you have to face your demons

Human beings, we have dark sides; we have dark issues in our lives. To progress anywhere in life, you have to face your demons. ~John Noble

foundation
hair: Magika – Ash
head: LeLUTKA Avalon
eyes: AG. Halloween Eyes – 17 RARE @ Arcade
head skin: [Glam Affair] Rayne Skin [Lelutka EvoX] @ UBER
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) Special Edition (1.4)
body skin: VELOUR: The “Ipanema Body” for Legacy
Dazed. Rotten Lips & Eyebags – lel EVOX @ Salem

fashion
Tentacio Voodoo knife @ Satan Inc (gift)
nails: e.marie // Mix&Match Coffin – Dark Omens
AsteroidBox. Zoya Dress @ Anthem
[BREATHE]-Misoki Heels @ FaMESHed

pose: Ana Poses – Magic 9 @ Arcade

background
Garmiani – Behold Day – The Bearded Guy

Raindale – Nightgrove spiderweb @ Arcade
Raindale – Nightgrove candles (black) @ Arcade

17 ..::THOR::.. Ritual Candle @ Arcade

BROKEN ARROWS – Nightmare – Crow Frame @ Arcade
BROKEN ARROWS – Nightmare – Skull Black @ Arcade
BROKEN ARROWS – Skull Candle – Black @ Salem

KraftWork Spooky Candle . Dark

[ zerkalo ] Sighisoara – Rug Print1 @ Arcade
[ zerkalo ] Sighisoara – Candlestick @ Arcade

MH Dolores Topiary 1 @ Arcade

It’s Fall, afterall

There’s a lot of hype around the grid about Halloween, but understandably, not everyone is into it. Not every country celebrates it. That’s okay. There’s plenty of fashion to go around. Besides a lot of the Halloween stuff is just goth clothes in the spot light for a month. So, its great for your inner goth or even for those that don’t have one. Just grab a different color. It’s Fall, afterall. It’s a great time to scoop up those warm earthtones and super cute jackets. This adorable set from Seniha is so perfect for the season, wear the lil dress during the day while its still warm out, then toss on this badass lil leather jacket for the evening, right? What’s more fashionable than some multi functioning clothing!?!?

foundation
hair: TRUTH VIP Curious
head: LeLUTKA Avalon
head skin: [Glam Affair] Rayne Skin [Lelutka EvoX] @ Uber
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) Special Edition (1.4)
body skin: VELOUR: The “Ipanema Body” for Legacy

fashion
:: DS :: Tempest Glasses @ Salem
(Yummy) Kiley Charm Necklace
[RHUDE] Celestial Rings
(Yummy) Abby Ring Collection
[Fetch] Wick’s Phone & Key’s @ Salem
Seniha. Anny Set @ Uber
(Jacket & Dress)
[BREATHE]-Sakuki Heels @ Kinky

background
MINIMAL – Broken Building

An Abundance

I’ve been super sick. My symptoms started on Saturday and have changed a bit since then. I haven’t thrown up since Sunday, but Monday night and Tuesday I had a low grade fever that has gone up and down, periodically throughout the day, fluctuating between 99.5 & 101. It’s weird having a fever, I honestly cannot remember the last time I had one. Seems to have gone down now. So, I’m sure I’m already on the mend.
Of course, when I told people my wide range of symptoms, everyone automatically jumped to the Covid conclusion. Unlike far too many people out there, I am vaccinated. (I will not even go into that.) I never felt like it was Covid, nor do I believe it was the flu. I seriously never leave my house and the only person I’ve encountered is my mother, who is also vaccinated…75yrs old, and healthier than me. Also, my symptoms were pretty much the symptoms for EVERYTHING.
I think what I found the most amusing in all of this was the wide variety of advice people were giving me. They forgot that my mother is a retired registered nurse or that I’m almost 53 years old. Drink tea, drink water, drink juice….don’t drink tea, avoid juice, don’t drink too much water. Eat soup. Don’t eat. Eat crackers. Eat toast. Get a covid test. Get some rest. Try to exercise. Get some sunlight. Dark cold room. None of my friends are doctors, but several do work in the medical field or have. Yet, even they have contradicting advice. They all mean well and I love them for that. Better to have too much advice from an abundance of people that care, than not a single IM from anyone that already knows you’re sick af.
On Sunday, I thought perhaps it was food poisoning, as I ate some questionable romaine lettuce. All I know if I ever die by lettuce, I’m gonna be PISSED!
For now, I’ll just sit on my land and do my lil fishing game. It relaxes me and I love my little sl home on the Blake. Feel free to come visit. ♥

