Crooked World

Crooked World
written by Sadystika Sabretooth

It’s a crooked world,
full of broken people,
plenty of hungry hyenas
on the prowl
just waiting
to snatch up the scraps.

They will use your broken pieces
to create something beautiful
and then sell it back to you.

The lies and all the poison…
polluting every cell,
every fiber,
and stitch of humanity….
until there’s nothing left.

The careless walk among us
dressed as saviors
offering shoulders
made of sponges,
soaking up every ounce
of emotional ammo
we shed in our tears.
They load their invisible guns
and declare their silent war.

With each shot,
they push us
further and further away until
we’re backed into corners.
The view from there is amazing,
because now we see the truth…
all of it…
even the parts you can’t see
the lies as they pour from your mouth
and now we laugh
with our friends
as we whisper behind your back.

You’ve put on your little act
for so long
that even when it blows up
in your face
you’re so oblivious
you think you’re untouchable.

You’re not.

It’s a set up
we’re waiting
to watch you fall.

You will fall.
You thought we’d save you?
we’ll raise our glasses
as you stumble backwards
over the bodies in your wake
and finally fall into your own grave.

shaky ground
It’s getting harder to know if I’m sane
My issues are leaking outside of my veins
Somebody save me or end me, I haven’t yet made up my mind

hair: Magika – Good Vibes *NEW*
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: [theSkinnery]  Iris (Catwa Applier) toffee (*new* @ C88)
MINIMAL – Charmed Necklace (*new* @ FaMESHed)
_CandyDoll_ Mya Dress (*new* @ Whore Couture)
_CandyDoll_Ava Socks Black
{Livalle} Payne – Combat Boots (*new* @ FaMESHed)

pose: pose: GingerFish Poses – Bad at Love

[Bad Unicorn] Block Views Backdrop *NEW*


Still Learning

“I am still learning.” ~ Michelangelo

I borrowed this quote from a friend of mine’s profile. It is so profound in its simplicity and then when I realized who is credited for saying it, I was instantly humbled. When such a great artist can maintain his humility, I find it ironic when people boast of their greatness. I believe that if we ever stop learning, we stop living. I try to learn at least one new thing a day, even if its just some random useless piece of trivia. I want each day to present me with new information.

cherry tree

hair: .Olive. the Emma Hair (*new* @ Uber)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: violetta. -catwa skin applier -Milanna -#202 (*new* @ SkinFair)
tattoo: Happiness – Black Tattoo [CAROL G]  (*new* @ SkinFair)
_CandyDoll_ Alexa Dress -(*new* @ Whore Couture)
_CandyDoll_ Alexa Fishnet -(*new* @ Whore Couture)

pose: FOXCITY. Breezy Bento Pose Set (*new* @ ON9)
FOXCITY. Photo Booth – Cherry Blossom (*new* @ ON9)

wearing below:  .::Dead Dollz::. Gwen Lingerie Set – Pink
violetta. -catwa skin applier -Milanna -#202 (*new* @ SkinFair)
violetta. -catwa skin applier -Milanna -#202_001



