F*ck Yeah

Some people say I cuss too much and that cussing shows a lack of a better vocabulary or that it’s a lazy way of expressing yourself. I say, “Fuck off!” I like cussing. I especially like the fact that so many people allow a word to offend them.  A word! Not a racial slur, not a hate filled word, just a word…that is one of the most versatile words in the ever so eloquent English language. Yes, it is a legitimate word. It has earned its place in the dictionary with all sorts of examples and you can even find its origin if you look. Seriously, Google your favorite online dictionary, it’s in there!
I’m an adult, I cuss. I’m a responsible adult that knows there’s a time and place for everything. So, no, I’m not going to scream FUUUCKKK when I stub my toe in the middle of a mall, but when I’m talking to my dog in my yard I will certainly encourage her to hurry the fuck up. *laughs* So, have a good fucking day! (You can take that whichever way you like.)

fuck yeah

wearing:
hair: *Besom Hair~ Pixie *Blondes* #6 (*new* @ PocketGacha)
head: CATWA HEAD Tala
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara

[ kunst ] – Vintage Cigarette Holder
*T.Whore* – Sexy Fur Stole Black MESH (store closed)
LYBRA . REESE BLOGGERS (*new* @ ROMP)
_CandyDoll_ Raku Heels (*new* @ REWIND)

pose by Foxcity
Pseudo– F-Yeah Room Scene

Morning Meditation

Last year when I was going through a particularly rough time, my friend Charlotte gave me a non religious meditation book. Those are surprisingly hard to find in my area. Anyway, its one of my favorite ways to start the day. Reading the daily meditation with a cup of coffee and…*hangs her head*…a cigarette.

So, while I sit here at my desk with my coffee and cigarette, I thought I’d share this morning’s meditation with you.
“To have what we want is riches; but to be able to do without is power.” ~ George Macdonald
Well, George, I’d say you’re quite right there. I  mean it would suck if I couldn’t have a computer or afford internet. It would suck to lose Netflix. I’d be sad if I ran out of coffee (ok, I’d be downright mad) or cigarettes. However, there’s a certain power in knowing that I’ve been without all of those things and more in the past. I not only survived the lack of things, but I found other ways to entertain myself and enjoy life.  I have some rather fond memories of living in a homeless shelter, believe it or not. As there are no guarantees in this life, despite what marketing ads will tell you. The greatest power anyone can have is being able to find joy in the simplest of things. I’m just going to list a few examples of simplistic joys that I find in my daily life that are often taken for granted, but are truly to be cherished.
The way my dog greets me like a long lost soldier returned from way, even though I’ve only been gone 20 minutes. The way my cat mews and purrs at me on the rare occasion that he wants attention. The first bite of a meal I’ve cooked to perfection. The feel of freshly washed sheets on my skin right after a long hot bath. Led Zeppelin on the radio on a breezy summer afternoon. The smell of a bookstore. The joyous sound of children laughing and playing at the pool (even if I don’t like the lil bastards, I still love to hear the sounds of happiness.) The sound of the cicadas in the trees as the sun sets on a warm August evening. No, these are not my favorite things in life, but they are simple joys that make life worth living.

morning meditation

wearing:
hair: [KoKoLoReS] Hair – Bess (*new* @ Hairology)
head: CATWA HEAD Tala
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara

Astralia – Compatible mesh nails system  (Maitreya Stiletto base)
GingerFish -Nail Applier-Astralia-Bloody Kisses
Astralia – Kitty chain ring with HUD (*new* @ Blush)

BUENO-Olivia Top (*new* @ Kustom9)
BUENO-Cuff Jeans (*new* @ Kustom9)
_CandyDoll_ Saki Heels (*new* @ Uber)

pose by Le Poppycock

scene:
Pseudo– Inked Corner Scene
Apple Fall Cafe Chair
Apple Fall Clawfoot Height-Adjusting Table
Apple Fall Canvas Tote
Apple Fall Crumpled Newspaper
[ kunst ] – Ashtray v3 / Marble #4
SAYO – Trendy Tumblers – Rose Chrome – COMMON (*new* @ PocketGacha)

 

The White Dress

She hated taking the subway so late at night, but she had to get home. She had work tomorrow and there’s no way she’d find a cab at this hour. This is what she gets for going out on a work night. Ugh, the subway always smelled like urine and body odor. She dreaded the train coming to rush that stink into her nostrils, almost as much as she dreaded getting on the train at this hour. There was no way she was sitting on those filthy seats in her white dress. She had managed to keep drinks from spilling on it all night and she’d be damned if she was going to mess it up on her way home.
As she walked down the stairs, she rolled her eyes to herself, why is there always a hooker passed out down here? At least the people didn’t look too shady, maybe she could manage this without getting mugged after all. Yeah, she’d be fine, but her could feel an anxiety attack coming on. She reached in her purse for a Xanax and some strawberry lip-gloss. At least the smell of the lip-gloss with help with the stench of this place.
She managed to make it home without incident. Locking her door, she dropped her purse on the entrance table and made her way to the kitchen for a glass of wine before bed. She made her way to the bedroom and just as she was about to set her wine down, the cat hopped up on the nightstand startling her and the red wine splashed down the front of her dress.

