Become or Retreat

There is an illusion about America, a myth about America to which we are clinging which has nothing to do with the lives we lead and I don’t believe that anybody in this country who has really thought about it or really almost anybody who has been brought up against it — and almost all of us have one way or another — this collision between one’s image of oneself and what one actually is is always very painful and there are two things you can do about it, you can meet the collision head-on and try and become what you really are or you can retreat and try to remain what you thought you were, which is a fantasy, in which you will certainly perish. -James Baldwin

hair: DOUX – Vanilla hairstyle @ Uber
head: LeLUTKA Nova Head 2.5
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) Special Edition (1.3)
skin: PUMEC – Lillian

[Aleutia] Faith Sweater
VINYL – Nirvana Shorts
[BREATHE]-Tatsuko Heels @ Uber

pose: FOXCITY. Secure The Bag set

backdrop: MINIMAL – The Prison @ Equal10

The colors are fadin’ out

The colors are fadin’ out
Is it quiet where you’re sleepin’?
Your records, my empty house
I wish I knew what you were feelin’

Fightin’ every instinct while you hold your pride
Back to the beginning, it swallows my mind
You’re all that I think about
I even see you when I’m dreamin’

I wish that I could hate you, ah, baby
I wish that when I left, you’d of chased me
I didn’t wanna change, but you made me
Now you’re tellin’ all your friends that I’m crazy

Hard to believe that you ever really loved me
I made believe that you cared when you touched me
I know I’ll be movin’ on
In slow motion
~ Charlotte Lewis – Slow Motion

Sady:
hair: DOUX – Dua hairstyle
head: LeLUTKA Fleur Head 2.0
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) (1.2)
skin: DeeTaleZ *SKINS* for LELUTKA HEADS (EVO.) – Flora

–SU!– Almond Nails
*Tentacio*Lady pain collar
{le fil casse} Rebecca Tied Tee Legacy RARE @ Epiphany
[Aleutia] Jia Cargo Pants @ N21

pose: Lyrium. Aiko Static Series @ Dubai

Danger Yellow – Future Cosmos – The Bearded Guy

RO – Spook Show – Freida Freak Mannequin
RO – Spook Show – Val Vain Mannequin

Girl on Fire

She’s just a girl, and she’s on fire
Hotter than a fantasy, longer like a highway
She’s living in a world, and it’s on fire
Feeling the catastrophe, but she knows she can fly away
Oh, she got both feet on the ground
And she’s burning it down
Oh, she got her head in the clouds
And she’s not backing down
This girl is on fire
~ Alicia Keys – Girl on Fire

hair: TRUTH Delicate
head: LeLUTKA Erin Head
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) (1.2)
skin: [theSkinnery] Signe (LeLutkaEVO)

lashes: [POUT!] Kelly – Eye lash collection @ Belle
eyes: [Heaux] Poppy Eyes – Darks FLF May 22, 2020

eyeshadow: IDTTY FACES – LELELUTKA YOU WISH COLLECTION #4 @ Fetish Fair
lipstick: IDTTY FACES – LELUTKA YOU WISH COLLECTION #9 @ Fetish Fair

[Aleutia] Anya Top @ Belle

pose: space cadet – nasa’s fake set

Sady’s Soundtrack

So, I have this playlist on YouTube of songs that I have compiled over the years and I call it my personal soundtrack. I hear some of the songs from time to time on the radio. I wondered if anyone cares why certain songs are sacred to me. I was thinking that if anyone was interested they could check out the list and ask. So, if (and I don’t expect anyone to do this for real) you’re interested you can check out the playlist here and ask me. I’ll write about it here, but I won’t reveal the your name without your permission. You can ask me in the comments or shoot me an IM inworld or Facebook.
Here’s the playlist: Sady’s Soundtrack

Sady is wearing:
hair: TRUTH Destiny
^^Swallow^^ Charm Ears
head: LeLUTKA Nova Head 1.0
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skin: [the Skinnery] Ginny (Lelutka)

Wednesday[+] ~ Retro Glasses @ Kustom9
REIGN.- HEART DANGLE EARRINGS
Ascendant – HOT Twinkle Nails @ FaMESHed X
[Aleutia] Charlize Sweater @ N21
VINYL – Nirvana Shorts @ TresChic
EQUAL – Khloe Wedges @ Belle

Ana Poses – Berlin

[BH9] – Betro Station V1 @ Anthem

Better I Should Know

Heaven bend to take my hand
And lead me through the fire
Be the long awaited answer
To a long and painful fight

Truth be told I’ve tried my best
But somewhere along the way
I got caught up in all there was to offer
And the cost was so much more than I could bear

Though I’ve tried, I’ve fallen…
I have sunk so low
I messed up
Better I should know
So don’t come round here
And tell me I told you so…

We all begin with good intent
Love was raw and young
We believed that we could change ourselves
The past could be undone
But we carry on our backs the burden
Time always reveals
In the lonely light of morning
In the wound that would not heal
It’s the bitter taste of losing everything
That I’ve held so dear.
~ Sarah McLachlan – Fallen

wearing:
hair: DOUX – Eleni hairstyle @ Equal10
head: LeLUTKA Nova Head 1.0
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skin: [the Skinnery] Ginny (Lelutka)

[Aleutia] Becca Dress @ Belle
EQUAL – Khloe Wedges @ Belle

MudHoney Blaire Hanging Chair

Serenity Style-Dottie Handmade Figurines- Family RARE @ The Liaison Collaborative

