I Don’t Need Your Love

It seems as if I’ve spent the bulk of my life letting go of people, places, and things. I’ve got the grieving process down so well, I practically do it on auto-pilot. I learned at an early age not to count on anything to last forever. If there’s one person in this world that knows how truly temporary everything is…it’s me. I stumbled across the song and I swear I’m not high, but I felt myself being lifted up like a feather in the wind right before a rain storm. Drifting through the air with all the people, places, and things I’ve let go….until the rain comes down and washes them all away. I can look back and smile, because there are some mighty good memories there….it wasn’t all bad. I’ve got very few regrets.

Stealth – I Don’t Need Your Love

I don’t need your love, and I don’t want to waste your time
I don’t need your love, girl, you don’t need mine
My time is up
There’s no more lines to read
It’s too much
There’s no more room to breathe
I know it’s tough
But there’s no more lies to live
I’ve done enough
Now it’s time to leave

This has run its course
I don’t know you, and you don’t seem to first
Time we both let this fade to dust
I don’t need your love, and I don’t want to waste your time
I don’t need your love, girl, you don’t need mine
I don’t need your love, and I don’t want to waste your time
I don’t need your love, girl, you don’t need mine

I must to admit, I felt it before worse
So this is it, you must’ve foreseen the worst
We have tried our best, you don’t love me, and I my heart’s already left
It’s time we call the latest down to rest
I don’t need your love, and I don’t want to waste your time
I don’t need your love, girl, you don’t need mine
I don’t need your love, and I don’t want to waste your time
I don’t need your love, girl, you don’t need mine

It always hurt when the rain is bringing in to the summer
It’s kinda hard to watch the night’s bringing into the day
It always hurts when we’re moving from one to another
If you’re not moving here in the dark, you will stay
I don’t need your love, and I don’t want to waste your time
I don’t need your love, girl, you don’t need mine
I don’t need your love, and I don’t want to waste your time
I don’t need your love, girl, you don’t need mine

I don’t need your love, and I don’t want to waste your time
I don’t need your love, girl, you don’t need mine
I don’t need your love, and I don’t want to waste your time
I don’t need your love, girl, you don’t need mine

wearing:
hair:  TRUTH VIP January – Teanna
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: Glam Affair –- MaryJane – Catwa Mesh Head Applier – Artic (*new* @ Kinky)
Cae :: Infinity :: Necklace (*new* @ FaMESHed)
**RE** Exene Rings & Claws
Scandalize. Senuna (*new* @ Cosmopolitan)
Scandalize. SenunaHEELS (*new* @ Cosmopolitan)

Pose: FOXCITY. Bad Kitty VOL2 Bento Pose Set
FOXCITY. Photo Booth – Lipstick Lounge – Purple (*new* @ Cosmopolitan)

Shut Your Mouth

This is one of those times that the lyrics can say so much more than I can.

Garbage – Shut Your Mouth

Welcome
We love you
We hate you
We love you
We want you
We need you
We wish we were like you
They say you’re a saint
You’re a whore
You’re a sinner
That he had you
He made you
He can’t live without you
Would you confess if we asked
That you nurture the urge
To declare that it’s time
To settle down
With a man of your own
You want a baby
A family
A piece of security

Shut your mouth
Try not to panic
Just shut your mouth
If you can do it
Shut your mouth
Try not to panic
Just shut your mouth
If you can do it
Just shut your mouth

What’s your opinion of the dire situation
In our land here
Our guest here
Of course you’ll be nice here
How do you feel about God and religion
Are you good people
Bad people
Guess it doesn’t matter people
Your place
My place
Make her bring that famous face
You got some
You want some
You wanna let me get you some
We know your music but of course we’d never buy it
It’s too fake man
Right man!
(We don’t give a fucking damn)

Shut your mouth
Try not to panic
Just shut your mouth
If you can do it
Shut your mouth
Try not to panic
Just shut your mouth
If you can do it

