My Office

office

I have this weird thing to admit. *inhales* I have this thing about office furniture, equipment, and supplies. I always have. As long as I can remember. I remember at one point as a child turning my walk-in closet into an office. I had a lamp, desk, and chair in there. I would sit in my closet for hours writing and drawing. It was a safe place away from my parents and for some reason made me feel more important.
So, it should come as no surprise that whenever I’m setting up a new home in SL, I always want an office space. Somewhere I can sit while working on blogs, scrolling through Facebook, making my avatar simulate the real me…complete with an ashtray and generally a bit of a mess. Josh and I just moved…again…and as I was setting up the house, I knew immediately that I had a new office look. Until now, I have used the same set up for the past year or two, but now thanks the Fancy Decor’s Dover set at the Arcade…I have a brand new office and I absolutely love it. I know I will be spending a lot of time in there surrounded by beautiful things and with a gorgeous view of the beach right outside the window.

office

scene:
not so bad . NEW YORK gacha . art work . edition 3
12 Fancy Decor: Dover Rug (*new* @ Arcade)
i’m busy (cat) by May’s Soul
03 Fancy Decor: Dover Desk (*new* @ Arcade)
10 Fancy Decor: Dover Desk Lamp (*new* @ Arcade)
13 Fancy Decor: Cube Sculpture (*new* @ Arcade)
01 Fancy Decor: Designer Computer RARE (*new* @ Arcade)
[Bad Unicorn x Birch] Mary Janes ‘Ashtray’
{Petite Maison} Work Pretty Royal Pencils: Turquoise
07 Fancy Decor: Document Tray (*new* @ Arcade)
tres blah– Golden Cage – Tablet
[Bad Unicorn x Birch] Mary Janes ‘Noel’s Cookies’
02 Fancy Decor: Dover Desk Chair RARE (*new* @ Arcade)
dust bunny . areca palm plant
05 Fancy Decor: Dover Shelf (*new* @ Arcade)
*HEXtraordinary* Flying Monkey Incense Burner – Silver
**Flowers in Glass**
tres blah– Eclectic Collection – Charmed Books
09 Fancy Decor: Worlidge Box (white)
14 Fancy Decor: Ramses Bookends
Fancy Decor: Modern Books (silver)
18 Fancy Decor: Pyramid Obelisk (white)
07 Fancy Decor: Brass & Statuette
.10 [ kunst ] – Magazines
06 Fancy Decor: Dover Console (*new* @ Arcade)
Second Spaces – Cluttered House – charging station
16 Fancy Decor: Decorative Orb
08 Fancy Decor: Dover Lamp (*new* @ Arcade)
11 Fancy Decor: Art Group (*new* @ Arcade)
04 Fancy Decor: Dover Shelf with Cabinet (*new* @ Arcade)
14 Fancy Decor: Books and Trinkets (*new* @ Arcade)
Fancy Decor: Geode Bookends
09 Fancy Decor: Whale Tail Book Stack (*new* @ Arcade)
.09 [ kunst ] – Books
Fancy Decor: Potted Succulent
Fancy Decor: Sphere Art Sculpture (silver)
dust bunny . potted rubber tree
dust bunny . pink medinilla plant

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Mary, Mary, Quite Contrary

Mary Mary

When I was in the first grade, I wanted my name to be Mary so I changed it…without telling anyone. If I did tell them, they dismissed it as childish banter and went on about their day forgetting all about it. I had all my friends calling me Mary at school and at home, but adults didn’t seem to notice, because in my warped little mind I still answered to my birth name. Anyway, where was I….oh yeah, so six year old me changed her name to Mary, even wrote my name on my homework that way. No one said anything, so I kept on doing it thinking the deed was done. I was happy. My new name was Mary and when I grew up I would move to New York City and throw my hat into the air. (Some of you will get that.)
One day, my parents were called in for teacher-parent meeting. The teacher insisted I had not turned in any of my assignments for over two weeks. My parents defended me. They knew I had done my homework, because they watched me sit at the foot of their bed while we all watched TV every night. So, they call me in the room and ask me where my work was. Naturally, I told them I turned it in. The teacher was so confused. She pulled out a stack of papers and asked me to find my work. I went right to my page and pulled it out. As I handed it to the teacher, my parents smiled quite smugly if I remember correctly. Afterall, their child was brilliant and they were right. The teacher looked at the paper, pulled our her role book, scanned the list of names saw that the last names matched but not the first. When she showed it to my parents, they were confused. So, I had to explain to the stupid adults that I had changed my name. Imagine my surprise when they told me I couldn’t just change my name any ole time I wanted. Hmmpf.

