I grew up in a pretty strict church setting. Though my father never went to church, my mother would drag me every other Sunday (she worked the other Sundays) and the Nazarene church is no joke. Aside from the fact that they change their doctrine rules every few years about dress codes, they had a lot of rules…like we weren’t allowed to play cards (even Go Fish) because that was considered gambling. So, it should come as no surprise that the only time you mentioned God was during prayer, Sunday school, bible study, or church, but to say, “Oh my God” or “For Jesus Sake” was taking the Lord’s name in vain. Oh and you can’t set anything on top of the bible…*rolls her cartoon eyes like Dusty.*
Now, I left that church a very very long time ago, but I can’t help but wonder how they reacted to the whole, “OMG!” Did they adjust their doctrine again? Did they yell at the kids the way they used to? Hell, are there even any kids still going to that church after they hit 13? Hardly was when I was a kid. Meh, I don’t care enough about the answer to that question to go check it out, I’ll tell you that much. Cuz, like, OMG, they totally think I’m like the fucking devil, right?”
We say, “Oh what a small world” when we run into a friend of a friend, but I think its a great big world and a there’s a whole lot that I don’t know anything about…like anime. I think its cute. I can appreciate the artistic nature…a genre? I get the appeal, but it has never really kept my attention. That does not mean I can resist the appeal to play dress up! Just so happens, LootBox has quite a few items that are Asian themed this round. So, if you love the stuff, this round was made for you. If you’re like me and just like to play dress up, well….get your butt over there. Have fun!
I just decided to have a little fun of my own in a nifty little Asian market I discovered right outside of chill little club lost in a time warp. Of course, the slurl will be down in the credits.
Regardless of whether you’re a DIY or Salon girl, getting your nails done is like waiting for paint to dry. I’m clearly profiling, but in my neck of the woods the best nail shops are run by Asians, mostly Vietnamese or Korean. Y’all know me, I ask questions. I’d rather sound ignorant for asking a question than be ignorant while assuming I know something I don’t. You’d think a salon full of people wouldn’t make you zone out, but when they’re chattering away in their native language and it all just sounds like high pitched noises to you…well, its easy to zone out. Painting your nails at home, you try to get everything situated before you start, because its going to take a while before you can move about freely. You nail polish is unforgiving! This is when I tend to slip down inside myself and get lost in thoughts. If good things are happening in my life, I can revel in my blessings. I can be grateful and wish good things, send love & light to others. It’s like a fairy tale room in my mind. However, if things are messed up or I’m going through a rough time, that’s when my demons come out to play. Its like getting locked in the attic with a room full of creepy dolls, each one whispering a secret in a creepy little doll voice.
This blog is focused almost solely on Avenge. This store not only does amazingly sexy clothes, but skins and shapes, too! Now, I worked closely with a dear friend to get my shape to where it is and I’ve never been happier, but I always appreciate good skins. Not only does Avenge deliver this gorgeous Heather Skin at the Skin Fair, but if you head over to Whore Couture, you can find some of their sexy outfits that I mentioned. Like this sparkling glitter number I’m wearing below. You can’t see it, but this literally sparkles. Do not confuse that with bling, this is sparkling. I’ve seen a few designers perform this sparkling magic and my love for shinies makes it impossible for me to pass up.
Sometimes the world just doesn’t make sense. I think it’s pretty clear that I’m not the picture of perfect mental health. I’m not sure there even is such a thing to be honest. Hell, mental health has been called all sorts of names throughout history. Even the names of disorders change….what once was called manic depressive is not called bi-polar. Why? Why did they change the name? Manic depressive was spot on. I think everyone and anyone can catch that disorder on the right day or wrong day as the case might very well be.
Seriously, think about it for a minute. You are having a great day. You slept great, you woke up right before your alarm went off. The weather is your favorite kind of day. Everything is going well. Catching all the green lights in traffic. Errands go great, you even saved some money unexpectedly. You come home, dinner is great….you slip into your favorite PJs…you’re set. You’re happy as you can be….then it happens. You get a tragic phone call. Something awful has happened to someone you love and there’s absolutely nothing you can do about it. You’re alone with this awful news. That’s going to be a helluva a mood swing, don’t you think? Say the reverse happens. Whole day has been shit. Slept like shit, overslept, bad hair day, pouring down rain, you get stuck in traffic…you get home, burn dinner…then unexpectedly your best friend calls. She’s coming over and she’s bringing pizza. Your whole day just got better in an instant. Mood swing. *shrugs* Must be bi-polar.
Ever just felt so damn lazy, you just didn’t even want to get out of bed? Ever just want to stay in bed all weekend, veg out with the remote and some junk food? Ever just do it, cuz you want to? Well, you must be depressed, you can’t even drag your ass out of bed. I’m in no way minimizing any diagnosis. I’m more than fully aware that there are varying degrees of each legitimate disorder. I’m not even suggesting to know what is and isn’t legitimate….I’m not a psych-anything….well, maybe psycho, but that’s about where my expertise ends. I’m sure not yelling at Matt Lauder about how mental health is a hoax, while clearly proving that it is very real.
