Take Your Time

Why is everyone in such a hurry these days? I’m referring to SL relationships. We’ve all seen the people that jump in and out of relationships. Partnered to someone new every other week or month, then complain about why their relationships didn’t work. Seems like an awful lot of unnecessary drama and hurt feelings to me. I used to think I had a four month expiration date, because my average SL relationship was only lasting four months, but I didn’t rush into any of them. The last one I had, we dated quietly for months before telling anyone, much less becoming official. Now, I’ve been single for over 3 months and I simply can’t imagine rushing into anything with any of the men I’ve met. It can take weeks for me to even figure out whether or not I want to have sex with someone. Granted there are those that you know immediately that sex is definitely on the table, but in those instances I’m not expecting it to be anything but casual. I’m not an idiot. Sex does not equal love or even slove as my friend, Poppy, puts it. (I tend to agree with her on that.) I dunno, I guess we all have our pace. It just seems to me if you take your time and really get to know someone first, you might save yourself some heartache. Then again, what do I know….368 day of what I thought was magic turned out to be really disposable and I was easily replaced in no time at all. *shrugs* So, I have no idea who the hell I think I am giving relationship advice, but that’s what’s on my mind today. So, that’s what you get.

the wolf

Sady is wearing:
hair: #1 {Limerence} Nikol hair(Common1)-B&W
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: [theSkinnery]  Iris (Catwa Applier) toffee (*new* @ C88)
11. :BAMSE: Personal Choker – Bitch
SPIRIT – Peepa sweatshirt (*new* @ C88)
ChicModa // Piper skirt (*new* @ Cosmopolitan)
.Shi : Caleb Boots . Black / Bento (*new* @ TMD)

Gotz is wearing:
hair: Unorthodox Manny Hair
head: CATWA HEAD Daniel
Stretched ears-Omimi- [MANDALA]
body: [Signature] Gianni – Body
Howl – CHEN bombers jacket
[Deadwool] Chase sneakers

pose: [ATI] Adore (*new* @ Suicide Dollz)

FOXCITY. K-POP Star 2 – As If (Rez) (1) RARE (*new* @ Arcade)



There’s a poem by Maya Angelou, Caged Bird. Its one of those poems that sat on my chest like a 20lb cat. It weighed so heavily on my heart that is almost felt as though I were being crushed. I love the contrast of the free bird versus the caged bird. The free bird hasn’t the worries or restrictions of the caged bird. Yet, the caged bird chooses to sing anyway. The caged bird sings of hope, dreams, and fantasies. It is those songs that keeps the caged bird moving forward in its limited space. While the free bird might sing, I imagine the songs are hollow and not nearly as beautiful as the “fearful trill.”
Obviously the poem is not literally about birds. Its symbolism in its purest form really. Yet, it still makes me think. It takes my mind in so many directions. Not just the original meaning, but about each of us as individuals. How often do we cage ourselves? And for what reason? I spend more than 50% of my day in my bedroom, as my computer is in here, my smart tv, my bed…all my favorite comforts of home. Why? Though I sit in front of a window, there is nothing keeping me locked in here. So, why don’t I go outside more? Granted, I don’t like the people around here too much, but no one is forcing me to speak to anyone when I leave my house. I’ve even been to jail and I remember how badly I craved the fresh air, a natural breeze. How I longed to hear the rustling of leaves and the songs of birds….even the laughter of those little demon spawns people call children. *grins*
I’ve gotten too comfortable in my little cage of comforts. I’ve become complacent and in most 12 step programs there’s a common saying about complacency being a red light indicator. In other words, when we become too comfortable…too complacent in our lives, we are setting ourselves up for bad decision making and that’s never been more true in my life. I’ve made some very poor decisions in the last few months. Acting out (mostly in SL) in ways that I never have before and its time for me to stop. I’ve already reduced my blogging load by focusing more on fashion and less on home decor. Yet, I still find myself sitting at this desk focused far more on my blog than on my real life.
I am not a religious person by a long shot, but Easter is about Christ being reborn, right? Well, I think I’ll borrow a page from the Bible and use Easter as a form of rebirth of my own. I’m going to cut back a bit more on the blog and I’m going to be leaving my house for five days on Easter weekend. I’m going to see my darling Nikole. This will be the second time we’ve met in real life, but it’ll be my first time visiting her at her house. I’m super excited about the trip and I’m about to embrace some really positive changes in my life. I will no longer be caged by my own hands.


hair: #12 {Limerence} Sammy hair-Blonds (*new* @ Imaginarium)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: [theSkinnery]  Iris (Catwa Applier) toffee (*new* @ C88)
tattoo: [ATI] Mai.. (*new* @ TWE12VE)
LYBRA  . SADYSTIKA (*new* @ Whore Couture)
_CandyDoll_ Gina Heels (*new* @ FaMESHed)

pose:  FOXCITY. Wild & Free Bento Pose Set

FOXCITY. K-POP Star 2 – Ringa Linga (Rez) (3) RARE (*new* @ Arcade)
Fapple– The little slave bed
Fapple– BDSM Tool Box

