Three Phobias

I have three phobias which, could I mute them, would make my life as slick as a sonnet, but as dull as ditch water: I hate to go to bed, I hate to get up, and I hate to be alone. ~Tallulah Bankhead

I chose this quote, because I’ve grown up hearing about Tallulah Bankhead as she was born in Huntsville, AL, which is pretty much where I grew up. She’s got an amazing and very interesting history and if you’re at all interested you can read more about here on Wikipedia or simply Google her. She was definitely a woman to be reckoned with and certainly not considered to be well behaved in her time.
So, when I was asking my dear friend, Dusty, for help with what to write about for this photo, he asked me what did this picture make me feel. Immediately, I thought of women from history that stood out as mis-behaved during their time. It was at that moment that I exclaimed him a genius, while he had no idea what I was talking about until I told him a bit about Tallulah. Had he not made this so obvious to me, I most likely would have posted a song with this picture. Instead, I’ve reignited my fascination with a local legend that passed away shortly before I turned 3 months old.

Jukebox

wearing:
hair: RAMA.SALON – Grace Hair (*new* @ Epiphany)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: Glam Affair – Mindy
tattoo: [ATI] Zyra…
EF: Sophistique Choker
EF: Sophistique Cuffs
{le fil casse} Rosario Top Maitreya Black (*new* @ Epiphany)
{le fil casse} Rosario Sleeves Maitreya Black (*new* @ Epiphany)
{le fil casse} Rosario Tie Shorts Maitreya RARE (*new* @ Epiphany)
[BREATHE]-Selena Heels

pose: FOXCITY. Higher Set

scene:
FOXCITY. Tasty AF – Diner RARE (*new* @ Epiphany)
FOXCITY. Tasty AF – Modern Jukebox RARE (*new* @ Epiphany)

 

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I Don’t Need Your Attitude

We’ve all seen the shirts and bumper stickers that read, “I don’t need your attitude, I have one of my own.” Such a simple saying, but nothing could more true about me personally. I really had to learn the difference between reacting and responding, because once upon a time I had a terrible temper. For instance, I had such bad road rage that I had three incidents that could have turned out terribly wrong.
One time, this mini van cut me off and almost hit me, so I cussed, yelled, honked my horn, and followed her home. Turned out to be my best friend’s mom. We ended up laughing about it and smoking a joint, but I know I got lucky.
Another time, this chick cut me off at the intersection to get in the turning lane that I was already in. Same thing, cussing, yelling, honking my horn…she turned and pulled into a gas station and I followed. We jumped out of our cars ready to fight, until we realized we knew each other. We had dated the same sorry ass loser the year before. Again, I got lucky, though to be fair, I honestly believe that one would have been nothing more than a fist fight.
The third time, I mentioned above was the worst. This man cut me off, I had to swerve into oncoming traffic to avoid getting hit. It was so scary and I was so pissed that again….cussing, yelling, honking the horn….and I followed him…all the way to the daycare where he was going to pick up his kid. Naturally, I just drove up to him said something menacing about how’s he lucky he pulled into a daycare. When he saw the metal pipe in my hand (yes, I fully intended to beat him or his car with it), he quickly apologized and explained that he was running late, he was in a custody battle, blah blah blah.  I didn’t give a rat’s ass why he almost killed me, but that day my boyfriend at the time was in the car.
He went on to tell me that I scared him and he was seriously worried about my temper. It was a few years before I learned to walk away when I get that upset. I have to walk away and let myself process what’s happened. More often than not, its something I can just let go and ignore. Other times its something I have to address and you can bet that when I do, I come out guns blazing….only my guns are loaded with words.

don't need your attitude

wearing:
hair: MINALand Of Rainbows Easter Egg hunt hair
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: [theSkinnery]  Iris (Catwa Applier) toffee
tattoo: [ATI] Dante.. (*new* @ Darkness Monthly)
LYBRA . HONEY (*new* @ Blush)
SU!- Bento Piercing Set 03
::SG:: RingQueen Mesh Nails

pose: [ATI] Beth set (*new* @ Elite)

Heavenly

We all knew it would happen. Break ups are like hangovers. We swear we’re never going to do it again, because the pain is just too much. Then someone walks into you life and out of no where everything changes in an instant. So, here we are….me, back in a man’s arms. Not just for a photo, but because its my favorite place to be right now. It feels good to smile so much again.

