Free

When doing this photo, I couldn’t help but thing of this particular song. While I know I’ve done another music post recently, sometimes that’s just what I’m feeling for the photo. So, here’s another one…YouTube link and lyrics provided, of course. ♥

Broods – Free

I’d lose everything so I can sing
Hallelujah, I’m free
I’m free, I’m free
I’m free, I’m free

I have lived my life so perfectly
Kept to all my lines so carefully
I’d lose everything so I can sing
Hallelujah, I’m free
I’m free, I’m free
I’m free, I’m free
Hallelujah, I’m free

Gritting your teeth, you hold onto me
It’s never enough, I’m never complete
Tell me to prove, expect me to lose
I push it away, I’m trying to move
Hoping for more, and wishing for less
When I didn’t care was when I did best
I’m desperate to run, I’m desperate to leave
If I lose it all, at least I’ll be free

All I want is your attention please
Don’t want your opinion or your fee
Cause the freest I have ever been
I had nothing to show or be seen
I’m free, I’m free
I’m free, I’m free

Gritting your teeth, you hold onto me
It’s never enough, I’m never complete
Tell me to prove, expect me to lose
I push it away, I’m trying to move
Hoping for more, and wishing for less
When I didn’t care was when I did best
I’m desperate to run, I’m desperate to leave
If I lose it all, at least I’ll be free
Gritting your teeth, you hold onto me
It’s never enough, I’m never complete
Tell me to prove, expect me to lose
I push it away, I’m trying to move
Hoping for more, and wishing for less
When I didn’t care was when I did best
I’m desperate to run, I’m desperate to leave
If I lose it all, at least I’ll be free

It’s clear you think that I’m inferior
Whatever helps you sleep at night
Whatever helps you keep it tight
It’s clear you think that I’m inferior
Whatever helps you sleep at night
Whatever helps you keep it tight

Gritting your teeth, you hold onto me
It’s never enough, I’m never complete
Tell me to prove, expect me to lose
I push it away, I’m trying to move
Hoping for more, and wishing for less
When I didn’t care was when I did best
I’m desperate to run, I’m desperate to leave
If I lose it all, at least I’ll be free
Gritting your teeth, you hold onto me
It’s never enough, I’m never complete
Tell me to prove, expect me to lose
I push it away, I’m trying to move
Hoping for more, and wishing for less
When I didn’t care was when I did best
I’m desperate to run, I’m desperate to leave
If I lose it all, at least I’ll be free

Hallelujah, I’m free

white beast

wearing:
hair:  [RA] Mei Hair – Fatpack (*new* @ Candy Fair)
head: CATWA HEAD Tala
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
mask: [CX] Mara’s Bind (*new* @ K9)
NARCISSE– Raven Silk Dress (*new* @ ULTRA)

pose by Bauhaus Movement
[ isuka ] destiny backdrop

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I Do What I Want

So, I had two other posts planned to go ahead of this one, but those damn blogger cunt friends of mine, Grace and Kess, both had similar ideas and outfits. Its not that surprising, really. As we’ve been known to show up at the same places wearing the same outfits, much like Kess and I did today. I refuse to retake my photos or not share the ones I took, because I work hard on what I do, just like they do. However, I am going to wait a few days and if people want to think me a copycat, well, that’s ok, but the three of us all know how we are and its certainly got us in giggles. I love them and sometimes I swear we share a brain! So, I told them I was posting this picture today and showcasing the newest sensation from ChicModa…luckily, Grace is going with the gray version, so make sure you check out her blog, too! As I was going to write about doing what I want anyway, I think its pretty clear that we all do what we want!

do what I want

wearing: 
hair
[monso] My Hair – Kisa
headCATWA HEAD Kathy
skin: Glam Affair – Molly – Catwa Mesh Head Applier – America (*new* @ Arcade)
bodyMaitreya Mesh Body – Lara
tattoo-7P-Paradise Tattoo
ChicModa // Eleanor Dress // BishBox June 2017
[CX] Soul Grips ( Black ) Female * Maitreya * (unpacked)
SU!– Nylon Stockings /Ripped/ BLACK

pose: GingerFish Poses – Smoked set
background: MINIMAL – Underground Background -1