foundation
hair: DOUX – Olivia hairstyle @ DreamDay Event
head: LeLUTKA Avalon
head skin: [Glam Affair] Cherry [Lelutka EvoX] @ UBER
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody Perky
body skin: VELOUR: The “Ipanema Body” for Legacy (Chantilly)

fashion
(Yummy) Tuca Earrings @ Kustom9 (August)
Addams Exclusive // Aracely Rustic Tunic // LIMITED EDITION
[BREATHE]-Sakuko Wedges @ Uber

[Rezz Room] English Bulldog Puppy Original @ ManCave until Sept 11

pose:
Ana Poses – Rosario Poses

The heart beats in its cage

Well, I don’t feel better when I’m fucking around
And I don’t write better when I’m stuck in the ground
So don’t teach me a lesson ’cause I’ve already learned
Yeah, the sun will be shining and my children will burn
Oh, the heart beats in its cage
I don’t want what you want, I don’t feel what you feel
See, I’m stuck in a city but I belong in a field
Yeah, we got left, left, left, left, left, left, left
Now it’s three in the morning and you’re eating alone

Oh, the heart beats in its cage

All our friends, they’re laughing at us
All of those you loved, you mistrust
Help me, I’m just not quite myself
Look around, there’s no one else left

foundation
hair: DOUX – Nashaly hairstyle @ Dubai
head: LeLUTKA Avalon
head skin: [Glam Affair] Cherry [Lelutka EvoX] @ UBER
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody Perky
body skin: VELOUR: The “Ipanema Body” for Legacy (Chantilly)

fashion
-SU!- Poison Sunglasses
[ rD ] Metarose Necklace @ TLC
Violent Seduction – The Moth for FLF Aug 27, 2021
[BREATHE]-Satsuko Heels @ Kinky

[AYO] feat [Rezz Room] Caged Heart @ Uber

pose:
Diversion – Distant Light – Poses
(altered hand positions slightly)

background:
(Milk Motion) The dark forest road

-Garden- by anc “end of universe” rose
{anc} breath of rose

NOMAD // Black Rose Petals

BALACLAVA!! Ghost Servants

DRD – Funeral Carriage – Hearse

Memories within a dream

I have the craziest dreams sometimes and I know we all do, but I always find it so strange that I have memories within a dream of things that couldn’t have possibly happened. Like, did I dream about this story line before and just not remember the dream in wake time? Am I part of some parallel universe when I sleep? Its just so odd to me that I have all this familiarity in dreams with people I’ve never met. Like the time I dreamt about Jason Momoa….quite a naughty dream I admit, but I swear I rarely dream about famous people…ever. When a famous person is in my dreams, it is rarely sexual. I can only think of two famous people dreams that were sexual, Jason Momoa and Chris Hemsworth. *blushes* I blame Thor for the latter, as I had been to the theater that night.
Sex dreams aren’t really my favorite dreams though. I was speaking to a friend yesterday and he said that he had a dream where he felt like he was in an action movie. I’ve had those dreams, too, and while they are very exciting, I think my favorite dreams are the really strange ones that make absolutely zero sense upon waking. I used to try to interpret my dreams, as I know there’s a lot of symbolism in dreams, but I quit doing that. I have a tendency to overanalyze things when I do that and let’s face it, I have far more than enough anxiety in my life. I don’t need my dreams creating more.
I know, I’m a weirdo, but at least I thought of something to write about. Though, I’m not about to try and explain the dream I remember from last night. Although, I’m pretty sure it was influenced by Love Island, which none of my damn friends seem to watch. Why am I the only person I know that’s addicted to this show???? GOD! *stomps foot*

foundation
hair: barberyumyumB17 @ FLF Bday Bash
head: LeLUTKA Fleur 3.1
head skin: [Glam Affair] Enni Layer [Lelutka EvoX] @ FLF Bday Bash
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody Perky
body skin: VELOUR: The “Ipanema Body” for Legacy (Sienna)

