Prediction

I’m not sure who put it in my head, but somewhere along this journey of life someone shared a New Year’s superstition. Supposedly whatever you are doing/feeling when the clock strikes Midnight, is what you’ll do or feel the most throughout the next year. Like most superstitions, I don’t put a lot of weight in them. However, they can be fun. Last year, I think I was either in bed or anxiously waiting for the clock so I could go to bed. So, I was tired at midnight and wouldn’t you believe I’ve been very tired for the most of 2017. I plan on being plenty drunk tonight on Ciroc Berry with Cranberry RedBull. I call it a DoorJammer, because I tend to get very familiar with the door jams. *giggles* So, I can hardly wait to see what midnight will predict for me. I’d love to hear what it predicts for you, so please come back and tell me all about it. Until then, Happy New Year….see you in 2018♥

wearing:
hair: .Entwined. Becky
head: CATWA HEAD Lilly
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: DeeTaleZ  “Merrylu” Nordic
[MANDALA]KAHUKUIHUKU Necklace (*new* @ Uber)
{le fil casse} Maylee Collection Dress RARE (*new* @ LootBox)
erratic / eva – knee socks plain
JIAN Love Pugs 5. Sleepy Family

pose: Foxcity Sits Vol2

Opinions

Once upon a time a long time ago, people could have differing opinions without the whole world getting all up in their face with bullying remarks. Those days are over. Thanks to social media and people that think its okay to be a bullying asshole due to the anonymity of the internet, the world has changed. Free speech is just a concept now. Its not free, it will likely come at a cost. Either you censor yourself, keep quiet, or you’re going to get it. You can no longer state your unpopular opinion in a public forum. Someone, somewhere is watching and listening. Ever notice how you say out loud to yourself that you need to buy dog food and the next thing you know you’re seeing ads for dog food? Remember that time you were looking at cars online, because you were dreaming about the day you might could afford a new one? Though it might be a year or two, but now you’re seeing ads for new cars on almost every webpage you visit? That’s no coincidence, that’s big brother….that’s google and the internet Gods. Playing CandyCrush on the toilet? (I did a blog about that once.) Well, someone could very well be watching….its not that hard to hack a phone these days. Google it, you’ll find out how to do it yourself. I’d like to say this story has a happily ever after, but it doesn’t. All you can do is stop caring what the world thinks or stay on your toes. It all depends on what you have riding on this experience we call life.

wearing:
hair: Tableau Vivant \\ Gia hair (*new* @ Kustom9)
head: CATWA HEAD Lilly
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: DeeTaleZ  “Merrylu” Nordic
UC_Destiny_top (*new* @ District20)

pose: Foxcity Surface Set
MI Graffiti Backdrop Natural Limited

Cold Weather

I woke up with a tremendous headache and now I’ve got to step out into the tundra to run errands. Ok, yes, I’m exaggerating about the tundra, but its super cold outside. The temperatures are extremely low for this time of year in my area and I don’t like it. I hate the cold. It causes me too much physical pain. I hate the heat, too, but it doesn’t hurt nearly as much as the cold. The only upside to the cold weather is that I’m able to break out all of my beautiful sweaters, even though Mother Nature seems to have skipped right over fall and my cardigans are feeling quite neglected.

Luckily, no matter what the weather is in RL, I can dress for any weather in SL, even sweaters like this new mainstore release from Lybra. Available in her usual array of colors, this is a must have. You can dress it up or down, it can be soft and feminine or dark and badass. It’s all in the accessories. Luckily for me, the earrings offered in a set with a matching, rigged necklace from Cynful as a group gift, work perfectly with all the colors. So weather be damned, Sady is going to look and feel great!

wearing:
hair: tram G1204 hair  (*new* @ Uber)
head: CATWA HEAD Lilly
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: DeeTaleZ  “Merrylu” Nordic
[Cynful] Concrete Love Earrings (Group Gift)
LYBRA . MAYA  (*new* @ Mainstore)

pose: Ana Poses – Berlin set

Matching Shoes

The shoes have to match! And if you’re not wearing anything, lay back in a sunset and let your shoes match your nipples. What? It’s a thing….ask Tyche, she matches her panties to her nipples…if she’s wearing any. *grins* If you’re a girl, go buy the shoes. If you’re a straight man….you’re welcome? *giggles* Yeah, that’s all I’ve got for this one.

