Love IS Blind

How many red flags do we ignore, because we THINK we’re in love? For whatever reason, we’ve set out sights on that person. Suddenly, all the signs that will be so crystal clear to us in the future are excusable.
There were so many signs when I first met my ex husband. He lied. Repeatedly. He lied about his job and I decided that he was just embarrassed by his actual position. He thought it would be more impressive if he had the same job as his friend that brought him into Second Life. I thought it was cute that he was worried about what I’d think. *rolls her eyes at herself* He lied about his living situation. He lived at home with his mother, but he told me he lived with a roommate. Again, I excused it as cute that he was worried about what I thought. That’s two lies before we even met in person. *sighs* He lied about sending me a package in the mail. Turns out, there never was a package. *hangs her head* I racked that up as a stupid lie, but no biggie. Just one of those lies should have been enough to turn my ass around and go the other direction.
He lied about several other things and yet…my dumbass still married him. Look where that got me! Now I’m not even sure he ever loved me. I think I was just an escape from a life he hated. *shrugs* It is what it is, but you can be damn sure I won’t be falling for that trap again!

love IS blind

wearing:
hair: [RA] Ary Hair – Fatpack (*new* @ C88)
head: CATWA HEAD Denice
ears: .:[PUMEC] :. – / Mesh Ears\ – Winter Flower
SU!– Piercing Set 07 Septum & Nose Studs
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skin: #PUMEC – Sophia (*new* @ Cupid Inc)

Wicca’s Wardrobe – Elowen Necklace [Silver]
(Yummy) Art Deco Rings (*new* @ C88)

_CandyDoll_ Misty Dress (*new* @ C88)
Eudora3D Aerendyll (Enchantment)

pose by Bauhaus Movement combined with the pose in the hair hud
Helix – This is Sick Backdrops – The Bearded Guy (*new* @ Unik)

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No time to hate

“I got no time to hate people who hate me. I’m too busy loving the people who love me.” ~RuPaul

I have to admit that I’ve been binging on RuPaul’s DragRace All Stars and I swear those ladies are the fiercest of the fierce! They make me wish I could be a drag queen! Alas, I cannot, for I’m not only a woman, but I’ve got the grace of a crack head in a porcelain factory. Just another reason for me to love the outlet that Second Life provides me. Here I can dress up or dress down. I can be as sexy as I want to be and despite those that call this platform a game, those emotions…those feelings…they flow through me from this virtual world into the real world. I heard RuPaul say the quote above the other night and the very next day, someone special to me that I thought hated me came to me. We confronted the issues we’ve been having and we’ve decided to start clean. We need each other, because we both fight a lot of the same demons. I’m taking this gift (quote) from RuPaul and I’m going to apply it to my life. I will remember it and stop letting the negative energies of others enter my bubble.

jealous sea

wearing:
hair: #Besom~Josie
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
eyes: -SU!- Astrid Eyes
^^Swallow^^ Princess Ears
body: –Belleza– Freya
skin: [theSkinnery] Emmy (*new* @ C88)

(Yummy) Comfy Cozy Ring Set (*new* @ C88)
Ascendant – Midnight Call Nails (*new* @ Vanity)
_CandyDoll_ Zoey Bra
_CandyDoll_ Zoey Panties
_CandyDoll_ Zoey Socks

pose by BauHaus Movement
[Dollmart]Empress Chair

 

Dear Customers

Dear Customers,

Obviously, this is not aimed at every single customer in the world or even on the grid. However, it is aimed at enough people that I took it upon myself to use a blog post for the article. I’m not going to bitch at you or try to insult you, because customers are wonderful. Yet, there seems to a few things in Second Life that most customers seemed to be a bit confused about, so I’m going to try and help both the customer, as well as the designer, with a few helpful tips.

  1. Contacting the designer for any reason. First thing I recommend is looking at the designer’s profile. Most designers have specific instructions for common issues and a list of contacts for the fastest response. Follow those instructions. I promise, they’re there for a reason.
  2. Keep it Simple. Whatever the directions say to do…do it. Don’t go over the stop with long drawn out explanations. Designers are smart, they know what keywords mean. So, instead of explaining why you made a double purchase, just stated: Double purchase….and whatever else the designer needs from you.
  3. Transaction History. People, please, learn what this is…it is your friend and can save you so much frustration down the road. It surprises me how many people don’t know how to do this. You go to SecondLife.com  and log in. On the left, there’s a drop down menu for Account, then a clear and precise option for Transaction History. This will open up a variety of options with your most recent transactions listed, along with other pertinent information. Copy & paste what you need.
  4. Be polite & patient. Chances are if you’re having an issue with the fit or not receiving your item, other people might be, too. The designer might be dealing with complaints as quickly as possible. Being nasty and rushing the designer is not going to encourage them to help you any faster.
  5. Designers are human, too. Please remember that just like you, designers are people with lives in RL and some even manage to have one in SL. However, they are very busy and deserve some time off without having to hide on an alt. Being courteous takes you a long way.
  6. Profiles are important. Please read designer profiles, customer service profiles, etc. Make sure you are contacting the correct person and it might not hurt to double check what your sending to make sure its got all the right info.
  7. Legacy names matter! I personally like to sign my notecards with a copy of my calling card. Just type your name into your inventory search and you’ll find yours. This makes it easier for the designer to find you. However, if for some reason a calling card is too difficult for you…-_-…please copy your legacy name, not your display name. You cannot be searched by display name and it is not the designer’s job to play detective to figure out who sent them what.

