Maybe I Will Learn

“How many fires must a girl walk through
Before it finally rains?
Will she wake up on the other side
Once the water drains?”
~ Rhys – Maybe I Will Learn

when it rains

wearing:
hair:  MINA – Tiffany (*new* @ Salon 52)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skin: #20 [PUMEC] – MIA – JUNE

LYBRA . 002 (*new* @ Season’s Story)
[Gos] Haute Chic Stilettos

pose: FOXCITY.  Rain Bento Pose Set
(Milk Motion) that night – house (*new* @ Epiphany)

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Cats, Naps, & Snacks

I know that Bueno didn’t make this shirt specifically for me. However, he might as well have made it for me, cuz these are three of my favorite things. In fact, just yesterday afternoon, I laid down for an 8 hour nap with my cat, Mr. Mayhem. I know, I know, 8 hrs is a full night’s sleep. It was only supposed to be a nap! Well, I’m fully rested now, I can tell you that! As for Mr. Mayhem, he’s a little upset that its pouring down rain and he can’t go out for his morning romp around the building. As for the snack, well, I had a rather pleasant bowl of steamed broccoli and rice around 2am. It was quite nice and not too heavy, considering the hour. As it IS pouring down outside, I imagine, the cat and I will probably enjoy another nap soon….perhaps we’ll even share a snack. Though, his treats kinda taste like ass…so I’m not sure we’ll share a snack. It’s the weekend, so maybe you’ll be able to enjoy a nap yourself. In the meantime, happy shopping!♥

cats naps snacks

wearing:
hair:  Stealthic – Desire (*new* @ Salon 52)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skin: [theSkinnery] Emmy (*new* @ C88)
BUENO-Kad Shirt (*new* @ Kustom9)

pose: FOXCITY. Stay In Bed Bento Pose Set

scene:
BUENO-Night Bed
-tres blah- Eclectic Collection – Cat Face Pillow
ionic – where is my Take away Chinese vegan food?

Strange

“Hey, anyone can get love, anyone can get laid
You know you’re home when you find the ones who
Stay brave enough not to tame, they let you burst into flames
Stoke the coals and then watch you blow, yeah
They’re the ones make you trust in the universe
When you’re lost and you’re left and it’s getting worse
They’re the ones who you know will get you by
We are all strange
And it ain’t never, never, ever gonna change
We are all strange
And it ain’t never, ever, never gonna change”

noir

wearing:
hair:  ::C’est la vie !:: Kiki Hair   (*new* @ Salon 52)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skin: [Glam Affair] Dorothy Applier [ Catwa ] 001 ( 20 )

LYBRA . AMBER (*new* @ Uber)
UC_Pearl_wedding_heels (*new* @ FaMESHed)

pose by DelMay

 

Like a watercolor about to fade

“My heart feels like the sharpest razor blade
I really hope this won’t give me away
‘Cause I’ve been drowning here for days
Like a watercolor about to fade
Every inch of me is there to trace
No secrets left here on my page
Underneath my skin, I see a change
Blood races right up to my face”
~ Astrid S – Paper Thin

coming right at you

wearing:
hair:  .ICONIC.AMERIE (*new* @ Salon 52)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
[Avenge] Pearls earrings
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skin: [theSkinnery] Paola
LYBRA . #001 (*new* @ FaMESHed)

pose by Bauhaus Movement

I Remember

I remember standing barefoot in a field of soft autumn grass. I remember thinking it shouldn’t be so soft, but the thing is..it wasn’t as dry as it looked. The grass was more bleached than dry. This strange place near the ocean, she longed to be there again. A cool indecisive breeze whisking about, creating a melody with the grass and the sea. She smiled as she sat in that hospital chair, staring out the window. I remember.

field of dreams

wearing:
hair:  .:EMO-tions.. *KIRSTY* (*new* @ Salon 52)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skin: [theSkinnery] Paola
Dead Dollz – Willa Dress (*new* @ FaMESHed)

pose: (HUD)SLC Bento SS Pose – surface

Setting Goals!

I had just been telling a friend of mine, “I’ve been tip toeing through broken glass for so goddamn long that I’ve forgotten what it feels like to wear my combat boots and fight back.” He shrugged it off like some crazy shit that only a high chick would say, but I think he just didn’t get it. Oddly enough, I was listening to Digital Daggers and one of my favorite songs of their started playing. While I’m not fond of the redundant name of the song, the lyrics connect to me in ways the author couldn’t have possibly imagined, and the melody is one of those hauntingly cool songs that only come along every so often. It all just got me thinking and looking back, which I do a lot.
I had gotten so tired of fighting that I just threw my hands up and surrendered. I tiptoed around certain friends, avoided some altogether…simply because I didn’t want to upset them and for whatever reason, my presence upsets them. There are people that hate me for reasons I have yet to understand and those people practically monitor my every move, another thing I have yet to understand. I didn’t have any fight in me. I was too emotionally tired to deal with SL drama, which is all it is…stuff that wouldn’t happen in RL, that’s for sure.
I genuinely stopped giving a fuck. Whatever happened…happened. While this attitude was rather liberating and freaking great at first, it got very dark rather quickly. I realized that I had not just lost the ability to give a fuck, but I had also lost hope. I was merely waiting to die. I was impossible to be around, my friends must have been watching from afar…some of them. I know they love me, but I’m sure they were like…nuh huh, she full on craycray, right now! They were right.
Due to so much time alone, I was able to take long horrid looks in the mirror, figuratively and literally. The emptiness in my eyes, no glow in my cheeks, even my lips seem pale. At least I have good make up, maybe I’ll start wearing some of it…not that anyone will see it, unless someone sends me a webcam..lol. I’ve got pink hair dye that I’ve been too chicken to apply..
It’s time to start living again and living for ME! As for all that broken glass? Hmm! Bitches better get out of my way, cuz Momma has a broom, Baby! My existence hurts your feelings? Block me and stop obsessing, stop pretending you like me, stop pretending to my friend…how about you find a new hobby or scape goat this year?
I’m putting my combat boots on, world. Ready or not, I’m not ready to just roll over and die like a little bitch. Enough is enough. I have a lot of changes to make, but there’s nothing like a new year to motivate me to make those changes. Am I making resolutions? No. I’m setting goals. *wink*