I’m just saying, that the world doesn’t always make sense. So, if you’re a little crazy…so what? Be crazy. Be you. Love drama? Do it up. Hate drama? Stay away from it. Wanna dance? Crank up the music and dance. Who cares? We all have to get through this thing called life one way or another…so if you’re not crazy….why not? C’mon, let’s all go crazy.
I borrowed this quote from a friend of mine’s profile. It is so profound in its simplicity and then when I realized who is credited for saying it, I was instantly humbled. When such a great artist can maintain his humility, I find it ironic when people boast of their greatness. I believe that if we ever stop learning, we stop living. I try to learn at least one new thing a day, even if its just some random useless piece of trivia. I want each day to present me with new information.
Actually dating in sl, is like playing tag in six random playgrounds all connected by one tunnel. Its just a clusterfuck of madness, selfishness, and stupidity. Oh I’m sure there are a few good ones in there somewhere, but unless you in the mood to dig through a haystack looking for a gold needle…well, good fucking luck.
Ooooh, Mr Privacy…..You put all your business out there on Facebook and then you seem surprised when you get called on your shit. You tell one girl she can’t take pictures of you, because it will cause drama. Meanwhile, you’re on Facebook with a girl in your lap one day (not the one you told not to take pictures) and you’ve got another girl taking pictures of you a week later…all the while still telling the ONE girl she can’t take pictures of you. Now, I’m not sure what you’re trying to hide and I don’t care, but seriously….if you’re trying to run around and be some mega player on the down low, you might wanna lose your Facebook account OR I dunno, be aware of who can see what…oh but wait, do you know everyone’s friends? Not at the rate you’re going!
Oh, and you? You don’t want a relationship, but you want demands on a girl’s time. She didn’t answer you fast enough? She didn’t beg and plead for your attention? She actually does something in sl, beside standing around a club 24/7? Get over yourself. This girl has a life and its full of friends and hobbies. Ya know what? You’re right! I don’t have time for you and your needy ass!
*laughs* And you, you crawl out of the woodwork with your sweet words once every other week and think its getting somewhere? No. When you spoke to me several times a week, yeah, it felt like we might be headed somewhere. The only place we’re heading with all your little disappearing acts is….wait, who am I talking about? Oh yeah, that’s right, I forgot about you cuz you dipped out for two weeks without so much as a word.
*rolls her eyes & chuckles* Ooooh, my poor sweet, booty call….you were fun for a while, but when I asked for an actual conversation you suddenly turn mute. Guess your momma parked you in front of porn as a kid and those are the only words you learned. *yawns* Well, hell, they still say em in porn, what do I need you for?
And then there’s this wittle guy, who thinks that cuz we hung out one time, that I owe him an explanation for ANYTHING I do. ROFL. Honey, you just need to go crawl back between your momma’s legs, cuz you ain’t done yet.
Ooooh lookit, its the big bad wolf! You seem to think that coming to a me about a guy I know, who happened to ask someone about you is the least dramatic way to do things? Uhm, no. How about you go directly to the man himself and ask him why he was asking your “EX” questions on my behalf, since you’re so sure it was indeed on my behalf. And ffs, I would hope you’d do the same for your female friends….but wait, do you have any that you haven’t tried to fuck already? Cuz the only one I know sure seems set on getting rid of you. I know I’m done. So, take your little happy feet on down the road.
These are just a sample of the types of guys I’ve been dealing with since my break up 3 months ago. While he has already moved on to someone else. So much for that break up excuse he handed me. *rolls her eyes* I’m so done with these assholes in SL. Yeah, I’m gonna get lonely, its true. But ya know what? I’ll take my own company over their’s any day. I actually enjoy my own company. I make myself laugh all the time and well, I’ve even argued out loud with myself. So, clearly there’s more than enough madness going on in this lil head of mine that I don’t need anymore, right?
So, I’m blogging for the Skin Fair put on by Pale Girl Productions. I have to admit, I’m a bit nervous, because as a rule I’ve not really blogged skins before. I will list the skin that I’m wearing, but aside from that….its not something I’ve really done. PGP specifically asked that we blog the skins a certain way and this, too, is something I don’t usually do. So this is my first attempt. I will say this, it doesn’t seem to matter which body or head you have, even if you’re still fully system (please update yourself!), there’s something for everyone at the Skin Fair….cosmetics, eyelashes, eyes, skins, shapes, heads, and even tattoos!
I wore my own shape, as I’m very particular about my shape and rarely ever buy them. My current shape was a compilation of ideas between my friend Sora and I. I’ve told her she should make shapes, but I’m not sure she really has the time. So, scroll on down and have a looksie at all the goodies I have to show you.♥