The Hours Fade

“so the hours fade
something’s got to break
something’s got to change
so the hours fade
something’s got to break
something’s got to change”
The Kays Lavelle ~ The Hours

I haven’t been myself this week. As much as I try, I cannot shake this scrambled feeling. Its as if the reception in my brain is fuzzy. I’ve been emotional to say the least. Sometimes I’m slow to react to situations simply because I need time to process, but this week…I dunno, its like everything has been processing really slow. The ringing in my ears is louder than even and the pain that lives within my body has spiked. These things make it even harder for me to concentrate. Sometimes its all I can do to just sit still.
I’m sure the wonky weather in my area has played a major role in this, but something’s got to change…for I feel I’m going mad. This morning I didn’t even want to get out of bed, but as my coffee sat on my nightstand getting colder I forced myself to get up…come to the PC and write some of this down. I can’t even know if this will make sense to anyone else, but its where I’m at and I’ve found that more often than not…I’m not alone in my feelings. As the hours fade, I hope that this haze, too, will fade and I will get back to feeling more like myself.

scandalize top

wearing: 
hair
/Wasabi Pills/ Apple Mesh Hair
headCATWA HEAD Kathy
bodyMaitreya Mesh Body – Lara

EarthStones Butterfly Necklace & Earrings – Whisper
Scandalize. Juliet. (*new* @ N21)
Blueberry – DWL Classic

pose: FOXCITY. Bento Ground Sits VOL1
location: Hazardous

Bound Box is coming!

Pale Girl Productions brings you Bound Box, a quarterly kinky subscription box featuring 12 designers, geared toward the BDSM/Kinky community. Our first box will be released on July 12, 2017 and subscriptions started on June 9th. To stay up to date with all teasers and information regarding Bound Box, you can join our inworld Bound Box Update Group.

Each bound box will showcase original mesh creations (as well as skins, makeup, poses, and tattoos) for women created for Maitreya bodies but with the possibility of other sizes.  Items as are box exclusive!

Featured Designers for the first round are listed below, click the store name for a slurl to their shops.
22789
Entwined
Essenz
!IT Girls – CATWA exclusive
Salt&Pepper
{ViSion} -S&F
Voluptas Virtualis
Luas
Moda
Mon Cheri
Mossu
oOo Studio

BOUND FINAL + JULY PARTICIPANTS

Fees for the box are as follows:
1) If purchased before July 12, 2017: L$1500
2) If purchased on July 12, 2017: L$2000 (24 hours only!)
3) If purchased between August 12, 2017 – January 9, 2018: L$3500 after which, the July box retires.

Subscriptions can be purchased at Bound Box kiosks which can be found at all participating designers’ stores, Bound Box Headquarters, Bound Box Marketplace and at Vintage Fair. Gifting options are available.

Let’s Get It Started!

“Everybody, everybody, let’s get into it
Get stupid
Get it started, get it started, get it started”
The Black Eyed Peas – Let’s Get It Started

Okay, I’m going to just jump right in and tell you all about the gorgeous stuff in these pictures! I’m so in love with the -DRD- Garden Party gacha set! I have the complete set and have tried to capture all of it in these pictures. However, my yard was not quite big enough for the light tent. *sighs* Everyone surely knows how amazing the DRD team is and their creations are always quite popular. I’m pretty sure I own half the store. This set is so incredible and detailed that it really makes me want to throw a party and I just might!

drd party2

Don’t mind the couple canoodling on the Bonfire Bench, this post is not about them (Josh and me) or what they’re wearing! This post is all about how this set has inspired me to create a beautiful garden party area right outside my house. I could take tons of pictures and not capture it all. So, I’ve done my best to give you three shots of the scene I managed to create right on the edge and partly over the water.
Something I haven’t even played with yet, is that some of these items have huds for changing the seasons, like the trees! You definitely want to go get your collection started, cuz this is a party waiting to happen. I even teased Josh and told him I was setting up for our reception. (Relax your knickers, its not happening!)

