not realistic.
With our lives on display, we all have a responsibility to be more honest with one another. With that I wish you all much love & laughter. ♥

on display

wearing:
hair:  MINA – Kim (*new* @ X by FaMESHed)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skin: [theSkinnery] Amber (*new* @ C88)
Wicca’s Wardrobe – Kaenis Lingerie (*new* @ RLD)

scene:
Dahlia – Solitary Confinement Cloche – Gold (*new* @ X by FaMESHed)
***pose used is in the Cloche

E.V.E Dystopia Flowers-Eye Ghost
E.V.E Dystopia Flowers-Eye
E.V.E KOI (MOD) Square Confetti Ring

Hold It

Have you ever wondered why so many men hold their hands in front of their genitals? Some even go so far as to cup them….right in public, like it’s nothing. You don’t see women going about with their hands on their tits or snatch. So, what is it with men? Why do they feel the need to hold it? Are they afraid its going to fall off? Are they protecting it from some invisible force that’s going to injure them? Did Michael Jackson make it look so cool that they all want to squeeze their bits so they can sing those high notes? Surely not, that sounds terribly painful.
It’s rarely professional looking types in suits either. It’s usually those in baggy pants. Perhaps they’re wearing boxers or not wearing underwear at all and miss the support that briefs provide. Perhaps they never graduated from the phallic stage of their lives. Maybe they just like the way it feels in their hands. I don’t know, but I sure find it peculiar. I’d love to hear other theories and if any men are reading this, perhaps you can enlighten me…why do you hold it?

legal insanity

wearing:
hair:  #Foxy – Milena Hair
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skin: [theSkinnery] Amber (*new* @ C88)

[Cynful] Chilli Bra
Legal Insanity – Kia joggers (*new* @ Kustom9)
[VALE KOER] RADIANT TRAINERS

pose: FOXCITY. Sass Bento Pose Set
location: Dirty Secret

Finally!

Finally, someone developed a hairstyle to conceal my horns! *giggles* These cubes from E.V.E remind me of one of those word search things I see on Facebook all the time. “Oh the first three words are what you can expect next year!” Well, the last one of those I did said love, marriage, and health. I laughed so hard.  Yes, I know love will always be part of my life, because I have a heart with which I love very deeply, too deeply. Marriage? NO, let’s pray a divorce is on the horizon though. Since the bastard left me essentially penniless to run off with a 20yr old skank. Yes, she is a skank, remind me to tell that story someday. It’s a doozy! And finally, the prediction was health? I’m going to assume they meant poor health, considering that at best there are treatments for my fybromyalgia and PKD, however, there are no known cures.
Let’s not ruin all the fun, let’s take a look at the cube. First word I see is battlefield and I’ll agree to that. I like violent films and shows, plus I play Guild Wars 2 with one of my best friends. So, yes, a battlefield is very likely. Next word…hate. Ohh, that’s a strong word. I don’t really have the energy to fuel hate. I’m more of a person that turns completely ambivalent. I just won’t acknowledge someone’s existence or care that they exist. In Second Life, its even better, because I can mute and derender people. That’s nice. Alright, third word I notice is Heaven. Well, I’m an atheist so I can only imagine that means, I’m going to be proven wrong and all of you do gooders are in for a big surprise when you show up OR (and this is more likely) someone is going to make me feel soo good that it will feel heavenly. These cubes are a group gift, so if you like them, you can grab a set for yourself, absolutely free.

sady devil
“So what would an angel say
The devil wants to know”
~ Fiona Apple – Criminal

wearing:
hair:  #Foxy – Fallen Hair (*new* @ Salem)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skin: [theSkinnery] Amber (*new* @ C88)

Dead Dollz – Morrigan Set 2.0 (*new* @ FaMESHed)
_CandyDoll_ Demona Boots

pose: FOXCITY. Cozy Bento Pose Set (*new* @ Uber)

[Dollmart]Empress Chair
E.V.E {Team} Love is a Battlefield Cubes GROUP GIFT

Cold as November

“Oh I say you’re as cold as November
You left when I was crying
And I was crying every time you left
Oh but ain’t it kind of funny how you weren’t laughing when I left
So who’s the real king of pain?”
~ Devil Doll – Queen of Pain

I had to have some fun with this look. I just love the fun, versatility of this dress. Accessories and shoes will determine how it is interpreted. Standing in the abandoned warehouse backdrop…well, I had to do something a little twisted. Afterall, these poses were named after me.

queen of pain

wearing:
hair:   Doe: Bones – Monotone (*new* @ C88)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skin: [theSkinnery] Amber (*new* @ C88)
LYBRA . LANA (*new* @ TLC)
=Zenith=Victoria lace gloves
: CULT : Dark Side Rings

GingerFish Poses – Sadystika set (*new* @ Pose Fair)
Salacity – Abandoned Warehouse Photo Background (*new* @ Pose Fair)

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