She Is Real

Today, I’m just sharing a poem I wrote about a little of a year ago. I hope you like it.

She Is Real

She steals my breath
Speeds my heart
Keeps me awake
Just by saying
Hello Baby

She pushes me harder
Lifts me up
Shoves me into life
Just by sharing
Her time

She blinds me
While helping me see
She weakens me
By giving me strength
She calms me
With a surge of life

She

She sends me

She sends me to a place so deep
Even she
Has no idea
Where it takes me

She moves me to the edge of my seat
Shielding me from ridiculous fears
By illuminating my bravery
With her courage
And her strength

She

She steals my words
While forcing my pen to paper
In her honor

She occupies my thoughts
She touches me
She touches my soul
She touches my heart

She

She is real

~Sady

making an entrance

wearing: 
hair
:  RAMA.SALON – Alexandra Hair (*new* @ FaMESHed)
headCATWA HEAD Kathy
skin: Glam Affair – Polly – Catwa Mesh Head Applier – Jamaica (*new* @ Arcade)
bodyMaitreya Mesh Body – Lara
Cae :: Madison :: Collection (necklace & earrings)
BUENO Clutch – Red
Scandalize. Mina (*new* @ FaMESHed)
#EMPIRE – Snapdragon (June Luxe Box)

pose by FOXCITY Formal VOL1 Bento Set
background: Pseudo– Black Lounge Scene

Lost on the Dock

When I shot this photo my main objective was to show off some more of the amazing creations you’ll find at the Vintage Fair and various other events across the grid. Okay, done. Then I though about what to write and I spent over an hour on YouTube looking for the perfect song, but nothing quite resonated with the photo. So, I decided to just ramble. Yep, That’s right…I’m going to ramble on about absolutely nothing. How long will you read these words about me writing about nothing? *laughs* I can’t imagine you’ll last too long, unless you a glutton for meaningless words. My mind is just all over the place this morning and I can’t even settle on a topic. Its Friday and I have so much to do in both world that my my is just spinning with ideas, but none of them will land…so, that’s all. Yep, I’m all out of deep thoughts this morning. Hell, I can barely get a regular thought to sit still and there’s no time for a nap today. I wish you all a fantastic weekend though. ♥

dock of the bay

wearing: 
hair
[e] Mabel (*new* @ Vintage Fair)
headCATWA HEAD Kathy
bodyMaitreya Mesh Body – Lara
tattoo: .::Nanika::. Spring is coming White

MANIK QUEEN – Betty Babes Glasses – Plain (*new* @ Vintage Fair)
Cae :: Sydney :: Earrings (*new* @ FaMESHed)
Cae :: Sydney :: Bracelets (*new* @ FaMESHed)
#187# Summer Beach Bag – Marine
JIAN Countryside Collies :: Companion Pup Sable

Scandalize. Sandra. (*new* @ Vintage Fair)
fri. – Nellie Sandals (*new* @ Arcade)

BOAT: BBX – Mary

[pose was sort of a combination of the hold pose in the bag and my ao, just captured it at the right moment (after about 20 shots)…the location is a friend’s house, but the boat was on loan from another friend]

My Ride

“Oh, oh
I’m falling so I’m taking my time on my ride
Oh, I’m falling so I’m taking my time on my ride
Taking my time on my ride”
Twenty One Pilots-Ride

So, this song started on repeat in my head the minute I started taking this picture and at first I was like, ok, I’ll give them the lyrics and let it go. Then I listened a few more times. Then I read the lyrics without the music, because I love poetry and I recognized the true depth of the song. While its the chorus that usually sticks with us and plants some lovely ear worms, the meat of this song comes in the too quick to keep up in a sing along portion. Give it a read, think it over, then meet me after the row of stars.