I hear you say it
Play it smart girl
Win the game love
Give’em what they want
What they want to see and you could be a big star
You could go far
Make a landmark
What have you been reading you smart girl?
Win the game love
Give’em what they want
What they want to see and you could be a big star
You could go far
Make a landmark
Make a shitload

And the world spins by
With everybody moaning
Pissing, bitching and everyone is shitting
On their friends
On their love
On their oaths
On their honor
On their graves
On their mouths
And their words say nothing

Shut your mouth
Try not to panic
Just shut your mouth
If you can do it
Shut your mouth
Try not to panic
Just shut your mouth
If you can do it
Just shut your mouth

I wanted to say something
Oh shut your mouth
I wanted to say something
Just shut your mouth
I wanted to say something
Oh shut your mouth
I wanted to be something
Just shut your mouth

wearing:
hair:  MINA – Nora (*new* @ Uber)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: Glam Affair –  Catwa Applier – Clara – America 02
*COCO*_WrapChoker
{le fil casse} Shauna Halter Top (*new* @ Uber)
{le fil casse} Shauna Skirt (*new* @ Uber)

FOXCITY. Spotlight Bento Set

Trompe Loeil – Ceres Decorative Shack

RED FLAG!!

Alright, let’s talk. Ladies, I’m talking to you and myself. We’ve got to stop taking shit off these fuckers! Pay attention to the red flags! Ya know what? No, I’m not talking just to the ladies….guys, you need to listen up, too! Those red flags? Each new person you meet in SL, use the notes page of their profile, only you can see what you write there. Make a list of those red flags….every single one. Don’t let yourself forget them. Why? Because red flags are a big ass sign telling you to be careful and the more there are…well, run, dumbass! Don’t think you are going to be the one to change them or fix them. You won’t. Especially not in SL. Let’s face it, this is the land of broken souls. Let me list a few like I did with the Go Fuck Thyself post. These things apply to friendships & romantic relationships. Let’s just avoid the toxicity right up front, shall we?
Does s/he disrespect you by making overt sexual comments during your first conversation? RED FLAG!
S/He start IMs with “I’m bored.” RED FLAG!
His profile is full of all his female friends with no shout outs to a single guy? RED FLAG!
Her profile is full of all her male friends with no shout outs to any girls? RED FLAG!
Blank profiles! RED FLAG!
Immediately starts telling you that you need to change anything…from your avatar to your personality. RED FLAG!
Constantly crashes whenever the conversation gets serious. RED FLAG!
Always telling you how perfect you are? No one is perfect. They need to love you AND your flaws. Perfection is impossible and pedestals weren’t designed for two. RED FLAG!
Constantly needing to touch you, hold you too close, know your every move? Clingy much? RED FLAG!
Trying to rush you into a relationship? RED FLAG!
Do they try to isolate you? Keep you from your friends or not interested in meeting your friends? RED FLAG!
Not trying to introduce you to their friends? Claim they don’t really have any? RED FLAG!
Describe ALL of their exes as crazy? Well, you’re crazy if you don’t see this…RED FLAG!
Moody as fuck? Mean as hell one day, charming the next, sullen a day later? RED FLAG!
Super secretive about little stuff? Imagine how they are with big things. RED FLAG!
Sending you on so many guilt trips that you’re acquiring frequent flyer miles? RED FLAG!
They make you feel stupid, insult your intelligence, point out what you don’t know, mock your ideas, convinced they can change your mind? Gaslight much? RED FLAG!
Wants to keep your relationship a secret? RED FLAG!

