Take Your Time

Why is everyone in such a hurry these days? I’m referring to SL relationships. We’ve all seen the people that jump in and out of relationships. Partnered to someone new every other week or month, then complain about why their relationships didn’t work. Seems like an awful lot of unnecessary drama and hurt feelings to me. I used to think I had a four month expiration date, because my average SL relationship was only lasting four months, but I didn’t rush into any of them. The last one I had, we dated quietly for months before telling anyone, much less becoming official. Now, I’ve been single for over 3 months and I simply can’t imagine rushing into anything with any of the men I’ve met. It can take weeks for me to even figure out whether or not I want to have sex with someone. Granted there are those that you know immediately that sex is definitely on the table, but in those instances I’m not expecting it to be anything but casual. I’m not an idiot. Sex does not equal love or even slove as my friend, Poppy, puts it. (I tend to agree with her on that.) I dunno, I guess we all have our pace. It just seems to me if you take your time and really get to know someone first, you might save yourself some heartache. Then again, what do I know….368 day of what I thought was magic turned out to be really disposable and I was easily replaced in no time at all. *shrugs* So, I have no idea who the hell I think I am giving relationship advice, but that’s what’s on my mind today. So, that’s what you get.

the wolf

Sady is wearing:
hair: #1 {Limerence} Nikol hair(Common1)-B&W
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: [theSkinnery]  Iris (Catwa Applier) toffee (*new* @ C88)
11. :BAMSE: Personal Choker – Bitch
SPIRIT – Peepa sweatshirt (*new* @ C88)
ChicModa // Piper skirt (*new* @ Cosmopolitan)
.Shi : Caleb Boots . Black / Bento (*new* @ TMD)

Gotz is wearing:
hair: Unorthodox Manny Hair
head: CATWA HEAD Daniel
Stretched ears-Omimi- [MANDALA]
body: [Signature] Gianni – Body
Howl – CHEN bombers jacket
[Deadwool] Chase sneakers

pose: [ATI] Adore (*new* @ Suicide Dollz)

FOXCITY. K-POP Star 2 – As If (Rez) (1) RARE (*new* @ Arcade)



There’s a poem by Maya Angelou, Caged Bird. Its one of those poems that sat on my chest like a 20lb cat. It weighed so heavily on my heart that is almost felt as though I were being crushed. I love the contrast of the free bird versus the caged bird. The free bird hasn’t the worries or restrictions of the caged bird. Yet, the caged bird chooses to sing anyway. The caged bird sings of hope, dreams, and fantasies. It is those songs that keeps the caged bird moving forward in its limited space. While the free bird might sing, I imagine the songs are hollow and not nearly as beautiful as the “fearful trill.”
Obviously the poem is not literally about birds. Its symbolism in its purest form really. Yet, it still makes me think. It takes my mind in so many directions. Not just the original meaning, but about each of us as individuals. How often do we cage ourselves? And for what reason? I spend more than 50% of my day in my bedroom, as my computer is in here, my smart tv, my bed…all my favorite comforts of home. Why? Though I sit in front of a window, there is nothing keeping me locked in here. So, why don’t I go outside more? Granted, I don’t like the people around here too much, but no one is forcing me to speak to anyone when I leave my house. I’ve even been to jail and I remember how badly I craved the fresh air, a natural breeze. How I longed to hear the rustling of leaves and the songs of birds….even the laughter of those little demon spawns people call children. *grins*
I’ve gotten too comfortable in my little cage of comforts. I’ve become complacent and in most 12 step programs there’s a common saying about complacency being a red light indicator. In other words, when we become too comfortable…too complacent in our lives, we are setting ourselves up for bad decision making and that’s never been more true in my life. I’ve made some very poor decisions in the last few months. Acting out (mostly in SL) in ways that I never have before and its time for me to stop. I’ve already reduced my blogging load by focusing more on fashion and less on home decor. Yet, I still find myself sitting at this desk focused far more on my blog than on my real life.
I am not a religious person by a long shot, but Easter is about Christ being reborn, right? Well, I think I’ll borrow a page from the Bible and use Easter as a form of rebirth of my own. I’m going to cut back a bit more on the blog and I’m going to be leaving my house for five days on Easter weekend. I’m going to see my darling Nikole. This will be the second time we’ve met in real life, but it’ll be my first time visiting her at her house. I’m super excited about the trip and I’m about to embrace some really positive changes in my life. I will no longer be caged by my own hands.


