Seeing Red

A run in with a stupid plumber really has me seeing red! Here’s the story or you can skip to the credits. Your call, but I need to vent and its my blog. So, I’ll do what I want! *laughs*
So, the relief valve on our hot water heater has been leaking hot water. We’re catching it in a bucket, letting it cool and using the water for the plants. So that its not a total waste of water. We have American Home Shield which is an insurance that covers appliances…like water heaters. So, we call them, and they send out a plumber. We only have to pay $75 and he should fix it. Easy peasy, right? We already knew what needed to be done, but didn’t know how to replace that valve so that’s why we called.

This moronic plumber shows up and says that we need something called a relief tank that is $375 and not covered by AHS. I’m in the other room with the dog, listening to him try to sell this crap to my mom, right?

So, I step out of the bedroom and start asking questions. He walks out of the house while I’m talking to him. He sits on our patio for a few minutes on the phone, then steps back in and says, “I got another call. I gotta go!” So, I start asking him why he can’t fix this and why his solution makes no sense. This dude gives me the hand and walks out and leaves.
Well, Sady, how do you know he’s wrong, if you’re not a plumber?
I’ll tell you how. For one thing, we’ve lived her over 20 yrs and never needed any release tank before. Secondly, there’s no place for such a thing. Third, I’ve been in over a dozen other condos where we live and NO ONE has such a thing! There’s not freaking room in these condos for such a thing! Furthermore, when we suggested that he simply replace the valve like it suggested online, he said, “Well, I could, but if its leaks again we’ll be right back here in 3 months!” Uhm, wouldn’t that be OUR problem? He tried to tell us that we had to pay him anyway, but in his hasty escape, he forgot his check and never gave us a work order! Good, cuz he didn’t fix anything and shouldn’t get paid.
I’m convinced he’s been unclogging toilets with his mouth, cuz he’s full of shit!

wearing:

hair: MINA – Emma (*new* @ Hair Fair 2017)

head: CATWA HEAD Kathy
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara

tattoo:  [White~Widow] DarkTower  (*new* @ Uber)

piercing: 1.::GB::Lip piercing (Catwa Kathy) (Cross chain) RARE (*new* @ Shiny Shabby)

ChicModa // Aly Skirt

pose & background from FOXCITY.

You Don’t Know Me

“You don’t know me when I don’t know you
you don’t know me when I don’t know you”
Pleasantville Wentworth (You Don’t Know Me)

I have to admit when I first heard this song it was while watching Wentworth on Netflix and while I highly recommend the show, I have to admit that this song is just as mesmerizing. I had to find it. This proved easier said than done, because the apparently it is simply the theme song. At least that’s the only version I could find. It reminds me of how guarded I can be. How people only know what I want them to know about me and while I’m pretty much an open book, I have my secrets. Despite how well some know me, they will never really know me, just as I can never really know another.
I was going to write about being stoned and how great being high can feel, but the truth is that getting high for me is more than a recreation…its an escape. It allows me to escape pain and all the crap that clouds my truest self. When I smoke marijuana (or partake in edibles) I am lifted above the facades and masks that I put on to pretend I’m normal. Deep down I’m anything but normal and I have some pretty strange views of the world around me. There’s another line in the song that I really connect with that reminds me of time that I spent behind bars. That’s right, I’ve been to jail and almost went to prison. Perhaps I’ll tell my readers that story some day.

“one two three four never tell them what you saw
five six seven eight stay in line don’t be late
nine ten eleven twive now i know a place called hell”

wearing:
hair: *Besom~Sandy (*new* @ Uber)
head: CATWA HEAD Kathy
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
!Rebel Hope – Cheri Mesh Top
!Rebel Hope – Roxy Mesh Leggings

pose: FOXCITY. Bento Sits VOL1
scene: DRD CS – The Joint Coffee Shop

Sweet Dreams

Many years ago, seems more like a lifetime ago, I had a roommate that kept chocolates in her nightstand. At first I thought it was strange that she had chocolates at all, as she was very weight conscious to the point that her other friends and I would worry about her. However, she had quite a few nightly habits that I learned about over time. The chocolates were just one of them. You see, her thing with the chocolates was that she would eat one or two each night before bed. She said that was to insure she had sweet dreams. I did try this little trick and sometimes I can do it, but sadly, I’m much like my friend Tracy and I cannot stop with just one of two. I end up eating like five! Okay, Tracy would eat the whole bag, but this isn’t really about her. *laughs* Okay, its not really about anything, except me wishing all those that remember their dreams to have sweet ones, cuz I’m pretty sure I’ve cornered the market on weird ones and nightmares.