wearing:
hair: .LeLutka.Dakota hair.
head: CATWA HEAD Lilly
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: DeeTaleZ  “Merrylu” Mixedtype
_CandyDoll_ Luiza Heels (*new* @ N21)

pose: Foxcity Sits Vol3 Set
Di’Cor Carson Leather Chair

Lost in Memories

Sometimes I wake up and forget my world has changed. I forget that I sleep alone while he sleeps in the other room. I have to remind myself not to reach for him, that I curl up to pillows and blankets now. It’s been two years, but I still miss the struggle of not keeping him awake with my restless body. I no longer have to be quiet or careful when getting up in the middle of the night to pee. You’d think I’d be used to it by now, but no.
I drag my house out of bed and pull myself together. I find distractions to get me through another day. I really thought we were would last forever. I believed he was the one that would never leave. I have yet to let go of the hope that this is just a nightmare. That I’ll wake from this dream to find him next to me again. I don’t really want to let him go.
I try to find his faults. I recite all the things he does that annoy me and I know I will miss them when he’s gone. From time to time, I remind him that I love him…that I’m willing to fight. He reminds me that he has given up and my heart breaks a little more each time. Our vows meant everything to me and nothing to him. I’m left alone to get lost in memories.

 

wearing:
hair: taketomi – Honami
head: CATWA HEAD Lilly
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: DeeTaleZ  “Merrylu” Mixedtype
EF: Papillon Necklace
BUENO-Jas Sweater Dress (*new* @ Uber)

pose: Foxcity Fixated Set
MINIMAL – Sevilla Backdrop //1// (*new* @ TMD)

I Do Not Understand…

So, I’m a profile perver, lots of us are…sometimes someone’s profile will even prompt me to speak to them. It could be something funny or inspiring. I love reading about how long a couple has been together or how close someone is to their friends. Sometimes, I find bits of conversations that are clearly a private joke, other times…private or not, it’s just plain funny. This tells me this person has a heart and a sense of humor. I love when they provide youtube links, because music can tell you a lot about someone. I love links to flickr and blogs. Personally, I love the funny profiles. Occasionally, I read opinions that are really quite interesting or that I might disagree with, but respect all the same. What I do not understand are the profiles filled with ignorance, hate, and self degradation.

A few examples:
1. About: “Go the fuck away.”  (Why even bother writing something? Leave it blank, I’ll go away anyway. RUDE!)
2. I’m honest which makes me come off as a bitch.  (Uhm, last I checked you could be an honest person without being rude and without advertising it. To be fair, if you have to advertise that you’re honest, I’m going to assume you’re not.)
3. If I IM you then be thankful, your avi is decent to look at (Yet, yours isn’t! Your profile is filled with nothing but sex groups, picks, and quotes. Gee, Mister, you sound kinda like a rapist. Was I asking for you to IM me by investing in my avatar?)
4. I’m here for my entertainment, not yours. It’s all about me. Single. (Gee, I wonder why you’re single…hmmm.)
5. Links to wishlists. (Does this really work? Do people just look at your profile and buy you things just because you asked? What are you offering in return?)
6. Long lists of likes and dislikes. (Seems to me, giving a list of dislikes is like giving away free ammo. And wouldn’t it be better for someone to get to know you, rather read a list of your likes and dislikes? Kinda reads like some sort of desperate ad on a dating app.)

I dunno, I just think its strange the way people advertise themselves. Although, I suppose some might think mine is strange, too. Mine reads like a resume and a set of love letters to my friends. *laughs* I suppose no one can really win, because if you’re too nice you sound fake. If you’re rude, you’re a bitch. If its blank, you’re an alt.

wearing:
hair: tram G0511 hair
head: CATWA HEAD Lilly
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: DeeTaleZ  “Merrylu” Mixedtype
EF: Tidings Bento Rings
Scandalize. Britney (*new* @ N21)

pose: an lar [poses] The Alisha Series

Kindred Kitsunes

So, Jian has released these super cute little critters called Kitsunes. Now, to be clear, I know absolutely nothing about anime. I’ve seen a few shows, but for the most part, its just not my thing. I have nothing against it. I can definitely see the appeal, but for me…*shrugs*…I dunno…I just don’t understand it. However, I do get that its a genre of art and entertainment. So, if you’re into anime and love kitsunes, then head over to Loot Box for Jian’s Kindred Kitsune Gacha.
As for the top I’m wearing in the photo, that actually comes with a full skirt option. So, not only is it versatile, but its sexy either way. I can’t help but recommend the fatpack on this one, because of the endless options. Happy Shopping!♥

wearing:
hair: Tableau Vivant \\ Seelie and Unseelie hair – Nat I RARE
head: CATWA HEAD Lilly
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: DeeTaleZ  “Merrylu” Mixedtype
UC_Jackie_outfit (*new* @ Kustom9)
UC_Mimi_panties
JIAN Kindred Kitsunes Water Kitsune RARE (*new* @ LootBox)

pose: GingerFish Poses – Voltage Set – (*new* @ Posevent)