Devil in Me

“I don’t wanna wake it up
I don’t wanna wake it up
I don’t wanna wake it up
The devil in me”
Halsey- Devil in Me

Have you ever met someone that just brings out the worst in you? They might not have done anything to you, but for some reason there’s just this instant dislike of them? It happens to me from time to time and I’m hoping I’m not the only one. Maybe I’m just the only one willing to admit it. Surely not. When I do meet people like that, I try to be polite and just keep my distance. So, its not really a problem.
Then there’s those people that just run around doing all kinds of dirt to other people. They haven’t done anything to me, that I know of, but I’m not trying to get close to people like that either, but then they go and do something really nasty to someone you love. *sighs* Its really hard to keep my mouth shut in situations like that. I know I should trust the person who has been offended to take care of themselves and most of the time I do. However, in case I never mentioned it before…I happen to be human and with that comes some faults. I know, I know, you thought I was perfect. *laughs* Let me tell you now…there are times when its all I can do to keep myself in check. I’m not talking about threatening someone online. I’m talking about just reading a bitch like a book. Front to back, side to side, up and down…and I’ve been told on a few occasions my words can cut deeper than any knife. Having lost more than one friend in the past to my apparently razor sharp words I really don’t wanna wake up the devil in me.

releasing the demon

wearing: 
hair
.Shi x Messiah : Hair / Unisex . Common 2
headCATWA HEAD Kathy
eyes: CATWA Mesh Eyes Pack w/:Conviction: Viscous Eyes [HUD]
eyeshadow-SU!– Somber Eyeshadow +CATWA APPLIER+
lipstick: -SU!- The Matte Lip Essentials //Catwa BENTO//
skin: Glam Affair – Molly – Catwa Mesh Head Applier – Artic (*new* @ Arcade)
bodyMaitreya Mesh Body – Lara
tattoo.::Nanika::. Gaia tattoo Black (*new* @ Tres Chic)
piercing.:E.A.Eclipse:.  Nerfertiti Piercing Mouth

Phedora ~ Edwin body harness (*new* @ Somber)
S&P Like A Prayer – clamps black
[CX] Piton Pumps – Black ( Maitreya )

pose by Del May

These Chains

“Even in these chains, you can’t stop me.
Even in these chains, you can’t stop me!”
In This Moment Big Bad Wolf

The song I quoted above is one of my all time favorite songs and the moment I heard it I recognized the struggle with myself in the lyrics. I often find myself wrapped in the chains of circumstances. Too many times those chains of my own. The fight that goes on in my head with myself is a constant one. Perhaps the voice inside me that belittles me at every turn, the one that abuses me mentally and emotionally, the one that urges me towards death and poor choices…perhaps that’s the part of me that was trained to believe I was nothing but entertainment by my father. Perhaps not. Its quite possible that we all have an inner voice that criticizes our every move. That voice of doubt…of worthlessness…our own worst critic….maybe we all have that voice.
I can’t know how loud other people’s ugly little voices yell or scream, but I know that mine can be deafening. However, I can yell back at them just as loud…at times. The last year and a half have lent so much strength to that hateful voice that I’ve had to lean on friends and medications to keep my head afloat. I teetered on a very fine line between life and death, but now? Now, I am fighting back. I’m standing up and I’m breaking those chains, because I will not be my worst enemy anymore. To that awful voice inside my head, I scream, “Even in these chains, you can’t stop me!”

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hairTableau Vivant \\ Summer Hairplay – Coromuel (*new* @ Arcade)
headCATWA HEAD Kathy
bodyMaitreya Mesh Body – Lara

[CX] Qilin Horns (Silver)
**RE** Cora Arms Harness 1.2
E.V.E Shroud of Chains {Black} Cape
Phedora Belladona ~ Amoret addon Maitreya nyx (*new* @ Arcade)
Phedora Belladona ~ Amoret Maitreya nyx (*new* @ Arcade)
{Luxuria} Baby Girl Stockings (FLF 6/9/17)
Phedora Belladona ~ Edith platforms Maitreya Nyx (*new* @ Arcade)

background made using a spiked box from The Weekend Ruiner
and uK – Mystic Dew Drops Ani Silver

pose created with AnyPose

Apex Predator

Okay, so its been a week of fluffy and I’m quite over it. *laughs* Y’all didn’t expect that madness to last, did you? Good, cuz I’m back and I’m feeling some Otep this morning. Soooo, without further adieu, I give you one of my favorite Otep songs and the lyrics.

