She Is Real

Today, I’m just sharing a poem I wrote about a little of a year ago. I hope you like it.

She Is Real

She steals my breath
Speeds my heart
Keeps me awake
Just by saying
Hello Baby

She pushes me harder
Lifts me up
Shoves me into life
Just by sharing
Her time

She blinds me
While helping me see
She weakens me
By giving me strength
She calms me
With a surge of life

She

She sends me

She sends me to a place so deep
Even she
Has no idea
Where it takes me

She moves me to the edge of my seat
Shielding me from ridiculous fears
By illuminating my bravery
With her courage
And her strength

She

She steals my words
While forcing my pen to paper
In her honor

She occupies my thoughts
She touches me
She touches my soul
She touches my heart

She

She is real

~Sady

wearing: 
hair:  RAMA.SALON – Alexandra Hair (*new* @ FaMESHed)
head: CATWA HEAD Kathy
skin: Glam Affair – Polly – Catwa Mesh Head Applier – Jamaica (*new* @ Arcade)
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
Cae :: Madison :: Collection (necklace & earrings)
BUENO Clutch – Red
Scandalize. Mina (*new* @ FaMESHed)
#EMPIRE – Snapdragon (June Luxe Box)

pose by FOXCITY Formal VOL1 Bento Set
background: Pseudo– Black Lounge Scene

Most Girls

“You know some days you feel so good in your own skin
But it’s okay if you wanna change the body that you came in
‘Cause you look greatest when you feel like a damn queen
We’re all just playing a game in a way, trying to win at life”
Hailee Steinfeld – Most Girls

If you’re a girl, you’ve had to have heard it at least once in your life, “You’re not like most girls.” Of course, I’m not. We’re all different. There are some common factors though and I think that proves true in Second Life more than anywhere else, because in SL most girls want their avatar to be the epitome of beauty as they see it. Oh sure, there are lots of us looking around at other girls in SL thinking, “WTF?” Truth be told, they either love the way they look or they’re simply having fun with their avatar and probably change their avatars regularly. Even if we think an avatar is outdated with bling and/or flexi hair/clothes…a system body/head…perhaps those girls simply don’t like the look of mesh or maybe their computers can’t handle it. Its not for me to say and sure, I’m guilty of giggling with my friends about other avatars, but at the end of the day…who is to say they’re not giggling at us? I’m not trying to make anyone feel guilty for the giggles, so long as those giggles and remarks are kept among friends. I’m not even saying that I won’t do it anymore, because I know I will. What I am saying is that we all have something about our avatars that someone else doesn’t like, but so long as we’re happy with ourselves…our avatars…our representations in a virtual world…THAT is what matters the most, isn’t it? So, if you have a tall thin avatar that resembles an anorexic runway model in the real world, but you love it…good for you and don’t you let anyone change your mind about that. If you have the enormous boobs and butt with the itty bitty waist, but you love it…good. There’s enough body shaming in the real world. Don’t you dare let anyone tell you that your avatar isn’t right, if YOU love it. Now, if you don’t love it…might I suggest you peruse some blogs and create a look you will love? *grins* Oh, just go enjoy the song, do some shopping, and laugh…it is Friday after all…hell, have a drink or five. Live your life and stop worrying about what most girls and doing and be you. ♥

wearing:
hair: TRUTH / Rumor
head: CATWA HEAD Kathy
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
tattoo: .::Nanika::. Alexandra tattoo Black Maitreya
skirt: {le fil casse} Lilith Skirt (*new* @ Somber)

pose by Foxcity (Cutiepie set)
BUENO-Onyx Hall (*new* @ Kustom9)

Pug Life

Alright, get ready for a journey down the rabbit hole of Sady’s mind, once again, because this post is all about the stuff and how my mind put it all together…I’m just going to write stream of consciousness here, soooo…buckle your seat belts, its going to be a helluva ride!
Okay, so I have three pictures to show you, because I’ve got soooo much to go over with you! First off, let me mention the five main designers I’m trying to showcase here. We’ve got super cute hair from Mina at FaMESHed, a rad tattoo from RedFish at Kinky, a super sexy outfit from le fil casse for the Arcade, some of Bueno’s arcade set, AND some of the She Pop Band Set that unKindness released recently at REWIND! It really wasn’t my intention to mix soooo many great designers into one scene, but sometimes things just fall together that way, ya know?
Okay, so this first picture *points below* is the whole scene with all the stuff, me, and lots of little extras I gave the my Pug Life scene. If you’re going to do a post called PugLife, you gotta have some pugs, right? So, purple and black are the base colors, but I couldn’t stop there…I had to add others. So, this is a smorgasbord of stuff that I really thought worked well together. It might be a bit cluttery for some, but I have yet to tear down this scene, because I like it sooo much! Oh and I have a weakness for signs, especially neon for some reason. I have no explanation for it and none in real life, but as Josh pointed out. Its not really that easy to own a lot of neon in real life, is it? I dunno, I know I don’t have any, never have. Okay, okay, I like shiny things, sue me!