hair: #12 {Limerence} Sammy hair-Blonds (*new* @ Imaginarium)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: [theSkinnery]  Iris (Catwa Applier) toffee (*new* @ C88)
tattoo: [ATI] Mai.. (*new* @ TWE12VE)
LYBRA  . SADYSTIKA (*new* @ Whore Couture)
_CandyDoll_ Gina Heels (*new* @ FaMESHed)

pose:  FOXCITY. Wild & Free Bento Pose Set

FOXCITY. K-POP Star 2 – Ringa Linga (Rez) (3) RARE (*new* @ Arcade)
Fapple– The little slave bed
Fapple– BDSM Tool Box

Squeal Worthy

I don’t think guys do this, but I can’t be sure. I am pretty sure they wouldn’t admit it. However, almost all girls I’ve ever known has done this. Oh, I’m sorry, what is THIS? Well, its all about that message we received or perceived. However, I have been known to throw myself across a bed and flail my legs about as I squeal over whatever fortune has befallen me. Whether I was squealing about having completed my final exams with flying colors or the guy I’ve liked forever is finally looking my way. Oh it could be as simple a new pair of boots that I’ve wanted for a very long time and I don’t want to take them off. I just want to swoon over them for a while.
Either way, I’ve had a few rather rough days lately, nothing I really want to talk about. However, I’m hoping we all get some squeal worthy moments as we approach the weekend. I think we all deserve it, don’t you?

the message

hair:  [RA] Mikaela Hair  (*new* @ FaMESHed)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
SU!– Nude Lip Gloss Collection
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: [theSkinnery]  Saska (Catwa Applier) honey
::SG:: Sophia stileto BENTO MESH NAILS (*new* @ SKIN FAIR)
[Cynful] Micaela Dress (*new* @ FaMESHed)
_CandyDoll_ Mya Boots – (*new* @ Whore Couture)

pose: FOXCITY. Hella Cute Bento Pose Set (head position edited w/AnyPose)

BUENO -Minimal Living Gacha (*new* @ Arcade)
-BUENO- Minimal Living Apts Spring- RARE
-BUENO-Dreaming Bed- RARE
-BUENO-Journals Clutter-Pinky
-BUENO-Simple Chair-Floral
-BUENO-Happy Hour Neon -Pink
-BUENO-Cactus- White (comes soft linked to BUENO-Lamp-Pink)
-BUENO-Type Pad-Pink
-BUENO-Wall Organizer – Pink
-BUENO-Pencil Holder- Pink (comes soft linked to BUENO-Empty Cup-Dreams)
-BUENO-Bunny Speaker-Pink
-BUENO-Simple Chair-Marble

BUENO– Foxy Pal Sir Fox RARE (*new* @ Arcade)
BUENO- Foxy Pal Ballerina RARE (*new* @ Arcade)

[Bad Unicorn] Not So Welcome Mat (12 Texture Options)
[Bad Unicorn] ‘Pizza or Boobs?’ Heart Pizza

dust bunny . spotted begonia
:CP: Herman Planter White


Watching Me

There’s something about knowing you’re being watched, but they don’t know you know. Perhaps it’s just me, I mean, I know can’t be the only that feels that way or the song below wouldn’t have become so damn popular. Once upon I couldn’t stand the idea of anyone watching me…..and to be perfectly honest, I’m still not a fan of that in RL. However, believe it or not, I used to get embarrassed in SL.
Then along came a very handsome and interesting neighbor. I discovered his crosshairs on me and realized I didn’t have the privacy set on my land. Instead of setting it, I gave him a show. *laughs* Funny thing is, we’ve been close friends ever since, but we’ve yet to mess around. I say, yet, cuz stranger things have happened.