More Skin

Some people on Facebook have expressed surprise at the fact that there’s so much more than just skin at the Skin Fair. It’s always been more than skin, at least as far back as I can remember. Last year several new bento heads were introduced. This year I’ve not seen as many heads being released. However, there are lots of shapes, tattoos, and cosmetics, as well as an abundance of skins.  Seriously, reduce your scripts and your complexity as much as you can, then head on over and check it out. There’s plenty of amazing creations for everyone.
Today I’m showing you the A R T E – Sweetie Skin. I just love how the light catches on this skin and couldn’t resist going black and white for the main photo. However, you can see all three shades in the photo at the bottom.

skin fair 3

hair:  [monso] My Hair – Jenny (*new* @ C88)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: A R T E – Sweetie Skin – Porcelain (*new* @ Skin Fair)
tattoo: [ATI] Marcel (*new* @ Darkness Monthly)
_CandyDoll_ Alexa Top (*new* @ Whore Couture)

all poses by Foxcity

.::Dead Dollz::. Hush Lingerie Set
A R T E – Sweetie Skin



I’m watching this documentary about a girl in Austria that was kidnapped by her father in 1984 and was held captive in the basement for 24 years. He raped and abused her. She gave birth to seven children and none of them had ever left the basement. Of course, upon discovery of all this, the media poured into this little town. His life and his entire family’s life is put under a microscope…exposing every skeleton in all of their closets. They discover that the father had a terrible childhood, but has become even more of a monster than his mother ever way.
This man was so determined in his plan that he essentially built and entire house underneath his real house. I remember as a kid, hearing the horror stories of my father’s childhood and thinking what a monster my grandmother was. Over the years, I grew to suspect that my own father was a serial killer. I’m sure it was just an overactive imagination, but until he dies it would not surprise me to find out that my father committed heinous crimes.
This story, though, is insane. He supposedly raped his daughter over 3000 times over the years. All of her children were delivered in the basement….alone. Her captive gave her a clean towel and a pair of scissors, nothing else. The craziest part of this all is that he had seven other children and a wife living the house above the captive apartment in the ground. They were all completely oblivious to what was going on right under their feet. There’s so much more to the story and if you’re interested the name of the show is Real Crime Chronicles on Amazon Prime. I’m just so saddened that this world is so mad and so many lives are left forever exposed as little more than a show for people like me to watch.
A good friend of mine recently said that he was beginning to lose all hope for humanity. He said this because of how people treat each other in SL, but the truth of the matter is….the entire world is mad and while I refuse to give up on humanity as a whole, I can certainly understand those that do.


hair:  MINA – Mabel (*new* @ Uber)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: [theSkinnery] Saska (Catwa Applier) honey
_CandyDoll_ Layla Dress (*new* @ C88)
_CandyDoll_ Layla Boots (*new* @ C88)

pose: GingerFish Poses – Cinema Verite
anxiety %24/7



Love is such a complicated thing. Its never as easy as the movies, is it? Meet cute, can’t stop thinking about each other, then another conveniently timed accidental meeting, then proceed through a montage of dating scenes, obligatory sex scenes, a teensy hiccup to show how they handle a fight, and then happily ever after. *sighs* Sadly, reality isn’t quite that easy.

We’ve all been there…a crush on the man that is dating someone you know. Perhaps you don’t know them very well, but she’s certainly nice enough and you’d never hurt her. So, you watch with longing for a while and eventually just let go. Hope is lost. Its not meant to be, she was there first and that’s that, isn’t it? Then some time passes and you find out he’s not with her anymore. You haven’t seen her in years. You don’t even know where she wound up. Oh goddamnit, he’s already dating someone else. *sighs* You don’t know her at all. Hmmm. Oh he’s not happy? That’s too bad. *hangs her head* You watch with a guilty belly hoping that this might be your chance….but your chance to what exactly? It’s been a crush all these years. What do you really know about him? What if he turns out to be a jerk. Is this one of those times the fantasy is better than the reality? Probably. *walks away*

do what's right
If I could force my heart, my ears, my mind
And eyes to get in line
Maybe I’ll find something real
Not a fantasy so divine
Let myself down each time
Let myself down each time

hair: DOUX – Shawnte (*new* @ Tres Chic)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
Dahlia – Jennifer – Sunglasses  (*new* @ REWIND)
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: Glam Affair –- MaryJane
AZOURY – Don Jewelry (*new* @ TLC)
(Yummy) Raining Diamonds (*new* @ C88)

pose: FOXCITY. Breather VOL2 Animated Pose Set (*new* @ Kustom9)


Ghost of Love

Marie Fisker – Ghost of Love

Ghost of love bound unto your name;
So it be running thru my veins;
Yesterday I fell out of grace,
I made you feel bad again,
I wanted all your reasons explained;
guess I wanted too much, guess I wanted too much.
Gonna stay humbled to this rock.
Silently when I know that I belong.
Tell me stay on the right track,
You know I have faith and beliefs
In my life and just.
I guess I wanted that much…

capture time

hair: Doe: Crinkle Fries (*new* @ REWIND)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: Glam Affair –- MaryJane
Blueberry – Foxy – Back Tied Dress (*new* @ C88)
Blueberry – Foxy Boots  (*new* @ REWIND)

pose: FOXCITY. Sass Bento Pose Set (*new* @ Limit8)
FOXCITY. Photo Booth – Blank Minds (*new* @ Kustom9)