 

“I’d die for you
That’s easy to say
We have a list of people that we would take
A bullet for them
A bullet for you
A bullet for everybody in this room
But I don’t see to see many bullets coming through
See many bullets coming through
Metaphorically I’m the man
But literally I don’t know what I’d do
I’d live for you
And that’s hard to do
Even harder to say
When you know it’s not true
Even harder to write
When you know that tonight
There are people back home which are talking to you
But then you ignore them still
All these questions they’re forming like
Who would you live for?
Who would you die for?
And would you ever kill?”

✪✪✪✪✪✪✪✪✪✪✪✪✪✪✪✪✪✪✪✪✪✪✪✪✪✪✪✪✪✪✪✪✪✪✪✪✪✪✪✪✪✪✪✪✪✪✪✪✪✪✪

I hope you have thought it over to yourself, before just skipping to this part. Either way, here’s what I’ve got to say about it…if you’re interested. It’s okay if you’re not, you can scroll on down to the credits. I’ll never know and even if you told me, I’m not going to get butthurt over it. Now that I’ve stalled you enough to make you think one way or the other…let’s jump on down that rabbit hole, shall we?

The whole “die for you” and “take a bullet for you” thing. I can’t know if you’ve ever said it, but I sure have. I can’t know if you have taken a bullet for someone or not, but I haven’t. I have, however, had a gun pulled on me and was more than willing to take that bullet. Being a female, I didn’t have to take the bullet afterall, I just had to take something else while the gun was held to my head. I can say without hesitation that I would be willing to take a bullet for a number of people, but that’s because I’m not afraid to die. I also know that a bullet does not always bring death. So, that answers the next question, as to who I’d die for, because I’d die for quite a number of people if it meant they could keep on living. It’s those same people that I live for, because truth be told if it were just up to me I would have been gone well over a year ago.  I didn’t choose to live for myself. I chose not to bring sorrow and suffering to those I love. Last question, would I ever kill? Yes. If I felt I had no other choice, most definitely. Oddly enough, all of these questions are things I’ve thought about in the past, but I never considered how deeply this song would make think about my past, my present, or my future. Ironically the song points out that the singer has been thinking too much. In turn, the song has caused me to think quite a lot.
After all that heavy thinking, I think I’ll just relax and enjoy what’s left of my ride. Here’s hoping that you can make the most of yours and enjoy it, because as many of us have realized this last week…the ride isn’t as long as we sometimes think it is…*lifts her coffee to the sky*…let’s try to enjoy the ride today as long as it last.

my ride

wearing:
hair
[RA] Marina Hair
headCATWA HEAD Kathy
bodyMaitreya Mesh Body – Lara

EF: Summersong Necklace (*new* @ FaMESHed)
*Just BECAUSE* Eva Dress
[VALE KOER] GARTER SOCKS
Phedora ~ Lupe Sneakers (*new* @ Vintage Fair)

pose: [ Focus Poses ] 50’s Tbird (*new* @ Vintage Fair)
backdrop: [Bad Unicorn] ‘The Docks’ Backdrop

 

 

To AraCakes with Love

I grew up listening to my mom telling stories about hanging out at the soda fountain at the pharmacy after school. The closest thing I had to that was my last two years of high school, we’d all park at Corner Grocery, which was really a Texaco station, get drunk and dance in the gravel parking lot. The owners were super cool and didn’t mind us being there as we bought drinks, snacks, cigarettes, and occasionally talked someone into buying us alcohol. Plus, the store isn’t likely to get robbed with a group of teens hanging out next to it. Those were good times, but I always wondered what it must have been like to sit on a stool at an actual soda fountain. God knows with the heat in my part of the world, I’d love to sit in a sweet shop with a good old fashioned milk shake right about now. We had a really cute little shop for a while called Just Desserts where you’d get a piece of cake the size of your head and pay about $6usd for it, but it was literally too rich for my blood. That’s the problem I find with most American desserts anyway, too sweet. I grew up on European desserts and as decadent as they looked, they were the perfect balance of flavors without being too sweet.
So, anyway, you might be wondering about the title and what that has to do with what I’ve written. Well, I’ll tell you, absolutely nothing. This post is just a little wink to Miss AraCakes, a wonderful and shy friend of mine that is the only one that gets away with calling me Cupcake. I know by writing that you’ll all try it now and I’m warning you, the nickname is reserved for Ara only, so when I ignore you…you’ll know why, cuz you fuckers ain’t gonna steal her special pet name for me! *sticks her tongue out*