Forbidden
We can dance forever and pretend
I wanna, I wanna stay ’til the end

Gotz is wearing:
hair: Unorthodox Manny Hair
head: CATWA HEAD Daniel
Stretched ears-Omimi- [MANDALA]
body: [Signature] Gianni – Body
[VALE KOER] LEATHER BIKER JACKET
[VALE KOER] TECHWEAR PANTS

wearing:
hair: Magika – Good Vibes
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: [theSkinnery]  Iris (Catwa Applier) toffee
Kaithleen’s Corky Dress (*new* @ Tres Chic)

pose: [ATI] Adore 2 (*new* @ Suicide Dollz)
[Bad Unicorn] Block Views Backdrop

Super Useful Info

So, from time to time, I see people on Facebook and Flickr asking a pretty consistent set of questions. If I was establishing some sort of customer service or website, I suppose I’d say FAQs. Yeah, that’s actually pretty accurate, because that’s exactly what they are: frequently asked questions. First let me say, I do not believe in anyway that I’m truly providing new information to anyone that even reads my blog. However, I thought that since I keep seeing these same questions…and I just so happen to know some answers, that perhaps I could give one page to find them all quickly and simply. *laughs* You see, I’ve got a lot of information floating around in this crazy head of mine and even I can’t remember shit without asking. I could blame age or drugs, but less face it…we’re all human. So, I’m just gonna jump right in. You can click directly on the logos to go the pages listed.

Wondering what events are going on right now that you might not know about?
Go to Seraphim. That is also your goto page for some of the biggest and most popular monthly events like FaMESHed, UBER, Collabor88, Shiny Shabby, Kustom9, N21, Cosmo, ON9….you get the point. There are tons of events going on at all times. You’d actually be surprised at what you might find at some of the smaller, more obscure events. I’m not going to give examples of those. LOL. The bigger the event, the easier they are to find, but Seraphim covers a ton of stuff. Explore the site sometime. It might surprise you, plus its fun to see what the quotes at the top of the pages will change to. *grins*
So…. Seraphim …goto for shopping events.
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Do you miss shopping at the mainstores? Sick of the lag or battle to get into a big event, but you really want to shop? Don’t care for the latest theme at your favorite event? Wish there was a way to know which stores are having sales, new group gifts, and/or new releases in the store? Go to MAINSTORE SL.  This is a page full of amazing finds and you’ll be amazed at the number of great items being released in the mainstores!
So….MAINSTORE SL for all things mainstore related.
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Are you looking for bloggers for your store? Just want to check out some blogs? Looking for places to take pictures? Thinking about being a blogger, but you’re not sure. Well, everything you need to know about blogging, from stores that are looking to places to take pictures….even classes and seminars to help you learn more about blogging can be found on the Blogging & Vlogging Network site. There’s even a group inworld that you can join for free. This is a must join group if you’re already a blogger. Regardless of what you enjoy in SL, the BVN site will astound you with its wealth of information.
So….BVN for all things blogger related.
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Do you love magazines? Do you like learning about the various designers, scriptors, creators, bloggers, etc? Curious about events and event owners, what goes on behind the scenes? Love looking at professional photos of various designs? Well, there are several magazines across the grid, but Eclipse is by far one of my personal favorites and its chock full of interesting articles, beautiful photos, and monthly features. It’s all about the latest styles for both men and women. This is a lifestyle magazine of what’s going on around the grid. Who knows you might just discover something new and exciting to do, as well. Unlike a regular paper magazine, Eclipse is online and there are links in the magazine that will take you directly to the store, blog, webpage, etc.
So….Eclipse Magazine for all the latest lifestyle info around the grid.
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Simon Says