Mary Mary

wearing:
hair: (r)M Hair, No.36’16
head: CATWA HEAD Tala
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
*AvaWay* Jasmine_Bracelet & Ring
L&B Swear Lisette Bralette (*new* @ Uber)
[Azuchi] Hamptons Shorts White
REIGN.- Espadrille Flats

pose by Foxcity

scene:
MINIMAL – Underground Background -1-
DRD Gardenhouse gardentools 2
07. Garbaggio // Repurposed Planter
06. Garbaggio // Plant Pot 06 RARE
Apple Fall Potting Shelf

Not So Enchanted

aziza

While this post is showcasing items from the latest round of Enchantment, my life atm is anything but enchanted. Its only Tuesday and this is a crazy week. Far too much adulting going on for me! Mom is out of town until Saturday. The husband is sick as a dog, but refuses to stay home from work and rest. I have a repair guy scheduled to come out and fix our oven on Thursday, so no baking this week. I know! No pizza!!! *cries* Oh but to top all of this off, my bathtub faucet has decided to quit on me so precious water is being wasted! So, yesterday morning after wrestling with our budget to see if we could afford it, I called the plumber. He came out last night, gave me an estimate that was better than I expected, and promised to come back today. That means I gotta put on a bra AND pants two days in a row!?!?! WTF!!! Oh and that’s just the RL stuff!
Its the end of the month, so I need to have my derriere in SL these last few days as I’m one of the Liaisons for FaMESHed. Those that have worked behind the scenes at an event know how stressful it can be during set up. I’m fortunate to work with an amazing team and Elvi, the FaMESHed Queen, is also a bit (holds her hands way far apart) OCD, so its quite organized. Aside from that, I’m making sure I met all my blogging requirements for the month, filing those reports and following up with bloggers that I manage.

Real quick I want to touch on the items in the photo, most of the stuff you see is at Enchantment, but I believe that’s shutting down on the 31st, so you’ll either want to hurry over or wait for stuff to find its way to the mainstore. However, this round was certainly one of my favorites so I had to show off some of the goodies and luckily for me, my dear friend, Tracy Redangel, just did a mainstore release of Groove Baby poses. This one just fit perfectly in my opinion. So, happy shopping, and send hair, because I’m pretty sure I’ll be bald by Saturday, if not the end of the day.

aziza

wearing:
hair: +Spellbound+ Shahrazad (*new* @ Enchantment)
head: CATWA HEAD Tala
body: Maitreya Mesh Body

*AvaWay* Jasmine_Bracelet & Ring (*new* @ Enchantment)
The Annex – Noor (*new* @ Enchantment)

pose: GingerFish Poses – Groove Baby set

scene:
*AF* Aziza Collection (*new* @ Enchantment)

Obstacles

obstacles

I’ve heard many times that the state of one’s bedroom is a direct reflection of their state of mind. *looks around in RL* Well, I’m screwed! My room is not so big, but I’ve managed to squeeze quite a lot of furniture and stuff in here. Its like an obstacle course. Well, that proves kinda true, doesn’t it? My mind is definitely an obstacle course. Its not my fault! There are squirrels EVERYWHERE!!! Not to mention shinies and I must have them all!!!
Screw the decor, that crystal skull looks perfectly normal next to the porcelain grasshopper! Yes, my TrueBlood DVD set does look awesome next to my Kim Addonizio books! Yes, I have cleaning products tucked into the wicker basket on the bottom shelf, ignore the dust, please.
Whether they’re obstacles in our rooms, on the road, or in our heads, we all encounter them sooner or later. Sometimes the way we maneuver them can alter our course so much that it changes our destination. The point remains, we will all face obstacles in our life, but by giving up we become our biggest obstacles yet.

