Captive Little Mermaid

So, my warped little mind got to thinking about what would happen if mermaids were real. First of all, you know some rich prick would find a way to catch a few and have them in his private house sized aquarium. Then I thought about how there’s this fossil out there that suggests there really was a creature like a mermaid, but it was much smaller. Naturally, if there smaller or similar in size to tropical fish, they’d be heavily coveted for personal aquariums. And that is what led me to doing this photo. I know its a bit out there, but I kinda dig it. Hope you do, too.

wearing:
hair:  Tableau Vivant \\ Wispers in the wind
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: Glam Affair – Willow – Jamaica (*new* @ Uber)
LYBRA . MAGIC SUMMER TEMPEST (*new* @ Uber)

pose: Quasi – Mermaid Blogger Pack (*new* @ Uber)

scene:
JIAN Longfin Tetra Aquarium
JIAN Longfin Tetra Swimmers

Quasi – Mermaid Blogger Pack: (*new* @ Uber)
-Quasi – Mermaid’s Hideaway Ruins
-Quasi – Mermaid’s Hideaway Seaweed Left
-Quasi – Mermaid’s Hideaway Anchor
-Quasi – Mermaid’s Hideaway Rock
-Quasi – Mermaid’s Hideaway Seaweed Right

dust bunny . pilea peper plant

My Led Zeppelin Summer

I can’t hear Led Zeppelin without thinking back to the most amazing summer of my life. I was in college and I had somehow gotten involved with this group of people that were unlike any one I had ever known in my life. That summer/fall season is just filled with the best memories and it was as if we were all transported back in time. We smoked a lot of weed that summer and listened to classic rock like Led Zeppelin and The Doors endlessly. It was truly a magical time in my life and I’m so grateful to have experienced it. I’ve long lost touch with all of those people now, but they will always be part of my precious memories of that summer. I’d relive that time again and again if I could.
We were young, progressive, and carefree. We danced on the edge of a mountain while the sun went down, then sat there listening to our music watching the cars zip pass us completely unaware of our existence. We had deep conversations and silly ones.  We had just a tiny taste of the 60s in the 80s and it was amazing.

wearing:
hair: [RA] Rondra Hair
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: Glam Affair – Willow – Jamaica (*new* @ Uber)

NS:: Boho Fringe bag (*new* @ REWIND)
UC_Laced_top (*new* @ Uber)
UC_Jean_shorts (*new* @ equal10)

pose: Le Poppycock-Well healed

scene:
crate Dylan Daze Groovy Ganesh Rug (*new* @ REWIND)
crate Dylan Daze Bong n Buds (*new* @ REWIND)
crate Dylan Daze Cactus Cupcakes (*new* @ REWIND)
crate Dylan Daze Tire Peace Sign (*new* @ REWIND)

Snuff

words

Slipknot ~ Snuff

Bury all your secrets in my skin
Come away with innocence and leave me with my sins
The air around me still feels like a cage
And love is just a camouflage for what resembles rage again

So if you love me let me go
And run away before I know
My heart is just too dark to care
I can’t destroy what isn’t there

Deliver me into my fate
If I’m alone I cannot hate
I don’t deserve to have you
Ooh, my smile was taken long ago
If I can change I hope I never know

I still press your letters to my lips
And cherish them in parts of me that savor every kiss
I couldn’t face a life without your lights
But all of that was ripped apart when you refused to fight

So save your breath, I will not care
I think I made it very clear
You couldn’t hate enough to love
Is that supposed to be enough?

I only wish you weren’t my friend
Then I could hurt you in the end
I never claimed to be a saint
Ooh, my own was banished long ago
It took the death of hope to let you go

So break yourself against my stones
And spit your pity in my soul
You never needed any help
You sold me out to save yourself

And I won’t listen to your shame
You ran away, you’re all the same
Angels lie to keep control
Ooh, my love was punished long ago
If you still care don’t ever let me know
If you still care don’t ever let me know

wearing:
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: Glam Affair – Willow – Jamaica (*new* @ Uber)

Storybook – Enigma

_CandyDoll_ Adele Dress (*new* @ REWIND)
Izzie’s – Fishnet Stockings
Eudora3D Thar Boots

pose: Ana Boutique bento stand set (*new* @ Pose Fair)

Hollow

Going through a lot these days and sometimes it is just impossible for me to form the words to express what I’m feeling. In cases like this, I will use a song and this time, Tori Kelly has them.

