Losing It

I remember the first time I saw my mom just lose it. She had spent hours making this cake from scratch, but it tilted so bad and kept sliding, no matter what she tried. Next thing I know she’s screaming and attacks the cakes with her claw like hands and cakes went everywhere. The next time I saw her lose it was when we had borrowed a VW Bug from a friend. It had a stick shift (look it up if you’re too young to know) and she hated them, the clutch would stick, too. It was the first time I heard the F word. *gasps* I think the first time I truly lost it was in high school. It was a really bad hair day and I broke my hair brush. Many times, I’ve felt like throwing all my papers in the air when writing…and once upon a time I did all my writing on paper. *giggles* Most days this is what my brain feels like…someone just threw my life in the air and I’m doing my best to grab it all and make some sense of it.

The writer stares with glassy eyes —
Defies the empty page,

wearing:
hair: RAMA.SALON – Sonya Hair (*new* @ Shiny Shabby)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: [theSkinnery]  Iris (Catwa Applier) toffee
Cae :: Zora :: Glasses (*new* @ The Clique)
::GB::Off Shoulder Cardigan (F)/ Gray
{le fil casse} Alysha Dress (*new* @ Uber)
_CD_ Deya Wedge (*new* @ N21)

JIAN Marble Fox (Static – Sleeping L)

pose: Bauhaus Movement

scene:
a lot of books from all over the grid
bookcase and fireplace – DRD – Shadow Box – Series 01 – FEB 2018 – LIGHT

 

All I Ever Wanted Was Everything

Just this…

Bauhaus – All We Ever Wanted Was Everything

All we ever wanted was everything
All we ever got was cold
Get up, eat jelly, sandwich bars and barbed wire
And squash every week into a day

Oh oh oh oh
Oh oh oh oh

The sound of the drum is calling
The sound of the drum has called
Flash of youth shoot out of darkness
Factory town

Oh oh oh oh
Oh oh oh oh

Oh to be the cream
Oh to be the cream
Oh to be the cream

wearing:
hair: RAMA.SALON – Jacinda Hair (*new* @ Blush)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: [theSkinnery]  Iris (Catwa Applier) toffee
–Narcisse– Pixie Cami & Ruffle Panties

pose: FOXCITY. What Gives Bento Pose Set  (*new* @ Blush)
FOXCITY. Photo Booth – Insatiable Pink (*new* @ Blush)

Do You Know Me?

Keeping this one short and sweet…leaning on a song & lyrics. It’s a message and if you don’t get it, then it wasn’t meant for you. I just want to know if you’re really reading. *winks*

John Mayer – Do You Know Me?

It’s just the strangest thing
I’ve seen your face somewhere

An early evening dream,
A past life love affair

Do you know me, at all?
Do you know me, at all?

In all my reverie
I thought I felt us there

A feather in my hand,
A flower in your hair

Do you know me, at all?
Do you know me, at all?

Do you know me, at all?
Do you know me, at all?

wearing:
hair: DOUX – Coco hairstyle (*new* @ TresChic)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: [Avenge] Heather skin applier for Catwa – pale

lashes: [POUT!] Pretty Lashes – CATWA applier
eyes: –SU!- [HUD] Isolabella Eyes
eyeshadow: –SU!- Monochrome Eyeshadow +CATWA APPLIER+
lipstick: –SU!- Leandra Lipstick 02 +CATWA APPLIER+

CURELESS [+] Sterile Face Bandages
[Atomic] Kitten Collar
**RE** Kitty Pearls Necklace
Birdy – Backstage – Lace – Lara – White

Quasi – 6 Ulysses Painting (*new* @ Imaginarium)
Quasi – 9 Sparta Motherfucker Painting (*new* @ Imaginarium)

Selfies

I’m often quite grateful that smartphones were not a thing when I was a teenager or in my 20s. As stupid as I was in my 20s, LAWD, I can’t even think about too much without blushing. Selfies became such a big deal, they had to introduce the word into the dictionary. The best selfies will always be the ones where we’re drunk, feeling good, and thinking we’re cute when we’re actually a hot damn mess. I personally take very few selfies. I prefer to take pictures of things I find interesting or beautiful.

wearing:
hair: #2{Limerence} Astarta hair (*new* @ LootBox)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
Izzie’s – Insomnia (Catwa Applier)
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: [theSkinnery]  Iris (Catwa Applier) toffee
Bauhaus Movement – Delicate Headband&Earrings (*new* @ The Clique)
Bauhaus Movement – Delicate Necklace (*new* @ The Clique)
(Yummy) Minimalist Rings – Maitreya (*new* @N21)
[Cynful] City Life Set – Top + Skirt (*new* @ Uber)
tarte. flask (mustache) RARE

pose: FUSSY x FOXCITY. Selfie Set comes with phone

ninety – antisocial [ backdrop ] + resize
Quasi – 8. Carless Painting (*new* @ Imaginarium)

 

Do These Shoes Make My Ass Look Big?