drd party

You’ll notice there’s a plain deck here without all the lights attached, well, let me explain how that was made possible without owning two of the same rares and disassembling one of them. Death Row Designs is one of the only stores I know of that offers a copy/mod exchange on unopened gacha items. So, you’ve played the gacha until you got all the items you wanted, right? Well, unless you plan on giving them away some day or selling them, you should definitely take the unopened boxes to the store, go the gacha exchange area…find the machine that matches your items and rez the box on the little platform they have there. Instantly, you will receive a copy/mod, no transfer version of the gacha item. Now you don’t have to worry about losing those precious DRD items and you can do modifications to create extra deck space like I did! Isn’t that amazing? Yes, I know…incredible!

DRD Garden

So, where can you get all these amazing items? At Death Row Designs, of course! No special events to wade through, just go to the store and wander about. I have no doubt you’ll find more than one item you’re just dying to have!

Here’s a list of all the items, with a brief bit of insight, along with the slurl to DRD!

-DRD- Garden Party Gacha – SPECIAL you get this one when you play the machine a gazillion times like I did…actually its  only 25 (this comes with 6 different fence pieces, only three are pictured)
1 -DRD- Garden Party – Stage and Dance Floor – RARE (comes with instruments & everthing)
2 -DRD- Garden Party – Big Trees – RARE (two trees, one decorated, one plain, with a HUD)
3 -DRD- Garden Party – Light Tent (not pictured)
4 -DRD- Garden Party – Ground Dining Set (the pillows are not connected, so you can move them about)
5 -DRD- Garden Party – Beer Bar
6 -DRD- Garden Party – Juice Bar Station (comes with a little tree & a HUD for the tree, as well as the Juice Bar itself!)
7 -DRD- Garden Party – Solo Stage
8 -DRD- Garden Party – Drink Barrow
9 -DRD- Garden Party – Light Poles (One & Two versions)
10 -DRD- Garden Party – Nacho Bar
11 -DRD- Garden Party – Which Way Sign
12 -DRD- Garden Party – Little Tree (comes with a season HUD)
13 -DRD- Garden Party – Wallflower Seating (comes with two chairs, a side table, and two plants)
14 -DRD- Garden Party – Wallflower Seating – Two (comes with two chairs, a side table, and two plants)
15 -DRD- Garden Party – Wallflower Seating – Three (comes with two chairs, a side table, and a plant)
16 -DRD- Garden Party – Bonfire Bench
17 -DRD- Garden Party – Bonfire Chairs (five chairs)
18 -DRD- Garden Party – Bonfire and Treats (fire pit and a lil table of roasting stuffs)
19 -DRD- Garden Party – Barrel Table
20 -DRD- Garden Party – Desert Table
21 -DRD- Garden Party – Memory Ladder

Still reading? Get your butts to DRD already!

Don’t Do It! Just Don’t!

