It’s Monday!!

I haven’t been feeling much like myself the last couple of days, but before that I was so busy I didn’t have time to think. Now that things have slowed down just a bit, I feel rather lost and not quite sure what to do with myself. I did take some time away from the pc yesterday. Did some reading and just relaxing.
I was hoping to sit out on my patio, but its been just a bit too chilly and everything is wet from the recent rains. So, I curled up in bed with my book instead. Not a lot going on at the moment, but I swear if I’m not balls to the wall busy…I just feel lost. However, its Monday, so I’ve hit the ground running this morning and I’m off to conquer a new week!

220ML – Bolanos Tequila – DISPLAY LI:4

Apple Fall Aspidistra in Wicker Planter LI:5

Foxwood – Bulldog pup – sit LI:2
Foxwood – Cozy Kitty – Lay Decor LI:3
Foxwood – Tiny Pup – Sleep LI:2

MADRAS Divya Hanging Candle Size C LI:2

Pitaya – Lazy Hanging Planter LI:2

Pitaya – Runner Rug – Messy COPPER LI:3 @ TLC

Serenity Style– Spanish Patio Corner @ Unik
Serenity Style- Allium Pink pot LI:2
Serenity Style- Allium withe pot LI:2
Serenity Style- Spanish garden patio LI:7

Soul2Soul. Seville Set @ TLC
-Soul2Soul. Seville Coffee Table LI:2
-Soul2Soul. Seville Leaf Vase LI:1
-Soul2Soul. Seville Monstera Plant LI:2
-Soul2Soul. Seville Newspaper LI:1
-Soul2Soul. Seville Rattan Chair LI:5
-Soul2Soul. Seville Rattan Chair w/Cushion LI:6
-Soul2Soul. Seville Tassle Cushion – Fatpack LI:1

[IK] Wicker World – Mirror LI:2 @ TLC

[Merak] – Little Wicker Table LI:4

[S.S] Tasty Tacos LI:9 @ TLC

dust bunny . fiddle leaf tree LI:6
dust bunny . potted palm LI:5

hive // hanging devil’s ivy plant . light LI:3

The walls are closing in

Why do I sabotage everything I love?
It’s always beautiful until I fuck it up
Tell myself I’m safe and lonely
With nobody else to break my heart
Even though I know you’d never
I’m my own worst enemy and think you are
Matches in my back pocket
I’m the queen of burning bridges
I will only let you down
Why do I sabotage everything I love?
It’s always beautiful until I fuck it up
Why do I sabotage everything I love?
The walls are closing in because I built them up
Why can’t I let myself be happy? (Ooh)
Why do I gotta get in my own way? (Ooh)
My shoes are worn out, always runnin’
From the reasons that I really wanna stay

hairbase: Tableau Vivant \ leLutka EvoX Hairbase 03
hair: Tableau Vivant – Wrap-up ponytail Add-on
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) Perky Edition (1.4)

Cynful Fishnet Set @ Inithium
Eudora3D Stormy Heels & stockings @ FaMESHed X

pose: Diversion – Come Back – Pose Set

FOXCITY. Photo Booth – City Life

[IK] Wicker World @ TLC
-[IK] Wicker World – Screen
-[IK] Wicker World – Armchair
-[IK] Wicker World – Table
-[IK] Wicker World – Tea Set

hive // hanging bougainvillea plant . pink @ Anthem

Dahlia – Liona – Cat Planter @ Kustom9
Dahlia – Liona – Llama Planter – Right – Green leaves @ Kustom9

F.F.F.

Friends come and go, friends come and go
Go like the seasons
I never know, I never know what to believe in
And it’s getting old, it’s getting old
But no hard feelings
‘Cause friends come and go, friends come and go without a reason
And I, I’ve been in L.A. for way too long
Can’t get this air inside my lungs
It feels like I’m suffocatin’ from all the lack of the realness here
Is there anybody real out here?
Got my middle, middle up while I’m singing
Fuck fake friends, we don’t need ’em
Only thing they’re good for is leaving
Fuck fake friends, we don’t need ’em
I’ve had it up to the ceiling
Fuck fake friends, we don’t need ’em
Only thing they’re good for is leaving
And I ain’t got the time, money on my mind (yeah)
I’ll say it to your face, fuck fake friends

hair: DOUX – Lia hairstyle @ TresChic
head: LeLUTKA Avalon Head 3.0
eyes: A R T E – Sweet Brown Eyes @ TLC
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) Perky Edition (1.4)
skin: [Glam Affair] Rika Skin [Lelutka EvoX]
eyebrows: Glam Affair – Vip HD BROWS – Lelutka @ TLC
Glam Affair – EVOX Smoky Makeup 01 B for FLF April 16, 2021

