Still Learning

“I am still learning.” ~ Michelangelo

I borrowed this quote from a friend of mine’s profile. It is so profound in its simplicity and then when I realized who is credited for saying it, I was instantly humbled. When such a great artist can maintain his humility, I find it ironic when people boast of their greatness. I believe that if we ever stop learning, we stop living. I try to learn at least one new thing a day, even if its just some random useless piece of trivia. I want each day to present me with new information.

wearing:
hair: .Olive. the Emma Hair (*new* @ Uber)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: violetta. -catwa skin applier -Milanna -#202 (*new* @ SkinFair)
tattoo: Happiness – Black Tattoo [CAROL G]  (*new* @ SkinFair)
_CandyDoll_ Alexa Dress -(*new* @ Whore Couture)
_CandyDoll_ Alexa Fishnet -(*new* @ Whore Couture)

pose: FOXCITY. Breezy Bento Pose Set (*new* @ ON9)
FOXCITY. Photo Booth – Cherry Blossom (*new* @ ON9)

wearing below:  .::Dead Dollz::. Gwen Lingerie Set – Pink
violetta. -catwa skin applier -Milanna -#202 (*new* @ SkinFair)

 

Red

I’m just going leave some lyrics and links for this one. *smiles and wanders off down memory lane*

Taylor Swift – RED

Loving him is like driving a new Maserati down a dead-end street
Faster than the wind, passionate as sin ending so suddenly
Loving him is like trying to change your mind once you’re already flying through the free fall
Like the colors in autumn, so bright just before they lose it all

Losing him was blue like I’d never known
Missing him was dark grey all alone
Forgetting him was like trying to know somebody you never met
But loving him was red
Loving him was red

Touching him was like realizing all you ever wanted was right there in front of you
Memorizing him was as easy as knowing all the words to your old favorite song
Fighting with him was like trying to solve a crossword and realizing there’s no right answer
Regretting him was like wishing you never found out that love could be that strong

Losing him was blue like I’d never known
Missing him was dark gray all alone
Forgetting him was like trying to know somebody you never met
But loving him was red
Oh red
Burning red

Remembering him comes in flashbacks and echoes
Tell myself it’s time now, gotta let go
But moving on from him is impossible
When I still see it all in my head
Burning red
Burning it was red

Oh losing him was blue like I’d never known
Missing him was dark gray all alone
Forgetting him was like trying to know somebody you never met
‘Cause loving him was red
Yeah, yeah red
We’re burning red

And that’s why he’s spinning ’round in my head
Comes back to me, burning red
Yeah, yeah
His love was like driving a new Maserati down a dead-end street

wearing:
hair:  #Foxy – Sugar Hair (*new* @ Hentai Fair)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: Glam Affair –- MaryJane
{le fil casse} Chanelle Teddy Bodysuit (*new* @ Blush)

pose: FOXCITY.  Bad Kitty VOL2 Bento Pose Set
FOXCITY. Photo Booth – XO (*new* @ ON9)

Cupid Is a Rapist

So, what’s the deal with Cupid? We chose the God of Date Rape as our symbol for Valentine’s Day? Who makes these decisions? I can bet it wasn’t Gloria Alfred! Okay, calm your tits, I’m just being the asshole on Valentine’s Day because this time last year I was happy it was annoying…*laughs.* So, I’m here to spoil the mood this year or at least twist it around a  bit. Wait, there’s logic to this….just listen. So, cupid, this lil fuckers just goes about shooting people with an arrow that takes away their free will…forcing them to feel desire. Ok, Cupid Cosby, that’s not creepy at all! I tell ya what, Cupid….I’m ready for you….shoot me and I’m ready to shoot back. I’m not going to take your free will, though. You can will it all you want, it’s not going to work again. *grins*

wearing:
Foxcity. Smitten Wreath (*gift* @ Shop Your Heart Out By Linden Labs)
hair: MINA – Maddie (*new* @ Kustom9)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
Bossie. Y2K eyeshadows  (*new* @ REWIND)
Bossie. Y2K lipsticks & gloss (*new* @ REWIND)
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: Glam Affair –- MaryJane – Catwa Mesh Head Applier
tattoo: .Identity. Body Shop – Reborn Stronger
Narcisse– Keely Harness (February Bound Box)

pose: FOXCITY. Cupid Bento Pose Set (*new* @ ON9)

7 – Lets Get Physical Neon PINK – Solid

Sometimes…

Patti Smythe – Sometimes Love Just Ain’t Enough

Now, I don’t want to lose you,
but I don’t want to use you just to have somebody by my side.
And I don’t want to hate you,
I don’t want to take you, but I don’t want to be the one to cry.
And I don’t really matter to anyone anymore.
But like a fool I keep losing my place and
I keep seeing you walk through that door.

