Hiding From the World

I recently acquired a homestead and its perfect for me, because though I do share a good bit about myself in my blog. I also enjoy my privacy and I’m quite content spending several days in a row alone. I like having complete control of my land and I love that no one can see who is on my land. I don’t have to worry about seeing someone I don’t care for on my radar because they are somewhere else on the sim. I finally feel truly free to hide away from the world. I can create whatever scenes I like wherever I want and never have to worry about a neighbor putting up some atrocious house with prim trees from 2007. I love my new home, because its the best place to be when I’m hiding from the world.

Dear People

wearing:
hair: MINA – Alison (*new* @ Enchantment)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: [theSkinnery] Katy (Catwa Applier) toffee (*new* @ C88)
brows: –SU!- Blair Eyebrows +CATWA APPLIER

*LODE* Head Accessory – Juliet [iceberg]
Cae :: Gianna :: Necklace
Cae :: Gianna :: Earrings
Dahlia – Sady Cat Eye Sunglasses (May FaMESHed Go)
[Cynful] Heidi Summer Maxi Dress (*new* @ C88)

pose: an lar [poses] The Yearning Series (*new* @ ROMP)

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Sad Girl

Once upon a time, I lived a different kind of life…music takes me on the most delicious journey through my mine field of memories….
Being a mistress on the side
It might not appeal to fools like you
We’ve been around on the side
Wanna be something you would do
But you haven’t seen my man
You haven’t seen my man
You haven’t seen my man
You haven’t seen him
He’s got the fire and he walks with fame
He’s got the fire and he talks with fame
His Bonnie on the side, Bonnie on the side
Makes me so sad, girl
His money on the side, money on the side
Makes me so sad, girl
I’m a sad girl, I’m a sad girl, I’m a sad girl
I’m a sad girl, I’m a bad girl, I’m a bad girl
Being a bad bitch on the side
It might not appeal to fools like you
We’ve been around when he gets high
It might not be something you would do
But you haven’t seen my man
You haven’t seen my man
You haven’t seen my man
You haven’t seen him
He’s got the fire and he walks with fame
He’s got the fire and he talks with fame
His Bonnie on the side, Bonnie on the side
Makes me so sad, girl
His money on the side, money on the side
Makes me so sad, girl
I’m a sad girl, I’m a sad girl, I’m a sad girl
I’m a sad girl, I’m a bad girl, I’m a bad girl
Watch what you say to me
Careful who you’re talking to
Watch what you say to me
Careful who you’re talking to
I’m on fire, baby
I’m on fire
He’s got the fire and he walks with fame
He’s got the fire and he talks with fame
His Bonnie on the side, Bonnie on the side
Makes me so sad, girl
His money on the side, money on the side
Makes me so sad, girl
I’m a sad girl, I’m a sad girl, I’m a sad girl
I’m a sad girl, I’m a bad girl, I’m a bad girl
I’m a sad girl, I’m a sad girl, I’m a sad girl
I’m a sad girl, I’m a bad girl, I’m a bad girl

enough is enough

wearing:
hair: RAMA.SALON – Chiara Hair
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: [theSkinnery] Katy (Catwa Applier) toffee (*new* @ C88)
brows: –SU!- Blair Eyebrows +CATWA APPLIER
RedFish – Chronic tattoo (*new* @ ULTRA)

-SU!- Piercing Set 05 Bridge
CODE-5 [ Pamerale ] (*new* @ ROMP)
. a i s l i n g . NoseChains
Cae :: Farfalla :: Necklace (*new* @ ULTRA)
[CX] Shredder Claws – Silver

Scandalize.Mulbery-top & pants. (*new* @ equal10)
Scandalize. MulberyHeels. (*new* @ equal10)

pose: –IC poses- Single Pack 13

scene:
[ keke ] huge cozy up pillow – chevron
220ML – Alabama Style [Closed Bottle]
220ML – Alabama Style [Cup w/ Liquid]
Peaches ‘N Cream – ‘Emotional Baggage’ Handbag Clutter
Peaches ‘N Cream – ‘Kiss & Makeup’ Makeup Clutter
Peaches ‘N Cream – ‘Planet Of the Vapes’ Electric Vape
[Black Bantam] Busy Westie On Fours Rez

Can They Truly Be Separate?