for you
So much left unspoken
Between the two of us
It’s so much more exciting
To look when you can touch
You could say I am different
And maybe I’m a freak
But I know how to twist ya
To bring you to your knees

Cruel is wearing:
body: [SIGNATURE] Geralt – Mesh Body  *NEW*
tattoo: [ATI] Nightmare…
5.::GB:: Color denib pants / Black

Sady is wearing:
hair:  [RA] Katia Hair (*new* @ WhoreCouture)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: [theSkinnery]  Saska (Catwa Applier) honey
LYBRA . MISA  (*new* @ FaMESHed)
{Nena} Pantyhose v1

pose created with AnyPose
FOXCITY. K-POP Star 2. (2) So Crazy (Common) (*new* @ Arcade)


White Flag

I’m guessing by now that my regular readers have noticed that I’m trying very hard to get away from posting song links & copy/pasting lyrics. I’ve decided instead to explain why some songs are so special to me and why they’ve ended up on my personal soundtrack. So, now if you’re interested the video is embedded at the bottom of the post and if you right click on it, you can open that up in a new window.
Alright, so Dido’s White Flag….this song means so freaking much to me. It reminds me of a real life relationship I had many years ago with a guy we’ll call Bran. I fell in love with Dido about the same time I fell for him. Sadly, he didn’t quite love me the same way and my love for him was a tad bit unrequited. Though, you couldn’t convince any of our friends that we weren’t a couple. *laughs* Its a much longer story than I care to type out. However, with that said, I did have to finally let go…as I found something rather suspicious on his computer and I was never comfortable around him again. *sighs* At the time that I had such strong feelings for Bran, there’s simply nothing anyone could have said to make me give up, thus this song resonated with me.

seeing dots

Sady is wearing:
hair: [monso] My Hair – Summer  (*new* @ FaMESHed)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: [theSkinnery]  Saska
!Rebel Hope – Nancy Mesh Dress (*new* @ Uber)

pose: [ATI] Tamar Set (*new* @ ELITE)
FOXCITY. K-POP Star 2. (4) Hush – White (Common) (*new* @ Arcade)


I Won’t Keep Watching

Once in a while we fight doing the right thing, because we’re not sure what that is. Cutting people from our lives is a lot like that. Its hard, because you’re ditching your loyalty. That’s pretty serious, but it would seem that sometimes our loyalty needs to be to ourselves first and foremost. If we don’t treat ourselves the way we want to be treated, how will anyone else even begin to figure out what we want.
I believe I must be at an advantage here, because as a child we moved every 2-3 yrs. So, I was constantly saying goodbye to people and letting go. By the time I grew up, letting go and walking away was far easier for me than others. The challenge for me was to stop walking away. Eventually, I started hanging on to people for dear life. I was scared to death that if I kept walking away, I’d never learn to just be in the here and now. I wasn’t running, I was simply walking away from anyone and anything that didn’t enhance my life. Now, I’m starting to understand what its like for other people and the struggle to let people go. However, one thing I’ll never have to fight or struggle with for long is letting go of some I feel is abusive. That will never be okay and something I outgrew a really long time ago.
There’s a line in the song I’ve attached that really struck a personal chord with me:
I won’t keep watching you
Dance around in your smoke
And flicker out
You’re not the light I used to know

more selfies
That empowering moment when you delete & block them. 