Whenever someone asks if something makes their ass look big, I can’t help myself, nor do I even try to stop myself…I immediately answer with something random, “No, its your elbows that look fat in that.” or “No, you ass just IS fat.” Something along those lines, because let’s face it….its a no win situation. You might as well have some fun with it. They say there’s no stupid questions, but I disagree. I think there are lots of stupid questions, but I love them. Stupid questions, get stupid answers. *grins*

wearing:
hair: Vanity Hair: Amorous
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: [theSkinnery]  Iris (Catwa Applier) toffee
.::Dead Dollz::. Nadja Sweatshirt (*new* @ The Clique)
.::Dead Dollz::. Nadja Leggings (*new* @ The Clique)
[Gos] Natalie Ankle Boots (*new* @ Uber)

pose: Bauhaus Movement

background is an interior wall in the loft apartment found in:
BUENO-NightSpot Loft Building-Decay (*new* @ Uber)

OMG

I grew up in a pretty strict church setting. Though my father never went to church, my mother would drag me every other Sunday (she worked the other Sundays) and the Nazarene church is no joke. Aside from the fact that they change their doctrine rules every few years about dress codes, they had a lot of rules…like we weren’t allowed to play cards (even Go Fish) because that was considered gambling. So, it should come as no surprise that the only time you mentioned God was during prayer, Sunday school, bible study, or church, but to say, “Oh my God” or “For Jesus Sake” was taking the Lord’s name in vain. Oh and you can’t set anything on top of the bible…*rolls her cartoon eyes like Dusty.*
Now, I left that church a very very long time ago, but I can’t help but wonder how they reacted to the whole, “OMG!” Did they adjust their doctrine again? Did they yell at the kids the way they used to? Hell, are there even any kids still going to that church after they hit 13? Hardly was when I was a kid. Meh, I don’t care enough about the answer to that question to go check it out, I’ll tell you that much. Cuz, like, OMG, they totally think I’m like the fucking devil, right?”

wearing:
hair: DOUX – Lee hairstyle
hair base: Just Magnetized – Special Hairbase set 05 for CATWA (*new* @ SKIN FAIR)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: [Avenge] Heather skin applier for Catwa – pale (*new* @ SKIN FAIR)
eyeshadow: !IT! – Flirty By Day Eyeshadows 1 (*new* @ SKIN FAIR)
lipstick: !IT! – Velvet Lipstick 8 (*new* @ SKIN FAIR)

tattoo: …:::Savage:::… Ginkas Erotic Henna Tattoo 2 (*new* @ SKIN FAIR)

[Avenge] Bamboo earrings (*new* @ Limit8)
[Avenge] Bamboo necklace (*new* @ Limit8)
::SG:: Cart Claw BENTO MESH NAILS (*new* @ SKIN FAIR)
ChicModa // Piper Shorts (*new* @ Cosmo)

pose: WHATEVER – What Size ?

Annie May? Ani Me? Ana Who?

We say, “Oh what a small world” when we run into a friend of a friend, but I think its a great  big world and a there’s a whole lot that I don’t know anything about…like anime. I think its cute. I can appreciate the artistic nature…a genre? I get the appeal, but it has never really kept my attention. That does not mean I can resist the appeal to play dress up! Just so happens, LootBox has quite a few items that are Asian themed this round. So, if you love the stuff, this round was made for you. If you’re like me and just like to play dress up, well….get your butt over there. Have fun!
I just decided to have a little fun of my own in a nifty little Asian market I discovered right outside of chill little club lost in a time warp. Of course, the slurl will be down in the credits.

wearing:
hair:  MINA – Jennifer (*new* @ The Clique)
hair base: Just Magnetized – Special Hairbase set 05 for CATWA (*new* @ SKIN FAIR)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: [Avenge] Heather skin applier for Catwa – Ivory (*new* @ SKIN FAIR)
~Shiny Stuffs~ Hella Good Lashes CATWA Appliers  (*new* @ SKIN FAIR)
–SU!– Oksana Eyeshadow +CATWA APPLIER+

Dahlia – Claire – Headpiece (*new* @ The Clique)
Dahlia – Claire – Earrings  (*new* @ The Clique)

{le fil casse} Haruna Kimono Top Open Maitreya RARE (*new* @ LootBox)
{le fil casse} Haruna Tie Skirt Maitreya RARE (*new* @ LootBox)