I’ve written before about how much I love bikinis in Second Life and one of the reasons is because you wouldn’t catch me dead in one in Real Life! *laughs* I’ll hardly put on a swimsuit at all these days. The last time I went swimming in RL I was stoned and in a friend’s backyard. Why? Because I’m ashamed of my body. I hate it. I am overweight and I have a lot of scars. All it took was one summer at the pool for me to overhear some women laughing and going on about how my fat, pale ass shouldn’t be allowed at the pool. I stayed in the water just kinda hiding in a corner of the pool until they left. I suffered a horrible sunburn, but I didn’t want to hear their ugly remarks again when I got out and I wasn’t going to let them see me cry.
I realize I shouldn’t let people have such power over me, but let it happen to you and let’s see how well you handle it. Good for you if you can handle it better than I did. I envy those that are not bothered by such things. So, in SL I choose to look how I wish I did in RL. Yes, I’d love to be fit…a little thick, I don’t want to be model thin and I’ve got more than enough fat to deal with in RL. Sadly, the fact that we can look however we want in SL, yet still people want to shame each other for how they CHOOSE to look. No one in SL just happens to look that way. No one’s avi is suffering from an eating disorder. The way our avatars look is purely our choice.
I admit that I’ve seen some avatars and just shook my head. I don’t get it. I don’t understand why people choose to look a certain way and yes, perhaps a few comments in IMs with friends, but certainly never anything out loud and to their face. I think that is incomprehensible. Its bullying at its finest. Body shaming in either world is terrible. Its one thing to laugh among your friends at the girl whose butt looks like it at Tokyo or the guy whose eyes are so far apart he looks like an alien, but its entirely different to go up to them and accuse them of mental illness, being sick, or any other degrading remark that makes you feel that your choices are better than theirs. Its actually wrong for us to even make little remarks in IMs, but we are human and its going to happen. You can do it tactfully with your friends quietly or you can keep your mouth shut entirely, but to call someone out for the choices they make about their avatar’s appearance is flat out wrong. Its no different from any other type of hate speech. Its bullying. Period. I cannot stress that enough.
We come here to live a life we can’t live in the real world, at least most of us do. Luckily there are incredible designers to assist us in looking our best, as well. Unlike the real world, where often times the plus size department looks more like someone threw out Grandma’s curtain collection. So, when you find yourself thinking, “WTF?” as you see an avatar that bewilders you, please for the love of humanity, do not approach that person with hatred. If you’ve got nothing nice to say to them, say nothing. Do NOT bully or body shame one another in a virtual world. Don’t Do It! Just Don’t! Think how you’d feel if someone said such things to you or someone you love. Please be kind to one another. There is far too much hate in this world already.

cynful bikini

wearing: 
hair
:  Exile: Fake Magic
headCATWA HEAD Kathy
skin: Glam Affair – Molly – Catwa Mesh Head Applier – America (*new* @ Arcade)
bodyMaitreya Mesh Body – Lara
Cynful Heat Bikini (June Luxe Box)

pose: Le Poppycock *Stay Cool* First Dip (*new* @ TLC)
scene:
Trompe Loeil – Geonna Patio + Pool PG
Vagabond – Sandy’s Towel Tote
{what next} Palisades Drinks Tray

I Do What I Want

So, I had two other posts planned to go ahead of this one, but those damn blogger cunt friends of mine, Grace and Kess, both had similar ideas and outfits. Its not that surprising, really. As we’ve been known to show up at the same places wearing the same outfits, much like Kess and I did today. I refuse to retake my photos or not share the ones I took, because I work hard on what I do, just like they do. However, I am going to wait a few days and if people want to think me a copycat, well, that’s ok, but the three of us all know how we are and its certainly got us in giggles. I love them and sometimes I swear we share a brain! So, I told them I was posting this picture today and showcasing the newest sensation from ChicModa…luckily, Grace is going with the gray version, so make sure you check out her blog, too! As I was going to write about doing what I want anyway, I think its pretty clear that we all do what we want!

do what I want

wearing: 
hair
[monso] My Hair – Kisa
headCATWA HEAD Kathy
skin: Glam Affair – Molly – Catwa Mesh Head Applier – America (*new* @ Arcade)
bodyMaitreya Mesh Body – Lara
tattoo-7P-Paradise Tattoo
ChicModa // Eleanor Dress // BishBox June 2017
[CX] Soul Grips ( Black ) Female * Maitreya * (unpacked)
SU!– Nylon Stockings /Ripped/ BLACK

pose: GingerFish Poses – Smoked set
background: MINIMAL – Underground Background -1

She Is Real

Today, I’m just sharing a poem I wrote about a little of a year ago. I hope you like it.