wearing: 
hair:  TRUTH Taren (*new* @ Uber)
head: CATWA HEAD Kathy
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
tattoo:  [White~Widow] DarkTower  (*new* @ Uber)
The Annex – Ava Vintage Teddy

pose: FOXCITY. Show Off Pose Set (*new* @ ON9)

scene:
:CP: NorthHaven Bed
:CP: NorthHaven Night Table
:CP: NorthHaven Peony Jar
:CP: NorthHaven Lamp

 

Wicked Dreams

So, I’ve been in bed sick with a stomach bug for the last couple of days. I tried sitting at my computer, but it just made me nauseous. The bed won out, I could lay there and binge on Netflix while I drifted in and out of some of the craziest dreams I’ve ever had. I can’t dream of normal things. No, I had to dream about mutant bugs and spiders…then mutant puppies and kittens…swarms of all invading my house. That’s just the two that stood out. It seems like a week since I sat down at my computer, although its not been a full 24hrs since I tried. I wrote about living off the grid and I feel like I’ve been out of this world thanks to some medication I took for my stomach that knocked me out.
I dreamed about Second Life mixed up with Real Life. I dreamed about my responsibilities here and I even tried to talk to a few people on FB messenger. God only knows what they must of thought of my nonsense talk and typos. I’m quite tired of my bed and the fog is starting to lift, I think. I don’t get put down by stomach bugs too often, so I’m hoping it won’t happen again for a very long time…in the meantime, I’ll surrender to sleep when it comes and brace myself for more wicked dreams.

wearing: 
hair: #Foxy – Grind Hair
head: CATWA HEAD Kathy
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
tattoo: -7P-Paradise Tattoo
Cynful Chilli Jersey – Earrings
Pseudo– Weeknd Hoodie Gray (*new* @ Kustom9)
Scandalize. SexyDreams. [top, panties, & socks] (*new* @ Kinky)

pose by Del May
background: BUENO-WhiteHall (*new* @ Kustom9)

On or Off the Grid?

When I put this scene out for the Make Believe post, I was fantasizing about how nice it might actually be to live off the grid, away from the world, technology, and people. I thought about where would be the ideal place in the world to live such a way as not to get too cold, too hot, too wet, too dry….and then I remembered I’m geographically challenged.
While writing this, I’m dealing with some sort of stomach bug. While rushing to the bathroom and unsure which end something is going to spew from, I’m finding great comfort in knowing the bathroom is less than six feet from my bed. Feeling like four day old road kill, I find that the comfort of my memory foam mattress and pillows combined with 800 thread count sheets and pillowy soft duvet are modern conveniences I’m not ready to give up just yet. I think I’ll leave living off the grid to The Land of Make Believe.

wearing: 
hair: [monso]  My Hair – Lena
head: CATWA HEAD Kathy
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara

LYBRA . Dina Top (*new* @ N21)
LYBRA . Dina Pants (*new* @ N21)
REIGN.- JUNE SNEAKERS (*new* @ N21)

pose: FOXCITY.  Bento Ground Sits VOL2 set
scene:
DRD – PA – Makeshift Refuge
JIAN Countryside Collies :: Adult Wanderer RARE
[we’re CLOSED] grass field dry

The Land of Make Believe

When I was a kid I loved playing make believe. I never had an invisible friend, because my friends were stuffed animals. They all had their own names and personalities. *gives you a look* Stop laughing! I’m totally serious! Skunky was my bestest friend in the world and I think I only put him to rest about five years ago, though he’d spent the better part of his life in a plastic bag in storage. Bless him, he held on as long as he could, but bandaids and lipstick (shut up) only took him so far. Missing most of his stuffing and the ability to cuddle at night, he took his place in storage with memories until I binge watched Hoarders. Anyway, my family used to go camping quite a lot when I was a child and I used to imagine living like that all the time, not just on weekend trips with the family.

