This is the Time

I am hurting so much right now and I’m not ready to write about. I’m not sure I ever will, but until I can write my own words…I give you the words and music of those that I relate to. ♥ Blog credits are below the picture, as always. Thank you in advance for you patience and understanding.

Nothing More – This Is The Time

When did we become these sinking stones?
When did we build this broken home?
Holding each other like ransom notes
Dropping our hearts to grip our brother’s throat
You can’t see because you don’t know
You’re caught below, beneath your own shadow
Stuck inside, half alive
Do you ever stop to ask yourself why?
Close your mind, identify
Do you feel, do you feel?
Do you call this a life?
All you waited for
Drowning just to keep score
We always start with good intentions
But lose ourselves along the way
This is the time that we let it go
These are the words that will take us home
Singing the song that’s inside us all
If we don’t open our eyes we’re walking blind
Anchored in anger, we exile ourselves
Bitter blood builds our prison cell
Darker water now fills our lungs
The depths of our heart have blacked the sun
You can’t see because you don’t know
You’re caught below, beneath your own shadow
Stuck inside, half alive
Do you ever stop to ask yourself why?
Close your mind, identify
Do you feel, do you feel?
Do you call this a life?
All you waited for
Drowning just to keep score
We always start with good intentions
But lose ourselves along the way
This is the time that we let it go
These are the words that will take us home
Singing the song that’s inside us all
If we don’t open our eyes we’re walking blind
Naked we come, naked we leave
Fools we are, to hold tightly
We are the jail, we are the key
We are free, we are free
This is the time that we let it go
These are the words that will take us home
Singing the song that’s inside us all
If we just open our eyes
This is the time that we let it go
This is the pain we are forced to know
Singing the song that’s inside
Inside us all, inside us all
Walking Blind

dreaming of dragons

wearing:
hair:  Tableau Vivant \\ Cindy
horns: Decoy – Dragon Temptress Gacha: #14 Horns Polar
head: CATWA HEAD Lilly
eyebrows: Bossie. alice eyebrows [catwa]
eyes: –SU!- Ekrabetha Eyes Fatpack
tears: CURELESS [+] Dragon Tears (v.1)
nose jewelry: AZOURY – Ange Earring Nose White
ears: ^^Swallow^^ Ears Elf
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: DeeTaleZ *Appliers* CATWA Head “Merrylu” Nordic (*new* @ Uber)
=Zenith=Leather Belt Gloves
LYBRA . XL STILETTO NAILS
UC_Sicrets_outfit (*new* @ FaMESHed)
#1 Dragon Brothers + texture hud {egosumaii} RARE

pose created using AnyPose

location: Winter Moon

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Let It All Go

I don’t have the strength for words of my own.

BIRDY + RHODES – Let It All Go

I’ve been sleepless at night
‘Cause I don’t know how I feel
I’ve been waiting on you
Just to say something real
There’s a light on the road
And I think you know
Morning is coming
And I have to go
I don’t know why, I don’t know why
We need to break so hard
I don’t know why we break so hard
But if we’re strong enough
To let it in, in, in
We strong enough
To let it go, oho, oho
Let it all go, let it all go
Let it all out now
If I look back to the start now
I know, I see everything true
There’s still a fire in me heart, my darling
But I’m not burning for you
We started it wrong
And I think you know
We waited too long
Now I have to go
I don’t know why, I don’t know why
We need to break so hard
I don’t know why we break so hard
But if we’re strong enough
To let it in, in, in
We strong enough
To let it go, oho, oho
Let it all go, let it all go
Let it all out now
Let it all go, let it all go
Let it all out now
Who says, who says?
Who says, who says?
Who says truth is beauty after all?
And who says love should break us when we fall?
But if we’re strong enough
To let it in, in, in
We strong enough
To let it go, oho, oho
Let it all go, let it all go
Let it all out now
Let it all go, let it all go
Let it all out now
We’re strong enough
To let it go, oho, oho

Blue isn't sad

wearing:
hair:  :::Phoenix::: Joanna Hair (*new* @ FaMESHed)
head: CATWA HEAD Lilly
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
^^Swallow^^ Shiny Ears
**RE** Insieme Bracelet – Female (*new* @ FaMESHed)
EF: Tidings Bento Rings  (*new* @ FaMESHed)
.::Dead Dollz::. Harper Jacket (*new* @ Tannenbaum)
JIAN Portable Purritos 4. Grey (*new* @ Arcade)

pose created with AnyPose
.gypsy heart. – Festive Backdrops – Wooden Trees  (*new* @ Tannenbaum)