There’s a poem by Maya Angelou, Caged Bird. Its one of those poems that sat on my chest like a 20lb cat. It weighed so heavily on my heart that is almost felt as though I were being crushed. I love the contrast of the free bird versus the caged bird. The free bird hasn’t the worries or restrictions of the caged bird. Yet, the caged bird chooses to sing anyway. The caged bird sings of hope, dreams, and fantasies. It is those songs that keeps the caged bird moving forward in its limited space. While the free bird might sing, I imagine the songs are hollow and not nearly as beautiful as the “fearful trill.”
Obviously the poem is not literally about birds. Its symbolism in its purest form really. Yet, it still makes me think. It takes my mind in so many directions. Not just the original meaning, but about each of us as individuals. How often do we cage ourselves? And for what reason? I spend more than 50% of my day in my bedroom, as my computer is in here, my smart tv, my bed…all my favorite comforts of home. Why? Though I sit in front of a window, there is nothing keeping me locked in here. So, why don’t I go outside more? Granted, I don’t like the people around here too much, but no one is forcing me to speak to anyone when I leave my house. I’ve even been to jail and I remember how badly I craved the fresh air, a natural breeze. How I longed to hear the rustling of leaves and the songs of birds….even the laughter of those little demon spawns people call children. *grins*
I’ve gotten too comfortable in my little cage of comforts. I’ve become complacent and in most 12 step programs there’s a common saying about complacency being a red light indicator. In other words, when we become too comfortable…too complacent in our lives, we are setting ourselves up for bad decision making and that’s never been more true in my life. I’ve made some very poor decisions in the last few months. Acting out (mostly in SL) in ways that I never have before and its time for me to stop. I’ve already reduced my blogging load by focusing more on fashion and less on home decor. Yet, I still find myself sitting at this desk focused far more on my blog than on my real life.
I am not a religious person by a long shot, but Easter is about Christ being reborn, right? Well, I think I’ll borrow a page from the Bible and use Easter as a form of rebirth of my own. I’m going to cut back a bit more on the blog and I’m going to be leaving my house for five days on Easter weekend. I’m going to see my darling Nikole. This will be the second time we’ve met in real life, but it’ll be my first time visiting her at her house. I’m super excited about the trip and I’m about to embrace some really positive changes in my life. I will no longer be caged by my own hands.


hair: #12 {Limerence} Sammy hair-Blonds (*new* @ Imaginarium)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: [theSkinnery]  Iris (Catwa Applier) toffee (*new* @ C88)
tattoo: [ATI] Mai.. (*new* @ TWE12VE)
LYBRA  . SADYSTIKA (*new* @ Whore Couture)
_CandyDoll_ Gina Heels (*new* @ FaMESHed)

pose:  FOXCITY. Wild & Free Bento Pose Set

FOXCITY. K-POP Star 2 – Ringa Linga (Rez) (3) RARE (*new* @ Arcade)
Fapple– The little slave bed
Fapple– BDSM Tool Box


More Skin

Some people on Facebook have expressed surprise at the fact that there’s so much more than just skin at the Skin Fair. It’s always been more than skin, at least as far back as I can remember. Last year several new bento heads were introduced. This year I’ve not seen as many heads being released. However, there are lots of shapes, tattoos, and cosmetics, as well as an abundance of skins.  Seriously, reduce your scripts and your complexity as much as you can, then head on over and check it out. There’s plenty of amazing creations for everyone.
Today I’m showing you the A R T E – Sweetie Skin. I just love how the light catches on this skin and couldn’t resist going black and white for the main photo. However, you can see all three shades in the photo at the bottom.

skin fair 3

hair:  [monso] My Hair – Jenny (*new* @ C88)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: A R T E – Sweetie Skin – Porcelain (*new* @ Skin Fair)
tattoo: [ATI] Marcel (*new* @ Darkness Monthly)
_CandyDoll_ Alexa Top (*new* @ Whore Couture)

all poses by Foxcity

.::Dead Dollz::. Hush Lingerie Set
A R T E – Sweetie Skin


Squeal Worthy

I don’t think guys do this, but I can’t be sure. I am pretty sure they wouldn’t admit it. However, almost all girls I’ve ever known has done this. Oh, I’m sorry, what is THIS? Well, its all about that message we received or perceived. However, I have been known to throw myself across a bed and flail my legs about as I squeal over whatever fortune has befallen me. Whether I was squealing about having completed my final exams with flying colors or the guy I’ve liked forever is finally looking my way. Oh it could be as simple a new pair of boots that I’ve wanted for a very long time and I don’t want to take them off. I just want to swoon over them for a while.
Either way, I’ve had a few rather rough days lately, nothing I really want to talk about. However, I’m hoping we all get some squeal worthy moments as we approach the weekend. I think we all deserve it, don’t you?