So, one of the things I did was use pieces from the She Pop Band Set, that unKindness released recently at REWIND, in a different way. I saw the drum set and thought it would make the perfect way to display my MishMish pugs! Naturally that led me to slap the keyboard and guitar on the wall. Music is a huge part of my life, but I’ve got not musical talents whatsoever! I’m all about thinking outside the box…actually, I’m not sure I know how to think inside the box. *laughs*
You’ll also notice the gorgeous outfit I’m wearing and by sharing multiple pictures you can see it from other angles, as well as the sweet little tattoo that runs up and down both my legs, front and back. Plus, how freaking adorable is this hair?!?!?! I know, I know…too freaking cute!

I just couldn’t decide which picture best showcased everything I wanted to show you, so I decided it was time for multiples. I haven’t done multiple pics in a while and rarely does more than one show up on my Flickr page. However, this time will be different. I’m going to take the chance and post all three this time around, because I really want you everyone to see all this good stuff. Maybe I’m crazy…yeah, okay, we know I am…its even been certified…I know…you must be shocked. *laughs*
Yeah, so I’ve rambled on mindlessly about all the awesome stuff I’m wanting to show off and its not too often that I go on and on about the photos and the stuff this way…or cram so much into one post, but c’mon, you gotta admit, its pretty awesome, right? Oh just be nice and agree, cuz I’m excited!

wearing:
hair: MINA – Marre (*new* @ FaMESHed)
head: CATWA HEAD Kathy
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
tattoo: RedFish – Say please (*new* @ Kinky)

{le fil casse} Adriana Slip Maitreya RARE (*new* @ Arcade)
{le fil casse} Adriana Panty Maitreya Purple (*new* @ Arcade)
{le fil casse} Adriana Heels Maitreya RARE (*new* @ Arcade)

poses by Fashiowl

scene:
set up in BUENO-Stone Skybox RARE (*new* @ Arcade)
BUENO– Bike-Silver
BUENO-Cupcake ATM Purple (*new* @ Arcade)
BUENO-Deco Bag
JIAN Love Pugs 2. Sleepy Treater RARE
BUENO-Floor Pillow-Night (*new* @ Arcade)
Apt B // Retro Label – Restricted Sign
floorplan. street girls sign
7 – Stop Sign
BUENO -Pug Life-Purple (*new* @ Arcade)
BUENO– Night Sofa (*new* @ Arcade)
BUENO– Rug -Block (*new* @ Arcade)
BUENO-Pillows Pile-Night (*new* @ Arcade)
BUENO – Whiskey Cooler (*new* @ Arcade)
+Half-Deer+ Pet Succulents – Pug Puppy x
uK – She Pop Drum Set (*new* @ REWIND)
*MishMish* Pugs Love TV – Piper Pugman
*MishMish* Pugs Love TV – Sestra
*MishMish* Pugs Love TV – D’oh!
*MishMish* Pugs Love TV – Zombie Killer
*MishMish* Pugs Love TV – Dr. Pug
*MishMish* Pugs Love TV – The Spot Hypothesis
*MishMish* Pugs Love TV – The Cook
*MishMish* Pugs Love TV – Snow
uK – She-Pop Keyboard (*new* @ REWIND)
uK – She-Pop Guitar (*new* @ REWIND)
BUENO-Skull Pop Deco
The Horror!~ Psychic Sign (Purple)
BUENO-Neon Sugar Skull Sign
[ free bird ] Bleeding Heart Neon Sign
BUENO -Pugs and kisses -Purple (*new* @ Arcade)
BUENO-Night Bed (*new* @ Arcade)
BUENO-Laptop Hustle
BUENO-Magazine Stack 2
JIAN Love Pugs 5. Sleepy Family
BUENO– Vintage Stereo Conspiracy

Turn Your Back On It

I see a lot of threads on Facebook about people getting mad at each other for commenting on shady comments directed at them, while the person commenting had no idea who it was about and didn’t care. As I’m not sure that reads correctly, lets put some fake names on it, using the alphabet, okay?