I’m sorry to break it to you, but if you choose to ignore these red flags…well, prepare for some heart ache. I mean, maybe you’re not that emotionally invested…maybe these red flags won’t apply to you. Perhaps you have some arrangement that works for you and a friend, like FWB. I’m just saying if you want something serious with someone…these are just a few things to watch out for. In the meantime, hang in there, cuz we can do bad all by ourselves.

wearing:
hair:  TRUTH Lilo (*new* @ Uber)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: Glam Affair –  Catwa Applier – Clara – America 02
_CandyDoll_ Lily Shirt (*new* Mainstore)
_CandyDoll_ Lily Skirt (*new* Mainstore)
_CandyDoll_ Lily Heels (*new* @ N21)

pose: FOXCITY. Observe Bento Pose Set
MINIMAL – Illuminate Backdrop #4 (*new* @ Epiphany)

Ole McF*ckit Had a Farm

Ole McFuckit had a farm…(sing along, you know you wanna)
Gracey, Tracy, and Rom
On that farm there was a cow…
Gracey, Grace, and Grace…*giggles*
With a moo moo here, and booze booze there
Here a moo, there’s some booze
Gracey, Grace, and Grace…*bursts into giggles*

Ole McFuckit had a farm…
Tracy, Tracy, Trace….
On that farm was a little pig…
Tracy, Tracy, Trace….*laughs*
With an oink oink here, and some candy there
Here’s an oink, there’s a boink
And Rom got him some….*cries from laughin so hard*

It had to be done….oh but wait, there’s one more verse to finish this off….

Ole McFuckit had a farm…
Kessie, Kesstie, Kess…
On that farm there was a barn…
Kessie, Kesstie, Kess…
With a squeaky door, and a rock DJ
Here’s a song, there’s some hay
And Exodus lived in a barn….*runs like hell*

Okay, so this post was mostly a series of private jokes, but I could not help myself. If you know these cunts, you’ll understand. Long live the McFuckits!!!♥

JIAN Highland Cattle Shed (*new* @ Uber)
JIAN Highland Cattle Collection (*new* @ Uber)
JIAN Highland Farm Fences (*new* @ Uber)

JIAN Playtime Piglets 1. Hay Napper RARE

JIAN Countryside Collies :: Adult Wanderer RARE

JIAN Barnyard Buddies :: Water Trough

22769 – Hay Bale with blanket

O.M.E.N – Autumn Harvest Truck – Red

Botanical – Dirt Road Straight

HPMD* Garden Trees

*alirium* DwarfForest [OldGold]

City Lights

Sometimes a song just embodies a feeling, but combine it with just one picture and both come together to create something amazing. That’s really what I hoped to do here.

Palastic – City Lights

City lights, the urban landscape,
Stands before our eyes.
City lights, our lives are caught up,
In these neon lights

Oh, so very frightened the park will seem.
Yet, we do our best to cherish one another,
City lights, although I love you,
Sometimes hate with doubt.

Oh, so very frightened to be alone,
Yet we do our best to keep a civil distance
City lights, although I love you,
Sometimes hate with doubt.

I cannot solve the mystery
Of what is fake and what is real,
I cannot solve the mystery,
Of who we are and who we’ll be!

City lights, the urban landscape,

Stands before our eyes.
City lights, our lives are caught up,
In these neon lights

Oh, so very frightened the park will seem.
Yet, we do our best to cherish one another,
City lights, I’ll always hate you,
‘Till the end of time.

I’m pretending to,
Be surprised at you lying.
You pretend not to,
See the passion inside.

We are trying to,
Understand everything.
You’ve decided to,
Let the light of me in.

We are trying to,
Understand everything.
You’ve decided to,
Let the light of me in.

Outside:
BUENO-Mulder Loft Building-Gray (*new* @ Uber)
DRD – Spiritualists Shoppe – Storefront

scene designed in: BUENO-Mulder Loft Building-Regular (*new* @ Uber)
BUENO-Deco Bag

Fancy Decor: Fulton Collection (*new* @ Uber)
-Fancy Decor: Capsule Book Stack
-Fancy Decor: Fulton Chandelier
-Fancy Decor: Merlot Wine Glass
-Fancy Decor: Buble Lamp (solid)
-Fancy Decor: Clipped Art
-Fancy Decor: Fulton Armchair
-Fancy Decor: Fulton Coffee Table
-Fancy Decor: Fulton Rug
-Fancy Decor: Fulton Side Table
-Fancy Decor: Fulton Sofa (white cotton)
-Fancy Decor: Merlot Wine Glass