[ rD ] – Hydra Set @ TLC
(choker & earrings)
^^Swallow^^ Earrings H01/E01 for lel Evo X Ears @ Kustom9
(Yummy) Spring Butterfly Ring Collection @ C88
Cynful Savi Leather Top + Savi Leather Shorts @ Equal10
[BREATHE]-Konoka Heels @ Epiphany

pose: Diversion – Disconnected – Pose Set

[Bad Unicorn] Meir Red Lounge Backdrop

Fancy Decor: Fuck Throw Pillow

-SU!- The Moon Cat Cushion #01

What’ll be will be

What’ll be will be
What you say it always goes and in the end
In the end you always get what you want
Baby I try too much
I’m living without your love again
But I’ll never stop trying
Well let me know
If you would ever love me I can show
The way your body should be, should be touched
Should be held, let me watch your body melt into mine
Down the line

hair: DOUX – Karol hairstyle @ Kustom9
head: LeLUTKA Avalon Head 3.0
eyes: A R T E – Sweet Brown Eyes @ TLC
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) Perky Edition (1.4)
skin: [Glam Affair] Rika Skin [Lelutka EvoX]
eyebrows: Glam Affair – Vip HD BROWS – Lelutka @ TLC
Glam Affair – EVOX Smoky Makeup 01 B for FLF April 16, 2021

Kibitz – Felicity’s necklace @ Equal10
(Yummy) Spring Butterfly Ring Collection @ C88
Seniha. Dulce Jacket @ Equal10
Seniha. Dulce Thong @ Equal10

pose: Lyrium. In Bloom Series @ Access

It won’t kill me

Don’t say that I should know better
No shame, messed up, broken mirror
Don’t know why I’m drawn to fear
Hm

Walking downtown, smiling stranger
Light up, burnt out, thought I knew ya
I’ll pretend I don’t see through ya
Hm

Off the safety, I shoot the gun and I, and I, and I go again
Off the rails and I’m on the run and here, here, here we go again
Flip the switch and I’m in the mode, but I’m in control
Just so you know. And I, and I go again

Dark night, bright light, self-destruction
Blow my phone up, your obsession
I don’t need another lesson
Hm

It won’t kill me
Treading lightly
Please don’t hate me
Smarter than you think

hair: Exile – Valentina @ C88
head: LeLUTKA Avalon Head 3.0
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) Perky Edition (1.4)
skin: [Glam Affair] Rika Skin [Lelutka EvoX]

Kibitz – Felicity’s necklace @ Equal10
(Yummy) Spring Butterfly Ring Collection @ C88
Tentacio I miss you bouquet @ Kustom9
Sweet Art – Cute Bag @ Equal10
Just BECAUSE Elizabeth Bralette
Just BECAUSE Elizabeth Pants

pose: – Sweet Art – Rubi Bento Poses @ Equal10
**altered cuz of the things I’m holding**

I’d rather be hard to love

‘Course you love me, you don’t know me
But I got news for you, I came broken
Ego issues, my head is swollen
I got a million chips on my shoulder
But if you stay despite all I showed you
Then maybe you don’t need freedom, freedom
I guess I take it, heartbreaker
A title, I can’t shake it, can’t fake it
I guess I take it, heartbreaker
A title, I can’t shake it, can’t fake it (yeah-yeah-yeah)
Baby, I’d rather be hard to love
Than easy to leave, you should believe me
I’ll make you need me (whoo)
I’d rather be hard to love
Than easy to leave, you should believe me
I’ll make you need me
Go deep, baby, go deep
I love it when your roots go deep so I know you won’t leave
Go deep, baby, go deep
I love it when your roots go deep so I know you won’t leave
Go deep, baby
I like being ugly, that way if they love me
I know that they love me for real (whoo)
I like being ugly, that way if they love me
I know that they love me for real (Listen)
I like being ugly, that way if they love me
I know that they love me for real (woah-woah)
I like being ugly, that way if they love me
I know that they love me for real

hairbase: Tableau Vivant – leLutka EvoX Hairbase 06 @ Kustom9
hair: Tableau Vivant – Windy ponytail Add-on @ Kustom9
head: LeLUTKA Avalon Head 3.0
eyes: AG. Elegance Eyes (Arctic) @ Access
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) Perky Edition (1.4)
skin: [Glam Affair] Rika Skin [Lelutka EvoX]
tattoo: [Addicted To Ink] Heather…

-SU!- Almond Nails
(Yummy) Spring Butterfly Ring Collection @ C88
BUENO-Buenitos Dranks @ Kustom9