But there’s a danger in loving somebody to much,
and it’s bad when you know it’s your heart you can’t trust.
There’s a reason why people don’t stay where they are.
Baby, sometimes love just ain’t enough.

Now, I could never change you,
I don’t want to blame you.
Baby, you don’t have to take the fall.
Yes, I may have hurt you, but I did not desert you.
Maybe I just want to have it all.
It makes a sound like thunder, it makes me feel like rain.
And like a fool who will never see the truth,
I keep thinking something’s gonna change.

But there’s a danger in loving somebody to much,
and it’s bad when you know it’s your heart they can’t trust.
There’s a reason why people don’t stay who they are.
Baby, sometimes love just ain’t enough.

And there’s no way home when it’s late at night and you’re all alone.
Are there things that you wanted to say?
And do you feel me beside you in your bed,
there beside you where I used to be?

But there’s a danger in loving somebody to much,
and it’s bad when you know it’s your heart you can’t trust.
There’s a reason why people don’t stay where they are.
Baby, sometimes love just ain’t enough.

wearing:
hair: Magika  – 01 – Disarray
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: Glam Affair – Imani Applier ( Catwa ) America
tattoo: .Identity. Body Shop – Rise Again
^^Swallow^^ Shiny Bento Rings
LYBRA . SERINA (*new* @ Seasons Story)
#EMPIRE  – Ageratum

pose: Foxcity Indulge Bento Pose Set (*new* @ ON9)
Foxcity. Photo Booth – Sometimes (*new* @ ON9)

Extra! Extra!

Once upon a time, kids would stand on street corners selling newspapers while yelling, “EXTRA! EXTRA! Read all about it!” They might even go so far as to toss out the title of the story on the front page. These days we get our news from a variety of electronic devices. So, I figured my best bet was to sit pretty on the ATM machine…that should get your attention, right?
Its Friday and I think most of us are feeling pretty good about that! There’s been lots of events just waiting for us to get paid. There’s an endless array of retail therapy, so no matter how bad your week has been, relief is in sight! Its also the weekend that Cosmo switches things up, so if you want to grab this cute little number from Scandalize go on over and grab it tonight. It might be a few days before it makes it to the mainstore. In the meanwhile, you can hit up Kustom9 for that beautiful variety they continue to deliver. Bueno has surprised us with a diverse set of backdrops and phones!
I hope you all have a great weekend and Happy Shopping!♥

wearing:
hair: *Besom~ Claire (October  Luxe Box)
head: CATWA HEAD Tala
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
Scandalize. Sally. Maitreya (Cosmopolitan until Oct 21)
Scandalize. Sally WARMS. Maitreya (Cosmopolitan until Oct 21)
[VALE KOER] HERMES KICKS

pose: FOXCITY. Bad Kitty VOL2 Bento Pose Set (*new* @ ON9)
BUENO-Night Life-Street Build Scape (*new* @ Kustom9)

Help Yourself by Helping Others

“The best way to cheer yourself up, is to cheer somebody else up.” -Mark Twain

I believe this to be true wholeheartedly. For ages, people have figured out that the best way to get out of you own head is to help other people. When we sit too long in our own problems we can drown in them and find ourselves so lost that we begin to lose hope. It’s when we lose hope that we truly become miserable and that is when we are the most dangerous…to ourselves and everyone around us. Our misery makes us toxic. Think about how good it feels to help someone in need. I don’t mean dropping a few dollars into the bucket with the bell ringers at the holidays. I mean, to support a friend and watch them succeed. I mean, to hand a meal to a homeless person. I mean opening our hearts and genuinely helping someone that is going through something so wretched, that we can’t begin to fathom the road on which they travel.
We’ve all had things go terribly wrong from time to time. We’ve all watched someone else suffering and felt absolutely helpless from the sidelines, especially in a virtual world. However, there is something happening right now that could forever change someone’s life in such a wonderful way. It hasn’t started yet, but it shall begin soon. In the meantime, I want to spread the word and I hope that you will, too. A dear friend of mine has undergone the unthinkable this year and despite it all, she has maintained the same positive attitude that made so many of us love her from the very beginning. I won’t go deep into it here, but if you’d like to help someone that not only needs help…and would never in a million years ask….there’s about to be a fundraising event and there’s something for everyone. For more information, please visit the Facebook page: For the love of the Devil