wearing:
hair: :::Phoenix::: Riley *NEW*
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: [theSkinnery]  Iris (Catwa Applier) toffee (*new* @ C88)
tattoo: [ATI] Rita (*new* @ Applique)
:::NOIR::: Infinite Bracelets
(Yummy) Gardenia Rings (*new* @ C88)
LYBRA . EDIE (*new* @ Uber)

pose: FOXCITY. Surface Set
[Bad Unicorn] The Mansion Backdrop (FATPACK ONLY) *NEW*

 

 

Let’s Go Crazy

Sometimes the world just doesn’t make sense. I think it’s pretty clear that I’m not the picture of perfect mental health. I’m not sure there even is such a thing to be honest. Hell, mental health has been called all sorts of names throughout history.  Even the names of disorders change….what once was called manic depressive is not called bi-polar. Why? Why did they change the name? Manic depressive was spot on. I think everyone and anyone can catch that disorder on the right day or wrong day as the case might very well be.
Seriously, think about it for a minute.  You are having a great day. You slept great, you woke up right before your alarm went off. The weather is your favorite kind of day. Everything is going well. Catching all the green lights in traffic. Errands go great, you even saved some money unexpectedly. You come home, dinner is great….you slip into your favorite PJs…you’re set. You’re happy as you can be….then it happens. You get a tragic phone call. Something awful has happened to someone you love and there’s absolutely nothing you can do about it. You’re alone with this awful news. That’s going to be a helluva a mood swing, don’t you think?  Say the reverse happens. Whole day has been shit. Slept like shit, overslept, bad hair day, pouring down rain, you get stuck in traffic…you get home, burn dinner…then unexpectedly your best friend calls. She’s coming over and she’s bringing pizza. Your whole day just got better in an instant. Mood swing. *shrugs* Must be bi-polar.
Ever just felt so damn lazy, you just didn’t even want to get out of bed? Ever just want to stay in bed all weekend, veg out with the remote and some junk food? Ever just do it, cuz you want to? Well, you must be depressed, you can’t even drag your ass out of bed. I’m in no way minimizing any diagnosis. I’m more than fully aware that there are varying degrees of each legitimate disorder. I’m not even suggesting to know what is and isn’t legitimate….I’m not a psych-anything….well, maybe psycho, but that’s about where my expertise ends. I’m sure not yelling at Matt Lauder about how mental health is a hoax, while clearly proving that it is very real.
I’m just saying, that the world doesn’t always make sense. So, if you’re a little crazy…so what? Be crazy. Be you. Love drama? Do it up. Hate drama? Stay away from it. Wanna dance? Crank up the music and dance. Who cares? We all have to get through this thing called life one way or another…so if you’re not crazy….why not? C’mon, let’s all go crazy.

melting
Are we gonna let the elevator
Bring us down, oh, no let’s go
Let’s go crazy, let’s get nuts
Look for the purple banana
‘Til they put us in the truck, let’s go
All excited but we don’t know why
Maybe it’s ’cause we’re all gonna die
And when we do, what’s it all for
Better live now before the grim reaper
Come knocking on your door

wearing:
hair: tram H0210 hair
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: LOTUS. Louise Skin Applier 04 (*new* @ SKIN FAIR)
tattoo: [ATI] Simon.(*new* @ Elite)
EF: Springleaf Earrings (*new* @ FaMESHed)
EF: Springleaf Necklace (*new* @ FaMESHed)
Narcisse– Nelly Lace up Dress (*new* @ Kinky)

pose: [ Focus Poses ] Naughty Chair 2
[Bad Unicorn] 02 Hype-Beast Backdrop

LOTUS. Louise Skin (*new* @ SKIN FAIR)
:::insanya::: JennaShorts – Solid (*new* @ Whore Couture)
pose by an lar
Lotus

