This isn’t news

It’s safe to say that I’m a true crime junkie. I have been since I was a kid. I would buy those magazines that had true crime stories long before there were things like podcasts and internet. One thing that has always bewildered me are those people that have this mentality of “if I can have them, no one can.” Especially the ones that kill themselves after they kill the person they’re obsessing over. I mean, I get that they’re not in their right mind, cuz murder. But what sense does that make? If you really love someone, why would you want to end their life? Cuz they hurt you? Are you going to kill everyone that hurts you? I cannot wrap my mind around it! I guess it’s fairly obvious that this mindset is not about love at all. It’s self centered and selfish on a whole new level.
There’s a whole lot of things I don’t understand, but I am starting to understand that the more I learn about the human race, the less I like people. And trust? Nah, I don’t think I completely trust anyone, but this isn’t news. Anyone that knows me or thinks they know me, can tell you that while I seem pretty open…I’m actually pretty closed off. Go figure.

foundation
hair: Tableau Vivant – Becky hair @ C88
head: LeLUTKA Halle Head 3.1
head skin: [Glam Affair] Mea Layer [Lelutka EvoX] @ ACCESS
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) Special Edition (1.4)
body skin: VELOUR: The “Ipanema Body” for Legacy

fashion
ERSCH – Greenya Dress @ Access
Phedora ~ Banshee Unisex Boots @ Access

[Rezz Room] Box Royal Poodle Animesh @ Access

pose: FOXCITY. Stardust Bento Pose Set

background
Serenity Style– Old Newsstand @ Cosmopolitan

dust bunny . storybook living . bakers’ boy farthing

:FNY: Delivery – Vines on Cracks – Set Brown

LOVE – BLOWING AUTUMN LEAVES

Botanical – Fallen Leaves

Inside your own head

Never make your home in a place. Make a home for yourself inside your own head. You’ll find what you need to furnish it – memory, friends you can trust, love of learning, and other such things. That way it will go with you wherever you journey. ~Tad Williams

https://www.flickr.com/photos/sadystikasabretooth/51415289096/in/dateposted/

MudHoney Classic Photo Room 1

.spruce. library day pillows {pastel blue}
.spruce. library day pillows {white}

FD & Commoner: Modine Umbrella Stand

Foxwood – Boho Borzoi – lay
Foxwood – Boho Borzoi – sit

KraftWork Wall Branch Lamp @ TLC

Loft & Aria – Harper Chandelier Ivory @ Uber

Loft & Aria – Azibo Rug 3
Loft & Aria – Brewer basket w/Books
Loft & Aria – Hoyos Artwork
Loft & Aria – Mr. Ademar Silver
Loft & Aria – Shirley Flowers
Loft & Aria – Sterling Artwork
The Loft & Aria – Hourglass Brass
The Loft – Atmark
The Loft – Nolan Floor Lamp

Serenity Style– Louisa Nature Set @ Cosmopolitan
Serenity Style- Louisa Nature Armchair 1
Serenity Style- Louisa Nature Armchair2
Serenity Style- Louisa Nature Books
Serenity Style- Louisa Nature Bowl
Serenity Style- Louisa Nature Table
Serenity Style- Louisa Nature Vase of Daisies

[IK] Dream Your Life @ TLC
[IK] Dream Your Life – Bureau
[IK] Dream Your Life – Candlestick
[IK] Dream Your Life – Chair (PG)
[IK] Dream Your Life – Diaries Box
[IK] Dream Your Life – Drawing Set
[IK] Dream Your Life – Lace Books
[IK] Dream Your Life – Message Books
[IK] Dream Your Life – Old Letters
[IK] Dream Your Life – Old Photos
[IK] Dream Your Life – Pencils Pot
[IK] Dream Your Life – Scrolls Dome

dust bunny . branch coat rack . gold
dust bunny . quirky planters 4 . elephant
dust bunny . sweet pea birdcage . hanging

hive // devil’s ivy overhang plant . light
hive // hanging bougainvillea plant . white
hive // hanging devil’s ivy plant . light
hive // kentia palm plant
hive // macrame hanging plant . stone
hive // pink caladium plant

{vespertine} – fiddle leaf fig
{vespertine} – potted monstera

In the stillness

“The right thing to do is not always the easiest thing to do. There may be some struggles and difficulties but in the end, you will be happy that you did what was right. If you are ever unsure of what to do, close your eyes, take a deep breath, and be still. In the stillness, all answers appear.” Paul Taubman

hair: TRUTH Meadow
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) Perky Edition (1.4)