Invisible

I was expecting some silly questions when I did the post, “Dangerous Proposition.” I figured a few of my close friends would ask me something insane. I did not expect Josh to ask, “The squirrels that distract you – are they red or grey – or even both?” *laughs*
Well, the squirrels actually represent my trains of thought. They run in all directions, then freeze for no reason. Just imagine a park full of squirrels running in every direction. That’s kinda how my mind works. So, Josh, the answer is…they’re invisible.

Tequila Pt 2

wearing:
hair:  Wasabi // Foxy Mesh Hair (*new* @ FaMESHed)
antlers: [NANI] Lovely.Forest ~ Deer.Antlers_(unrig) RARE
head: CATWA HEAD Lilly
eyes: –SU!– Ekrabetha Eyes Fatpack
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: DeeTaleZ *Appliers* CATWA Head “Merrylu” Nordic (*new* @ Uber)
tattoo: [White~Widow] Charade – Henna – RARE
The Annex – Aria Dress (*new* @ We ❤ Role-Play)

JIAN Fallow Deer Fawn (*new* @ Tannenbaum)

pose: Foxcity Sweet Tooth set (edited with AnyPose)
location: Hazardous

My Blogging Journey – #SecondLifeChallenge

I’m stepping up to do another Strawberry Singh challenge! Yep and this one is all about my blogging journey.

  1. How long have you been blogging about Second Life? I started once many years ago, but didn’t stick with it. I didn’t really know about Flickr and thought it was a good way to show off the awful pictures I was taking. I really thought they were good at the time. *laughs* I started my current blog in March 2016, so the answer would be a year and half…math is hard.
  2. Why did you start blogging? two years ago, I went through one of the hardest times in my life. I acted out and behaved recklessly. I watched my dear friend, Kess Crystal, who was also going through a lot. She was getting better and she had dove into her blog for therapeutic purposes. I had been taking much better pictures the previous year and decided that I would try blogging again. Perhaps it would therapeutic for me, too. It did and it continues to be a great outlet for my emotions and creativity.
  3. How many times a week/month do you post? More often than not, at least once a day. Sometimes twice a day. Once in a blue moon, I take one day off a week.
  4. Do you keep track of how many hits or subscribers you have? I did in the beginning. I was practically obsessed with it. I look about once a month now or after a blog that particularly special to me.
  5. Which electronic devices do you use to blog with? Just my PC. I can’t imagine doing it any other way.
  6. Do you monetize your blog? If so, do you mind sharing how much you make approximately? No, I don’t. However, because of my amazing sponsors I do manage to save a ton on shopping. So, in a way, I guess you could say I do, but I can’t really put a price tag on that.
  7. What has Second life blogging  taught you? Wow, it really has taught me so much, but to list everything…I’m not sure I could. I’ve learned the value of self marketing, good manners, being true to myself, better organization skills, and so very much more.
  8. Do you feel like Second Life blogging takes away from your real life? It can only take what I give. So, no, right now it enriches my life. It will always be up to me to maintain a balance between real life and Second Life.
  9. Do you have a mission statement for your blog, if so, what is it? Not really, if anything I have a mission statements for my life: I do what I want. My blog, my way.
  10. Share your top 3 tips for new bloggers/vloggers.
    a. 
    Do this because you love it, not for free stuff. They will know the difference.
    b. Don’t take rejection personally. It’s impossible to know why they like this blogger over that one. I didn’t fully understand that until I became a blog manager. I assure you, it is not personal.
    c.  Be true to yourself. Don’t blog for a store you don’t fully support. Your integrity is not worth free stuff. Remember why you started doing this in the first place.