wearing:
hair: [RA] Jas Hair (*new* @ Shiny Shabby)
head: CATWA HEAD Tala
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
ears: ^^Swallow^^ Darkness Ears (*new* @ Black Fair)
ears: Sweet Thing. Neko Ears (Bento)
tail: Sweet Thing. Fuwa Tail (Bento)
**RE** Deah Gloves & Rings
–Narcisse– Stellar Bra – ML – White (*new* @ Epiphany)
-Narcisse- Stellar Corset – ML – White (*new* @ Epiphany)
-Narcisse- Stellar Pannier – ML – White (*new* @ Epiphany)
-Narcisse- Stellar Panties – ML – White (*new* @ Epiphany)
Phedora ~ Ginger Boots ~ Hud 28 C. (*new* @ Tres Chic)

pose: FOXCITY. Bad Kitty VOL2 Bento Pose Set (*new* @ ON9)
[ isuka ] union local backdrop (*new* @ Shiny Shabby)

Crawling

It’s a song day, because I’m not up to the task about writing how I feel or what I’m going through at the moment. Nor am I feeling some saucy little short story. I want to show you some gorgeous goodies from amazing Second Life creators. I do tend to wear my heart on my sleeve, so I give you a peek into how I’m feeling with a song by one of my all time favorite bands.

Linkin Park – Crawling

Crawling in my skin
These wounds, they will not heal
Fear is how I fall
Confusing what is real

There’s something inside me that pulls beneath the surface
Consuming, confusing
This lack of self control I fear is never ending
Controlling
I can’t seem
To find myself again
My walls are closing in
(Without a sense of confidence I’m convinced
That there’s just too much pressure to take)
I’ve felt this way before
So insecure

Crawling in my skin
These wounds, they will not heal
Fear is how I fall
Confusing what is real

Discomfort, endlessly has pulled itself upon me
Distracting, reacting
Against my will I stand beside my own reflection
It’s haunting how I can’t seem

To find myself again
My walls are closing in
(Without a sense of confidence I’m convinced
That there’s just too much pressure to take)
I’ve felt this way before
So insecure

Crawling in my skin
These wounds, they will not heal
Fear is how I fall
Confusing what is real

Crawling in my skin
These wounds, they will not heal
Fear is how I fall
Confusing, confusing what is real

There’s something inside me that pulls beneath the surface
Consuming (confusing what is real)
This lack of self control I fear is never ending
Controlling (confusing what is real)

wearing:
hair: pr!tty – Pixie{GOTG}(*new* @ Gacha Guardians)
head: CATWA HEAD Tala
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
::Axix:: Beloved Nocturnia Gag (October Bound Box)
.::Supernatural::. Kate Choker Silver (*new* @ Season’s Story)
Astralia – Eternal Rings set (*new* @ Salem)
{le fil casse} Chriselle Top
{le fil casse} Jenna Skirt (*new* @ FaMESHed)
[The Forge] Livia Gladiator Boots

FOXCITY. Prop – Silk Stool (Bad Kitty VOL1) (*new* @ ON9)
MINIMAL – Retro Backdrops *2*

NSFW-Ropes

I have this tendency to fall back on songs whenever I do an erotic post, because I suppose it’s easier than stepping out from behind the veil of an avatar to be truly honest about why I take these types of photographs. Someone told me a few months ago that my pictures were getting better and they were glad to see that I had learned I could still get favs on flickr with my clothes on. I was a teensy bit offended by that statement. I don’t take these photos for favs. I take these photos because I enjoy them. I enjoy looking at them. I enjoy creating them. It’s the same reason I take fashion photos and home decor photos. It’s why I refuse to force myself into some blogging niche as others have recommended to me so many times.
Don’t get me wrong, I love that so many creators have entrusted me with their creations and allowed me to blog for them, but I blog for me. That’s why I’ve chosen the brands that I apply to so carefully. I need some artistic license. I’m also aware of my responsibilities to the creators. I have one store that does not want nudity featured in the blogs we do for that brand. I respect that and I don’t do nudes when blogging those creations.
So, there you have it. I’m a big ole perv that enjoys sensual, erotic photography. Luckily for me, I get to blog the Bound Box…so let the perving commence! This is just the first of several pretties I’m about to show you from the box….so get your tissues and lotion ready or whatever you need…*laughs*

wearing:
hair: MINA – Harper (*new* @ FaMESHed)
head: CATWA HEAD Tala
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
Luas Shibari Harness & Mask (October Bound Box)