She’s pounding on the door
She’s crawling on the floor
Oh, she’s so coy
She’s scratching on the walls
She’s clawing at the gauze
She’s so coy
She’s gnawing on the ropes
She’s pulling at the hooks
She’s so coy
Oh, you know she wants it
The way that she taunts me
Damn, she’s so coy
It’s the Apex Predator
With a sermon for the listener
Seduce & Destroy
Your head upon a stick
Would look really sick
But they would call me crazy
For the way I spoke to it
I’d ask about it’s day
Did it miss me while I was away?
Tight lipped from the stitches
It wouldn’t have much to say
The rest would be kept in a
Tight little dress
Propped up in the corner
A perfect little pet
Locked in a box
So I can keep stock
A trophy to show me
That all is not lost
The writing on the wall
A psalm

apex predator

wearing:
head: CATWA HEAD Kathy
bodyMaitreya Mesh Body – Lara
tattoo: RedFish – Scafan tattoo
[CX] Lance Piercing (Bento) – Black
::GB::Slave chain necklace(Woman) / Black – Silver
::GB:: Leather short Hoodie(Maireya) / Black
[CX] Luceat Arachne Bra – Obsidian (Maitreya) (*new* @ Epiphany)
[CX] Soul Grips ( Black ) Female * Maitreya *
[VALE KOER] WAIST PANTIES
-SU!- Nylon Stockings /Ripped/ BLACK
[BREATHE]-Kendra Heels

pose by Bauhaus Movement
backdrop: MINIMAL  – Illusion II – *5* (*new* @ Epiphany)

Train Wreck

Thank God its Friday! Oh wait…Friday happens to be the most hectic day of the week for me. Not that I’m complaining, because well…I do love everything that keeps me so busy…well..in SL I do. *grumbles about running errands in the real world* This morning, I feel like I’ve been hit by a train. Despite this big cup of delicious coffee, I really want to crawl back into bed and sleep for another five years…erhm, hours, yeah, that’s what I meant. Is it a hangover? Nah, but I won’t be eating any of my cookie until much much later today…maybe I’ll have some right before I start hosting at Blithe today. Kess will surely love having stoner Sady as her host, right? *giggles* Well, there ya have it…wanna see me stoned and live in SL…bring your tail on down to Blithe today from 1-3pm slt!

TrainWreck

wearing:
hair:  .Shi x Messiah : Hair (*new* @ Epiphany)
head: CATWA HEAD Kathy
bodyMaitreya Mesh Body – Lara
tattoo: RedFish – Deer tattoo (*new* @ Suicide Dollz)

Astralia – Beast claws (Female) (*new* @Kustom9)
.Shi x Messiah : Breathing Mask / Unisex (*new* @ Epiphany)
[CX] Luceat Arachne Collar – Silver (*new* @ Epiphany)
[CX] Luceat Arachne Bra – Obsidian (Maitreya) (*new* @ Epiphany)
[CX] Luceat Arachne Top – Silver (Maitreya) (*new* @ Epiphany)
[CX] Luceat Arachne Gloves – Black (Maitreya) (*new* @ Epiphany)
[CX] Luceat Arachne Shorts – Silver Rare (Maitreya) (*new* @ Epiphany)
[CX] Luceat Arachne Sock – Silver Rare (Maitreya) (*new* @ Epiphany)
[CX] Piton Pumps – Black (Maitreya + Sliver)

pose by Bauhaus Movement

scene:
MINIMAL – Illusion II – *2* (*new* @ Epiphany)
Kalopsia – Train/Tank Miniature (Clean Grey)