SadyCakes

wearing:
hair
little bones. Estine (*new* @ C88)
headCATWA HEAD Kathy
bodyMaitreya Mesh Body – Lara
tattoo.:::G.ID:::. Charlotte Tattoo (*new* @ Vintage Fair)

Cae :: Sydney :: Necklace (*new* @ FaMESHed)
:::NOIR::: Infinite Bracelets (*new* @ FaMESHed)
**RE** Dark Queen Rings – Bento 2.0
Astralia – Compatible nails system (Maitreya Stiletto base)
GingerFish -Nail Applier-Astralia-Bloody Kisses
LYBRA . Natalia (*new* @ SouledOut)
[Gos] Boutique – Gigi Sandals (*new* @ FaMESHed)

pose by Del May Poses

scene:
RAMA – #selfie_RAMA Iron Wall
[Merak] – Milkshake Sign (*new* @ Vintage Fair)
[Merak] – Bakery Sign (*new* @ Vintage Fair)
[Merak] – Cupcake Sign (*new* @ Vintage Fair)
[Merak] – Cupcake Box (*new* @ Vintage Fair)
[Merak] – Milkshake Love (*new* @ Vintage Fair)
[Merak] – Retro Bakery Bar (*new* @ Vintage Fair)
[Merak] – Retro High Chair(green) (*new* @ Vintage Fair)

The 3F Rule

“I can swear, I can joke
I say what’s on my mind
If I drink, if I smoke
I keep up with the guys
And you see me holding up my middle finger to the world
Fuck your ribbons and your pearls
‘Cause I’m not just a pretty girl”
Maggie Lindemann – Pretty Girl

My mother was raised in a strict Christian home by a single mom that was too proud to accept charity of any kind, thus she worked three jobs to keep the bills paid. Yet, somehow never missed church or disciplining her daughters by reminding them to carry themselves a certain way. Afterall, what would people think? My father was raised in a very abusive home and was often hidden away from the public by his single mom. She would lock him in the basement on weekends so that she could pretend she only had two children, whose father had died during WWII. (Mind you he died in prison, not the war, but she conveniently left that part of the story out.) My father’s dad had left when he was only 3yrs old to pursue his drinking and drug addictions. Eventually my father joined the U.S. Army, where once again, life was all about appearances.
Needless to say, my parents expected me to behave a certain way. They taught me how to converse with adults politely, then disappear, as children were meant to be seen, not heard. My parents finally divorced when I was in high school and my mother was so beside herself with grief that she quit imposing so many rules on me. That was when I began to develop my own style and discover the person I wanted to be. I didn’t want to cater to society’s norms. I wanted to in the exit door and leave through the entrance. I wanted to wear short skirts over leggings with ripped tee shirts and wild hair.
For years, my mother tried to make me a princess. She wanted to decorate my room with ruffles and canopy beds. I wanted my mattress on the floor with tons of pillows. She quickly became very much like her own mother and repeatedly said to me, “What will people think?”
I didn’t care what people thought! If they didn’t know me, how could they have a proper impression of me? Based on my clothes? The color of my skin? The color of my hair? My eyes? Eventually I discovered the 3F rule and I’ve pretty much lived my life that way ever since.
The 3F rule is simple: If you are not Feeding me, Financing me, or Fucking me….you get no say in how I live my life and your opinion means nothing to me. I was never going to be what my mother wanted me to be, nor did I want to. Yes, she was feeding me and financing me at the time, but she still needed to let me be me…or there would be a fight. There were many of those over the years until she realized she was never going to win. I was not going to be this super feminine little princess that sat around waiting for some prince charming, because I learned early on…you can never truly know another person. The only person you can truly know is yourself and that’s the person you should be true to.