Tori Kelly ~ Hollow

I don’t wanna be the last man standing
I don’t wanna be the lonely one
Picking petals when the party’s over
No, it’s not any fun

‘Cause I’m fragile
And you know this

So hold me
Wrap me in love, fill up my cup
Empty and only your love can fill up my cup
‘Cause I’m hollow
Yeah, I’m hollow, oh oh oh
‘Cause I’m hollow
Yeah, I’m hollow, oh oh oh

I don’t wanna be the first one folding
I don’t wanna be the joker heart
Tell me, darling, will you understand me?
And not show me your cards?

‘Cause I’m paper-thin
And you, you make me whole again

So hold me
Wrap me in love, fill up my cup
Empty and only your love can fill up my cup
‘Cause I’m hollow
Yeah, I’m hollow, oh oh oh
‘Cause I’m hollow
Yeah, I’m hollow, oh oh oh

I confess (yeah), my weakness
Til you pick up the parts that are broken
Pour out your perfection on me now

And hold me
Wrap me in love, fill up my cup
Empty, ’cause only your love can fill up my cup
So hold me
Wrap me in love, fill up my cup
Empty and only your love can fill up my cup
‘Cause I’m hollow
Yeah, I’m hollow, oh oh oh
‘Cause I’m hollow
Yeah, I’m hollow, oh oh oh
‘Cause I’m hollow (yeah)
Yeah, I’m hollow, oh oh oh (oh yeah)
‘Cause I’m hollow (I’m hollow)
Yeah, I’m hollow, oh oh oh

wearing:
hair:  Tableau Vivant // Paula hair (*new* @ Uber)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: Glam Affair – Willow – Jamaica (*new* @ Uber)

–Narcisse– Lia Bodychain
[Gos] Diana Lingerie Set (*new* @ Uber)
–David Heather-Block Fur Trenchcoat/Tan

pose: FOXCITY. Stairs (Standing) Bento Pose Set
Lively – Classy Curtain {Silver/White} Backdrop

The Apothecary

My friend, Harlow Heslop, has opened another sim. She can’t help herself and I can’t say I blame her. So, while I was wondering about The Apothecary, her new sim, I ran across this cabin that reminded me of a place I once visited in Vermont. It was family owned and contained so many memories, but upon each visit they would have to clean away the vines, sweep away dried leaves, and dust everything. Naturally, I had to take my photo here. If you love to explore and/or take photos, I must encourage you to explore The Apothecary sim. It’s truly gorgeous.

wearing:
hair:  Moon. Hair // – Blondes – Summer Breeze (*new* @ Summerfest)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: Glam Affair – Willow – Jamaica (*new* @ Uber)

EF: Majesty Choker
BUENO-Bella Top (*new* @ Uber)
BUENO-Capri Leggings (*new* @ Uber)
**UTOPIA@Design** – “MILU” (*new* @ Uber)
#187# Summer Bag ~ Marine

pose: an lar [poses] The Laura Series (*new* @ Summerfest)
location: The Apothecary