That’s it for now, my lovelies. However, my regular readers know I love doing these “Dear _______” posts. So, there you have it, the first directed at customers. Happy Shopping!

mornings

wearing:
hair:  DOUX – Danna hairstyle
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: –Belleza– Freya
skin: [theSkinnery] Paola

^^Swallow^^ Princess Ears
^^Swallow^^ Princess Bento Rings
_CandyDoll_ Noelia (*new* @ UBER)

pose: [KoKoLoReS] Coffee Break pose pack (includes coffee cup)

Recharged

I’ve made this conscious decision not to let this year get the best of me, but the truth is I battle with depression and even more so in the last few years. My friend, Tracy, told me one of the most profound statements about depression that has ever stuck with me. She said, “Depression lies.” I really analyzed that statement or perhaps my demons did in the hopes they could prove it untrue. In my effort to deny my depression too much power, I’ve resorted to sleep. Though sleep often eludes me, there are certain combinations of medications that will knock me out for hours on end. Obviously, I cannot take these medications daily for regular sleep, or I’d be full blown addicted in no time. However, when my view of everything in the world is tainted by depression and cynicism, I know its time to avoid people and turn my back on the world. I know I need to shut down. Let my demons have my dreams. I can wake up from those. I can’t always shake the thoughts the demons plant. Today was one of those days. I was overwhelmed with loneliness and pain and envy…self-doubt…self-pity…self-loathing. The list goes on and on. Today was a day like that. It can be paralyzing which is just another reason why its easier to sleep than battle my demons. Today, my only defense was shutting down and hiding under my blankets. I’m recharged now and ready to fight back, wish me luck. ♥

wishing for a wish

wearing:
hair: [RA] Stacy Hair (*new* @ FaMESHed)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: –Belleza– Freya
skin: [theSkinnery] Paola

_CandyDoll_ Domi Jumpsuit (*new* @ Kinky)
[Gos] Tamara Ankle Boots (*new* @ FaMESHed)

pose: GingerFish Poses – Gloss set (*new* @ TLC)

scene:
anxiety %chicago build1
BUENO-NightSpot Loft Building
BUENO-After Hours Loft Building

Diamonds & Mud

Yes, I’m still processing challenges from my Challenge to Challenge post. Today I’m addressing RubyStarlight Writer‘s challenge. She suggested diamonds & mud. Unfortunately, I’m very sick in RL and all I can think of is that a stripper named Diamonds is a star mud wrestler. Yeah, I know, its weak, but so am I atm. I’m sorry, Ruby. Right now, I just want to crawl into a grave and pull a blanket of dirt over me.

sounds like a fairy tale

wearing:
hair: DOUX – Zoe hairstyle
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: –Belleza– Freya
skin: [theSkinnery] Paola

.random.Matter. – Moonbul Glasses
_CandyDoll_ Izzy Blouse (C88 until Jan 6th)
_CandyDoll_ Izzy Leggings
_CandyDoll_ Izzy Boots

pose: FOXCITY. Loner Bento Pose Set (*new* @ Limit8)
location:  The Forty Thieves Hideaway

Love Cats

“We’re so wonderfully wonderfully wonderfully
Wonderfully pretty!
Oh you know that I’d do anything for you
We should have each other to tea huh?
We should have each other with cream
Then curl up by the fire
And sleep for awhile
It’s the grooviest thing
It’s the perfect dream
Into the sea
You and me
All these years and no one heard
I’ll show you in spring
It’s a treacherous thing
We missed you hissed the lovecats
We missed you hissed the lovecats
We missed you hissed the lovecats
We missed you hissed the lovecats”

Wild Cats

wearing:
hair:  .Shi Hair : Medusozoa (*new* @ Uber)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skin: [theSkinnery] Paola

::Axix:: Aristocracy Collar
Wicca’s Wardrobe – Nemesis Arms (*new* @ We ❤ Role-Play)
_CandyDoll_ Kassie Jumpsuit (*new* @ FaMESHed)
[BREATHE]-Hiromi Heels (*new* @ FaMESHed)

pose by BauHaus Movement

scene:
[BH9] – The Venue (*new* @ Equal10)
[Kres] Sinful Signs – Sex Kitten RARE
[Dollmart]Empress Chair
Fapple– Cute Slave Bed
CODEX_THE KINKY CATS (*new* @ Kinky)

37 Minutes

Her: ♥

Him: ♥

Her: having a good night?

Crickets

She starts to panic. Did that sound passive aggressive? Of course she wanted him to have a good night. She wanted him to say something. Anything. She wanted to be with him, but her mood…well, he wasn’t ready for that. She didn’t know if he knew that, or just that he wasn’t in the mood for her mood. Either way, it wasn’t looking good. One minute between heartbeats. One minute later…crickets. What did that mean?