A lot of people give up just before they’re about to make it. You know you never know when that next obstacle is going to be the last one. Chuck Norris

Yes I did quote Chuck Norris. *laughs*

obstacles

wearing:
hair: #Foxy – Babygirl Hair (*new* @N21)
head: CATWA HEAD Tala
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
CATWA Catya BubbleGum
Blueberry – Tinker Tops
–Blueberry – Tinker Set – Long Sleeve Top
–Blueberry – Tinker Set – Panties
Blueberry – Tinker Set
–Blueberry – Tinker Set – Short Legwarmers
–Blueberry – Tinker Set – Sneakers

Poses by Foxcity (shocking, I know)

scene:
BUENO-Bike -Pink
!gO! SteamTeddy +Giddy+
7 – Roller Rink Boot Sign
REIGN.- DERBY SKATES BAG- #13
Anachron – Derby Doll Rollerskates – Cherry Bomb
Silence. – Heart with Arrow
JIAN Hamster Habitat
JIAN Hamster Ball Wanderer
tres blah– Eclectic Collection – Hot Lips Phone (Pink)
:CP: Herman Planter White
tres blah– Pampered – Bouquet
dust bunny . bunny alarm clock . pink
BUENO– Laptop Blessed
+Half-Deer+ Fast Food Clutter – Soda Drink (Pink)
7 – David’s Dream
Fancy Decor: Capsule Lights (rose) (*new* @ Blush)
*katat0nik* (pink / RT) Old Boot
+Half-Deer+ Carefree Bikini Clutter – ALL – Floor Bra
*katat0nik* (pink / LT) Old Boot
BUENO-Big Sur Chair
+Half-Deer+ Carefree Bikini Clutter – ALL – Offside Thong
+Half-Deer+ Favorite Sweater Clutter – ALL – Draped Over
2PM. Bunny muff / pink

I Don’t Even Know

**clarification: I might have been medicated when I wrote this…so I don’t even know what I was thinking. LOL **

I know I share tidbits about my life here from time to time and that gives people a bit of insight into the person behind the avatar. I can’t help but believe it sounds a bit like a perverse fairy tale. After all, I did live in a castle when I was only 8 years old. Mind you, it was a farm when we lived there, but to an 8yr old…it was a castle more often than it was a farm. I’ve talked about being more of a nightowl and my struggles with insomnia. One interesting thing I never really mentioned is how fascinated I was with the devil as a child. I’m pretty sure I asked my mother more questions about him that I ever did about Christ.
I know most of my readers are fully aware of my dark side and that I’m a pretty sexual creature. I’m also very diverse, for every dark fantasy I have about knives and violence…well, there are moments of wanting to be that little pillow princess…Daddy’s girl…a tease…a dirty birdy as my friend Tracy likes to say. I knew most of this about myself long before I came to SL, but some of the more latter ideas were things I learned about myself in the past 10+yrs that I’ve spent on the grid.
In that time, I’m gained friends and I’ve gained my fair share of haters. People who would just as soon see me die as they’d see me live. I have no shame about the things I’ve done on the grid. I’m confident that I never purposely betrayed anyone and I’ve certainly not slept around or snuck about with someone else’s lover. Nor will I. It’s just not my style. I know there are lies being told about me out there. I’ve heard a few. I mostly find them amusing, the only time they bother me is when someone I care about thinks for even a moment that they might be true, because I like to believe they know me better than that.
It’s okay though, if people want to hate on me, lie about me…well, I’ll just nod and smile, because it shows they are thinking about me far more than I’m thinking about them. You see, when I write someone off…I do it completely. I block numbers on my phone, I block them inworld and on social media. It’s a wonderful way to keep them out of sight and out of mind. Which is why it always amuses me when people say they hate drama, but are constantly surrounded by it. It’s a simple process and writing people off is much like taking out the trash. That box there, it was once useful. It held a frozen pot pie, but I’ve long since eaten that pot pie, so both the bowl and the box it came it? Well, they’re no longer useful to me and there’s simply no point in holding on to garbage, is there? Sometimes people are like that, too. If they are not contributing to your light, then it’s time to get rid of them.

photoshop1

hair: TRUTH / Natalie (*new* @ Uber)
head: CATWA HEAD Tala
body: Maitreya Mesh Body
tattoo: *Moon Tattoo* Royal Feather

.:E.A.Studio:. Collar Oculus Cross

erratic / tess – romper / snake (*new* @ Uber)
_CD_ Maria White Heels – Maitreya Lara (*new* @ Uber)

Poses by Foxcity

anxiety %goodnight
uK – Vintage Truck Bar Pink
uK – Vintage Truck Mirror Pink

 

Before He Cheats

Ara and I had been planning on doing a photo together for a while and decided to share the gorgeous Chic Moda Suzie shorts from the last ever Bish Box. The photo sort of took on a life of its own and we ended going all Carrie Underwood on this car. So, there ya have it…another music post, but how could I resist? As usual, the YouTube link and lyrics are provided below. Enjoy!♥