(Yummy) Plumage Ring Set @ C88
Seniha. Cecil Dress @ Cosmopolitan
CAKE WEDGES FLORAL COLLECTION :: LYBRA :: @ TLC

pose: Lyrium. Garden View Scene – Poppies Field

KraftWork Hanging Hammock Gazebo . Natural @ TLC

Deja vu

If you need me
Wanna see me
Better hurry
‘Cause I’m leaving soon
Sorry, can’t save me now
Sorry, I don’t know how
Sorry, there’s no way out (sorry)
But down, mm down
Taste me, the salty tears on my cheek
That’s what a year-long headache does to you
I’m not okay, I feel so scattered
Don’t say I’m all that matters
Leave me
Deja vu

hair: DOUX – Cookie hairstyle
head: LeLUTKA Avalon Head 3.0 @ Skin Fair
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) Special Edition (1.4)
skin: [Glam Affair] Ava Skin [Lelutka EvoX] @ Skin Fair
Glam Affair – New Body Line

(Yummy) Aaliyah Ring Collection @ Uber
Seniha. Andrea Dress @ Cosmopolitan
BUENO-Sun Boots

pose: Diversion – Escape – Poses
backdrop: MINIMAL – Red Rocks Scene

The morning after

I couldn’t sleep last night
You were chasing the birds ’till the beast caught your eye
I couldn’t sleep last night
How you look like an angel
It’s burnt in my mind
I can’t feel anything the morning after you
I can’t tell anyone the morning after you
And I hope you sleep with a merry gold
I hope you win it this time
And I pray you don’t fear the animals
I’ll save you, I promise this time

hair: TRUTH Calamity
head: LeLUTKA Nova Head 2.5
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) Special Edition (1.3)
skin: PUMEC – Lillian

Badwolf – Aeternitas Bracelets @ The Liaison Collaborative
Seniha. Sienna Dress @ Cosmopolitan
(AMD) LoungeWear Socks

pose: Diversion – Wine O’Clock Poses

backdrop: Party Was Here RARE – Damn Night – The Bearded Guy @ ManCave

[Rezz Room] Sphynx Animesh @ ManCave

..::THOR::.. Breakfast Tray ULTRARARE @ Kustom9
..::THOR::.. Morning News @ Kustom9

Let’s root for each other and watch each other grow.

I have yet to understand why so many people want to tear each other down. Life is not a competition, no one gets out alive and nothing we acquire in this life is going with us when we leave. So, why would anyone make it their mission to seek and destroy others? What is there to gain in doing that? I mean, I know misery loves company, but why would anyone want to embrace that misery by sharing it with others or causing it? There’s nothing good to gain from that…absolutely nothing. The only thing I can imagine that allows people to behave like this is that they lack that part of the human psyche that most of us possess…that part that seeks happiness for ourselves, as well as other people. When someone lacks that empathy and compassion, they are left with a giant hole. That hole is what religious people like to call evil, but I don’t believe in evil. I believe that people are innately good….unless they are missing that inner light. They are lacking goodness. They might fake it….cuz that’s what sociopaths often do, but deep down…they just don’t have it in them be truly good. I cannot truly imagine what that must be like, but it sounds absolutely horrible. Sadly, its the only thing that makes sense to me as to why people truly want to tear one another down. I would much rather see us all root for each other and watch each other grow.

hair: DOUX – Kiara hairstyle
head: LeLUTKA Lily Head 2.5
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) Special Edition (1.3)
skin: Glam Affair – Lelutka Skin – Zasha @ C88

Cae :: Sylvie :: Earrings
.random.Matter. – Caithe Collar @ Kustom9
REIGN.- HEART COIN PURSE
Apl.Blossom Bel @ Cosmopolitan
MIWAS / High waist Fishnet tights

pose: Lyrium. Ariel Static & Breathing + Fingers Series @ Equal10

MINIMAL – Ancien Elevator Backdrop

dust bunny . potted palm
dust bunny . pilea peper plant
dust bunny . hanging plants . ivy planter