Empty

Olivia O’Brien- Empty

I can’t handle these pressures
All I can say is this stress hurts
Things are supposed to get better
I just need to put myself first
I’m always trying my hardest
Not to pick myself apart, this
Energy’s killing my vibes now
Sometimes I just wanna drown out
All of the thoughts in my mind
Too much going on at the same time
I wish it would stop and I’ve tried, but
Life just sucks then we all die

That’s just reality, yeah don’t lie to me
Yeah I’m fucked up but I don’t wanna be

I wonder if I’m good enough
But maybe I’ve just had too much
To drink, to smoke, to swallow
I’m drownin’ up my sorrows
There’s rules I’ll never follow
Pretend there’s no tomorrow
I wish there was no tomorrow

But I’m empty inside, yeah I’m empty inside
And I don’t wanna live but I’m too scared to die
Yeah I’m empty inside, I just don’t feel alive
And I don’t wanna live but I’m too scared to die

Wish I could erase my memories
So I could stop feeling so empty
I wish this shit wasn’t so tempting
But it’s hard to resist when there’s plenty
Of things I could do to fuck me up
I wanna let go but I’m feeling so stuck
So all I can do is fill up my cup
And sit here alone hoping no one disrupts

That’s just reality, yeah don’t lie to me
Yeah I’m fucked up but I don’t wanna be

I wonder if I’m good enough
But maybe I’ve just had too much
To drink, to smoke, to swallow
I’m drownin’ up my sorrows
There’s rules I’ll never follow
Pretend there’s no tomorrow
I wish there was no tomorrow

But I’m empty inside, yeah I’m empty inside
And I don’t wanna live but I’m too scared to die
Yeah I’m empty inside, I just don’t feel alive
And I don’t wanna live but I’m too scared to die

My body’s shakin’
My head is achin’
It feels like my heart is breakin’
My body’s shakin’
My head is achin’
I can’t fix this mess I’m makin’

But I’m empty inside, yeah I’m empty inside
And I don’t wanna live but I’m too scared to die
Yeah I’m empty inside, I just don’t feel alive
And I don’t wanna live but I’m too scared to die

wearing:
hair: *ARGRACE* KOHAKU
head: CATWA HEAD Lilly
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: DeeTaleZ  “Merrylu” Mixedtype
Sweet Thing. Neko Ears (Bento)
Sweet Thing. Fuwa Tail (Bento) 2.0
Astralia – Kitty chain ring
[Atomic] Kitten Collar
Scandalize. Priscila. (*new* @ ShinyShabby)
13. N-core VALKYRIE Fur Boots (Knee) WHITE (*new* @ Arcade)

pose: Foxcity Good Morning Set

Santa’s Helper

What if with women’s rights, we fought for our right to be Santa, too? Naturally, we’d do it much sexier than an old fat man in a beard, but would we stumble along the streets on Christmas eve drunk and pissing in corners, because this is the end of the gig until next year? Nah, we’d make much more money as Santa hookers or strippers…helpers, if you will. *grins*
Regardless of who Santa may or may not be, sober or not, I know my ass will be eating well and sauced up right. Hope your holiday weekend is a happy one♥

wearing:
hair: MINA – Carmen (*new* @ Uber)
head: CATWA HEAD Lilly
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
skin: DeeTaleZ  “Merrylu” Mixedtype
^^Swallow^^ Shiny Ears
**RE** Juliett Pasties Maitreya Red Common
::GB::Mini down jacket (Maitreya) Santa (*new* @ District20)
UC_Mimi_panties
UC_Mimi_boots

pose: Imitation. – Kendra v1 Set
Paparazzi – BACKDROP – Dead End Garage – jade (*new* @ Limit8)

Winter is Here

Winter is here and its time to find creative way to get warm. In RL, I have the perfect blanket. I actually love wrapping up in it completely naked, because its the softest furry blanket I’ve ever owned. It’s a king sized as well, so I can slip down into it and be completely immersed in its warmth. In SL, this isn’t really much of a concern, so we can LOOK hot rather than worrying about actual temperatures. There’s no shortage of fur coats and jackets this season, even fur bikinis like this one. And if the holidays have you feeling down, there’s plenty of retail therapy on grid. I promise it works!!

wearing:
hair: ::Bold & Beauty:: Hair :: Winx.
head: CATWA HEAD Lilly
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
–SU!– Oksana Eyeshadow
–SU!– Agatha Lipstick Nudes (*new* @ Shiny Shabby)
skin: DeeTaleZ  “Merrylu” Mixedtype
Kibitz – Bitch necklace
Schadenfreude Tear Dermal Piercing,la passionnee
–SU!– Bento Piercing Set 03 Nose Rings
Moon Elixir – Rich Girl – Coat – Snow (*new* @ District20)
Moon Elixir – Rich Girl – Bikini – Snow (*new* @ District20)

pose: Foxcity Fixated Set
FOXCITY. Lucid Dreaming – Black/Red