Check out Ara’s blog >>here<< and her Flickr >>here<<

Carries Underwood’s Before He Cheats

Right now, he’s probably slow dancing
With a bleached-blond tramp
And she’s probably getting frisky
Right now, he’s probably buying
Her some fruity little drink
‘Cause she can’t shoot whiskey
Right now, he’s probably up behind her
With a pool-stick
Showing her how to shoot a combo
And he don’t know
I dug my key into the side
Of his pretty little souped-up four-wheel drive
Carved my name into his leather seats
I took a Louisville slugger to both head lights
I slashed a hole in all four tires
Maybe next time he’ll think before he cheats
Right now, she’s probably up singing some
White-trash version of Shania karaoke
Right now, she’s probably saying “I’m drunk”
And he’s a-thinking that he’s gonna get lucky
Right now, he’s probably
Dabbing on three dollars
Worth of that bathroom Polo
Oh, and he don’t know
That I dug my key into the side
Of his pretty little souped-up four-wheel drive
Carved my name into his leather seats
I took a Louisville slugger to both head lights
I slashed a hole in all four tires
Maybe next time he’ll think before he cheats
I might have saved a little trouble for the next girl
‘Cause the next time that he cheats
Oh, you know it won’t be on me!
No, not on me
‘Cause I dug my key into the side
Of his pretty little souped-up four-wheel drive
Carved my name into his leather seats
I took a Louisville slugger to both head lights
I slashed a hole in all four tires
Maybe next time he’ll think before he cheats
Oh, maybe next time he’ll think before he cheats
Oh, before he cheats
Oh

loser

Sady is wearing:
hair: little bones. Mara
head: CATWA HEAD Tala
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
tattoo 1: .Identity. Body Shop – Black Target
tattoo2: .Identity. Body Shop – Free Yourself

ChicModa // Suzie Shorts (*new* in August Bish Box)
PHEDORA / Kayla Platforms

Are is wearing:
hair: [RA] Fiona Hair
head: CATWA HEAD Catya
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
tattoo: .Identity. Body Shop – Wild Desire

ChicModa // Suzie Shorts (*new* in August Bish Box)
#EMPIRE – Speedwell – Maitreya

poses by Foxcity
**slightly edited with Animare and AnyPose**

scene:
taikou / 2AM backdrop with materials (light on)
[Con.] Wax On/Wax Off Convertible – Grey
BUENO-Butterfly Knife-Metal (Static)
*katat0nik* (purple) Spray Paint Set – Street Artist

Night Air

There’s just something magical about night air, particularly around 9pm. The dark sky, the shadows, the temperature is dropping, and a perfect night would have a nice cool breeze. I can only assume that my fondness for this time of night has to do with my memories of working at the mall in my very reckless 20s. The mall closed at 9pm sharp and unless you worked in one of the restaurants or major department stores, you were out of there no later than 9:15pm. There’s a sense of community among mall employees. We’ve all dealt with the screaming kids, the obnoxious tweens, the confused parents, and lost elderly. We all worked in retail. It’s only 9:15pm…the night is young…we would hang out in the parking lot, smoke cigarettes, and make plans on where to meet up in an hour or two. The party would soon start.
Even now all these years later, I still feel that sense of freedom if I just so happen to be outside around that time of night and just the right breeze blows over me. It’s funny, its not something I’d thought I’d remember or reminisce about someday.

take a break

wearing:
hair: MINA – Lily (*new* @ Uber)
head: CATWA HEAD Tala
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
tattoo: *Moon Tattoo* HENNA BIG

.random.Matter. – Taeyeon Earrings – Onyx (*new* @ N21)
[ kunst ] – Cigarette & holder
[FORMANAILS] NAILS – SKULL – BENTO – MAITREYA

Pretty Mess – Brittney Tank (*new* @ Uber)
BlueberryLuxe Box August – Skirt
Phedora ~ Crysta Boots ~ Maitreya Exclu. ~ 28 C v2 (*new* @ N21)

pose by LePoppycock
ninety – Garage cute Sweet places #12 (*new* @ Kustom9)
7 – Fresh Donuts

Do Not Be Afraid

“We can easily forgive a child who is afraid of the dark; the real tragedy of life is when men are afraid of the light.”
― Plato