My parents, believe it or not, were pretty lenient about how I decorated my room. As a teen my walls were covered with posters and nothing was ever said. When I was little though, my father would help me build forts in my room that resembled tents and I would keep it up for weeks at a time. Naturally when I discovered Second Life, I found my make believe heaven. I can live in an apocalyptic world or off the grid for as long as I want. Death Row Designs makes it even better by making beautiful creations with which I can bring my imagination to life. How freaking cool is that?

DRD PA Coveted Outhouse
DRD – post apocalyptic sewer home
DRD – PA – Makeshift Refuge
Skye Land Forms
[we’re CLOSED] tree 01A autumn
[we’re CLOSED] grass field dry

RBF

I’ve been dealing with RBF, Resting Bitch Face, all my life. I came by it genetically, that’s my excuse anyway. My mother always looked mad unless she was laughing or smiling, even then she had a tight lipped smile. She had dental issues that she was ashamed of. Honestly, I don’t think anyone would have noticed, because her laugh is adorable and her smile is radiant. But hey, we all have something we really hate about ourselves, right? My father was in the U. S. Army for 20 years, so again, very serious and stern face, unless smiling or laughing. Funny thing is I really wanted to have one of those pretty faces that could look at a camera all sultry like, but alas…I,, too, was cursed with RBF! No such luck! I quickly learned that if a camera came out, I had to show an expression or look pissed off. Mostly, I just avoid being in front of the camera in RL, just another thing I love about Second Life. I can do things here that I can never do in the real world. Like NOT having RBF if I don’t want to. *giggles* Then again, its easy enough to have one, too. *grins*

wearing: 
hair: #Foxy – Mai Hair (*new* @ N21)
head: CATWA HEAD Kathy
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
piercing: 1.::GB::Lip piercing (Catwa Kathy) (Cross chain) RARE (*new* @ Shiny Shabby)
.:E.A.Studio:. Era Bracialets (*new* @ Tres Chic)
PM – Fairy Bodysuit BLACK WHITE (*new* @ LootBox)

pose: GingerFish Poses  Red Light Queen 11 poses stand (*new* @ eBENTO)

The Hours Fade

“so the hours fade
something’s got to break
something’s got to change
so the hours fade
something’s got to break
something’s got to change”
The Kays Lavelle ~ The Hours

I haven’t been myself this week. As much as I try, I cannot shake this scrambled feeling. Its as if the reception in my brain is fuzzy. I’ve been emotional to say the least. Sometimes I’m slow to react to situations simply because I need time to process, but this week…I dunno, its like everything has been processing really slow. The ringing in my ears is louder than even and the pain that lives within my body has spiked. These things make it even harder for me to concentrate. Sometimes its all I can do to just sit still.
I’m sure the wonky weather in my area has played a major role in this, but something’s got to change…for I feel I’m going mad. This morning I didn’t even want to get out of bed, but as my coffee sat on my nightstand getting colder I forced myself to get up…come to the PC and write some of this down. I can’t even know if this will make sense to anyone else, but its where I’m at and I’ve found that more often than not…I’m not alone in my feelings. As the hours fade, I hope that this haze, too, will fade and I will get back to feeling more like myself.

wearing: 
hair: /Wasabi Pills/ Apple Mesh Hair
head: CATWA HEAD Kathy
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara

EarthStones Butterfly Necklace & Earrings – Whisper
Scandalize. Juliet. (*new* @ N21)
Blueberry – DWL Classic

pose: FOXCITY. Bento Ground Sits VOL1
location: Hazardous

Don’t Do It! Just Don’t!