Take Your Time

Why is everyone in such a hurry these days? I’m referring to SL relationships. We’ve all seen the people that jump in and out of relationships. Partnered to someone new every other week or month, then complain about why their relationships didn’t work. Seems like an awful lot of unnecessary drama and hurt feelings to me. I used to think I had a four month expiration date, because my average SL relationship was only lasting four months, but I didn’t rush into any of them. The last one I had, we dated quietly for months before telling anyone, much less becoming official. Now, I’ve been single for over 3 months and I simply can’t imagine rushing into anything with any of the men I’ve met. It can take weeks for me to even figure out whether or not I want to have sex with someone. Granted there are those that you know immediately that sex is definitely on the table, but in those instances I’m not expecting it to be anything but casual. I’m not an idiot. Sex does not equal love or even slove as my friend, Poppy, puts it. (I tend to agree with her on that.) I dunno, I guess we all have our pace. It just seems to me if you take your time and really get to know someone first, you might save yourself some heartache. Then again, what do I know….368 day of what I thought was magic turned out to be really disposable and I was easily replaced in no time at all. *shrugs* So, I have no idea who the hell I think I am giving relationship advice, but that’s what’s on my mind today. So, that’s what you get.

the wolf

Sady is wearing:
hair: #1 {Limerence} Nikol hair(Common1)-B&W
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: [theSkinnery]  Iris (Catwa Applier) toffee (*new* @ C88)
11. :BAMSE: Personal Choker – Bitch
SPIRIT – Peepa sweatshirt (*new* @ C88)
ChicModa // Piper skirt (*new* @ Cosmopolitan)
.Shi : Caleb Boots . Black / Bento (*new* @ TMD)

Gotz is wearing:
hair: Unorthodox Manny Hair
head: CATWA HEAD Daniel
Stretched ears-Omimi- [MANDALA]
body: [Signature] Gianni – Body
Howl – CHEN bombers jacket
[VALE KOER] TECHWEAR PANTS
[Deadwool] Chase sneakers

pose: [ATI] Adore (*new* @ Suicide Dollz)

FOXCITY. K-POP Star 2 – As If (Rez) (1) RARE (*new* @ Arcade)

Caged

There’s a poem by Maya Angelou, Caged Bird. Its one of those poems that sat on my chest like a 20lb cat. It weighed so heavily on my heart that is almost felt as though I were being crushed. I love the contrast of the free bird versus the caged bird. The free bird hasn’t the worries or restrictions of the caged bird. Yet, the caged bird chooses to sing anyway. The caged bird sings of hope, dreams, and fantasies. It is those songs that keeps the caged bird moving forward in its limited space. While the free bird might sing, I imagine the songs are hollow and not nearly as beautiful as the “fearful trill.”
Obviously the poem is not literally about birds. Its symbolism in its purest form really. Yet, it still makes me think. It takes my mind in so many directions. Not just the original meaning, but about each of us as individuals. How often do we cage ourselves? And for what reason? I spend more than 50% of my day in my bedroom, as my computer is in here, my smart tv, my bed…all my favorite comforts of home. Why? Though I sit in front of a window, there is nothing keeping me locked in here. So, why don’t I go outside more? Granted, I don’t like the people around here too much, but no one is forcing me to speak to anyone when I leave my house. I’ve even been to jail and I remember how badly I craved the fresh air, a natural breeze. How I longed to hear the rustling of leaves and the songs of birds….even the laughter of those little demon spawns people call children. *grins*
I’ve gotten too comfortable in my little cage of comforts. I’ve become complacent and in most 12 step programs there’s a common saying about complacency being a red light indicator. In other words, when we become too comfortable…too complacent in our lives, we are setting ourselves up for bad decision making and that’s never been more true in my life. I’ve made some very poor decisions in the last few months. Acting out (mostly in SL) in ways that I never have before and its time for me to stop. I’ve already reduced my blogging load by focusing more on fashion and less on home decor. Yet, I still find myself sitting at this desk focused far more on my blog than on my real life.
I am not a religious person by a long shot, but Easter is about Christ being reborn, right? Well, I think I’ll borrow a page from the Bible and use Easter as a form of rebirth of my own. I’m going to cut back a bit more on the blog and I’m going to be leaving my house for five days on Easter weekend. I’m going to see my darling Nikole. This will be the second time we’ve met in real life, but it’ll be my first time visiting her at her house. I’m super excited about the trip and I’m about to embrace some really positive changes in my life. I will no longer be caged by my own hands.