Fancy Decor: Dover Collection
-01 Fancy Decor: Designer Computer RARE
-02 Fancy Decor: Dover Desk Chair RARE
-03 Fancy Decor: Dover Desk
-05 Fancy Decor: Dover Shelf
-14 Fancy Decor: Books and Trinkets

uK – Chic Wall Clock (Metal)
uK- Canvas Hope Footstool
Ariskea & Unkindness [Solace] Candle 4
Ariskea & Unkindness [Solace] Romarin Plant
Ariskea[Hustler] Babybreath Pot
Ariskea[Hustler] Gold Flower
Ariskea[Hustler] Hustle Word

–tres blah– Eclectic Collection – Cat Face Pillow
-tres blah- Eclectic Collection – Hot Lips Phone (Pink)
-tres blah- Jolie – Golden Hand
-tres blah- Workspace – Tablet
-tres blah- Golden Cage – Coffee Run
-tres blah- Golden Cage – Tablet
-tres blah- Hodgepodge – Agenda RARE
-tres blah- Hodgepodge – Paper Pile
-tres blah- Pampered – Bouquet
-tres blah- Pampered – Treat Yourself
-tb- Bon Voyage – Vintage Camera
-tb- Bon Voyage – Books

dust bunny . areca palm plant
dust bunny . fiddle leaf tree
dust bunny . pilea peper plant
dust bunny . pink medinilla plant
dust bunny . potted bromeliad
dust bunny . potted cheese plant
dust bunny . potted palm
dust bunny . potted rubber tree
dust bunny . spotted begonia
dust bunny . sunday newspaper

JIAN ‘dorable Danes 3. Adult Wanderer RARE

[Black Bantam] Busy Westie On Fours Rez (*new* @ Kustom9)

(fd) Cat – 02 Sleeping Curled
(fd) Cat – 03 Sitting Lazy
(fd) Cat – 11 Sitting

Peaches ‘N Cream – ‘Emotional Baggage’ Handbag Clutter (*new* @ Epiphany)

!gO! Be mine – Liv & Lou RARE (*new* @ Shiny Shabby)

NOMAD // Sepia Peonies 01
NOMAD // Hookah // Fuschia

{Petite Maison} Work Pretty Royal Pencils: Turquoise

:HAIKEI: End of the day Gahca {3}

Sway’s Piggy Bank [Oink] white – C

=Zenith=Little Groot touch/dance only ( REZ)

The Loft – Lotus Holder
The Loft – Yoga Tray

DYNASTY – Antique Abacus – Dark
RARE. DYNASTY – Calligraphy Corner – Backdrop

{-MK-} My bottle_Close cat(wear/2Li)

*HEXtraordinary* Flying Monkey Incense Burner – Silver

Second Spaces – Cluttered House – charging station

[Bad Unicorn x Birch] Mary Janes ‘Ashtray’
[Bad Unicorn x Birch] Mary Janes ‘Noel’s Cookies’

.10 [ kunst ] – Magazines

Granola. Waverly’s Incense.

Apt B // Raw Materials Gacha – Plate Sculpture

tarte. flask (mustache) RARE

Pewpew! Balloon Hotdog – Black (Decor) (*new* @ Uber)

Apple Fall Plan Chest

Gravity

Yes, its another music post, because its easier for me to express myself this way sometimes. I get too real, too raw, too emotional for my own comfort sometimes.