I’m a big profile perv. I love to see what people share, how they talk, or whether they’ve decided to keep it blank. Either way, I tend the find the 1st Life tab the most interesting, as so many will put something about keeping RL separate from SL. I assume they mean that they prefer to keep the details of their real lives a secret and quite possibly their second lives are a secret from those in their real lives, as well. However, I am always left wondering does anyone truly believe that its possible to keep them entirely separate?
Isn’t the real you the one typing on the keyboard? Isn’t every thought you share in SL coming from the brain (or lack there of) in your real life head? Don’t you dress to appeal to yourself? How is it possible to be so completely separate unless your entire existence here is a complete and total lie? Even then, you are bound to have a few honest thoughts slip through the cracks. Even a catfish tends to share some truths about themselves.
I suppose its not really important. It’s just something I wonder about from time to time and always makes me look at the people that write that as kind of odd. Why do you need to announce to the world that you’re keeping a secret? As a person with major trust issues, it tends to make me leery of them regardless of their intent and pull away.

aphorism phedora cae prtty

wearing:
hair: pr!tty – Juny – -Short (*new* @ SaNaRae)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: Glam Affair – Mindy

Cae :: Arden :: Necklace (*new* @ FaMESHed)
!APHORISM! Callie Dress (*new* @ FaMESHed)
Phedora ~ Meliantha heels v2 (*new* @ Kinky)

pose: oOo Studio: Ottoman Group Gift

scene:
[Avenge] Total White backdrop (*new* @ Limit8)
[ keke ] peony . group gift spring 2018 (*new* @ FaMESHed)
Ariskea[Cocoli] Outdoor Seat[Green] (*new* @ FaMESHed)
Ariskea[Cocoli] Banana Plant (*new* @ FaMESHed)

Believe in Happiness

“You have to believe in happiness,
Or happiness never comes …
Ah, that’s the reason a bird can sing –
On his darkest day he believes in Spring.”
~ Douglas Malloch ~

Bloom2

wearing:
hair: #Foxy – Lovestoned Hair (*new* @ Kustom9)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: Glam Affair – Mindy
Cae :: Mariposa :: Earrings (*new* @ Bloom)
Cae :: Mariposa :: Necklace (*new* @ Bloom)
e.marie // Unicorn Confetti Set
Vinyl – Alanis Romper (*new* @ Bloom)

pose: FOXCITY. Leaning (Stand) VOL2 Bento Pose Set
TLC Forever My Dove – full set (*new* @ Bloom)
TLC Eurasian collared dove – texture version B (*new* @ Bloom)

Flowery Snow

The most common tree in my area is the Bradford Pear. Its a gorgeous tree that had the prettiest little blossoms, usually they are white, but once in a while they bloom pink.  They line streets and medians, long driveways to businesses, and so forth. They’re all over my neighborhood. While they’re in bloom, they are beautiful, but eventually the blooms fall from the trees and its usually around July or August. When the blooms are white, it looks almost like snow and when the wind blows its beautiful to see the tiny white flowers flying all over the place.
However, the once beautiful blossoms soon begin to rot in the heat and they stink soooo bad. I swear they have this rotten fish smell, like a $5 hooker’s diseased snatch. It’s awful and I’ll never get used to it. Luckily that’s not an issue in SL and we can have whatever petals we want falling around us and never worry about them rotting.

petals of time

wearing:
hair: Clawtooth: Margeaux (*new* @ FaMESHed)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: Glam Affair – Mindy – Catwa Mesh Head Applier – Jamaica (*new* @ Kinky)

hairbase: Just Magnetized – Special Hairbase set 05
lipstick: –SU!- Ayesha Lip Gloss
SU!- Bento Piercing Set 03