Killing Strangers

Killing Strangers Marilyn Manson

This world doesn’t need no opera, we’re here for the operation
We don’t need a bigger knife (a bigger knife)
‘Cause we got guns, we got guns, we got guns (we got guns)
We got guns, you better run (ya better run, ya better run, ya better run)
We’re killing strangers, we’re killing strangers
We’re killing strangers, so we don’t kill the ones that we love
We’re killing strangers, we’re killing strangers
We’re killing strangers, so we don’t kill the ones that we love
Love, love, love
killing-strangers4
We pack demolition
We can’t pack emotion
Dynamite, we just might
So blow us a kiss, blow us a kiss
Blow us a kiss, we’ll blow you to pieces
We’re killing strangers, we’re killing strangers
We’re killing strangers, so we don’t kill the ones that we love
Love, love, love
killing-strangers2
And we got guns, we got guns
Motherfuckers better, better better run
We got guns, we got guns
Motherfuckers better run
We got guns, we got guns
Motherfuckers better, better better run
We got guns, we got guns
Motherfuckers better run
We’re killing strangers, we’re killing strangers
We’re killing strangers, so we don’t kill the ones that we love
We’re killing strangers, we’re killing strangers
We’re killing strangers, so we don’t kill the ones that we love
Love, love, love, love, love, love
You better run
We got guns, we got guns, we got guns

killing-strangers1

So, the idea for this photo came to me while I was driving to Pensacola on Friday. Guess what I was listening to on the way down! *laughs* So, I’m not writing a whole lot. I think the lyrics say it all. What I will say is that there are some truly talented creators on the grid and the team at Cynful has got to be the cream of the crop! Everything they release just makes me drool. No matter what your style, they’re bound to have something for you. This Take Note set offered up at Kinky is no exception. While I know this outfit was designed with a naughty secretary in mind, I couldn’t help but think gangster…which is why this song inspired the look I put together here. Look at me, thinking all outside the box and stuff…I think I’ll go ask the boss for a promotion…*laughs*

Happy shopping and how about you kill strangers with kindness instead of guns, yeah? Except Grace, she has foam knives. *nods*

hair.Shi Hair : Octavia / Unisex . LBlonde (*new* @ Uber)
head: CATWA HEAD Catya
eyes: CATWA Mesh Eyes w/-SU!– [CATWA & OMEGA HUD] Xenira Eyes ALL COLORS
eyeshadowIzzie’s – Catwa – Applier Dark Metallic Eyeshadow Hud
ears^^Swallow^^ Ears Elf HD – High Definition
lipstick: -SU!- The Matte Lip Essentials //Catwa BENTO//
bodyMaitreya Mesh Body – Lara
hands: -VA-VISTA BENTO

[CX] Bento Piercing Labret Ring ( Catwa )
[CX] Bento Piercing Snakebites ( Catwa )
-SECRETS- Bianca Rings – Black (*new* @ Crossroads)
Astralia – Rock nails with HUD (Bento) (*new* @ N21)
=Zenith=secret agen gun (Black)
N-core NIKA HANDGUN “Silver”

[Cynful] Take Note Set tie & dress (*new* @ Kinky)
N-core NIKA

poses: Verocity – American Girl Pose Set
scene:
Soy. BKLYNITES LOFT – Old American Flag
BioNiT’s HL1 MP5 V1.86 (no info on creator)
Bauhaus Movement – Cypriss’s Apocalypse Gun
*The Creatures* Belt Gun
[10224] Machine gun Type I (no info on creator)

Chasing Time

Chasing Time
I feel like I’m constantly doing just that. No matter how well I plan, time continues to escape me. It flies when I’m having fun. It drags when I’m stuck somewhere I don’t want to be. Worst of all, there never seems to be enough time for everything I want to do. The ultimate buzz kill is how quickly time truly passes when I’m not paying attention.
My vacation was over much too soon. The drive home felt like an eternity. There was so much I wanted to get done when I got home and today, but the energy and time eluded me. And when I think about how many years I’ve spent in Second Life, well, it just doesn’t seem like 10+ years.
I thought I had my blogging all sorted so I could go to Florida for a few days and not get behind. Murphy’s Law told me otherwise. So, now I’m in a mad rush to meet obligations to friends in SL and get things blogged in an appropriate amount of time. Don’t get me wrong, I love it. I love having a full schedule and being on a deadline does not mean my creativity stops. Actually, I had several ideas for photos while I was out of town and quickly jotted them down…cuz…yeah, my memory isn’t as reliable as my creative mind. *laughs*

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So, you all should get ready, cuz I’m on a roll with blogging and I’ve got soooo many wonderful things to share with you that I simply can’t wait. Don’t be the least bit surprised if you see more than one post in a day.