A makes a shady status update on Facebook about Z. B makes a comment on said shady status having no idea who the original comment was about. Z sees it, knows that A is talking about them and now wonders if B has a problem with them, as well. Now B has hurt feelings and is confused. In the confusion, B sends a message to Z asking what’s up? Z clearly has no idea what B is talking about and now they have beef, too. So, essentially whatever bond B and Z might have had…well, its damaged over something that had nothing to do with Z in the first place.

Here’s another example, albeit extreme, it does happen. Y makes a shady status update about X. Now D comes along this status on their feed and makes a comment. X is downright pissed off and unfriends D. Until now, D was clueless about the true drama, but after the tantrum that X throws by unfriending D…well, D isn’t all that bothered, but is now amused enough to share the experience elsewhere on Facebook.
Do you see where this is going?

I actually have my own little story that coincides with this. About 2 1/2 years ago, I went through a really nasty break up and the ex was ranting all over Facebook in her ever true to narcissistic fashion via passive aggressive status updates….all aimed at me, of course, but oddly enough hidden from me, as well. We can’t allow the subject of our passive aggressive posts to defend themselves, now can we? *laughs* Okay, so we all know how this goes, right? You might hide the status from the intended subject, but you have common “friends” and someone always likes to stir the pot by running and telling everything they see. And so it was one fateful night that I sat around with some new and old friends playing some Cards Against Humanity. I get a random IM from someone that had not spoken to me in month,s showing me exactly what was said by the EX and all the people that commented on it. Two of the people that commented knew exactly who it was about and yes, I unfriended them. However, there was one comment made by someone sitting at the very table I was playing the game with me. As her SL name differed slightly from her FB name, I asked her who she was on Facebook. She confirmed that she was the person in question. So, I advised her rather quickly and a bit curtly that I was not “emotionally stunted” as she had commented on my ex’s post. I could tell by her embarrassment and apology that she truly had no idea that the ex was speaking of me, as she barely knew either of us and had only seen us around and not really together when she did. Mind you, in addition to her apology she deleted her comment immediately and is now one of my absolute best friends. We’ve never even come close to having a disagreement since that night. We were kinda lucky in the sense that we were able to sort it out right away and move forward.
However, as you can imagine, there are a lot of ways this can go down. Most of them only end in hurt feelings, lost friendships, and missed opportunities. So…the moral of this post is that if you don’t know what/who the shady status is about…then its best to keep on scrolling. Now, if you do know and wanna throw shade…knock yourselves out, but just remember, you’re feeding the drama llama…so don’t go running to your profile with that “I don’t do drama” bullshit cuz you clearly do. So, if you really want to avoid the drama, scroll on past the stuff that doesn’t concern you and turn your back on unnecessary drama. *nods and steps off her soap box*

wearing:
hair:  Beusy: Jaclyn Hairstyle (*new* @ REWIND)
head: CATWA HEAD Kathy
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skin: Glam Affair – Polly – Catwa Mesh Head Applier – Jamaica (*new* @ Kustom9)

BUENO-Swimsuit-Mat-Aqua (*new* @ Uber)

pose by Di’s Opera

locatioin: The Trace Too

Talk Derby to Me

Talk Derby to Me

Once upon a time…like a decade plus ago, I was involved with the local roller derby girls in my real life. Oh don’t be daft, my ass was not a derby girl. Let me explain. I was editor of my college newspaper, so I was always on the hunt for a good story that the readers might find interesting. Well, it just so happened that my boss’s daughter was the captain of the new local roller derby team. I scheduled an interview and before I knew it I was hooked. I was going to all of their matches and a my assistant editor had joined up! It was a brutal, but incredibly sexy sport.
I was telling Josh about it when I was taking this picture and he didn’t anything about it. So, I went to YouTube in search of some examples and it seems the rules have changed quite a bit since my days of hanging out with derby girls. However, in the event that you, too, are not aware of what it is or would just like to check it out, I’ve found a video of highlights that I enjoyed called Roller Derby-The Mad Whirl!  Perhaps, you will, too. Either way, I’m loving all the skating pictures that are about on the blogs and Flickr at the moment, because it is really taking me down a pretty awesome memory lane. So, here’s the video. If you watch it, you’ll probably see where I got the title for this post.

