Skyscraper

“You can take everything I have
You can break everything I am
Like I’m made of glass
Like I’m made of paper
Go on and try to tear me down
I will be rising from the ground
Like a skyscraper, like a skyscraper”
~Kerli – Skyscraper

As humans, we take a lot of punches throughout our lives. Yet, with each passing day, we either grow stronger or weaker. Ultimately, the choice is ours. Mentally and emotionally, I’ve definitely grown stronger. My body? Eh, not so much. I should have taken better care of it when I was younger, but I was invincible and never imagined I’d live past 30. Here I am dealing with level 8 pain daily as the weather changes. Yet, the emotional and mental tolls have been far more difficult to face.
There have been times that I’ve felt as fragile as glass, as delicate as tissue paper, and I’ve been beaten down both literally and figuratively. But each and every time, so far, I’ve gotten up. I’ve gained strength from the pain. In fact, there are times that by keeping my pain to myself and not complaining about it, by not showing it to the world, that I can borrow from it….channel it into strength. I’ve siphoned power from the pain to keep going. Perhaps I’m a bit stubborn, too. I feel like if anyone is going to genuinely take credit for me falling apart, its going to be me. So, until I’m ready to curl up with the worms for eternity, I will continue to rise like a skyscraper.

***If you are reading this on any site that suggests this post was originally published anywhere but SadyStyle by anyone other than Sadystika Sabretooth, you are reading a stolen post.

Skyscraper

wearing:
hair:  Lamb. Dove (*new* @ Uber)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skin: [theSkinnery] Amber (*new* @ C88)

EF: Acanthus Headpiece (*new* @ X by FaMESHed)
EF: Acanthus Mask (*new* @ X by FaMESHed)
[The Forge] Xane Collar, Black (*new* @ X by FaMESHed)
Legal Insanity – Mistress dress (*new* @ X by FaMESHed)
_CandyDoll_ Claudia Boots (*new* @ C88)

pose: FOXCITY. Sass Bento Pose Set

Paparazzi – BACKDROP – Grime Block Balcony
BUENO-NightSpot Loft Building-Regular

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Finally!

Finally, someone developed a hairstyle to conceal my horns! *giggles* These cubes from E.V.E remind me of one of those word search things I see on Facebook all the time. “Oh the first three words are what you can expect next year!” Well, the last one of those I did said love, marriage, and health. I laughed so hard.  Yes, I know love will always be part of my life, because I have a heart with which I love very deeply, too deeply. Marriage? NO, let’s pray a divorce is on the horizon though. Since the bastard left me essentially penniless to run off with a 20yr old skank. Yes, she is a skank, remind me to tell that story someday. It’s a doozy! And finally, the prediction was health? I’m going to assume they meant poor health, considering that at best there are treatments for my fybromyalgia and PKD, however, there are no known cures.
Let’s not ruin all the fun, let’s take a look at the cube. First word I see is battlefield and I’ll agree to that. I like violent films and shows, plus I play Guild Wars 2 with one of my best friends. So, yes, a battlefield is very likely. Next word…hate. Ohh, that’s a strong word. I don’t really have the energy to fuel hate. I’m more of a person that turns completely ambivalent. I just won’t acknowledge someone’s existence or care that they exist. In Second Life, its even better, because I can mute and derender people. That’s nice. Alright, third word I notice is Heaven. Well, I’m an atheist so I can only imagine that means, I’m going to be proven wrong and all of you do gooders are in for a big surprise when you show up OR (and this is more likely) someone is going to make me feel soo good that it will feel heavenly. These cubes are a group gift, so if you like them, you can grab a set for yourself, absolutely free.

sady devil
“So what would an angel say
The devil wants to know”
~ Fiona Apple – Criminal

wearing:
hair:  #Foxy – Fallen Hair (*new* @ Salem)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skin: [theSkinnery] Amber (*new* @ C88)

Dead Dollz – Morrigan Set 2.0 (*new* @ FaMESHed)
_CandyDoll_ Demona Boots

pose: FOXCITY. Cozy Bento Pose Set (*new* @ Uber)