my blogging journey

hair: :::Phoenix::: Siarra Hair Group Gift
head: CATWA HEAD Tala
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
EarthStones Eyeglasses – The Countess
!Rebel Hope – Rina Mesh Shirt Dress (*new* @ FaMESHed)

pose created using AnyPose

scene:
:HAIKEI: Old industrial skybox
Dead Dollz – Vacanze Romane – Suitcase
[ zerkalo ] Huge pile of books RARE
E-Clipse Desiderio Ankle Boots Black
:HAIKEI: where you’ve been /gacha {4}
uK – Toboggan Shelf Set
uK – Autumn Books and Deco
uK – Autumn Golden Eggs Nested
uK – Autumn Glass Vase
*YS&YS* Wardrobe Shelf 05
uK – Lady Boss Conference Runner (*new* @ FaMESHed)
uK – Lady Boss Conference Pouffe Pink (*new* @ FaMESHed)
uK – Lady Boss Conference Pouffe Silver (*new* @ FaMESHed)
uK – Lady Boss Conference Short (*new* @ FaMESHed)
uk – Lady Boss Conference Laptop (*new* @ FaMESHed)
uK – Lady Boss Conference Hanging Lights (*new* @ FaMESHed)
Dead Dollz – Natural Diva – Nude Palette
Dead Dollz – Natural Diva – Smokey Palette
Dead Dollz – Natural Diva – Colors Palette
28.erratic / cwe – stack of books 1
MINIMAL – Memories Gacha Notebooks *3*
tres blah– Hodgepodge – Wine Duet
tres blah– Jolie – Makeup Organizer
Quasi – Opened Jewelry Box
uK – Lady Boss Conference Geo Planters (*new* @ FaMESHed)
{A} Annabel Lee Books Pile
tres blah– Hodgepodge – Morning Start
tb– Vanity – Nail Polishes
tb– Vanity – Platter of Treasures
tres blah– Eclectic Collection – Round Cloche
tres blah– Jolie – Vintage Bottle
Second Spaces – Makeup Junkie – eyes
tres blah– Eclectic Collection – Makeup Bag
Zaara [home] : 12 Attar perfume bottles
tb– Vanity – Brushes
Quasi – Standing Jewelry Box
[ zerkalo ] Black & White – Hair Care
Second Spaces – Makeup Junkie – palettes
+Half-Deer+ Cutie Clutter – Hair Accessories (Pastel)
tres blah– Hodgepodge – What’s in My Bag RARE
Glam-Jewelry box by BAZAR

So Much Goodness

The end of the month is always a crazy time for me. Not only am I frantically double checking my work to make sure that I’ve met the requirements for all the stores I blog for (which I have usually exceeded), but its set up time for FaMESHed as well as other events. I have tons of blogger packs coming in and I am in blogger heaven. Ideas swirl around like a virgin’s nerves on prom night. I get so excited and while I don’t officially blog for FaMESHed, I get so freaking excited at all the new stuff being set up that I know I’m going to be using lots of it!
Currently, there have been so many wonderful events with more to come in the next few days. I don’t like to use the term overwhelmed, more like overjoyed and worrying about my linden balance. LOL! Good lord, Shoetopia? I mean look at these Amanda heels that were a collaborative effort from Phedora and Moda. What madness brought these two amazing teams together, I’ll never know, but good lord have they ever tempted us! FaMESHed and SALEM open tomorrow on the 1st. There’s also the ForMax benefit on the 3rd (which is only for like 6 days, so don’t put that off)…Project7 is coming…ChapterFour….events for clothes, hair, shoes, and decor OH MY!!! You know I’ll be blogging stuff from everyone of them, too. *laughs* I’m such a bloggaholic, its not even funny! Alright, I’m off to work (in SL)….happy shopping!!!♥

shoetopia

wearing:
hair: Magika – 01 – Feelings
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
[PHEDORA + MODA] AMANDA HEELS (*new* @ Shoetopia)

pose by Foxcity (edited with AnyPose)
taikou / gaien market backdrop

Keep Shining

I’ve always wondered why it is that we remember the hurtful things that people have said about or to us more than the nice things. I understand why we remember the horrible things done to us, because it leaves scars. Yet, we’re told as early as preschool that stick and stones will break out bones, but words will never hurt us. That’s the biggest lie they tell us, isn’t it? Words can hurt like hell. Maybe that’s why we remember it. It may not scar, but it fucking hurts. Sure we remember momentous happy occasions, like the birth of a child, a wedding day, graduations…some of us even remember the minute details of the day we met someone special. However, we’re also more apt to remember the exact day of someone’s death, divorce, losing a job, etc.
I know I’m not the only one that has to be told to keep shining, no matter who tries to dim my light. So, why is that so hard? Why do we thrust ourselves into the pain of what may have been said behind our backs? Why do we put so much stock in the opinions of people who do not really matter all that much to us?
I had a friend once that used to tell me the reason why even straight girls always loved her butch lesbian self, was because she would find something to compliment them about every time she saw them. Imagine if we all did that. If every person we encountered throughout our day received a compliment of some sort. I like you hair. I love that top. Those shoes are cute! What a cute laugh you have! If we all did that to each other, I think it would be a lot easier for all of us to keep shining. So, I challenge you all to compliment at least ten people today and tell me how it goes. If I don’t get too scatter brained, I’ll come and tell you how it went for me.