The 3F Rule

hair.:EMO-tions.. *PAOLA* (*new* @ Vintage Fair)
headCATWA HEAD Kathy
bodyMaitreya Mesh Body – Lara

.LYBRA . SADIE (*new* @ FaMESHed)

pose by GingerFish Poses
background: RAMA – #selfie_RAMA Circles Studio

Summer Breeze

“Summer breeze, makes me feel fine, blowing through the jasmine in my mind”
~Summer Breeze – Seals & Croft

This is one of those songs that takes me back to childhood summers in Alabama. As a child I didn’t notice the heat so much, I just knew its warm and the sun is shining, and that meant I could go outside to play. I loved playing outside as a kid. Its not something I see many kids doing where I live unless they’re at the pool. In some ways its kinda sad to see the kids of today more glued to little blue screens than focused on playing tag or hide-n-seek, but I would imagine some of the mothers rest a little easier knowing exactly where their children are, rather than worrying about them getting snatched up or climbing and falling off a scaffold that the workers left behind while working on their apartment building.  *laughs* Yeah, I might have climbed a four story scaffold as a kid, luckily none of us fell, but if our mothers had know what we were doing. *giggles*
From time to time I do see boys outside tossing around a football and because there’s a park next to my neighborhood I can hear the cheers and whistles of soccer (football is you live outside the U.S.) games on occasion. Perhaps its because of where I live that I don’t see a lot of children outside playing, but when I think back to my childhood I’m ever so grateful to have memories of chasing lightening bugs as the sun began to set, because lets face it…we all knew that when those street lights came on, it was time to get our little butts in the house.

I don’t spend nearly as much time outside these days as I did as a child, but again, I’m grateful for the memories of my own. My childhood wasn’t all great, but I truly have some amazing memories worth a visit from time to time and there’s nothing like a summer breeze stirring up the jasmines in my garden to take me back. I hope that summer treats you all well and that you can revisit some of your own beautiful memories. ♥

rh fameshed_001

wearing:
hair: Tableau Vivant \\ Summer Hairplay – Alize – Pack 3 RARE (*new* @ Arcade)
head: CATWA HEAD Kathy
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
tattoo: RedFish – Precious Tattoo (*new* @ Kinky)
makeup (brows/lipstick): A R T E – 40’s MakeUp Pack [Catwa, bento] (*new* @ Vintage Fair)
nail polish on maitreya nailsHello Dave – Nail Appliers – Baroque Pinup 1 (*new* @ Vintage Fair)

MINIMAL – Chiara Glasses -Silver-(*new* @ FaMESHed)
!Rebel Hope – Jasmina Mesh Bikini (*new* @ FaMESHed)

pose: FOXCITY. Formal VOL1-7 (Slim gown)

location: aloha beach

Pug Life

Alright, get ready for a journey down the rabbit hole of Sady’s mind, once again, because this post is all about the stuff and how my mind put it all together…I’m just going to write stream of consciousness here, soooo…buckle your seat belts, its going to be a helluva ride!
Okay, so I have three pictures to show you, because I’ve got soooo much to go over with you! First off, let me mention the five main designers I’m trying to showcase here. We’ve got super cute hair from Mina at FaMESHed, a rad tattoo from RedFish at Kinky, a super sexy outfit from le fil casse for the Arcade, some of Bueno’s arcade set, AND some of the She Pop Band Set that unKindness released recently at REWIND! It really wasn’t my intention to mix soooo many great designers into one scene, but sometimes things just fall together that way, ya know?
Okay, so this first picture *points below* is the whole scene with all the stuff, me, and lots of little extras I gave the my Pug Life scene. If you’re going to do a post called PugLife, you gotta have some pugs, right? So, purple and black are the base colors, but I couldn’t stop there…I had to add others. So, this is a smorgasbord of stuff that I really thought worked well together. It might be a bit cluttery for some, but I have yet to tear down this scene, because I like it sooo much! Oh and I have a weakness for signs, especially neon for some reason. I have no explanation for it and none in real life, but as Josh pointed out. Its not really that easy to own a lot of neon in real life, is it? I dunno, I know I don’t have any, never have. Okay, okay, I like shiny things, sue me!