hair:  Tableau Vivant \\ Francesca hair (*new* @ FaMESHed)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
-SU!- Amoret Eyeliner +CATWA APPLIER+
-SU!- Xanthe Lip Gloss +CATWA APPLIER+
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: [theSkinnery]  Saska
hand tattoo: [ATI] Destiny Lite…Maitreya Applier…
nails: Astralia – Compatible nails system (Maitreya Stiletto base)
toksik – Bloom Choker (Group Gift)
{le fil casse} Kassie Ruffle Hearts Top (*new* @ FrouFrou)

pose: [ATI] Destiny Lite Set (*new* @ Suicide Dollz)
FOXCITY. K-POP Star 2 – Because I am The Best (Rez) (2) RARE (*new* @ Arcade)


This Week is Finally Over

Well, its been quite a week. Between the DDOS attacks and trying to get FaMESHed opened on time. Well, that simply didn’t happen. We had to postpone the opening by one day, because so many designers were affected. However, I promise you all it was worth the weight. Although I went with a black and white image, you can still see how incredible the designs are that are being offered around the grid at the moment, particularly at FaMESHed. There is goodness around every corner and if you can’t find anything to wear, you’re just not trying. *laughs*

take a selfie

hair:  :::Phoenix::: Naomi Hair  (*new* @ FaMESHed)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: [theSkinnery]  Saska
Dahlia – Kahlida – Cuff (*new* @ FaMESHed)
!APHORISM! Eve Jumpsuit (*new* @ FaMESHed)
Scandalize. DessieHeels (*new* @ Shiny Shabby)

pose: FOXCITY. Selfie VOL2 Bento Pose Set (*new* @ Blush)
FOXCITY. K-POP Star 2. (5) Hush – Black (Common) (*new* @ Arcade)


Farewell, Decor

Since the day I started my blog, I had decided that I will blog whatever I want and I have stood by that for two years now. However, there comes a time in every blogger’s journey that they have to make some pretty big decisions about the direction of their blog. I want to do what truly makes me the happiest and while I absolutely adore home decor, I’ve found it to be extremely challenging as a blogger. Don’t get me wrong. I’ve loved every minute of it and you will still decor pieces from time to time in my blog.
For now, I’m focusing on fashion and I’d like to progress into close ups, perhaps accessories. Its not been a strong suit of mine, but its something I’d really like to work on. With that said, I can now say that I am a fashion blogger. I have a niche! *faints*
Sadly, this means letting go of some of my oldest and talented sponsors. There maybe some confusion along the way as some fashion designers do a bit of everything and I’ve got a couple of those on my list. So, like I said, there will still be decor, but it will most likely be something an avatar interacts with or part of the background. So, this is to be my final official home decor only post (the puppies don’t count.)
This is by far my last ever home decor post, but it is my last official as a Fancy Decor and unKindess blogger. *sigh* This is such a bittersweet moment. I’m excited about the future, but moving so far from my foundation is frightening.  It has truly been an honor to work with stores like Fancy Decor and unKindness, two of the mainstores featured here. Without fail, you will see their work in my photos in the future. ♥

Farewell Decor

scene created in: uK – Modern Serenity Home (*new* Feb Builder’s Box)

JIAN Kitty Sauce Shelf (*new* @ Uber)
JIAN Glam Greyhounds (*new* @ MARCH ARCADE)

Fancy Decor: Silver hors d’oeuvres (*new* @ MARCH ARCADE)
01 Fancy Decor: Buffet – Black RARE (not shown)
02 Fancy Decor: Buffet – White RARE
03 Fancy Decor: Three Tiered Snack Tray RARE
04 Fancy Decor: Two Tiered Dessert Tray
05 Fancy Decor: Cake
06 Fancy Decor: Wine Decanter
07 Fancy Decor: Elegant Candle
08 Fancy Decor: Wine Glasses
09 Fancy Decor: Water Pitcher
10 Fancy Decor: Glasses
11 Fancy Decor: Silverware
12 Fancy Decor: Salt & Pepper Shakers
13 Fancy Decor: Napkins
14 Fancy Decor: Plate Stack
15 Fancy Decor: Plate with Snacks