the message

hair:  [RA] Mikaela Hair  (*new* @ FaMESHed)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
SU!– Nude Lip Gloss Collection
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: [theSkinnery]  Saska (Catwa Applier) honey
::SG:: Sophia stileto BENTO MESH NAILS (*new* @ SKIN FAIR)
[Cynful] Micaela Dress (*new* @ FaMESHed)
_CandyDoll_ Mya Boots – (*new* @ Whore Couture)

pose: FOXCITY. Hella Cute Bento Pose Set (head position edited w/AnyPose)

BUENO -Minimal Living Gacha (*new* @ Arcade)
-BUENO- Minimal Living Apts Spring- RARE
-BUENO-Dreaming Bed- RARE
-BUENO-Journals Clutter-Pinky
-BUENO-Simple Chair-Floral
-BUENO-Happy Hour Neon -Pink
-BUENO-Cactus- White (comes soft linked to BUENO-Lamp-Pink)
-BUENO-Type Pad-Pink
-BUENO-Wall Organizer – Pink
-BUENO-Pencil Holder- Pink (comes soft linked to BUENO-Empty Cup-Dreams)
-BUENO-Bunny Speaker-Pink
-BUENO-Simple Chair-Marble

BUENO– Foxy Pal Sir Fox RARE (*new* @ Arcade)
BUENO- Foxy Pal Ballerina RARE (*new* @ Arcade)

[Bad Unicorn] Not So Welcome Mat (12 Texture Options)
[Bad Unicorn] ‘Pizza or Boobs?’ Heart Pizza

dust bunny . spotted begonia
:CP: Herman Planter White



I hate riding bicycles. Who decided that seat was a good idea? That thing presses against my snatch and pushes my panties up my ass. It sucks and I refuse to do it. However, I can’t help but hear this one song whenever I see a bicycle. *giggles* I just put the link at the bottom of the page.


hair:  pr!tty – SaRang  (February PocketGacha)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: [theSkinnery]  Saska (Catwa Applier) honey
(Kunglers) Miele necklace
_CandyDoll_ Nina Top (*new* Mainstore)
_CandyDoll_ Nina Pants (*new* Mainstore)
_CandyDoll_Lucy Wedges

pose: FOXCITY. Bike Ride Bento Pose Set (comes with bike)



I’m watching this documentary about a girl in Austria that was kidnapped by her father in 1984 and was held captive in the basement for 24 years. He raped and abused her. She gave birth to seven children and none of them had ever left the basement. Of course, upon discovery of all this, the media poured into this little town. His life and his entire family’s life is put under a microscope…exposing every skeleton in all of their closets. They discover that the father had a terrible childhood, but has become even more of a monster than his mother ever way.
This man was so determined in his plan that he essentially built and entire house underneath his real house. I remember as a kid, hearing the horror stories of my father’s childhood and thinking what a monster my grandmother was. Over the years, I grew to suspect that my own father was a serial killer. I’m sure it was just an overactive imagination, but until he dies it would not surprise me to find out that my father committed heinous crimes.
This story, though, is insane. He supposedly raped his daughter over 3000 times over the years. All of her children were delivered in the basement….alone. Her captive gave her a clean towel and a pair of scissors, nothing else. The craziest part of this all is that he had seven other children and a wife living the house above the captive apartment in the ground. They were all completely oblivious to what was going on right under their feet. There’s so much more to the story and if you’re interested the name of the show is Real Crime Chronicles on Amazon Prime. I’m just so saddened that this world is so mad and so many lives are left forever exposed as little more than a show for people like me to watch.
A good friend of mine recently said that he was beginning to lose all hope for humanity. He said this because of how people treat each other in SL, but the truth of the matter is….the entire world is mad and while I refuse to give up on humanity as a whole, I can certainly understand those that do.