She Is Real

She steals my breath
Speeds my heart
Keeps me awake
Just by saying
Hello Baby

She pushes me harder
Lifts me up
Shoves me into life
Just by sharing
Her time

She blinds me
While helping me see
She weakens me
By giving me strength
She calms me
With a surge of life

She

She sends me

She sends me to a place so deep
Even she
Has no idea
Where it takes me

She moves me to the edge of my seat
Shielding me from ridiculous fears
By illuminating my bravery
With her courage
And her strength

She

She steals my words
While forcing my pen to paper
In her honor

She occupies my thoughts
She touches me
She touches my soul
She touches my heart

She

She is real

~Sady

making an entrance

wearing: 
hair
:  RAMA.SALON – Alexandra Hair (*new* @ FaMESHed)
headCATWA HEAD Kathy
skin: Glam Affair – Polly – Catwa Mesh Head Applier – Jamaica (*new* @ Arcade)
bodyMaitreya Mesh Body – Lara
Cae :: Madison :: Collection (necklace & earrings)
BUENO Clutch – Red
Scandalize. Mina (*new* @ FaMESHed)
#EMPIRE – Snapdragon (June Luxe Box)

pose by FOXCITY Formal VOL1 Bento Set
background: Pseudo– Black Lounge Scene

Family Ties

“The bond that links your true family is not one of blood, but of respect and joy in each other’s life.” ~Richard Bach
I haven’t started a blog with a quote that wasn’t a song lyric in a while, but this topic has been on my mind for some time now. Father’s Day occurred only two days ago and as I scrolled through Facebook I saw message after message about people’s fathers. Some were well wishes, some shared memories of fathers past, and then there were people like me that avoided the subject altogether. I can’t know why others avoided the subject, but I know why I did. I even had to tell Skype (yes, outloud) to stfu. Skype had a message that said, “Fathers are people, too!” My response was, “Not all of them! Some of them are monsters!” I don’t think its a secret that I’m another girl on the grid with daddy issues. Given how common abusive fathers seem to be, we’re merely statistics.
However, I’m not going to waste this post or your time bitching about my father. Instead, I want to embrace the blessing of family bonding with people I’ve never even met face to face. Like many other people in Second Life, I am part of a family. I don’t always feel like part of the family, as most of them really don’t talk to me much and to be fair, its not like I go out of my way to hunt them down and pursue conversations either. Yet, I do feel like a few of them would truly be there if I needed them.
I think the truest “family” I have on the grid would probably be the cunts. Now, hold on, don’t get your britches twisted, we call ourselves the Cunt Cult and we’re a group of besties. At the core there’s four of us, there’s a fifth one, but she’s off living the real life. (She fell in love! SQUEEEE!) Kess, Tracy, Grace, and I have built a bond unlike that I’ve ever known before. We’re not a clique. We don’t go around doing the whole mean girls thing, dressing alike, following a leader. Although, if we did, Kess would be it…she’s bossy like that. *laughs* My point is…while some of us don’t have traditional families in real life or even partake in family groups on the grid, we have each other. We have that bond between friends that is as strong, if not stronger, than any family ties I’ve ever known. For that, I am grateful.
I have so many circles of wonderful friends inworld that I am so grateful for and I love them each dearly. Though we may not speak every day and some not even every week, we are there for one another when it counts. I’m also grateful for my fur babies in real life, because they are just as much a part of my family as my mother or my husband. Even though they can’t make me coffee in the morning.
So, whatever kind of family ties you have, hold them close, hold them dear to you heart, and don’t wait for some “holiday” to celebrate them. Tell them today that you love them, because none of us are guaranteed a tomorrow.

family

wearing: 
hair
:  Lamb. Home (June Luxe Box)
headCATWA HEAD Kathy
skin: Glam Affair – Polly – Catwa Mesh Head Applier – Jamaica (*new* @ Arcade)
bodyMaitreya Mesh Body – Lara
UC_Jane_Fringe_mini_dress_slate (*new* @ Kustom9)
#EMPIRE – Wandflower (June VIP Group Gift)

pose by Double Take
location: The Mill