What I Want

I attached a song to this post, because it has this crazy beat and uses one of my tag lines repeatedly, “I do what I want!” I really do what I want for the most part. Sure, there are limitations on what I can do because of money or whatever, but if it’s within my power, yeah, I really do what I want. I’ve finally figured out that relationships are not for me. It’s not that I don’t believe in love. I do. I just feel like I’ve had more than my share and now its time for me to let go of any fairy tale ideas I might have once had. I’m not pointing fingers at my ex-lovers, by any means. I just know that I’m a picky little bitch and I’m just done with committing myself to people romantically.
You see, I have a tendency to try and people please. A couple of years ago, I got in a relationship with an ex, just so a close friend of mine would no longer see me as a threat. However, recently it has occurred to me, that if someone finds me to be a threat to them in some way…that is THEIR problem, not mine. I’ve never stepped on the toes of my friends, not intentionally anyway. And I can assure you, the minute I knew I was even close to stepping on toes, I backed off. I’m not the kind of friend that stabs my friends in the back. Ever since my return to SL in 2014, I’ve been accused of things I’ve not done…simply because I made friends with the wrong person at the wrong time…or worse yet, they heard a rumor that was started by a small group of silly girls and assumed it was true without ever getting to know me. Now, I’m done bending over backwards trying to prove the rumors wrong. I’m not tip toeing around invisible glass to avoid upsetting anyone’s fragile ego, especially in the name of friendship. The way I see it, if you think I’m such a horrible person why bother trying to be my friend at all? Why bother pretending?
Clearly, they don’t know me at all and should probably find friends they CAN trust, even though I suspect that’s not entirely possible, since I’ve done nothing to lose said trust to begin with. Meh, I got my feelings hurt for a minute and now I’m rambling, but here’s the deal: Look closely at the menu, do the pictures EVER look the like the food you actually get served? Nah, they don’t. While you all sort out who you trust and who you don’t? I’ll be over here doing what I want and one thing I don’t want is people that call me a friend but make judgments and talk shit behind my back, rather than dealing with their own problems.

wearing:
hair:  Wasabi // Hibiki Mesh Hair
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: Glam Affair – Lily (*new* @ Kustom9)
EF: POP Earrings (*new* for Go by FaMESHed)
{le fil casse} Cindy Dress (*new* @ REWIND)
Eudora3D Marina Wedges&Stockings (*new* for Go by FaMESHed)

pose: FOXCITY. Bento Sits VOL1 set
Astralia – Vintage backgrounds (Fast Food)

Walking Solo

I’ve been asked a few times why I often include the lyrics to the song, instead of just linking the song in my blog. The answer is quite simple. I adore poetry and most song lyrics read like poetry if you take away the music. I’ve explained many time that songs often say what I can and if you do add the melody, it can elevate the feeling behind the picture to an entirely new level.

Oh Wonder – Without You

Step out into the sun
Skies above they radiate me
Lift up, carry the love
Do you know?

That I’ve been out of my mind
This slow life I’m waiting for you
To swing me all of your line
Do you know?

Since I’ve been walking solo
Dreaming you were back home
I find getting down low
Hide until tomorrow

Come back into the good life
Lose these hazy love lies
I’ve been chasing my mind
Lonely in the cold nights

‘Cause I’m kicking up stones without you
Can’t pick up the phone without you
I’m a little bit lost without you
Without you

And I’m digging down holes without you
Can’t be on my own without you
I’m a little bit lost without you
Without you

Step out into the dark
Where were you when I was trying
To lift up, carry the love
Do you know?

That I’ve been closing my eyes
Love me slow, hallucinating
Swinging me all of your light
Do you know?

Since I’ve been walking solo
Dreaming you were back home
I find getting down low
Hide until tomorrow

Come back into the good life
Lose these hazy love lies
I’ve been chasing my mind
Lonely in the cold nights

‘Cause I’m kicking up stones without you
Can’t pick up the phone without you
I’m a little bit lost without you
Without you

And I’m digging down holes without you
Can’t be on my own without you
I’m a little bit lost without you
Without you

Hold me close when it’s over
Life goes slow loving sober
Feel my bones getting older
Sadness grows when you’re cold

‘Cause I am one step heavy and two steps high
Hold it steady with you by my side
One step heavy and two steps high
Two steps high

‘Cause I’m kicking up stones without you
Can’t pick up the phone without you
I’m a little bit lost without you

And I’m digging down holes without you
Can’t be on my own without you
I’m a little bit lost without you
Without you

Without you
Without you
I’m a little bit lost without you
Without you

And I’m digging down holes without you
Can’t be on my own without you
I’m a little bit lost without you
Without you