8 minutes later…crickets

She sat there as she felt the air being slowly knocked from her chest. She stared at the screen until it have been 11 minutes. She took a deep breath and closed the window. This wasn’t the answer to anything good.

12 minutes, she notices as she opens another page

poke ex on FB

She gulps as she catches herself looking at the time. She sighs and pulls up a Netflix window.

37 minutes

She pops a Xanax and goes to sleep.

37 Minutes

wearing:
hair:  –FABIA– Mesh Hair <Corina> (*new* @ The Liaison Collaborative)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skin: [theSkinnery] Paola

_CandyDoll_ Bridgie Dress (*new* @ Uber)

pose: FOXCITY. Selfie VOL2 Bento Pose Set
Toro. 2:35am Backdrop

 

***If you are reading this on any site that suggests this post was originally published anywhere but SadyStyle by anyone other than Sadystika Sabretooth, you are reading a stolen post.

 

Skyscraper

“You can take everything I have
You can break everything I am
Like I’m made of glass
Like I’m made of paper
Go on and try to tear me down
I will be rising from the ground
Like a skyscraper, like a skyscraper”
~Kerli – Skyscraper

As humans, we take a lot of punches throughout our lives. Yet, with each passing day, we either grow stronger or weaker. Ultimately, the choice is ours. Mentally and emotionally, I’ve definitely grown stronger. My body? Eh, not so much. I should have taken better care of it when I was younger, but I was invincible and never imagined I’d live past 30. Here I am dealing with level 8 pain daily as the weather changes. Yet, the emotional and mental tolls have been far more difficult to face.
There have been times that I’ve felt as fragile as glass, as delicate as tissue paper, and I’ve been beaten down both literally and figuratively. But each and every time, so far, I’ve gotten up. I’ve gained strength from the pain. In fact, there are times that by keeping my pain to myself and not complaining about it, by not showing it to the world, that I can borrow from it….channel it into strength. I’ve siphoned power from the pain to keep going. Perhaps I’m a bit stubborn, too. I feel like if anyone is going to genuinely take credit for me falling apart, its going to be me. So, until I’m ready to curl up with the worms for eternity, I will continue to rise like a skyscraper.

***If you are reading this on any site that suggests this post was originally published anywhere but SadyStyle by anyone other than Sadystika Sabretooth, you are reading a stolen post.

Skyscraper

wearing:
hair:  Lamb. Dove (*new* @ Uber)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skin: [theSkinnery] Amber (*new* @ C88)

EF: Acanthus Headpiece (*new* @ X by FaMESHed)
EF: Acanthus Mask (*new* @ X by FaMESHed)
[The Forge] Xane Collar, Black (*new* @ X by FaMESHed)
Legal Insanity – Mistress dress (*new* @ X by FaMESHed)
_CandyDoll_ Claudia Boots (*new* @ C88)

pose: FOXCITY. Sass Bento Pose Set

Paparazzi – BACKDROP – Grime Block Balcony
BUENO-NightSpot Loft Building-Regular

Finally!

Finally, someone developed a hairstyle to conceal my horns! *giggles* These cubes from E.V.E remind me of one of those word search things I see on Facebook all the time. “Oh the first three words are what you can expect next year!” Well, the last one of those I did said love, marriage, and health. I laughed so hard.  Yes, I know love will always be part of my life, because I have a heart with which I love very deeply, too deeply. Marriage? NO, let’s pray a divorce is on the horizon though. Since the bastard left me essentially penniless to run off with a 20yr old skank. Yes, she is a skank, remind me to tell that story someday. It’s a doozy! And finally, the prediction was health? I’m going to assume they meant poor health, considering that at best there are treatments for my fybromyalgia and PKD, however, there are no known cures.
Let’s not ruin all the fun, let’s take a look at the cube. First word I see is battlefield and I’ll agree to that. I like violent films and shows, plus I play Guild Wars 2 with one of my best friends. So, yes, a battlefield is very likely. Next word…hate. Ohh, that’s a strong word. I don’t really have the energy to fuel hate. I’m more of a person that turns completely ambivalent. I just won’t acknowledge someone’s existence or care that they exist. In Second Life, its even better, because I can mute and derender people. That’s nice. Alright, third word I notice is Heaven. Well, I’m an atheist so I can only imagine that means, I’m going to be proven wrong and all of you do gooders are in for a big surprise when you show up OR (and this is more likely) someone is going to make me feel soo good that it will feel heavenly. These cubes are a group gift, so if you like them, you can grab a set for yourself, absolutely free.

sady devil
“So what would an angel say
The devil wants to know”
~ Fiona Apple – Criminal

wearing:
hair:  #Foxy – Fallen Hair (*new* @ Salem)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
skin: [theSkinnery] Amber (*new* @ C88)

Dead Dollz – Morrigan Set 2.0 (*new* @ FaMESHed)
_CandyDoll_ Demona Boots

pose: FOXCITY. Cozy Bento Pose Set (*new* @ Uber)

[Dollmart]Empress Chair
E.V.E {Team} Love is a Battlefield Cubes GROUP GIFT

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