I’ve written before about how much I love bikinis in Second Life and one of the reasons is because you wouldn’t catch me dead in one in Real Life! *laughs* I’ll hardly put on a swimsuit at all these days. The last time I went swimming in RL I was stoned and in a friend’s backyard. Why? Because I’m ashamed of my body. I hate it. I am overweight and I have a lot of scars. All it took was one summer at the pool for me to overhear some women laughing and going on about how my fat, pale ass shouldn’t be allowed at the pool. I stayed in the water just kinda hiding in a corner of the pool until they left. I suffered a horrible sunburn, but I didn’t want to hear their ugly remarks again when I got out and I wasn’t going to let them see me cry.
I realize I shouldn’t let people have such power over me, but let it happen to you and let’s see how well you handle it. Good for you if you can handle it better than I did. I envy those that are not bothered by such things. So, in SL I choose to look how I wish I did in RL. Yes, I’d love to be fit…a little thick, I don’t want to be model thin and I’ve got more than enough fat to deal with in RL. Sadly, the fact that we can look however we want in SL, yet still people want to shame each other for how they CHOOSE to look. No one in SL just happens to look that way. No one’s avi is suffering from an eating disorder. The way our avatars look is purely our choice.
I admit that I’ve seen some avatars and just shook my head. I don’t get it. I don’t understand why people choose to look a certain way and yes, perhaps a few comments in IMs with friends, but certainly never anything out loud and to their face. I think that is incomprehensible. Its bullying at its finest. Body shaming in either world is terrible. Its one thing to laugh among your friends at the girl whose butt looks like it at Tokyo or the guy whose eyes are so far apart he looks like an alien, but its entirely different to go up to them and accuse them of mental illness, being sick, or any other degrading remark that makes you feel that your choices are better than theirs. Its actually wrong for us to even make little remarks in IMs, but we are human and its going to happen. You can do it tactfully with your friends quietly or you can keep your mouth shut entirely, but to call someone out for the choices they make about their avatar’s appearance is flat out wrong. Its no different from any other type of hate speech. Its bullying. Period. I cannot stress that enough.
We come here to live a life we can’t live in the real world, at least most of us do. Luckily there are incredible designers to assist us in looking our best, as well. Unlike the real world, where often times the plus size department looks more like someone threw out Grandma’s curtain collection. So, when you find yourself thinking, “WTF?” as you see an avatar that bewilders you, please for the love of humanity, do not approach that person with hatred. If you’ve got nothing nice to say to them, say nothing. Do NOT bully or body shame one another in a virtual world. Don’t Do It! Just Don’t! Think how you’d feel if someone said such things to you or someone you love. Please be kind to one another. There is far too much hate in this world already.

wearing: 
hair:  Exile: Fake Magic
head: CATWA HEAD Kathy
skin: Glam Affair – Molly – Catwa Mesh Head Applier – America (*new* @ Arcade)
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
Cynful Heat Bikini (June Luxe Box)

pose: Le Poppycock *Stay Cool* First Dip (*new* @ TLC)
scene:
Trompe Loeil – Geonna Patio + Pool PG
Vagabond – Sandy’s Towel Tote
{what next} Palisades Drinks Tray

I Do What I Want

So, I had two other posts planned to go ahead of this one, but those damn blogger cunt friends of mine, Grace and Kess, both had similar ideas and outfits. Its not that surprising, really. As we’ve been known to show up at the same places wearing the same outfits, much like Kess and I did today. I refuse to retake my photos or not share the ones I took, because I work hard on what I do, just like they do. However, I am going to wait a few days and if people want to think me a copycat, well, that’s ok, but the three of us all know how we are and its certainly got us in giggles. I love them and sometimes I swear we share a brain! So, I told them I was posting this picture today and showcasing the newest sensation from ChicModa…luckily, Grace is going with the gray version, so make sure you check out her blog, too! As I was going to write about doing what I want anyway, I think its pretty clear that we all do what we want!

wearing: 
hair: [monso] My Hair – Kisa
head: CATWA HEAD Kathy
skin: Glam Affair – Molly – Catwa Mesh Head Applier – America (*new* @ Arcade)
body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara
tattoo: -7P-Paradise Tattoo
ChicModa // Eleanor Dress // BishBox June 2017
[CX] Soul Grips ( Black ) Female * Maitreya * (unpacked)
–SU!– Nylon Stockings /Ripped/ BLACK

pose: GingerFish Poses – Smoked set
background: MINIMAL – Underground Background -1