FOXCITY. Bad Kitty VOL2 Bento Pose Set (*new* @ ON9)
Trompe Loeil – Romy Cay Chair Leather

***You have till 23.59 SLT on the 11th to secure your pre-order for the October Bound Box at the 1500L price, after which the price will increase. Please visit one of the locations listed here to pre-order and also to confirm what bodies are being supported by each brand.***

Do Not Be Afraid

“We can easily forgive a child who is afraid of the dark; the real tragedy of life is when men are afraid of the light.”
― Plato

Wow, it has been quite a while since I started post with a quote. Of course, one is never quite sure what they will find when they go to read my blog. Perhaps a song, a story, a poem, a rant, or like today… some thoughts with a hopefully a sprinkle of wisdom. This particular quote hits home, because I look back at my life and see exactly where fear of success derailed my life over and over again. Failure? Nah, I’m good at that. My entire childhood was an education on how I would never be good enough for more than pleasing a man. My mother taught me to surrender to a man’s will. She was old fashioned and believed in standing by even the most monstrous of men. She preferred the comfort of denial that lies created for her. Looking back, I can see so clearly that she’s never been a fan of truth. Even the simplest of stories are exaggerated for no other reason that her apparent allergy to honesty. Don’t get me wrong, I love her and I’d be lost without her, but that doesn’t make her perfect.  My father on the other hand, perversely manipulative and abusive in every sense of the word. Though he told me repeatedly I’d be a whore and a slut in high school, I rarely dated at all and did not lose my virginity until I was 19. Years later when I proudly told him that he was wrong and how I had waited, he smirked and said that was his plan all along. For he knew I was defiant by nature and would prove him wrong. I know now, that was simply more of his manipulation. I think fewer things brought him more joy than messing with my head.

You may be wondering, what all of this has to do with the quote. It’s simple really. If we are taught to fear everything…if we are sheltered from the truth…fear will easily control our life and limit us in ways we never imagined until it is genuinely too late. Living behind a closed door or in the shadows can be so comforting. We cannot get burned by a light we never see, but the truth is in the light. Until we release ourselves from the shadows of fears, both real and imagined, we can never be free. For it is the truth that sets us free and that truth does not hide in the dark, it is us that choose to stay in the dark.

I have often said that I would rather be hurt by the truth than comforted with a lie. The older I get the more I stand by that statement. Do not be afraid of the light just because you outgrew your fear of the dark.

wearing:
hair:  [RA] Sherazade Hair (*new* @ Enchantment)
head: CATWA HEAD Tala
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara

{le fil casse}  Madison Dress (*new* @ Whimsical)
Phedora ~Zaidee Platforms (*new* @ Kustom9)

pose: FOXCITY. Cute But Psycho Bento Pose Set (*new* @ ON9)
**slightly edited with AnyPose
taikou / dusk backdrop with materials (*new* @ Kustom9)

Sweet Dreams

Many years ago, seems more like a lifetime ago, I had a roommate that kept chocolates in her nightstand. At first I thought it was strange that she had chocolates at all, as she was very weight conscious to the point that her other friends and I would worry about her. However, she had quite a few nightly habits that I learned about over time. The chocolates were just one of them. You see, her thing with the chocolates was that she would eat one or two each night before bed. She said that was to insure she had sweet dreams. I did try this little trick and sometimes I can do it, but sadly, I’m much like my friend Tracy and I cannot stop with just one of two. I end up eating like five! Okay, Tracy would eat the whole bag, but this isn’t really about her. *laughs* Okay, its not really about anything, except me wishing all those that remember their dreams to have sweet ones, cuz I’m pretty sure I’ve cornered the market on weird ones and nightmares.

wearing: 
hair:  TRUTH Taren (*new* @ Uber)
head: CATWA HEAD Kathy
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
tattoo:  [White~Widow] DarkTower  (*new* @ Uber)
The Annex – Ava Vintage Teddy

pose: FOXCITY. Show Off Pose Set (*new* @ ON9)

scene:
:CP: NorthHaven Bed
:CP: NorthHaven Night Table
:CP: NorthHaven Peony Jar
:CP: NorthHaven Lamp