Wow, it has been quite a while since I started post with a quote. Of course, one is never quite sure what they will find when they go to read my blog. Perhaps a song, a story, a poem, a rant, or like today… some thoughts with a hopefully a sprinkle of wisdom. This particular quote hits home, because I look back at my life and see exactly where fear of success derailed my life over and over again. Failure? Nah, I’m good at that. My entire childhood was an education on how I would never be good enough for more than pleasing a man. My mother taught me to surrender to a man’s will. She was old fashioned and believed in standing by even the most monstrous of men. She preferred the comfort of denial that lies created for her. Looking back, I can see so clearly that she’s never been a fan of truth. Even the simplest of stories are exaggerated for no other reason that her apparent allergy to honesty. Don’t get me wrong, I love her and I’d be lost without her, but that doesn’t make her perfect.  My father on the other hand, perversely manipulative and abusive in every sense of the word. Though he told me repeatedly I’d be a whore and a slut in high school, I rarely dated at all and did not lose my virginity until I was 19. Years later when I proudly told him that he was wrong and how I had waited, he smirked and said that was his plan all along. For he knew I was defiant by nature and would prove him wrong. I know now, that was simply more of his manipulation. I think fewer things brought him more joy than messing with my head.

You may be wondering, what all of this has to do with the quote. It’s simple really. If we are taught to fear everything…if we are sheltered from the truth…fear will easily control our life and limit us in ways we never imagined until it is genuinely too late. Living behind a closed door or in the shadows can be so comforting. We cannot get burned by a light we never see, but the truth is in the light. Until we release ourselves from the shadows of fears, both real and imagined, we can never be free. For it is the truth that sets us free and that truth does not hide in the dark, it is us that choose to stay in the dark.

I have often said that I would rather be hurt by the truth than comforted with a lie. The older I get the more I stand by that statement. Do not be afraid of the light just because you outgrew your fear of the dark.

behind the door

wearing:
hair:  [RA] Sherazade Hair (*new* @ Enchantment)
head: CATWA HEAD Tala
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara

{le fil casse}  Madison Dress (*new* @ Whimsical)
Phedora ~Zaidee Platforms (*new* @ Kustom9)

pose: FOXCITY. Cute But Psycho Bento Pose Set (*new* @ ON9)
**slightly edited with AnyPose
taikou / dusk backdrop with materials (*new* @ Kustom9)

Legends

Litte Joey loved going through his grandfathers old pictures. As he pulled out a particularly old one he’d never seen before, he looked up at his grandfather, “Who is this, PapPaw?”
The old man’s shaky hands reached for the photo and smiled, “Oh, these two are legends. Josh and Sady were responsible for saving the entire grid from impending doom.”
Little Joey’s eyes got big, “Oh PapPaw, tell me more! Tell me all about Sosh and Jady!”
The old man chuckled and put the photo back in the box closing it up, “Another time, Joey, time for you to get to bed.” He tucked his grandson in for the night, kissing his forehead, “Sweet dreams, Joey.”
As he climbed into bed with his wife, he kissed her sweetly, “Little Joey found the picture of us from the Apocalypse party at ThereAfter. Hope you’re ready to be a hero,” he chuckles, “Telling him quite a story tomorrow.”
Sady giggled and kissed Josh, “You and your stories, my love.”
“I learned it from watching you, okay?”
They both laughed and slipped off to sleep.

legends

Sady is wearing:
hair: no.match_ ~ NO_JEWEL (*new* @ Enchantment)
head: CATWA HEAD Tala
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
Izzie’s – Face & Body Dirt

.{PSYCHO:Byts}. Apocalyptic Goggles
Vinyl – Twenty Turtleneck (*new* @ ThereAfter)
Vinyl – Matchbox Bustier (*new* @ ThereAfter)
Vinyl – Crowe Leggings

Josh is wearing:
hair: Modulus – Anwar Hair (*new* @ Man Cave)
head: CATWA HEAD Daniel
body: Slink Physique Male Mesh Body
ears:  .:E.A.Studio:. Box Ears Falling Star
hands: -VA-M-VISTA BENTO PROHAND SLINK MALE
tattoo: { Speakeasy } Silent Flight Tattoo
piercing: 3.::GB:: Lip piercing (Catwa Daniel) Black (Studded)
Izzie’s – Face & Body Dirt

[The Forge] Reinforced Pyschotic, Chest Guard (*new* @ ThereAfter)
[VALE KOER] TECHWEAR PANTS BLACK

pose: Drunk Panda – ReadyForWar – Couple – (With Guns) (*new* @ ThereAfter)
***Sady’s pose edited with AnyPose

scene:
uK – Dystopia Ivy Sm (*new* @ ThereAfter)
[ isuka ] dead ahead backdrop (*new* @ ThereAfter)
floorplan. fire in a barrel / rusted (*new* @ ThereAfter)
DRD GG – Stadium Chair – Acid Rain

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