hair:  MINA – Mabel (*new* @ Uber)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: [theSkinnery] Saska (Catwa Applier) honey
_CandyDoll_ Layla Dress (*new* @ C88)
_CandyDoll_ Layla Boots (*new* @ C88)

pose: GingerFish Poses – Cinema Verite
anxiety %24/7


I Need Noise

So, if there’s one thing I hate in life…its a fucking liar. I understand that we all tell white lies…”You look great!”…”No, those pants don’t make your ass look huge.”…”Sure, I’d love to help you clean the house.” I’m not talking about that little shit. I’m talking about the big shit. Naturally, I’ve talked about how if someone lies about the little stuff, they’re bound to lie about the big stuff. The real rub is when you find out the truth. If you’re going to tell a big ass lie…then lie til you die, muthafucka! Cuz I’ve had enough lies to last me a fucking lifetime and I don’t need anymore. So, if you’re one of those perpetual liars that doesn’t “mean” to lie or things tend to “just happen” to you frequently….then not only are you lying to those around you…you’re lying to yourself. So, take your lies and shove them up your ass….oh and do it way the fuck over there, cuz I’m not having it. Trust issues? Nah, I don’t have trust issues. I’ve just finally figured out that trust is as big a lie as love.
When I realize that I’ve been lied to by someone I thought I could trust? Wow, yeah, I need noise, because if I crawl too deep into my head with the ammunition, my demons are going to have a field day. Don’t worry, I won’t believe anything anyone tells me for a long while to come….so once I get through this shit, I won’t worry about being lied to, cuz I’ve finally seen the light.

bitch in chains
I don’t have an agenda
All I do is pretend to be ok so my friends
Can’t see my heart in the blender
Lately, I’ve been killing all my time
Reading through your messages my favorite way to die
Take my head and kick it in
Break some bread for all my sins
Say a word, do it soon
It’s too quiet in this room
I need noise
I need the buzz of a sub
Need the crack of a whip
Need some blood in the cut
I need noise
I need the buzz of a sub
Need the crack of a whip
Need some blood in the cut
I need blood in the cut
I need blood in the cut

hair:  DOUX – Kimiko (*new* @ Tres Chic)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: [theSkinnery] Saska (Catwa Applier) honey (*new* @ REWIND)
lipstick: –SU!– Jezebel Lip Gloss
tattoo: [ATI] Helen…
11. :BAMSE: Personal Choker – Bitch (*new* @ Whimsical)
_CandyDoll_ Nina Top (*new* Mainstore)
_CandyDoll_ Nina Pants (*new* Mainstore)

pose: FOXCITY. Lolita Bento Pose Set

uK – With These Chains Photobox
E.V.E {Chained to You} Chains Silver (T)


Let You Down

Have you ever been in a situation that you’d give up just about anything to make it work out, but somethings just don’t work…no matter how much you want them to…and trying to force it to work just makes it worse? You feel like you’ve been screaming, but like the scream in your nightmares…it catches there on the edge of silence. You know you’re not invisible, but you’re definitely not heard. Your pain is ignored and trivialized to the point that you apologize for being so irrational. Its terribly unhealthy…you know you have to walk away. You know you’re going to look back and if there is any love in this world…they won’t be there watching you leave.

You crawl into a comfortable cloudy corny of yourself. Isolated and withdrawn, you don’t want to be alone, but you can’t stand the thought of being seen this way. There’s a really funny reflection in the bottle with this dim light. Tonight you hide, tonight you decide your fate, but tomorrow you’ll crawl back into the light and soldier on another day. Oh, but we don’t want to think about that…the cycle is maddening. What kinds of toys are we playing with in this madhouse? Why am I so different? This is all that’s left.

let you down3
All these voices in my head get loud
I wish that I could shut them out
I’m sorry that I let you down

hair:  +Spellbound+ x SIIX Pyramids (*new* @ Kustom9)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: Glam Affair –- MaryJane – Catwa Mesh Head Applier
_CandyDoll_ Layla Dress (*new* @ C88)
_CandyDoll_ Layla Boots (*new* @ C88)

pose: FOXCITY. Insomnia Bento Pose Set
PM & Vibes – Neon Studio Apartment
Fapple- BDSM Tool Box


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