Caged

wearing:
hair: #12 {Limerence} Sammy hair-Blonds (*new* @ Imaginarium)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: [theSkinnery]  Iris (Catwa Applier) toffee (*new* @ C88)
tattoo: [ATI] Mai.. (*new* @ TWE12VE)
LYBRA  . SADYSTIKA (*new* @ Whore Couture)
_CandyDoll_ Gina Heels (*new* @ FaMESHed)

pose:  FOXCITY. Wild & Free Bento Pose Set

scene:
FOXCITY. K-POP Star 2 – Ringa Linga (Rez) (3) RARE (*new* @ Arcade)
Fapple– The little slave bed
Fapple– BDSM Tool Box

More Skin

Some people on Facebook have expressed surprise at the fact that there’s so much more than just skin at the Skin Fair. It’s always been more than skin, at least as far back as I can remember. Last year several new bento heads were introduced. This year I’ve not seen as many heads being released. However, there are lots of shapes, tattoos, and cosmetics, as well as an abundance of skins.  Seriously, reduce your scripts and your complexity as much as you can, then head on over and check it out. There’s plenty of amazing creations for everyone.
Today I’m showing you the A R T E – Sweetie Skin. I just love how the light catches on this skin and couldn’t resist going black and white for the main photo. However, you can see all three shades in the photo at the bottom.

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wearing:
hair:  [monso] My Hair – Jenny (*new* @ C88)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: A R T E – Sweetie Skin – Porcelain (*new* @ Skin Fair)
tattoo: [ATI] Marcel (*new* @ Darkness Monthly)
_CandyDoll_ Alexa Top (*new* @ Whore Couture)

all poses by Foxcity

.::Dead Dollz::. Hush Lingerie Set
A R T E – Sweetie Skin
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White Flag

I’m guessing by now that my regular readers have noticed that I’m trying very hard to get away from posting song links & copy/pasting lyrics. I’ve decided instead to explain why some songs are so special to me and why they’ve ended up on my personal soundtrack. So, now if you’re interested the video is embedded at the bottom of the post and if you right click on it, you can open that up in a new window.
Alright, so Dido’s White Flag….this song means so freaking much to me. It reminds me of a real life relationship I had many years ago with a guy we’ll call Bran. I fell in love with Dido about the same time I fell for him. Sadly, he didn’t quite love me the same way and my love for him was a tad bit unrequited. Though, you couldn’t convince any of our friends that we weren’t a couple. *laughs* Its a much longer story than I care to type out. However, with that said, I did have to finally let go…as I found something rather suspicious on his computer and I was never comfortable around him again. *sighs* At the time that I had such strong feelings for Bran, there’s simply nothing anyone could have said to make me give up, thus this song resonated with me.

seeing dots

Sady is wearing:
hair: [monso] My Hair – Summer  (*new* @ FaMESHed)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: [theSkinnery]  Saska
!Rebel Hope – Nancy Mesh Dress (*new* @ Uber)

pose: [ATI] Tamar Set (*new* @ ELITE)
FOXCITY. K-POP Star 2. (4) Hush – White (Common) (*new* @ Arcade)

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