subway

wearing:
hair: Lamb. Drive (August ’17 Luxe Box)
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
ISON – michelle dress (August ’17 Luxe Box)
_CandyDoll_ Fate Boots (*new* @ Blush)

pose by Foxcity

scene:
*Drot* Subway Station – RARE
*Drot* Wet Floor Sign
*Drot* Barrel Standard
*Drot* Subway Trashcan
and various mesh NPCs I found on MP

I Feel a Sin Coming On

Unlike most of my music posts, this one was intended from the very beginning. There are a few people that will get the personal reference, but for the rest of you I expect the song will fit the photo regardless. Think Mae West meets modern day country with a twist of Sady….*grins* As always, YouTube link and lyrics are provided. Below the photo you’ll find all the details for the sinfully delicious goodies you see in the photo.

I Feel A Sin Coming On by Piston Annies

I feel a sin comin’ on
I feel a right that’s about to go wrong
I got a shiver down to the bone
I feel a sin comin’ on

I gotta buzz in my brain
Drunk on a love goin’ down like champagne
I got a feelin’ it’s gonna leave a lipstick stain
And I’ll be the only one to blame

And you can see it
All over my face
Sweet temptation
All over the place
Give me tall dark and handsome,
Mix it up with somethin’ strong
I feel a sin (I feel a sin) comin’ on

Please Jesus don’t hold me back
I know it ain’t mine but I want it so bad
The smoke and the whiskey’s
Got me feeling easy
And the lights are all fading to black

And you can see it
All over my face
Sweet temptation
All over the place
Give me tall dark and handsome,
Mix it up with somethin’ strong
I feel a sin (I feel a sin) comin’ on

And you can see it (and you can see it)
All over my face (all over my face)
Sweet temptation
All over the place
Give me tall dark and handsome,
Mix it up with some strong
I feel a sin (I feel a sin) comin’ on
I feel a sin (I feel a sin) comin’ on

I feel a sin

wearing:
hair: [RA] Jessica Hair (*new* @ Hairology)
headCATWA HEAD Tala
bodyMaitreya Mesh Body – Lara
Dutchie bitten apple
_CandyDoll_ Elsa (*new* @ C88)

pose by Bauhaus Movement
scene:
anxiety %home
7 – Jesus Is Coming Yard SIgn (*new* @ PocketGacha)
Fancy Decor: Plastic Side Tables (*new* @ C88)
7 – Neon Jesus Saves Cross (*new* @ PocketGacha)

Kindergarten Tired

She wasn’t sure how much more she could take or how long she could hang on. The weight of it all was simply too much sometimes. The day had simply consumed her and she was feeling kindergarten tired. You know, when you’re so tired, you’d just lie right down wherever you are and gladly take a nap? Yeah, she was feeling that way, but she had much to do and could only take the time to lace up her amazing new shoes. Naturally while she was bent down to do so she took a little rest on her knee. In the meantime, check out those shoes! *giggles*

too much

wearing:
hairSintiklia – Hair Zoella (*new* @ Fetish Fair)
headCATWA HEAD Kathy
bodyMaitreya Mesh Body – Lara
tattoo.Identity. Body Shop – Last War (*new* @ MBA Fair)

Scandalize. Aqua. (*new* @ Aqua)
_CandyDoll_ Adela Heels (*new* @ FaMESHed)

pose by Del May
scene: uK – Uptown Fountains Set

A Bit of Real Talk

Alright, its been a while since I did one of these, but I’m going to take a minute and get real with some of y’all. If you’re one of my best friends, you can skip this read, cuz you’ve heard it and agreed before. So, lets just dive right in while I’m in the mood. I’m pretty active on Facebook and while I don’t necessarily comment on most of the crap I see, I do try to like the things my close friends post and occasionally random things that make me chuckle or raise my atheist little hands in an amen!
Today we’re talking about designers. Nope, I’m not going to bitch about them, there’s plenty of y’all doing that all over Facebook. I’m here to defend them. As a blogger, blog manager, and working for events, I’ve gotten to know quite a few designers and I’ve been blessed to get really close to a few. Here’s what shoppers need to know. They set their own prices and they have a reason for whatever price they set. So, if you dare to accost a designer and suggest their prices are too high and that you’re doing them a favor by suggesting a lower price, you need to check yourself. You have absolutely no idea the amount of time and energy and money they spend to bring their creations to the grid. They don’t just sign in, wave a magic wand, and provide you with gorgeous creations. If their prices are too high? Well, BooBoo, no one is forcing you to shop there, are they?
Oh, I’m not done! If you have an issue with something you buy…its got a glitch, it doesn’t fit right…don’t you dare IM the designer and attack them. Take the time to think how you would want to be approached. Trust me, what you’re wearing and how it fits is NOT an emergency and you will survive until the situation is sorted. So, just take a minute and breathe, maybe type it up in a notecard and have a friend give it a read to make sure you don’t come off sounding like a little bitch, because c’mon…these designers aren’t major corporations with warehouses and thousands of employees. You’re not talking to some random person in a call center that might not give a shit about your complaint. Even if you’re having to go through a CSR vs the designer themselves, treat them with the same respect you want shown to you as a customer. Its not nearly as hard to be polite as some of you make it out to be. Here’s a suggestion, start your note with a compliment and end it with one, too. Remind that designer why you bought their item in the first place…uhm, you liked it and had to have it, right? Sometimes you will be disappointed, but if you didn’t try a demo first, that’s on you, Boo!
Just be nice, okay? Cuz these designers work hard and if you’re seeing them in events, you can bet your ass they are dealing with all sorts of deadlines and rules that they didn’t set for themselves. Oh and stop using those huds to get into events, did you know they actually cause drastic lag to the land where the event is located? Its dreadful. C’mon, you can do it the old fashioned way or simply wait…oh and leave your pets and scripted babies at home, too!