pug life2

So, one of the things I did was use pieces from the She Pop Band Set, that unKindness released recently at REWIND, in a different way. I saw the drum set and thought it would make the perfect way to display my MishMish pugs! Naturally that led me to slap the keyboard and guitar on the wall. Music is a huge part of my life, but I’ve got not musical talents whatsoever! I’m all about thinking outside the box…actually, I’m not sure I know how to think inside the box. *laughs*
You’ll also notice the gorgeous outfit I’m wearing and by sharing multiple pictures you can see it from other angles, as well as the sweet little tattoo that runs up and down both my legs, front and back. Plus, how freaking adorable is this hair?!?!?! I know, I know…too freaking cute!

pug life3

I just couldn’t decide which picture best showcased everything I wanted to show you, so I decided it was time for multiples. I haven’t done multiple pics in a while and rarely does more than one show up on my Flickr page. However, this time will be different. I’m going to take the chance and post all three this time around, because I really want you everyone to see all this good stuff. Maybe I’m crazy…yeah, okay, we know I am…its even been certified…I know…you must be shocked. *laughs*
Yeah, so I’ve rambled on mindlessly about all the awesome stuff I’m wanting to show off and its not too often that I go on and on about the photos and the stuff this way…or cram so much into one post, but c’mon, you gotta admit, its pretty awesome, right? Oh just be nice and agree, cuz I’m excited!

pug life1

wearing:
hair: MINA – Marre (*new* @ FaMESHed)
head: CATWA HEAD Kathy
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
tattoo: RedFish – Say please (*new* @ Kinky)

{le fil casse} Adriana Slip Maitreya RARE (*new* @ Arcade)
{le fil casse} Adriana Panty Maitreya Purple (*new* @ Arcade)
{le fil casse} Adriana Heels Maitreya RARE (*new* @ Arcade)

poses by Fashiowl

scene:
set up in BUENO-Stone Skybox RARE (*new* @ Arcade)
BUENO– Bike-Silver
BUENO-Cupcake ATM Purple (*new* @ Arcade)
BUENO-Deco Bag
JIAN Love Pugs 2. Sleepy Treater RARE
BUENO-Floor Pillow-Night (*new* @ Arcade)
Apt B // Retro Label – Restricted Sign
floorplan. street girls sign
7 – Stop Sign
BUENO -Pug Life-Purple (*new* @ Arcade)
BUENO– Night Sofa (*new* @ Arcade)
BUENO– Rug -Block (*new* @ Arcade)
BUENO-Pillows Pile-Night (*new* @ Arcade)
BUENO – Whiskey Cooler (*new* @ Arcade)
+Half-Deer+ Pet Succulents – Pug Puppy x
uK – She Pop Drum Set (*new* @ REWIND)
*MishMish* Pugs Love TV – Piper Pugman
*MishMish* Pugs Love TV – Sestra
*MishMish* Pugs Love TV – D’oh!
*MishMish* Pugs Love TV – Zombie Killer
*MishMish* Pugs Love TV – Dr. Pug
*MishMish* Pugs Love TV – The Spot Hypothesis
*MishMish* Pugs Love TV – The Cook
*MishMish* Pugs Love TV – Snow
uK – She-Pop Keyboard (*new* @ REWIND)
uK – She-Pop Guitar (*new* @ REWIND)
BUENO-Skull Pop Deco
The Horror!~ Psychic Sign (Purple)
BUENO-Neon Sugar Skull Sign
[ free bird ] Bleeding Heart Neon Sign
BUENO -Pugs and kisses -Purple (*new* @ Arcade)
BUENO-Night Bed (*new* @ Arcade)
BUENO-Laptop Hustle
BUENO-Magazine Stack 2
JIAN Love Pugs 5. Sleepy Family
BUENO– Vintage Stereo Conspiracy