cosmetics:
tattoo: .: CORAZON:. Tattoo FLEUR :. @ Jail
Unholy&JTM – Annia eyeshadow Bom EvoX @ TLC (opens Aug 18th)
Unholy&JTM – Annia Creme Lipstick @ TLC (opens Aug 18th)

accessories
Rainbow Sundae Penelope Earrings for Evolve
LOTUS. Colorist Nails @ Access
Orsini Jewelry ANDREA RING Bento
Orsini Jewelry COCO Ring Bento
Orsini Jewelry RACHEL Ring Bento

fashion
Capsule by DaD “Boho Outfit” @ C88
[BREATHE]-Koneko Heels @ FaMESHed

pose:
Lyrium. Riley Breathing Stand Set @ Access

background:
Serenity Style– Enchanting Music Box Backdrop @ TLC (opens Aug 18th)

Dealt with it myself

Will they understand?
It’s the question of our lifetime
Trying to find the right words
But what if they don’t care?
Never mind
Dealt with it myself
Hiding in the bathroom, wearing long sleeve shirts
Scared of what I might do
Never mind
No one seems to hear you till you’re loud
Then they call you crazy
Then they call you crazy
Quietly I battle with myself
Days are getting hazy
Days are getting hazy
No one seems to notice when you’re down
Unless you are bleeding
Unless you are bleeding
But sometimes the worst wounds
Are the ones you can’t see
Are the ones you can’t see
Never mind
Do they understand?
I’m begging for an ally
Think I’m just confused
Blow it off, it’s nothing new
Never mind
Little do they know
The murder of my right brain
It still has me grieving, take these pills for sleeping
My world is turning black and white

hair: tram K0328 hair @ C88
head: LeLUTKA Avalon Head 3.0
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) Perky Edition (1.4)
skin: [Glam Affair] Mia Skin [Lelutka EvoX] @ C88

(Yummy) Plumage Ring Set @ C88
Addams // Mackenzi Crop Top
amias – DAVIN pants
[BREATHE]-Tamako Heels @ Kinky

taikou / plastic bag (drinks)

pose: Le Poppycock-Adventure calls

FOXCITY. Photo Booth – Lost City

there’s no such thing as too many shoes

It’s all about the shoes, right? I mean, have you ever heard a woman say she’s got too many shoes? No matter if she wear glamour heels or flats or mules…there’s no such thing as too many shoes. So, let this be a warning to anyone that might suggest otherwise. You are WRONG. The more styles they make, the more we need. It’s that simple. Yes, there are a minute amount of exceptions to this rule in the world, but you might want to check their mental status. I wouldn’t trust a woman that doesn’t love shoes! Okay, I don’t trust very many people anyway, but especially women that don’t love shoes!

hairbase: Tableau Vivant – leLutka EvoX Hairbase 11 @ Uber
hair: Tableau Vivant – Alizeh Add-on @ Uber
head: LeLUTKA Avalon Head 3.0
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) Perky Edition (1.4)
skin: [Glam Affair] Mia Skin [Lelutka EvoX] @ C88

^^Swallow^^ Earrings H02/E02 for lel Evo X Ears @ Kustom9
(Yummy) Plumage Ring Set @ C88
Moon Elixir x MUSE – Rebel Darling Dress
[BREATHE]-Atsumi Heels @ Uber

pose: Gravity Poses ShoeModel pose set

MudHoney Classic Photo Room 1 RARE

crate Satisfaction Sofa – Pink

TA Infinity Shoes Set (edited)

+Half-Deer+ Lingerie Clutter – Pink – Draped (Bra)
+Half-Deer+ Lingerie Clutter – Pink – Flat (Panties)
+Half-Deer+ Shoe Rack – Mix

Foxwood – Doodle Pup
Foxwood – Sweet Corgi

Tentacio Ballet shoes

.peaches. Singles Awareness Clutter – Magazines

Garbaggio // Shoe Clutter White
Garbaggio // Shoe Clutter – Andrea
Garbaggio // Shoe Clutter – Kylie Studded

Ariskea[Lucy] Boho Frames
Ariskea[Bees] Cute Flowers Pot
Ariskea[Blush] Wood Side Table
Ariskea[Blush] Teapot Peonie [Fushia]
Ariskea [Eli] Cat Planter Smiley [1]
Ariskea[Lucy] Rug Tribal
Ariskea[Lumi] Fur Pillow – Heart
Ariskea Triangle Seilling Decor
Ariskea[ Forsythia ] Paper flower Hanger[ Coloris]

F.F.F.