meow

wearing:
hairpr!tty – Sunny  (*new* @ Gacha Garden)
headCATWA HEAD Kathy
skin: DeeTaleZ *Appliers* CATWA Head “Face Miriam”
bodyMaitreya Mesh Body – Lara
tattoo(( Cheeky Ink )) My Immortal Tattoo
piercings-SU!- Bento Piercing Set 03

pr!tty – Rose Kitty Headband SUPER RARE (*new* @ Gacha Garden)
EF: Adoration Choker (*new* @ FaMESHed)
.:E.A.Studio:. BOX Moray Nails -Gloves-Ring Set  (*new* @ Fetish Fair)
_CandyDoll_ Adela Jumpsuit (*new* @ FaMESHed)

pose by Foxcity
background: FOXCITY. Photo Booth – Neon City VOL2 Limited (With lights)REZ

Stick a Knife In It

“The weak can never forgive. Forgiveness is the attribute of the strong.” ~Mohandas Gandhi

This is a lesson that took me ages me to learn. I had to learn that I had more power over how I feel than anyone else. I had to learn that forgiveness does not mean forgetting. I had to learn that holding onto resentments is like carrying rocks in my pocket and that each resentment I carry is just another rock. How many rocks must one soul carry until they learn to start letting them go? I had to learn that anger is a secondary emotion. Its one we choose, because its more comfortable than the fear and/or pain behind it. There will be some that read this and disagree, but that simply means they haven’t learned these lessons yet. Some never will. I know these things to be true. I know them to be as true as my weight and the scars on my skin.
Learning to forgive, despite the pain and/or fear certainly is not easy. It doesn’t mean you have to find love in your heart for those that have scorned you. It means you have to find love in your heart for yourself. Enough love to stop giving more power to those that hurt you. It means taking the power away from those that do not deserve it. I recently found out that someone that I once counted among my closest friends has been telling lies about me. He’s told innumerable people that I was trying to sleep with him and that’s why he quit being my friend. Those that know me…that really know him…they know that simply isn’t true, but there are plenty of people out there that are listening and believing his lies. It hurt. It still does, but there’s nothing I can do about him, his lies, or those that choose to believe him, except forgive him and let it go.
Will I ever trust him again? Will I ever be his friend again? Of course not. Learning to forgive and let go does not color me a fool. It simply strengthens me and lightens the load on my soul. I will never understand his reasons for that lie. He could have simply told the truth. We had an argument, we both felt the other person was unreasonable and he chose to walk away rather than talk it out. He could have said that I threw the friendship away, as that may very well have been his understanding of the situation. However, he chose to spread rumors and lies about me instead. Again, I admit that it hurt.
By forgiving him, I drop those rocks of resentment with his name on them, and I lighten the load on my soul. In the end, I am the stronger one, because by lightening my spiritual load I strengthen it at well. He is but one example of how people have stabbed me in the back. There are many others, but I must forgive them, as well. For its my spirit that I must care for and it is my responsibility to lighten that load. I have far more serious matters going on in my life that worrying about this man and his lies or anyone else that chooses to hate me for no genuine reason. So, to him I say, “I forgive you, here’s my back, stick a knife in it if you must, but you will NOT break my spirit or rape my soul.”

 

hide n seek

wearing:
hair: /Wasabi Pills/ Apple Mesh Hair (*new* @ ULTRA)
bodyMaitreya Mesh Body – Lara
tattoo: [White~Widow] TwinPeaks II – Black (*new* @ Enchantment)
_CandyDoll_ Megan Panties Black (*new* @ Rewind)
Phedora ~ Melissa Strappy heels  (*new* @ Kustom9)
JIAN Jack Russel Terrier :: Companion (Luxe Box May)

pose by Del May

backdrop: RAMA – #selfie_RAMA Cube Photostudio (*new* @ 6 Republic)