Cae :: Scarlett :: Necklace (*new* @ FaMESHed)
Bel Aire Plt Womens WeddingBand by Chop Zuey
::SG:: RingQueen Mesh Nails

[Gos] Charlie Wrap Dress (*new* @ FaMESHed)
[Gos] Charlie Platform Sandals (*new* @ FaMESHed)

pose: Kikay – Hearty Bento Stand Poses (*new* @ Pose Fair)
location: Luanes Magical World

 

Losing It

I remember the first time I saw my mom just lose it. She had spent hours making this cake from scratch, but it tilted so bad and kept sliding, no matter what she tried. Next thing I know she’s screaming and attacks the cakes with her claw like hands and cakes went everywhere. The next time I saw her lose it was when we had borrowed a VW Bug from a friend. It had a stick shift (look it up if you’re too young to know) and she hated them, the clutch would stick, too. It was the first time I heard the F word. *gasps* I think the first time I truly lost it was in high school. It was a really bad hair day and I broke my hair brush. Many times, I’ve felt like throwing all my papers in the air when writing…and once upon a time I did all my writing on paper. *giggles* Most days this is what my brain feels like…someone just threw my life in the air and I’m doing my best to grab it all and make some sense of it.

losing it
The writer stares with glassy eyes —
Defies the empty page,

wearing:
hair: RAMA.SALON – Sonya Hair (*new* @ Shiny Shabby)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: [theSkinnery]  Iris (Catwa Applier) toffee
Cae :: Zora :: Glasses (*new* @ The Clique)
::GB::Off Shoulder Cardigan (F)/ Gray
{le fil casse} Alysha Dress (*new* @ Uber)
_CD_ Deya Wedge (*new* @ N21)

JIAN Marble Fox (Static – Sleeping L)

pose: Bauhaus Movement

scene:
a lot of books from all over the grid
bookcase and fireplace – DRD – Shadow Box – Series 01 – FEB 2018 – LIGHT

 

I Don’t Need Your Love

It seems as if I’ve spent the bulk of my life letting go of people, places, and things. I’ve got the grieving process down so well, I practically do it on auto-pilot. I learned at an early age not to count on anything to last forever. If there’s one person in this world that knows how truly temporary everything is…it’s me. I stumbled across the song and I swear I’m not high, but I felt myself being lifted up like a feather in the wind right before a rain storm. Drifting through the air with all the people, places, and things I’ve let go….until the rain comes down and washes them all away. I can look back and smile, because there are some mighty good memories there….it wasn’t all bad. I’ve got very few regrets.

Stealth – I Don’t Need Your Love

I don’t need your love, and I don’t want to waste your time
I don’t need your love, girl, you don’t need mine
My time is up
There’s no more lines to read
It’s too much
There’s no more room to breathe
I know it’s tough
But there’s no more lies to live
I’ve done enough
Now it’s time to leave

This has run its course
I don’t know you, and you don’t seem to first
Time we both let this fade to dust
I don’t need your love, and I don’t want to waste your time
I don’t need your love, girl, you don’t need mine
I don’t need your love, and I don’t want to waste your time
I don’t need your love, girl, you don’t need mine

I must to admit, I felt it before worse
So this is it, you must’ve foreseen the worst
We have tried our best, you don’t love me, and I my heart’s already left
It’s time we call the latest down to rest
I don’t need your love, and I don’t want to waste your time
I don’t need your love, girl, you don’t need mine
I don’t need your love, and I don’t want to waste your time
I don’t need your love, girl, you don’t need mine

It always hurt when the rain is bringing in to the summer
It’s kinda hard to watch the night’s bringing into the day
It always hurts when we’re moving from one to another
If you’re not moving here in the dark, you will stay
I don’t need your love, and I don’t want to waste your time
I don’t need your love, girl, you don’t need mine
I don’t need your love, and I don’t want to waste your time
I don’t need your love, girl, you don’t need mine