MADRAS Divya Hanging Candle Size

Second Spaces checkout at 11 trolley

Artisan Fantasy Glamping 7 – Stacked Suitcases

Serenity Style– French Bulldog Suitcase (Rez) RARE

[Rezz Room] French Bulldog Animesh (Companion) v1.0.0 @ Equal10

let’s love tonight

When, when we came home
Worn to the bones
I told myself, “this could get rough”
And when, when I was off, which happened a lot
You came to me and said, “that’s enough”
Oh I know that this love is pain
But we can’t cut it from out these veins, no
So I’ll hit the lights and you lock the doors
We ain’t leaving this room ’til we bust the mold
Don’t walk away, don’t roll your eyes
They say love is pain,
well darling, let’s hurt tonight
When, when you came home
Worn to the bones
I told myself, “this could be rough”
Oh, I know you’re feeling insane
Tell me something that I can explain,
oh I’ll hit the lights and you lock the doors
Tell me all of the things that you couldn’t before
Don’t walk away, don’t roll your eyes
They say love is pain,
well darling, let’s hurt tonight
If this love is pain,
well darling, let’s hurt,
oh tonight
So you hit the lights and I’ll lock the doors
Let’s say all of the things that we couldn’t before
Won’t walk away, won’t roll my eyes
They say love is pain,
well darling, let’s hurt tonight
If this love is pain,
then honey let’s love tonight

hair: tram J1213 hair @ Uber
head: LeLUTKA Lily Head 2.5
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) Special Edition (1.3)
skin: Glam Affair – Lelutka Skin – Lilly @ Kustom9

e.marie // Bailey Earrings – Silvers
Apl.Blossom June @ Cosmopolitan

pose: [ west end ] Bento Poses – Simple Kind of Love

Serenity Style– The Garden Balcony Backdrop

{anc} ivy wall
Compulsion Plant 14

Mace’s hair is from Stealthic & his suit is from Deadwool

I Will Be Rising

You can take everything I have
You can break everything I am
Like I’m made of glass
Like I’m made of paper
Go on and try to tear me down
I will be rising from the ground
Like a skyscraper, like a skyscraper

hair: DOUX – Carla hairstyle
head: LeLUTKA Fleur Head 2.5
skin: [theSkinnery] Teo (LelutkaEVO) @ Kustom9
tattoo: Apocalyptic + Becoming a dragon

=Zenith=Off Shoulder Faux Fur Coat
Apl.Blossom Toya @ Cosmopolitan

pose: K&S – // Freya. Bento poses @ Access
backdrop: K&S – // Everlasting story. Backdrop @ Access

Laughing at Myself

I got ahead of myself when taking this picture. I totally meant to change my hair. In editing it dawned on me that this scene was looking like one of those from a movie where the girl always looks on point. As people magically wake up with perfect hair and make up. Let’s not even talk about how pristine they are while working out, barely sweating at all, just a glistening…as if they have been sprayed with light iridescent oils. Well, this picture is in between and instead of reshooting, I figured I’d just have a laugh at my own mistake. I’ve gotten used to laughing at myself over the years, so this is nothing new.

hair: DOUX – Carla hairstyle
head: LeLUTKA Fleur Head 2.5
skin: [theSkinnery] Teo (LelutkaEVO) @ Kustom9

BUENO-Gia Top @ Kustom9
BUENO-Edi Sweat Pants @ Kustom9
[ VERSOV ] ARKANOV_SNEAKERS @ Kustom9

pose: Focus. Hello Autumn @ Cosmopolitan
background: Focus. The Mall Autumn Park @ Cosmopolitan

What’s left to prove?

Only give me love when I’m giving it back
But you say you’ll never be my friend
Always on the train, never on the track
So I’m jumping before the crash
And I know you’re just trying to scare me
But you lost all of your effect
You can bark like a dog, baring your teeth
But I’m never going back again
No, I’m never going back again
Babe, it’s true
I’m in love with what we were
But not with you
What’s left to prove?
Tried so many damn times to cut you loose
Now I’m way too far away to be hurt by you
~ Donna Missal – Hurt By You

hair: Exile – Soleil @ Equal10
head: LeLUTKA Fleur Head 2.0
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) (1.2)
skin: [theSkinnery] Dalia (LeLutkaEVO) @ C88

[Heaux] Chilled Eyes
eyeshadow: IDTTY FACES – LELUTKA DIRTY BABE COLLECTION #3 @ Cosmopolitan
lipstick: IDTTY FACES – LELUTKA DIRTY BABE COLLECTION #8 @ Cosmopolitan

BUENO-Bella Necklace @ Kustom9
VOBE – Debbie Earrings