[Dollmart]Empress Chair
E.V.E {Team} Love is a Battlefield Cubes GROUP GIFT

Hunger Hurts

“Hunger hurts, and I want him so bad, oh it kills
Cause I know I’m a mess he don’t wanna clean up
I got to fold cause these hands are too shaky to hold
Hunger hurts, but starving works, when it costs too much to love”
~ Fiona Apple – Paper Bag

Bondi candydoll

wearing:
hair:  TRUTH VIP Batty
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skin: [Glam Affair] Alice Applier

BONDI . VOODOO QUEEN CROWN (*new* @ Salem)
_CandyDoll_ Cara Dress (*new* @ Uber)

pose: FOXCITY. The Journey Bento Set
[Bad Unicorn] No Way Out Backdrop ‘Cute Meets Evil Set’ (*new* @ Arcade)

So Many Miles…

“Time has come to go
Pack your bags, hit the open road
Our hearts just won’t die
It’s the trip, keeps us alive
So many miles
So many miles
So many miles
Away
They’re following some dance of light
Tearing into the night
Watching you fall asleep
The sweetest dove in a dream
So many miles
So many miles
So many miles
Away”
~Still Corners – The Trip

phoenix cynful candydoll

wearing:
hair:  :::Phoenix::: Milana Hair (*new* @ HairFair)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skin: [Glam Affair] Dee

[Cynful] Cropped Bomberjacket (*new* @ Uber)
_CandyDoll_ Demona Boots (*new* @ Kinky)

pose: entangled poses – Calliope Set (*new* @ PoseFair)
crate Galvanized Chair ~ Black

Find Me

“If you’re ready, heart is open
I’ll be waiting, come and find me
If you’re searching for forever
I’ll be waiting, come and find me
I see you, you’re in the darkness
Blinding light right where your heart is
If you’re ready, heart is open
I’ll be waiting, come and find me”
~ Sigma – Find Me

candydoll & stealthic

wearing:
hair:  Stealthic – Fleeting (*new* @ Kustom9)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skin: [Glam Affair] Dee

_CandyDoll_ Natasha (*new* @ Tres Chic)
=Zenith=Buckle Gloves
[BREATHE]-Mikka Heels

pose: .:Z&E Poses:. PF15 (*new* @ PoseFair)
location: KEKELAND – BARDECO

 

What You Eat

Okay, so we’ve all heard the phrase, “you are what you eat.” It’s been a while since I did a “what if” article, but I can’t help but wonder, “What if  you literally became what you eat for like an hour after you swallow it?” Yes, I’m going there, but only for a moment. *laughs* So, am I a sperm? Am I piece of fried chicken? What if we really did magically transform into whatever we ate for 10 mins to an hour? Would we watch what we ate more carefully? Would we all be lining up to eat supermodels? *giggles* And what about the people doing the hunger strikes? They eat nothing….does this mean they are nothing?

I do know that its a metaphorical saying, of course, but you ought to know me by now and know that my mind goes to some strange places late at night.

feeling blue

wearing:
hair:  :::Phoenix::: Layla Hair (*new* @ Hair Fair)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skin: [Glam Affair] Dee

Ascendant  – Cotton Candy Lipstick

^^Swallow^^ Princess Ears
(Yummy) Bohemia Ring Set
Ascendant  – Holographic Bento Nails 10

_CandyDoll_ Mayza Top (*new* @ C88)
_CandyDoll_ Mayza Jeans (*new* @ C88)

pose:  Foxcity. Selfie VOL3 Bento Pose Set
location: Missing Melody

full length
full length shot of the pants….these are just to die for♥

 

No One

Just this….cuz…reasons.

Mothica – No One

You curl my name with your lip
I take a drink, I hate it
I tell you what you want to hear, so I
Can catch my breath and step away
Think about what to say to you
While you come unglued
I don’t know how to make it clear
I’ve tried it out all these years
But it doesn’t seem to go through
Til now

Here I go, hear what I’m saying
What I want to say, what I want to say
All this time, you thought I would be your girl
I’m sorry, I belong to no one, no one
I belong to no one, no one
I’m not known to hold on, hold on too long

There you go, take it back
You didn’t mean this and you didn’t mean that
What were you thinking when you thought you could touch me last night?
I know you don’t think it’s wrong if you don’t break the skin
But if I want to touch, I’ll ask for it, oh oh oh, until I
Can catch my breath and step away
Think about what to say to you
While you come unglued
I don’t know how to make it clear
I’ve tried it out all these years
But it doesn’t seem to go through
Til now