I don’t need your love, and I don’t want to waste your time
I don’t need your love, girl, you don’t need mine
I don’t need your love, and I don’t want to waste your time
I don’t need your love, girl, you don’t need mine

eternity

wearing:
hair:  TRUTH VIP January – Teanna
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: Glam Affair –- MaryJane – Catwa Mesh Head Applier – Artic (*new* @ Kinky)
Cae :: Infinity :: Necklace (*new* @ FaMESHed)
**RE** Exene Rings & Claws
Scandalize. Senuna (*new* @ Cosmopolitan)
Scandalize. SenunaHEELS (*new* @ Cosmopolitan)

Pose: FOXCITY. Bad Kitty VOL2 Bento Pose Set
FOXCITY. Photo Booth – Lipstick Lounge – Purple (*new* @ Cosmopolitan)

Build or Destroy

As we approach a new year, we have a tendency to make changes or at least attempt to make changes. We want to end some habits and start others. I’ve read that it takes anywhere between 21-66 days to develop a habit or break one. So, let’s say you just want to drink an extra glass of water every morning. That’s an easy one that will probably take about 3 weeks. You want to go to the gym 3 times a week, well, that might take a couple of months. The same is true for breaking habits.  So, as we approach a new year, its a great time for us to decide whether we’re going to build or destroy ourselves as well as each other.

Build or Destroy

wearing:
hair: Tableau Vivant \\ Gia hair  (*new* @ Kustom9)
head: CATWA HEAD Lilly
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
!Rebel Hope – Holiday Gift Earrings 2017
Cae :: Elena :: Collection (Dec FaMESHed)
Astralia – Compatible mesh nails system
^^Swallow^^ Shiny Bento Rings
Scandalize. MADEVA  (RARE Fatpack) (Dec Pocket Gacha)

pose:  Foxcity Lippy Set
Foxcity. Photo Booth – Choices GG12-17

Keep Your Head Up

I spend an inordinate amount of time in Second Life and there’s still not enough time to do everything I want to do, to see everything I want to see, to talk to everyone I want to talk to….so whenever I hear someone in Second Life say they’re bored…well, first I want to slap them. Secondly, I want to steal their time from them, because there is ALWAYS something to do! I’m sure I’ve written about it before, but I am never bored in either world. Aside from shopping, cuz let’s face it, sometimes we do go broke…there are live music shows, dance clubs, and there are new sims to explore all the time. Not to mention there are sims that have games for the avatars inworld. How can anyone be bored here?
If you find yourself getting bored, try hitting the destination guide. I used to play a game with my friends ages ago, too…you could give it a try. We’d pick a place and the first person we saw, we’d open their profile and teleport to the first place listed in their pics. Mind you, this can send you to someone’s private land, but it can still be worth a laugh. At each place you land, another person takes a turn finding a profile to perv and find a landmark. You’d be surprised how interesting this can be. So, keep your head up, there’s loads of things to do in Second Life and if you honestly can’t find anything to do…then log out. Go find something to do in Real Life…I bet you’ve got some household chores that could use your attention. I mean, really, when was the last time you cleaned the baseboards in your house? *grins*

superstar

wearing:
hair
: Blues. Oakley  (*new* @ Hair Fair 2017)
headCATWA HEAD Kathy
skin: Glam Affair – Kibi – Catwa Mesh Head Applier – America (*new* @ Crystal Heart)
bodyMaitreya Mesh Body – Lara
Cae :: Chelsea :: Necklace (*new* @ FaMESHed)
**RE** Zaria Bracelets
ChicModa // Julia Dress (*new* @ Cosmopolitan)
[Gos] Boutique – Kylie Slingbacks (*new* @ FaMESHed)

pose by Del May

location:  Elysion

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