A Perfect Circle – Gravity

Lost again
Broken and weary
Unable to find my way
Tail in hand
Dizzy and clearly unable to
Just let this go

I am surrendering to the gravity and the unknown
Catch me, heal me, lift me back up to the sun
I choose to live

I fell again
Like a baby unable to stand on my own
Tail in hand
Dizzy and clearly unable to just let this go

High and surrendering to the gravity and the unknown
Catch me, heal me, lift me back up to the sun
I choose to live, I choose to live, I choose to live
Catch me, heal me, lift me back up to the sun
Help me survive the bottom

Calm these hands before they
Snare another pill and
Drive another nail down another needy hole
Please release me

I am surrendering to the gravity and the unknown
Catch me, heal me, lift me back up to the sun
I choose to live,
I choose to live

wearing:
horns: DOUX – Demon hairstyle
hair: DOUX – Astra hairstyle
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: Glam Affair –  Catwa Applier – Clara – America 02
UC_Glory_gloves (*new* @ Uber)
UC_Glory_top (*new* @ Uber)
UC_Mimi_panties
UC_Mimi_boots

pose by Bauhaus Movement
MINIMAL – Illuminate Backdrop #7 (*new* @ Epiphany)

Sleeping Beauty

Alright, so do we even want to get into the whole evil step mother thing again? What’s with these fairy tale dads marrying these psychotic women, anyway. Let’s face it. These days, this girl hooked up with some asshole from the internet, got roofied and stashed in a room. Men came by, paid the abductor to have sex with the sleeping beauty.  However, as much as I like to sleep. I’d be down with sleeping until my perfect man came along waking me up with a kiss. Then again, do I really want to wake up to some stranger kissing me? Can you just imagine the morning breathe on someone that’s been asleep that long? Exactly how long was she sleeping? Cuz I’m thinking she’d require some feeding tubes, diapers, etc. This does not paint a pretty picture.
Supposedly, she pricks her finger on a needle, right? C’mon, you know that bitch OD’d on heroin. Her prince charming was probably another junkie trying to find her kit, see if she had any drugs on her that he could steal. She wakes up, high as hell, in her haze, she decides he’s cute….its fate. These morons fall in love and live happily high on heroin until they OD at 28. You know these fairy tale characters all die young, right? Cuz happily ever after is only going to last a few years. That’s my version of the story and I’m sticking to it. *laughs*

wearing:
hair:  DOUX – Britney hairstyle
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: Glam Affair –  Catwa Applier – Clara – America 02
[Atomic] Kitten Collar
Moon Elixir – Rich Girl – Coat – Snow
Vinyl – Moko Club Dress Pak – White
[Gos ] Rihanna Perforated Boots (*new* @ Uber)

pose:  FOXCITY. Milk Bath VOL2 Bento Pose Set

scene:
anxiety  %lunacy
:CP: Vetur Chaise

Sex Toy Story

So, I’m sure most everybody is familiar with the Toy Story movies. As most major movies have a porn version, or so I’ve heard. I can’t help but wonder what the Sex Toy Story would be like. Naturally, the owner of the toys would be an adult woman, because this would be much more fun. Now, would the training butt plugs get jealous of the new jeweled one? Would they all team up against the rechargeable vibrating one? Would a new dildo show up convinced that he’s real, because he has balls and is more flesh like? Would the silver bullets have races to see who has the fastest speed? The best of them would save the day by delivering the best orgasm, of course. Well, that’s how I imagine it would be, but let’s hope my toys don’t come to life when I’m not around or my dog and cat will destroy them without a doubt. *laughs*

wearing:
hair:  RAMA.SALON – Amber Hair (*new* @  Shiny Shabby)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: Glam Affair –  Catwa Applier – Clara – America 02
erratic / neva – top / black plaid
.::Dead Dollz::. Violet Jeans Pearls FLF
{Livalle} Greeble -Cyber Platform Wedges- Noir

pose: oOo Studio: Palais set

scene:
MINIMAL – Illuminate Backdrop #6 (*new* @ Epiphany)
[Kres] Sinful Signs – Sex Kitten RARE
7 – Dancer Neon
floorplan. neon why aren’t we having sex yet?