cowgirl

wearing:
hair: TRUTH Montana
head: CATWA HEAD Tala
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
BUENO – Cheeky Outfit (*new* @ Uber)
BUENO-Pappos Flats (*new* @ Shoetopia)

pose created wtih AnyPose

uK – Old West Barber Front
uK – Raven Creek Hillbilly Jug

Take a Backseat

Ya know, anyone with a Facebook account whether its RL or SL sees far more than their share of drama, add the aspect of life on the grid and its going to be ten times worse, but here’s the thing. If you don’t want to be caught up in it, then stay out of it. Sure, you can grab some popcorn and watch it all unfold like a bad episode of some Real Housewives of Hell, but don’t you have better things to do with your time? I know I do. Sure, I’ve read stuff on friend’s walls and wondered who is that about….and I’ve had people come running to me with gossip, but do you see me running off at the mouth to anyone outside of the cunts (Kess, Tracy, & Grace)? No, you don’t. You also don’t see the four of us mixed up in everyone’s drama. Sure, we’ve each had a bit of our own here and there, but the more power you give rumors and lies, the stronger they become…the bigger the story gets…the more people get involved. Look, if someone calls you a whore and you’re insulted by it…well, you’re being silly. Either you are a whore or you’re not. If you are, why you mad? They didn’t lie. If you’re not a whore, then why you mad? You gonna be mad if they call you a chair? Are you a chair? Right. So, take a backseat, let the drama llamas drive…and enjoy the scenery and the ride. Let someone else navigate through all that bullshit.

**BTW, before y’all get started…this is not aimed at anyone in particular, its just another day in the second life.**

classic

 

wearing:
hair: TRUTH Apple (*new* @ Uber)
head: CATWA HEAD Tala
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
EF: Papillon Earrings
Scandalize. Sweet FUR. (*new* @ Cosmopolitan)
ChicModa // Lynn Skirt (*new* @ Cosmopolitan)
!Rebel Hope – Maddie Mesh Shoes (*new* @ Shoetopia)

pose created with AnyPose
[Con.] Wax On/Wax Off Convertible – Grey

After Tequila

Oh, Tequila, how she loves you so, but when this day started she had long blonde hair and a lot more clothes on. What happened? Let’s ask her, “Sady?? What happened?”

sooo mush…grrrrace…odka….eela…losh bet…zzzzzz

Well, it looks like she had fun, perhaps she’ll find out from her friends when she wakes up. I’m sure she’ll issue apologies all over Facebook. *smirks*

passed out pink

wearing:
hair: (r)M Hair, No.50’17
head: CATWA HEAD Tala
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
Narcisse– Suki Playsuit
[Gos] Boutique – Ariana Thigh High Boots (*new* @ Shoetopia)
.Reckless. – Black Tequila 3

pose: FOXCITY. Sits VOL3 Bento Pose Set (edited with AnyPose)
MINIMAL – Subway Backdrop -Black (*new* @ Uber)

When the Smoke Clears

I have had an insane week and it looks like I’ve got another one ahead of me, but I know that once things settle down and the smoke clears I’m going to come out the other side breathing fresher air and feeling so much better. That’s just how it is sometimes, isn’t it? We just have to push forward until the smoke clears and our heads are above the proverbial water. There are a lot of people going through a lot right now, because while we can often pause our Second Lives…there’s no pause button on the RL, is there? *sighs* I wish you all good luck as you push onward in your real lives and my SL provide the distraction and joy that it can. ♥

when the smoke clears

wearing:
hair: Stealthic – Fatal (*new* @Kustom9)
head: CATWA HEAD Tala
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
The Annex – Tempest Dress

pose created using AnyPose
taikou / gaien market backdrop (*new* @Kustom9)

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