river song

wearing:
hair:  TRUTH VIP Joy
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skin: [theSkinnery] Paola

VINYL – Yuletide Crop
Dead Dollz – Mayerling Skirt (*new* @ UBER)

Believe in Something

Believe in something…live for something…don’t just exist.

It’s difficult to admit that I’ve allowed myself to slip so far down the rabbit hole that I don’t even recognize myself anymore. That I let life get the better of me and relinquished my terms completely. All of my boundaries faded away as I shriveled down into myself. Then I had a conversation with an old friend that really made me think. She suggested that I must have something to look forward to…something to live for…and I couldn’t think of a single one. So, more than a resolution…this is a goal. This year, I will believe in something…might just be that my cat is an asshole, but I will believe in something. I will live for something…not someone…something else…something that’s mine. From there, perhaps I can work on a list other smaller goals I have set for myself. That’s the goal anyway. Happy  New Year and Happy Shopping ❤

believe

wearing:
hair: DOUX – Samantha
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skin: [theSkinnery] Paola

[Avenge] Sacred Heart necklace
[Avenge] Pearls earrings
Ascendant  – Merry Bento Nails
LYBRA . AMELIE (*new* for Go by FaMESHed)

pose: GingerFish Poses – Not So Basic

For information regarding items in the background, please visit my previous post, Life of the Party.

Do Women Have Spank Banks?

Okay, so I will admit that I was enjoying some mighty fine herbal mood enhancements and listening to Devil Blues – Come Fly With Me, when the thought occurred to me. I might have also been leaning across my bed, stretching my back and petting my cat. I found my hips rolling to the music like they did when I was younger, drunk at the jukebox. My mind traveled to a fantasy like vision in my head. It’s a place I’ve been many times, in many different settings…its not so uncommon a thing really. Girl leans on furniture…someone else has prime view of said ass…things proceed….one direction or another. Basic recipe, really. The details are what make the story and set the tone…I’ll even give you a few examples. Consider the details as the spices for this midnight snack. *grins* That was the sweet warm up, now get ready for the salt…*laughs*

Here, you try it….
__(Person)__ leans on _(furniture)__…__(someone else)__ has prime view of __(name/description)__ ass…___(action sentence)___….___(good or bad direction)__.
Mila Kunez leans on a tableAshton has prime view of her perfect little heart shaped assher hips rolling to the music….Ashton shakes his head as he stands up….yadda, yadda, yadda…
Seth Rogan leans on the mini fridge door...Kate Upton has prime view of his sweaty hairy  ass crackshe scrunches up her face….he turns around and laughs, “Caught ya staring at my ass, huh?”
__(Sady)__ leans on _(the counter, smoking a freshly packed pipe)__…__(He)__ has prime view of __(her plump little)__ ass…___(His dick twitched)___….___(He crossed the room, driven by the desire to take his)__.

It can go anyway you want it to go, I’m just saying. *smirks* I really wish I could see your face right now. You’re welcome for those lovely visions. Now which version will you think up? I’d love to see your ideas feel free to share in the comments.  We’re all friends here.

space goddess redoux

 

wearing:
hair:  MINA – Leslie (*new* @ Uber)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
ears: .random.Matter. – Kyoya Ears
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skin: [theSkinnery] Paola

.:E.A.Studio:. BOX Collar Oculus Cross
Wicca’s Wardrobe – Paxton Gloves
*Vanilla Bae* Eve Dress (*new* for Naughty & Nice!)
Eudora3D Zhora Pumps (*new* for Go by FaMESHed)

pose by Del May

special thanks to Barmie for being such a patient model

Smoke

Another topic from my Challenge to Challenge post. This one came from Rina Edenflower: a Christmas ornament and a shovel. I immediately thought of how much I hate Christmas this year. I’ve done my best to keep in the spirit for those around me, but with these two items I couldn’t help but imagining digging a giant hole, then dumping the tree and all the ornaments into a big hole. Then lighting the whole thing on fire and watching it burn until there’s nothing left but smoke. Of course, I would never do that, but it sure amuses me to think about it.

Buried Christmas

wearing:
hair: Tableau Vivant \\ Laura hair
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skin: [theSkinnery] Paola
LYBRA . OLIVIA (@ FaMESHed until Dec 27th)

pose by BauHaus Movement

[BH9] – The Venue (*new* @ Equal10)

 

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