 

Checking Out

Sometimes I really surprise myself at how stupid I can be. (Stop growling, Troy!) Regardless of all my experiences, I can still be so ridiculously naive, that it takes a close friend to point out something that should be blatantly obvious to me. Okay, short story, even shorter, I let someone I had just met disrespect me and essentially assault me. Yet, somehow, my shock exceeded all logic.
Not so long ago, I would have read that person like a book. I would’ve come so unglued on his ass that there would be no question about how I felt about it all. My reaction would have been instantaneous and rightfully so. Then I would have blasted his ass on Facebook and warned every girl I know!
It’s as if my common sense has begun to decay, like this shanty town in the photo. I’m starting to feel like a spectator of my own life. Rarely playing an active role in what happens to me. The last month and a half have been absolutely insane. My heart got ripped out of my chest and shoved through a meat grinder. I had two separate leaks happening in my RL home at the same time. All of this has led me to make a series of bad decisions one after another.  I am NOT a doormat. I need to remember this, because even two years ago I stood up for myself and demanded more respect. This cannot continue. As appealing as it sounds, I can’t just check out. Mine is a life worth living and that means treating myself as good, if not better, than I want to be treated by others.
I realize I’m rambling and this probably makes little to no sense to anyone really.  Yet, there is it…a raw look at my stupidity, my emotions, and my thoughts. With that said, I’m going to sleep…I wish you all the sweetest of dreams when you next go. ♥

Everything you see here is from unKindness
*except the rocks which are: :Fanatik Architecture: CLIFF COVERS Beach

Below is a list of everything by order of the sets they belong to:
uk – Shanty Church House Gacha – (*new* @ Gacha Guardians)
-uK – Shanty Church House Pray Billboard GoG
-uK – Shanty Church House Building RARE
-uK – Shanty Church House Hymn Board

uK -In the Bayou Gacha
-uK- In the Bayou Swamp Shack RARE

uk – End Times Photo Prop I&II – (*new* @ ManCave)
uK – End Times Billboard Photo Prop
uK – End Times II Billboard Photo Prop

uk – Shanty Repair Shop Gacha
-uK-SRS Ice Freezer
-uK-SRS Barrel Mess 1
-uK-SRS Shanty Repair Shop RARE
uK-SRS Always Open RARE
uK-SRS Barrel Mess 2

uK -In the Bayou Gacha
-uK- In the Bayou Junk Pile1
-uK- In the Bayou Common Shack
-uK- In the Bayou Junk Pile 3
uK- In the Bayou Junk Pile 2

Touch Them

Kim Addonizio is my absolute favorite modern day poet. She’s got the most beautiful soul and her poetry comes from a very raw place. I was fortunate enough to meet her in Portland, OR many years ago. If you like poetry, even if you don’t, I really suggest you look into her work.  So, I’m sharing this one below and I hope you will find some more of her work to enjoy on your own.

First Poem for You
by Kim Addonizio

I like to touch your tattoos in complete
darkness, when I can’t see them. I’m sure of
where they are, know by heart the neat
lines of lightning pulsing just above
your nipple, can find, as if by instinct, the blue
swirls of water on your shoulder where a serpent
twists, facing a dragon. When I pull you

to me, taking you until we’re spent
and quiet on the sheets, I love to kiss
the pictures in your skin. They’ll last until
you’re seared to ashes: whatever persists
or turns to pain between us, they will still
be there. Such permanence is terrifying.
So I touch them in the dark; but touch them, trying.

Sady is wearing:
hair:  #taketomiWEST – Fabiana – Fatpack (***Club Taketomi Exclusive)
head: CATWA HEAD Lona
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: Glam Affair – Imani Applier ( Catwa ) Jamaica
*AvaWay* GEORGIA Armlets
*AvaWay* CARRIE Necklaces
Scandalize. TaisDress.  (*new* @ Tres Chic)
Scandalize. Tais. FATPACK (*new* @ Tres Chic)

pose: FOXCITY. Fixated Bento Pose Set
FOXCITY. Photo Booth – Limitless (*new* @ Limit8)

 

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