Lunar – Miki Top updated w/new colors
Lunar – Miki Track Pants updated w/new colors

pose: Ana Poses – Sit AO 1

[NikotiN] Lumberjack Ashtray (V.5)
..::THOR::.. Retro Radio Coral

I’ll bet there’s somebody else out there

Baby (Baby)
You’ve been so distant from me lately (Lately)
And lately (And lately)
Don’t even want to call you baby (Baby)
Saw us getting older (Older)
Burning toast in the toaster
My ambitions were too high (High)
Waiting up for you upstairs (Upstairs)
Why you act like I’m not there?
Baby, right now it feels like
It feels like you don’t care
Oh, why don’t you recognize I’m so rare?
Always there
You don’t do the same for me
That’s not fairI don’t have it all
I’m not claiming to
But I know that I’m special (Special)
Yeah
And I’ll bet there’s somebody else out there
To tell me I’m rare
To make me feel rare

hair: DOUX – Mishi hairstyle
head: LeLUTKA Avalon Head 3.0
eyes: AG. Elegance Eyes (Arctic) @ Access
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) Perky Edition (1.4)
skin: [Glam Affair] Rika Skin [Lelutka EvoX] Honey
tattoo: [Addicted To Ink] Heather…

-SU!- Almond Nails
(Yummy) Spring Butterfly Ring Collection @ C88

Cynful Fashionista Bikini – Flf Special April 16, 2021

pose: Lyrium. Eve Static & Breathing + Fingers Series @ Equal10

Serenity Style– Sady Moon Dream Scene @ TLC

I’ve made it this far

the more I get to know myself
the less I understand myself
I don’t know how to let go
of this all weight I put on me
of who I am or where I’ll be
once I learn to let go
always set my sights on
diamonds in the future
remember when you wanted what you got right now
when I close my eyes
and I’m all alone with my mind
I get scared I’m unprepared
and will be for the rest of my life
but I’ve made it this far
yeah I made it this far
half way to falling apart
but I’ve made it this far

hair: DOUX – Karol hairstyle @ Kustom9
head: LeLUTKA Avalon Head 3.0
eyes: AG. Elegance Eyes (Arctic) @ Access
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) Perky Edition (1.4)
skin: [Glam Affair] Liv Skin [Lelutka EvoX] @ Kustom9
tattoo: [Addicted To Ink] Heather…

^^Swallow^^ Earrings H01 for lel Evo X Human Ears @ Kustom9
(Yummy) Bella Tennis Necklace Set @ Kustom9
(necklace & hoop earrings)
[ kunst ] – Nose Plaster
RE Sublime Nose Piercing N9
-SU!- Almond Nails
(Yummy) Spring Butterfly Ring Collection @ C88

BUENO-Hanging Phonecase-IDC @ C88
BUENO-Dranks-Strawberry @ Kustom9
[Eternus] Gianna Top
[Eternus] Gianna Dress

pose: Lyrium. Savi Static & Breathing + Fingers Series @ Access
[Bad Unicorn] Hail Monstera Backdrop @ Kustom9

Don’t say anything just go away

I try to make it through my life, in my way, there’s you
I try to make it through these lies, and that’s all I do
Just don’t deny it
Don’t try to fight this, and deal with it
And that’s just part of it
If you were dead or still alive
I don’t care, I don’t care
Just go and leave this all behind
‘Cause I swear (I swear) I don’t care
I try to make you see my side
I always try to stay in line
But your eyes see right through
That’s all they do
I’m getting buried in this place
I got no room, you’re in my face
Don’t say anything just go away

hair: tram K0328 hair @ C88
head: LeLUTKA Avalon Head 3.0
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) Perky Edition (1.4)
skin: [Glam Affair] Rika Skin [Lelutka EvoX]

AsteroidBox. Cara Dress @ Equal10
ROULY :: Hung Up Tights
[BREATHE]-Miiya Heels @ FaMESHed X

pose: Amitie Room Cola Woman Co. @ Equal10
Junk Food – Snack Vending Machine

Don’t fall away

Memories are just where you laid them
Drag the waters ’til the depths give up their dead
What did you expect to find?
Was there something you left behind?
Don’t you remember anything I said when I said
Don’t fall away and leave me to myself
Don’t fall away
And leave love bleedin’ in my hands, in my hands again
Leave love bleedin’ in my hands, in my hands
Love lies bleedin’
Oh, hold me now,
I feel contagious
Am I the only place that you’ve left to go?
She cries her life is like
Some movie black and white
Dead actors fakin’ lines
Over and over and over again she cries

hair: DOUX – Angeni hairstyle @ Equal10
head: LeLUTKA Avalon Head 3.0
body: [LEGACY] Meshbody (f) Perky Edition (1.4)
skin: [Glam Affair] Rika Skin [Lelutka EvoX]

Kibitz – Felicity’s necklace @ Equal10
Apl.Blossom Shaquana @ Level

pose: Lyrium. Ninna Static & Breathing + Fingers Series @ Equal10
White Tunnel – Damn Night – The Bearded Guy