The two most powerful warriors are patience and time. Leo Tolstoy

hairMoon. Hair //  Anatra (Luxebox Feb.)
head: CATWA HEAD Catya
eyes: CATWA Mesh Eyes w/-SU!– [CATWA & OMEGA HUD] Xenira Eyes ALL COLORS
eyeshadowIzzie’s – Catwa – Applier Dark Metallic Eyeshadow Hud
lipstick: Izzie’s – Catwa – Applier Dark Lip Tint Hud
bodyMaitreya Mesh Body – Lara
hands: -VA-VISTA BENTO

[CX] Bento Piercing Labret Ring ( Catwa )
[CX] Bento Piercing Snakebites ( Catwa )
CODEX_COLLAR AVERY  (*new* @ Kinky)
-SECRETS- Bianca Rings – Black (*new* @ Crossroads)
Astralia – Rock nails with HUD (Bento) UPDATE! V 1.2 (*new* @ N21)

BUENO-Hoody-Fitted- Black (*new* @ Uber)
[Cynful] Coax Bellychain (*new & exclusive* @ Whore Couture)
[VALE KOER] WAIST PANTIES
{Luxuria} Kismet Over The Knee Socks- Maitreya & Slink HUD
fri. – Casey.Plats (Coal) – Maitreya (*new* @ Uber)

poses: Bauhaus Movement
location: Whole Wheat

Country or Southern

Most often when people hear that I’m from Alabama, they assume I’m a country girl. That really couldn’t be further from the truth. I’m an Army brat. We moved a lot, but whenever my father was stationed stateside, he would be at Redstone Arsenal which landed us in one of the most diverse and technologically advanced city in the state, if not THE most. Its got a slight small town feel but with a population of 350,000 people, this area is anything but “country.” That’s not to say we don’t have our fair share of rednecks. Afterall, it IS the South, but I’ve always lived in the city or suburbs. *laughs*

country-girl2

Because of the stereotypes, as a child I was embarrassed and worked very hard to sound as “normal” as possible. Which to be fair, wasn’t too hard, considering by the age of 10, I had spent six year of my life in Germany. (No, I can’t speak German.) As I’ve grown older, I’ve grown to embrace my hometown and the accents that come with it. However, around here I get asked where I’m from, because unless I’m drunk, mad, or super tired…I don’t have much of an accent. *laughs*

country-girl1

So, as usual there’s an abundance of goodies at events going on across the grid, so get on out there and round em up, cuz there’s simply no excuse not to be on point at all times. Happy Shopping!♥

hairExile:: First Dance Naturals (*new* @ C88)
head: CATWA HEAD Catya
eyes: CATWA Mesh Eyes w/-SU!– [CATWA & OMEGA HUD] Xenira Eyes ALL COLORS
ears.:E.A:.Studio Ears Falling Star (*new* @ Tres Chic)
bodyMaitreya Mesh Body – Lara
hands: -VA-VISTA BENTO

[CX] Bento Piercing Labret Ring ( Catwa )
[CX] Bento Piercing Snakebites ( Catwa )
**RE** Simone Heart Collar
**RE** ReVoX Aros Couple Bracelet – Female
[*K*] Boho Rings Collection for Vista Bento Hands

.:villena:. – Coins Halter Top
BUENO-Maya Shorts (*new* @ Kustom9)
fri. – Goldie.Boots (Stone) (Uber until the 23rd/mainstore after)

poses: oOo Studio

scene:
uK – Old West General Store RARE (*new* @ Whimsical)
uK – Old West Storm Ridge Hotel
uK – Old West Whiskey Saloon RARE
INDUSTRY 7_bang studio_bagstack 2
uK- Raven Creek Mash Barrel
uK- Raven Creek Crate Full
INDUSTRY 7_bang studio_bagstack 3
JIAN Barnyard Buddies :: Water Trough
*UI* Grazing Horse  Bean/White
[we’re CLOSED] shrub 01 bare
Fancy Decor: Broken Wagon

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