Here I go, hear what I’m saying
What I want to say, what I want to say
All this time, you thought I would be your girl
I’m sorry, I belong to no one, no one
I belong to no one, no one
I’m not known to hold on, hold on too long

There you go, take it back
You didn’t mean this and you didn’t mean that
What were you thinking when you thought you could touch me
I know you don’t think it’s wrong if you don’t break the skin
But if I want to touch, I’ll ask for it, oh oh oh

Here I go, hear what I’m saying
What I want to say, what I want to say
All this time, you thought I would be your girl
I’m sorry, I belong to no one, no one
I belong to no one, no one
I’m not known to hold on, hold on too long

No One

wearing:
hair:   Lamb. Halo
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: [Glam Affair] Dee Applier [ Catwa ] 007 (*new* @ Au Lovely)
ELLURE – “VIIAN” Flower Earrings (*new* @ Vanity Event)
(Yummy) Dark Magic Ring Set
_CandyDoll_ Aida Top (*new* @ FaMESHed)
_CandyDoll_ Aids Shorts (*new* @ FaMESHed)
pose: FOXCITY. Selfie VOL2 Bento Pose Set
MINIMAL – Sequoia Room (*new* @ C88)

Retail Therapy

After doing some minimal research on the Googlenets, I discovered that the average cost of one therapy session can range between $75-$200. That’s one hour to tell my problems to a stranger that’s going to turn around and ask me how does that make me feel? Nah, I’ll take my $200 for some shopping, because nothing makes me feel better than some retail therapy. I’ll tell my problems to the beautician, the nail girl, or the bartender like a normal person. *giggles*

Time to Shop

wearing:
hair:  [RA] Audrey Hair (*new* @ FaMESHed)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skin: [Glam Affair] Loly
tattoo: Mystic TaTToo Applier – Henna [CAROL G] (*new* @ Vanity Event)

**RE** Aurora Bracelets BG
#187# Summer Bag ~ Marine
_CandyDoll_ Bamzii Jump
Eudora3D Sierra Boots (*new* @ FaMESHed)

pose: Bauhaus Movement – Aesthetic Perfection set (*new* @ TLC)

scene:
.Florix. The color wall – Blue (*new* @ Blush)

crate Salvador Set (*new* @ TLC)
-crate Salvador Set ~ Rug
-crate Salvador Set ~ Chair PG
-crate Salvador Set ~ Plant
-crate Salvador Set ~ Side Table

22769 – Hermes Clock Painted Steel

Toro. Zombie Emergency Box

Frogstar – Salvaged Wood Welcome Sign

Nothing Specific

It’s really easy to misunderstand what’s going on with other people, especially in a virtual world. So often the message depends on the perception of the reader and unless you’re adding a bit of an emote along with your words they can be easily misunderstood and thus the drama begins. What thing is for sure, there’s plenty of that happening across the grid. I think its one of the main reasons I like to voice. I don’t like my voice, but I do prefer talking to people when I can, because the inflections of one’s voice can really can make a world of difference. I realize I’m sorta rambling on about nothing specific here, but sometimes that’s just how my mind works.

Queen

 

wearing:
hair:  #Besom~Dream
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skin: [Glam Affair] Loly

Scandalize.SEDUCTION.Mask Gold (*new* @ Arcade)
(AMD) Leafy Armbands – Gold
Scandalize.Maily.DRESS. (*new* @ Kinky)
_CandyDoll_ Alessia Boots (*new* @ Uber)

pose: FOXCITY. Legs for Days Bento Pose Set

scene:
BUENO-Room at the Top -Forget- RARE
Refuge – Spring Gala Table Light Pink
+Half-Deer+ Coming up Roses – Frames
::{u.f.o}::Swan Lake, Act1 – classic phone pink
tres blah– Eclectic Collection -Large Nesting Box
Scandalize. SEDUCTION Box (*new* @ Arcade)
RSD Baroque Daybed (*new* @ FaMESHed)
REIGN.- PLANNER- QUEEN (DECOR)- #21
BUENO-Cat Phone -White
REIGN.- PLANNER DECO CART (ARIS)- RARE 1
18 Fancy Decor: Queen Bee Engraving

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