.wearing:
hair:  Lamb. Sunshower (*new* @ Summerfest)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: Glam Affair – Lily (*new* @ Kustom9)
(Yummy) Free Spirit Rings
Scandalize. Klossy. (*new* @ FrouFrou)

pose: FOXCITY. Sass Bento Pose Set
location: Baja Bay

Accessories

I’m a girl that loves her accessories. Oddly enough, I rarely blog accessories. I’m not sure why. Perhaps its because I wasn’t comfortable taking close up shots. However, whenever I go out to an event, I will spend an hour putting the right accessories with it. So, I’ve decided I’m going to try to focus a bit more of my blogging photography on accessories. By the way, this dress from Dead Dollz is amazing, so hurry over to FaMESHed before it closes for the month to get yours. This dress is amazing, there are options to make it solid, semi-sheer, and quite sheer. I’m showing the semi-sheer below. This is truly a sexy dress that has some chains attached with options to change the colors of those. I’ve added the necklace and earrings from Avenge to give it a more unique look, that I’m quite happy with. I’m rambling, because I’m avoiding what’s really on my mind. So, I’ll shut up and just encourage you to go shopping and have creating you own looks.

wearing:
hair:  Wasabi // Oops Mesh Hair
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
ears: .:[PUMEC] :. – / Mesh Ears\ – 4 -POINT INDUSTRIAL
facial piercings: –SU!– Piercing Set 07 (*new* @ Access)
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: Glam Affair – Lily (*new* @ Kustom9)
tattoo: RedFish – Sexy flower Tattoo

*katat0nik* (silver) Anima Eyepatch & Psyche Hole
[Avenge] Fashion necklace (*new* @ Limit8)
[Avenge] Fashion earrings (*new* @ Limit8)
**RE** Julia Belly Chain
.::Dead Dollz::. Isla Outfit (*new* @ FaMESHed)

pose: FOXCITY. Breather VOL2 Animated Pose Set

Kissing Frogs

I’ve about to decided that I’m going to refer to all my exes as frogs. I’ve kissed them all and not a one has turned into a prince, but they’ve certainly wasted no time in hopping away. They made a whole lot of noise and had no problem sharing my pad, but when it came down to it they all ended up back in the pond. Personally, I think they can stay there. Perhaps someone else will find a use for them….oh say, frog legs sauteed in a garlic butter sauce. *smirks* Either way, I’m done kissing frogs and going forward, frogs will just have to remain in the pond where I found them. I can enjoy them from a distance while partaking in some Kronic. *grins*

wearing:
hair:  Clawtooth: Chanel (*new* @ FaMESHed)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: Glam Affair – Lily (*new* @ Kustom9)
tattoo: IDTTY Body Shop (*new* @ ULTRA)
EF: Apollonia Necklace (*new* @ FaMESHed)
EF: Apollonia Bracelet  (*new* @ FaMESHed)
LYBRA . MIRA FATPACK (*new* @ REWIND)
[BREATHE]-Fion Heels (*new* June Pocket Gacha)

FOXCITY. Carefree Bento Pose Set
JIAN Frog Pond Collection (*new* for Go by FaMESHed)

Fake Friends

“Don’t worry about what people say behind your back, they are the people who are finding faults in your life instead fixing the faults in their own life.” ~Author Unknown

This quote or something along those lines has been told to me so many times over the years. It’s important to my sanity that I remember this, especially when “friends” begin acting shady around you. I think most of us are intuitive enough to realize when one of so called friends suddenly seems fake as hell. I’ll admit it hurts to think that someone you care about suddenly thinks very little of you. Even worse knowing that the real reason they have suddenly begun to think less of you, is actually a reflection of their feelings towards themselves. Sadly, instead of looking in the mirror, they’d rather project their failures and misgivings upon someone else. At this point, the question is, do you attempt to prove that person wrong or do you just go the other way. I know that for me personally, I cannot tip toe about broken glass that I can’t even see. They’ll just have to clean that up themselves, because I have far too much on my plate to worry about what others think of me. If only that was my biggest problem, I’d be far more blessed than I deserve.

wearing:
hair:  [e] Staci (*new* @ FaMESHed)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: Glam Affair – Lily (*new* @ Kustom9)
tattoo: IDTTY Body Shop (*new* @ ULTRA)
DIRTY PRINCESS– Hippie Chic Princess Sunglasses (*new* @ REWIND)
MICHAN – Heather Necklace (*new* @ REWIND)
Scandalize. Kimberly.  (*new* @ Collabor88)

pose: FOXCITY. Beach Bunny Bento Set