JIAN Nimble Nekomata 16. White Outfit Floater (*new* @ LootBox)

pose: GingerFish Poses – You Can’t Sit With Us set (*new* @ The Clique)

location: Groove One

A Little Wicked

Since my friends thought that my sweet and innocent post was too far of a stretch for me…assholes…I thought I’d show them what they really want to see. I mean who doesn’t love to see a woman on her knees, bare breasted, right?  Well, they seem to prefer me a little wicked. It’s a good thing, cuz that’s my comfort zone, isn’t it? Just nod and smile, you know I just waked and baked. *blows smoke* I’m feeling a little wicked this morning, so I’m going to cut this short and go find some trouble. *grins*

A little wicked,” that’s what he calls me
Cause that’s what I am, that’s what I am

wearing:
hair: Tableau Vivant  \\ Silvana hair
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: [theSkinnery]  Iris (Catwa Applier) toffee (*new* @ C88)
[Atomic] Kitten Collar
LYBRA . LACY DRESS RARE (*new* @ Whore Couture)
LYBRA . LACY PANTIES WHITE (*new* @ Whore Couture)
UC_Luna_high_heel (*new* @ Kustom9)

**no pose or background information available, as this was a candid shot, using random ground sit in my personalized ao**

Waiting For Paint To Dry

Regardless of whether you’re a DIY or Salon girl, getting your nails done is like waiting for paint to dry. I’m clearly profiling, but in my neck of the woods the best nail shops are run by Asians, mostly Vietnamese or Korean. Y’all know me, I ask questions. I’d rather sound ignorant for asking a question than be ignorant while assuming I know something I don’t. You’d think a salon full of people wouldn’t make you zone out, but when they’re chattering away in their native language and it all just sounds like high pitched noises to you…well, its easy to zone out. Painting your nails at home, you try to get everything situated before you start, because its going to take a while before you can move about freely. You nail polish is unforgiving! This is when I tend to slip down inside myself and get lost in thoughts. If good things are happening in my life, I can revel in my blessings. I can be grateful and wish good things, send love & light to others. It’s like a fairy tale room in my mind. However, if things are messed up or I’m going through a rough time, that’s when my demons come out to play. Its like getting locked in the attic with a room full of creepy dolls, each one whispering a secret in a creepy little doll voice.

wearing:
hair:  [RA] Alana Hair (*new* @ ShinyShabby)
hairbase: Just Magnetized – Special Hairbase set 05 for CATWA Skin Fair (*new* @ SKIN FAIR)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
eyes: CURELESS[+] Dilated Eyes
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: [theSkinnery]  Iris (Catwa Applier) toffee (*new* @ C88)
lipstick & lashes: HUWE COSMETICS – PACK MATTE COLLECTION (Catwa) HUD APPLIER. (*new* @ SKIN FAIR)
eyeshadow:  Wednesday[+] ~ Glitter Circles
nail polish: alme. Love Ombre – Matte (*new* @ TresChic)

top tattoo: Ambition – Black Tattoo [CAROL G] Maitreya ADD (*new* @ SKIN FAIR)
bottom tattoo: .:AuricA:. Molly Leg Tattoo (*new* @ SKIN FAIR)

[CX] Hell’s Harbinger (Black Out)
Legal Insanity – Lily black tops (*new* @ TresChic)
:::insanya::: JennaShorts – Solid (*new* @ Whore Couture)

pose: FOXCITY. B A D Bento Pose Set (*new* @ Limit8)
FOXCITY. Photo Booth – B A D (Black Tintable) (*new* @ Limit8)

It’s All About Avenge

This blog is focused almost solely on Avenge. This store not only does amazingly sexy clothes, but skins and shapes, too! Now, I worked closely with a dear friend to get my shape to where it is and I’ve never been happier, but I always appreciate good skins. Not only does Avenge deliver this gorgeous Heather Skin at the Skin Fair, but if you head over to Whore Couture, you can find some of their sexy outfits that I mentioned. Like this sparkling glitter number I’m wearing below. You can’t see it, but this literally sparkles. Do not confuse that with bling, this is sparkling. I’ve seen a few designers perform this sparkling magic and my love for shinies makes it impossible for me to pass up.

wearing:
hair: TRUTH VIP February – Carla
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: [Avenge] Heather skin applier for Catwa – pale (*new* @ SKIN FAIR)
[Avenge] Sparkling Glitter tank for Maitreya – silver (*new* @ Whore Couture)
[Avenge] Sparkling Glitter panties for Maitreya – silver  (*new* @ Whore Couture)

poses: FOXCITY. B A D Bento Pose Set (*new* @ Limit8)
background in above photo:  FOXCITY. Photo Booth – B A D Limited (*new* @ Limit8)

Below are examples of all the Avenge skin tones. From Ivy to Dark.