Friends come and go, friends come and go
Go like the seasons
I never know, I never know what to believe in
And it’s getting old, it’s getting old
But no hard feelings
‘Cause friends come and go, friends come and go without a reason
And I, I’ve been in L.A. for way too long
Can’t get this air inside my lungs
It feels like I’m suffocatin’ from all the lack of the realness here
Is there anybody real out here?
Got my middle, middle up while I’m singing
Fuck fake friends, we don’t need ’em
Only thing they’re good for is leaving
Fuck fake friends, we don’t need ’em
I’ve had it up to the ceiling
Fuck fake friends, we don’t need ’em
Only thing they’re good for is leaving
And I ain’t got the time, money on my mind (yeah)
I’ll say it to your face, fuck fake friends

hair: DOUX – Lia hairstyle @ TresChic
head: LeLUTKA Avalon Head 3.0
eyes: A R T E – Sweet Brown Eyes @ TLC
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) Perky Edition (1.4)
skin: [Glam Affair] Rika Skin [Lelutka EvoX]
eyebrows: Glam Affair – Vip HD BROWS – Lelutka @ TLC
Glam Affair – EVOX Smoky Makeup 01 B for FLF April 16, 2021

[ rD ] – Hydra Set @ TLC
(choker & earrings)
^^Swallow^^ Earrings H01/E01 for lel Evo X Ears @ Kustom9
(Yummy) Spring Butterfly Ring Collection @ C88
Cynful Savi Leather Top + Savi Leather Shorts @ Equal10
[BREATHE]-Konoka Heels @ Epiphany

pose: Diversion – Disconnected – Pose Set

[Bad Unicorn] Meir Red Lounge Backdrop

Fancy Decor: Fuck Throw Pillow

-SU!- The Moon Cat Cushion #01

Don’t say anything just go away

I try to make it through my life, in my way, there’s you
I try to make it through these lies, and that’s all I do
Just don’t deny it
Don’t try to fight this, and deal with it
And that’s just part of it
If you were dead or still alive
I don’t care, I don’t care
Just go and leave this all behind
‘Cause I swear (I swear) I don’t care
I try to make you see my side
I always try to stay in line
But your eyes see right through
That’s all they do
I’m getting buried in this place
I got no room, you’re in my face
Don’t say anything just go away

hair: tram K0328 hair @ C88
head: LeLUTKA Avalon Head 3.0
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) Perky Edition (1.4)
skin: [Glam Affair] Rika Skin [Lelutka EvoX]

AsteroidBox. Cara Dress @ Equal10
ROULY :: Hung Up Tights
[BREATHE]-Miiya Heels @ FaMESHed X

pose: Amitie Room Cola Woman Co. @ Equal10
Junk Food – Snack Vending Machine

We’re made of flesh, circuit and bone

Neon lights glisten off the streets
The moonlight swallowed up by breathing electricity
Salvation hovers in the sky
Dream of a life inside while we escape just to survive
Let go, take flight
Dreams begin to reignite
So clear, so bright
We’re glowing in the dead of night
Plug in, online
The data stream linking our minds
Circuits entwined
We’ll dream of Neo-Tokyo tonight
We’re made of flesh, circuit and bone
The only world we’ve known, these empty streets we walk alone
Salvation blocking out the Sun
Beneath its shadow cast I dream with my Aphelion

https://www.flickr.com/photos/sadystikasabretooth/51108025214/in/dateposted/

hair: Tableau Vivant \ Hitaisho @ Neo Japan
head: LeLUTKA Avalon Head 3.0
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) Perky Edition (1.4)
skin: [Glam Affair] Rika Skin [Lelutka EvoX]

Ghoul – Aina Cyber Shrug
{le fil casse} Axiom Dragon Spine @ Kinky
[Neurolab Inc.] Sensiva Pussy Guard
[BREATHE]-Mizusu Heels @ FaMESHed

pose: Diversion – Come Back – Pose Set

KraftWork Cyber Pod Unit . Blue Neon

outside: [BH9] – Cyber City 2077 V1

uk – Lady Boss Conference Laptop
(I added a different picture)

andika[cyber sweets]B/Dispenser/2Li

[Rezz Room] CYBER GREYHOUND ANIMESH