You’ll See Me Return

Sometimes when I get in the zone of taking photos like I did yesterday, I will turn on one of my youtube playlists and let the music guide me through my personal maze of creativity. This song has been a favorite of mine for so very long. With yesterday being Valentine’s day and finding out that my RL husband has a new girlfriend was uhm….how can I put this delicately? Yeah, there’s not a way, so I’ll just leave it here like a lead weight and you can imagine for yourself. So, while I didn’t link the entire song’s lyrics….yes, it is still mostly a music post.

“And I never meant to hurt you
I swear I didn’t mean
Those things I said
I never meant to do that to you
Next time I’ll keep my hands to myself instead
Oh, does she love you
What do you want to do?
Does she need you like I do?
Do you love her?
Is she good for you?
Does she hold you like I do?
Do you want me?
Should I leave?
I know you’re always telling me
That you love me
Just sometimes I wonder If I should believe
Oh, I love you God,
I love you
I’d kill a dragon for you
I’ll die”
~Sinead O’Connor Troy

GiaRewind Cosmetics
You should’ve left the light on

*LODE* Head Accessory – Juliet [iceberg]
hair: Stealthic – Passion (*new* @ C88)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: Glam Affair –- MaryJane – Catwa Mesh Head Applier
Bossie. Y2K eyeshadows  (*new* @ REWIND)
Bossie. Y2K lipsticks & gloss (*new* @ REWIND)
EF: Majesty Choker (*new* @ FaMESHed)
!Rebel Hope – Gia Mesh Dress (*new* @ FaMESHed)

pose is just from my AO


Waking Up

I feel like I’m just waking up to a tornado of lists. I’ve been hard at work on this picture all day. I had it all done and edited. Inserted the photo, was listing the credits and realized that my painting over the fireplace was backwards. No wonder that picture didn’t make sense to me. *giggles* Luckily everything was still in place, including me. So, yeah, that’s all I’ve got to say about it, cuz my head is still swimming like crazy. I’ll be doubling down on blogging, so I can only guess what sort of madness is headed your way from me.

waking up


hair:  [RA]  Sady Hair (*new* @ C88) squeeeee!
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: Glam Affair –- MaryJane – Catwa Mesh Head Applier – Jamaica (*new* @ Kinky)
[Cynful]  Rainy Baby – Hoodie + Panty Set (*new* @ C88)

JIAN Beagle Pup (Nov Luxe Box)

pose:  Bauhaus Movement – Hearts Burst Into Fire Poses (*new* @ TLC)

Fancy Decor: Jansen Collection (*new* @ FaMESHed)
-Fancy Decor: Cube Table
-Fancy Decor: Velvet Swivel Chair (black)
-Fancy Decor: Jansen Candles
-Fancy Decor: Jansen Painting

Fancy Decor: Fulton Coffee Table
Fancy Decor: Fulton Rug
Fancy Decor: Triangle Candle (black)
Fancy Decor: Gray Vase
Fancy Decor: White Vase
Fancy Decor: Black Vase
Fancy Decor: Brush Art
Fancy Decor: Books & Bookends (black & gold)
Fancy Decor: Pillar Fireplace (white)

tres blah– Hodgepodge – Stacked Magazines

MudHoney Carter Entertainment Center Set (*new* @ FaMESHed)
-MudHoney Trophy Bowl
-MudHoney Basket Vase
-MudHoney Bent Candlesticks
-MudHoney Stone Pyramid

PILOT – Book and Tablet Stack
PILOT – Fido [Carbon]

Ariskea [Ophelia] Fake Plant (*new* @ FaMESHed)

Alouette – Antique TV Bookcase (#2)

Apple Fall Huge Fan Palm


My Cup

I have been on my death bed for…well, today is day 6 and I swear this has to end soon or I’m going insane for sure. I was gonna try to write about how blessed I am and how my cup runneth over, but I’m not feeling so blessed right now. At the moment, I’m feeling like fresh road kill that’s still twitching. So, the only thing in my cup right now is cold meds, juice, soup, more cold meds, tea…DEATH.
So, yeah, I don’t have a lot to say except, “KMN!”

my cup

hair:  [RA]  Shelby Hair (*new* @ C88)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: Glam Affair –- MaryJane
#17 Sintiklia  – Sweet berry – Choker white
(Yummy) Bohemia Ring Set
[Cynful] Lucid Dream – Bra + Panty set (*new* @ FrouFrou)

I can’t tell you what Leric was wearing, because he’s a butthead and won’t answer questions. I really appreciate his company and his help with this shot.

pose: FOXCITY.. You’re My Cuppa Tea (*new* @ Shop Your Heart Out By Linden Labs)



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