Serenity Style– Fall in Love Gate Milkaid Pink Roses @ Unik

Just for kicks

Can’t keep my hands to myself
Think I’ll dust ’em off, put ’em back up on the shelf
In case my little baby girl is in need
Am I coming out of left field?
Ooh woo, I’m a rebel just for kicks, now
I been feeling it since 1966, now
Might be over now, but I feel it still
Ooh woo, I’m a rebel just for kicks, now
Let me kick it like it’s 1986, now
Might be over now, but I feel it still
~ Portugal. The Man – Feel it Still

*LODE* Head Accessory – Royalty Wreath [faded purple]
Tableau Vivant // Florentina hair
CATWA HEAD Catya v3.2
[Glam Affair] Arina Applier [ Catwa ] @ Collabor88
Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
Kibitz – Mystical stars necklace @ Collabor88
[Aleutia] Simone Dress @ Belle
Halle High :: Shoes :: 10 Colors :: {kokoia}

pose: Diversion – Affection Poses @ Belle

KraftWork Destination Pillows (Inclined) ROMEO&JULIET @ FaMESHed
KraftWork Destination Pillows (Inclined) SIT WITH ME @ FaMESHed

Nutmeg. Attic Hideout Couch w/Plaid Cedar @ Shiny Shabby
Nutmeg. Attic Hideout Plated Pink Branch

Surest Way to Lose Balance

“The surest way to lose balance is by comparing yourself to other people.”

So, that’s a quote from Orange is the New Black, Season 7. Naturally, I have binged the entire season. That line struck a real chord with me, because I’m constantly doing just that. I know why I do it. I was taught to do so by my parents. Now, this is not a case of me pointing my finger at either parent. I don’t think this was an intentionally malicious lesson. Regardless of why the lesson was pounded into my head, its been there for way too long. The funny thing is that I’ve always embraced being different. I remember fighting with my mother as a teenager and screaming, “I will never be the person you want me to be…I’m not wired that way!” That is a direct quote. I’m almost positive I said it daily for years. My mother wanted me to be super girly. She wanted me to be her little princess. I sometimes wonder if she had left me to discover my own style without trying to push that shit down my throat…well, its possible I would have come around to the very style I fought so vehemently against. I doubt it. I was given religious freedom and became an atheist. Then again, I feel that was more of an informed, educational decision. So comparing them is pretty pointless. Which brings me back to my original point…why are we always comparing ourselves to others? We need to stop. Pretty sure I’ll be revisiting this topic, but for now…I’ve wandered through the mine fields of my brain too long.

head: GENUS Project – Baby Face
–SU!– Piercing Set 01
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skin: ItGirls – Luccia @ Uber

MINA – Carian Sunhat @ Uber
Ascendant – R-E-V-E-N-G-E Nails @ ShinyShabby
[Aleutia] Honey Dress @ Uber

pose: GingerFish Poses  – Gypsy
location: Author’s Point

Poof.

I’ve been letting music speak for me the last few months. I haven’t had it in me to write about what’s going on with me or the world around me. I suppose it is a form of writer’s block, but you’d have to be an actual writer to get that, wouldn’t you? I’m just a nobody that rambles on about whatever nonsense tumbles around in my head when I set my fingers to the keys. I don’t have anything profound to say. I don’t really have that interesting of a life. Sometimes I make people laugh and for that I am grateful, but lately laughter hasn’t been a huge part of my life.
All I really want to say today…well, honestly, I’d like to ask that you all please be careful with the people you encounter in this world. You cannot begin to truly know what’s going on beneath the surface. You cannot know how close to the edge someone is…so for the love of humanity think twice before you’re careless with someone’s heart or feelings. The edge is so close for some that it would merely take one bad thing on a bad day to push them right over…and then Poof.

Basics:
head: CATWA HEAD Catya
^^Swallow^^ Crusties Ears
–SU!– Piercing Set 07
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skin: [Glam Affair] Carla @ Collabor88
tattoo: WR – Call Of The Wild Tattoo

hair: KUNI / Juliet
Ascendant – Shake It Nails @ Access
//Naberius// The Manticore Set (Black)
[Aleutia] Jenna Sweater & Harness @ FaMESHed X

pose created with AnyPose

Skye Stone Stairs
JIAN Ragdoll Cat Snoozing

Contaminated

“I like the way you say it
Tell me the words you told me that day
Maybe if I could believe it I could just stay
‘Cause I like the way you do it
Yeah I like the way you move it baby show me the way
I like the way you get it on the freeway

And I wish I could change it
And we’re always gonna be contaminated
And oh, I know what we need
You start letting me go
Our love is tainted”
~ Banks – Contaminated

Basics:
head: CATWA HEAD Catya
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skin: [Glam Affair] Carla @ Collabor88

hair:  Lamb. Baddie @ Collabor88
[rD  ] – Rochelle Necklace @ Belle
[Aleutia] Lily Romper @ Collabor88

pose: Diversion  – Sunshine Poses @ Belle
location: Scarlett Isle

Beachin’

“So just watchin’ her blonde hair, sun burn, stare at them, wack caps rolling over
Laid back in a thrift store beach chair, droppin’ limes in her Corona
Well she looks back, yeah, she throws me a kiss, like honey I sure want you
And it’s a hundred and three between her and me and only 92 in Daytona

And it’s sunshine, blue eyes, tan lines, slow tide
Rollin’ white sand, cold can koozie in my hand, just a summertime strolling”

~ Jake Owen – Beachin

Basics:
head: CATWA HEAD Catya
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skin: [Glam Affair] Carla @ Collabor88

Exile – Blur the Line @ Belle
: CULT : ROU RINGS SET
Ascendant – Owl Bento Nails
[Aleutia] Brandi @ Belle

pose: Exposeur – Tease set
location: Baja Cove