wearing:
hair:  pr!tty – Yuri – -Windy
head: CATWA HEAD Kathy
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skin: Glam Affair – Felicity – Catwa Mesh Head Applier – Jamaica (*new* @ C88)
facepaint: [LF] Native Paint 3 CATWA Applier
::SG:: GellyLips Catwa and Classi SL Heads
tattoo: [White~Widow] MatchPoint (*new* @ Uber)

::TI:: Grunge Face straps – Black Silver
.random.Matter. – Cermet Collar – Do Not Feed [Black]
BUENO-Rucy Top (*new* @ Kustom9)
{le fil casse} Minnie Skirt (*new* in Cutie Loot May)
fri. – Footless Socks (Athletic) (*new* @ Rewind)

pose by Di’s Opera

Astralia – Vintage backgrounds (Roller Rink) RARE (*new* @ Rewind)
REIGN.-  DERBY SKATES BAG- #13

Dreams Are Strange

Dreams are indeed strange things. There have been endless studies done about them and yet, still they remain a mystery. There are so many theories surrounding their meanings, but no one has a factual answer. What bewilders me the most is how some will haunt you for days, weeks, months, or even years, especially the reoccurring ones. I still remember this one nightmare I used to have when I was between the ages of 10-12 yrs old. I remember a series of violent nightmares I had every night for two weeks a few years ago. Its not just nightmares, there are good dreams, too. I remember some of the strangest most fantastic dreams. While others escape me only moments after I wake up.

Then there are those times that you’re having one of those great dreams that you don’t want to end, but you wake up to go pee….you rush back to bed hoping to slip back into that dream to no avail. Yet, the nightmares….you wake up in a panic, overwhelmed with fear. You shake it off. You go back to sleep comforted by the idea of a new dream…or just maybe you won’t remember your dream, at all! But without fail, almost every time you find yourself right back in that same nightmare! Well, that’s what happens to me, at least.

Well, there’s nothing nightmarish about the Dreamer’s Sky set from unKindness at Gacha Garden. This is the stuff of good and fantastical dreams….and a great opportunity for some dreamtastic pictures! Yes, I made up that word, feel free to use it. *grins*

wearing:
hair:  MINA – Lara – (*new* @ Rewind)
head: CATWA HEAD Kathy
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skin: Glam Affair – Felicity – Catwa Mesh Head Applier – Jamaica (*new* @ C88)
tattoo:  .::Nanika::. Alexandra tattoo Black (*new* @ ON9)

BUENO-Lingerie (*new* @ ROMP)
Phedora ~ Emily heels (*new* in Cutie Loot May)

pose by Bauhaus Movement

scene:
uK – Dreamer’s Sky Reverie Theater RARE (*new* @ Gacha Garden)
uK – Dreamer’s Sky Dreamy Fog (*new* @ Gacha Garden)
uK – Dreamer’s Sky Puddles Blue (*new* @ Gacha Garden)
uK – Dreamer’s Sky Slumber Circlet (*new* @ Gacha Garden)

See, Tracy?

Once upon a time, my friend Tracy came to my house in Second Life. We sat on the couch and were playing with the poses (PG poses, you pervs!) and one of them made it look like I was petting her knee. Thus began a long standing joke about Tracy and her hairy knees. So, when I was looking for a pose to show off these gorgeous new wedges from Bueno, I ran across this one from Klubwerk. The first thought in my head was, “See, Tracy? This is what smooth legs look and feel like…is nice, yeah?” For some reason this was also said in a strange foreign accent like the one used for Brüno in that crazy movie.
So there you have it, a little peak into the bizarre mind of me! You also see what Tracy puts up with as my friend. Lucky for me, she’s a good sport and takes it all in stride…even if she has hairy knees.

wearing:
hair:  [^.^Ayashi^.^] Sakura hair (*new* @ Bloom)
head: CATWA HEAD Kathy
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara

.:E.A.Studio:.BOX Thetra Nails & Ring Set (*new* @ Tres Chic)
KITJA x :PARKER: – Tasha Top (*new* @ Kustom9)
KITJA x :PARKER: – Tasha Shorts (*new* @ Kustom9)
BUENO– Wedges (*new* @ Kustom9)

pose by KlubWerK.poses

scene set up in 22769 – Patio – RARE (*new* @ Bloom)
22769 – Patio Chair Sunset – COMMON (*new* @ Bloom)
22769 – Sheer Boho Drape – COMMON (*new* @ Bloom)