FD & Commoner: The Modine Collection Fatpack
FD & Commoner: Modine Side Table
FD & Commoner: Modine Vase of Daisies
FD & Commoner: Modine Accent Chair
FD & Commoner: Modine Coffee Table
FD & Commoner: Modine Cloud Sofa
FD & Commoner: Modine Nut Dish

Fancy Decor: Dover Collection
-11 Fancy Decor: Art Group
12 Fancy Decor: Dover Rug

uK – My Zen Planter White

uk – La confiserie Set
-uK – La confiserie Lollipop Cake
-uK – La confiserie Donut Display w/Goodies RARE
-uK – La confiserie Donut Plate Coconut

Refuge – Spark Lamp Shimmer Silver Larger
Refuge – Spark Lamp Shimmer Silver Smaller

+Half-Deer+ Cutie Clutter – Spilled Black Coffee
+Half-Deer+ Unicorn Story – Fauxidermy Duo

hive // celebration balloons
Exposeur – Dunnette Standing Record Player – Teal
LISP – Fairy Alice Wall Plates
[ kunst ] – Ashtray v3 / Marble #4
The Horror!~ A Horrorable Christmas – Giftboxes – Mixed

O.M.E.N – Christmas Morning – Gift Box – Silver
O.M.E.N – Christmas Morning – Gift Box – Silver/ Blue Paper



Olivia O’Brien- Empty

I can’t handle these pressures
All I can say is this stress hurts
Things are supposed to get better
I just need to put myself first
I’m always trying my hardest
Not to pick myself apart, this
Energy’s killing my vibes now
Sometimes I just wanna drown out
All of the thoughts in my mind
Too much going on at the same time
I wish it would stop and I’ve tried, but
Life just sucks then we all die

That’s just reality, yeah don’t lie to me
Yeah I’m fucked up but I don’t wanna be

I wonder if I’m good enough
But maybe I’ve just had too much
To drink, to smoke, to swallow
I’m drownin’ up my sorrows
There’s rules I’ll never follow
Pretend there’s no tomorrow
I wish there was no tomorrow

But I’m empty inside, yeah I’m empty inside
And I don’t wanna live but I’m too scared to die
Yeah I’m empty inside, I just don’t feel alive
And I don’t wanna live but I’m too scared to die

Wish I could erase my memories
So I could stop feeling so empty
I wish this shit wasn’t so tempting
But it’s hard to resist when there’s plenty
Of things I could do to fuck me up
I wanna let go but I’m feeling so stuck
So all I can do is fill up my cup
And sit here alone hoping no one disrupts

That’s just reality, yeah don’t lie to me
Yeah I’m fucked up but I don’t wanna be

I wonder if I’m good enough
But maybe I’ve just had too much
To drink, to smoke, to swallow
I’m drownin’ up my sorrows
There’s rules I’ll never follow
Pretend there’s no tomorrow
I wish there was no tomorrow

But I’m empty inside, yeah I’m empty inside
And I don’t wanna live but I’m too scared to die
Yeah I’m empty inside, I just don’t feel alive
And I don’t wanna live but I’m too scared to die

My body’s shakin’
My head is achin’
It feels like my heart is breakin’
My body’s shakin’
My head is achin’
I can’t fix this mess I’m makin’

But I’m empty inside, yeah I’m empty inside
And I don’t wanna live but I’m too scared to die
Yeah I’m empty inside, I just don’t feel alive
And I don’t wanna live but I’m too scared to die

soft kitty

head: CATWA HEAD Lilly
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: DeeTaleZ  “Merrylu” Mixedtype
Sweet Thing. Neko Ears (Bento)
Sweet Thing. Fuwa Tail (Bento) 2.0
Astralia – Kitty chain ring
[Atomic] Kitten Collar
Scandalize. Priscila. (*new* @ ShinyShabby)
13. N-core VALKYRIE Fur Boots (Knee) WHITE (*new* @ Arcade)

pose: Foxcity Good Morning Set



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